> Addicted to shemale porn.
> Fat, but still crossdressing.
> Porn has given me gender issues.
> Jerking off on omegle.
> Chatting wild older guys online.
> Piss porn fetish.
> Dick can't get hard to girls.
> Not even 11/10 girls.
What the fuck has my childhood and porn done to me.
>>25460028
Start liftting.
>>25460041
I've been lifting senpai. Hit 270 bench, 700 leg press etc. At one point I was 275 pounds at 6'3. It didn't change shit;-;
>>25460055
I dunno try cardio maybe?
You hit the gym or homegym?
Might be able to find yourself some normie mentors.
A mixture of low-confidence, poor self-esteem and sexual doubts are the perfect mix for psychological problems.
My theory is that you're not really into gay/bi stuff, but the freedom of the other gender doesn't need for you to be masculine or successful. You don't need to have the pressure of fucking a women, when you can rely on submissive traits to feel pleasure.
Healthy bi/gay people at least are confident and have a good sexual relationship with themselves. You're just giving up on life and in your gender. Of course being a male is fucking hard.
Stop fapping, stop browsing 4chan, eat healthy, go to the gym, once a week you can masturbate using only your imagination, but ONLY after a 1 month period of cutting all extreme porn.
After that, you'll naturally seek hot, beautiful women and won't need to see a dick in the scene to make you cum.
Don't give up on life, don't give up on yourself. There's still time. Lift, eat, read, walk, run, get out of this place. Save money and set a date to fuck a hooker.
You'll feel so much better.
>>25460083
I hit the gym, like, an actual gym. Mentor? I've had plenty shrinks and mentors. It didn't go diddly squat.
>>25460028
stop porn at once, mastrubation is okay but use only your imagination also an understanding and sexy gf could be of great help. I was in similiar situation as you op though my problem was because of steriods.
Stay away from anapolon and always add testosterone kids because recovery is painful af.
>>25460116
That shit could never happen. I work too damn hard and when I get home it's one of my only joys besides eating. I've tried healthy food, cardio, regular porn etc. I felt so fucking empty. It felt great at first, but I would throw regular fits, have anxiety attacks and cry regularly. These shitty habits keep me at bay, so to speak.
>>25460160
My imagination has been nonexistant for 5 years.
> Chatting wild older guys online.
doing this right now, don't know why i'm so into it god damn help me
>>25460191
Degeneracy is a powerful thing, anon. What's your poison?
>mfw this is my future
I can't help myself, I've already transitioned into being bi, or at least uncovered that side of myself. I was only into girls as a teen. I know for sure that it's because of porn, when I take breaks for a few days, I start to be disgusted by gay shit again. It's really complicated to understand. What saves me though is the fact that I was never into being a sissy or submissive, and would never want to get fucked up the ass. I am very close to getting a guy to suck my dick though, and I keep hesitating every time because I'm afraid I'll make a mistake that I'll regret later.
>>25460028
Start meditating and do nofap. I was in the exact same position my man, except for the fat part.
What I realized through my meditation was that I was not truly transexual, because the only time I would want to be a girl was when I was horny. All I had done was conditioning my sexual arousal to the thought/idea of being a girl, and therefore all that could get me hard was those degenerate thoughts.
>>25460782
Forgot to say, that now simply the thought of cuddling with a girl gets me diamonds. Before I could not even get hard looking at a 11/10 just like you now.
>>25460028
Don't see the issues really I can fap to trap porn but still get rock hard at females and regular porn
>tfw bbc cuck fetish
>tfw keeping thinking about wanting to eat creampies (maybe by black men)
>>25461132
What about bbc sissy fetish?
>>25461254
Yes.
>tfw have sucked black dick more than once
>tfw want a strong (black) male to overpower me
is it still possible to fix my fetishes?
>>25461310
I honestly don't know, anon. Wanna tell?it kinda turns me ona lot
>>25460116
Wow, well written comments and no faggots dumping anime girl reaction images? Is it really r9k?
>>25461338
Well, I don't want to talk about it too much because I'll get turned on and break my nofap2016.
What part do you want to know about?
I've not really done anything to exciting desu, it was just a normal gay relationship with me being bottom and him top.
Lasted for like a year and probably the best time of my life ;_;
>>25461481
So you're actually gay...
>>25461552
You could see that in >>25461310 already and if you're turned on by that you're gay bro.
I'm bi though
ITT: Self-hate and the literal inability to be yourself, despite not having an alternative.
bump desu senpai
I want to hear my anon's talking about their disgusting fetishes
There needs to be a Fetish general or some shit
>33
>have become disillusioned with womyn
>all deez eager twinks who want their buttholes pounded
Is this paradize?
>>25462110
This is one.
>>25462158
show dick senpai
just quit jacking/watching porn op. your brain has gotten conditioned to love jacking it to that shit and expects it now. if you quit for a while you will feel like hell but eventually be able to kick that shit to the curb
>>25462221
I can't. It keeps me at bay.
I thought more people on here would have weird fetishes...
Am I really that weird?
I think porn is fucking unhealthy for people with some psychological problem the same like pointless gore and snuff things
>>25462173
what about non degenerate fetishes?
>>25460028
Let me guess....raised by a single mother?
>>25462158
>tfw all I ever want is to have a guy disillusioned with women take out his sexual frustrations on me and use me as a fucktoy whenever he wants, while not caring about my pleasure or dignity at all
>>25462564
Post all you want senpai
>Giving Wedgies/underwear such as tighty whities briefs, granny panty briefs, but the Underwear has to be fruit of the looms or Hanes store brands
>>25462632
Nope. Raised by parents who beat my ass for even saying the word 'sex'. When I was 12 I found their porn collection, shemale mags, dildos, buttplugs etc. I also noticed, that my dad used to look through the keyhole of my door when I was "sleeping". One time, he took me out for what I thought was a ride to the beach. He stopped at a sex shop and came out with a big bag. My classmate also told me, that my dad used to sleep with his coworkers (his uncle was my dad's boss) So, that left me scarred for life.
>>25462784
The fuck... I'm so sorry you went through that anon. You're father is the degenerate, not you. You can still change and be a better man than he ever was. Like the other posters said, your fetishes are the result of too much porn use. Stop using porn (and get off 4chan while your at it. Too much shemale posting here).
>>25463148
I've given up trying anon. I'm just trying to make it through day by day. Working kills half of me. Porn, junk food etc. keeps the rest of me alive.
>>25460028
Don't panic, your fetishes come from fapping too much.
The brief idea is that when you fap your dopamine receptors weaken as you constantly spam them with it, and to feel any buzz from porn, you have to go to more extreme, anxiety-inducing porn, especially when it's taboo by either yourself or society. If you stimulate your dopamine less then 1) the neurons that make you aroused to degenerate porn will weaken and 2) your dopamine receptors will regenerate, giving you a massive libido for softcore.
Full story: yourbrainonporn.com
Also leddit's /r/nofap
I had the same problem- BBC porn and unable to fap to normal girls- but now that I've done nofap for a few weeks my libido has certainly improved and I find it a bit easier to get off at softcore.
>>25462784
B8/10
Le original comment xxDDD
>>25463476
>you are now aware that if you had sex with your wife in the missionary position regularly it would have the same effect
Nice pseudoscience, cryptochristfaggot.
>>25463494
Not fucking b8. I experienced even worse growing up. My whole family consists of sexual degenerates, deviants and fetishist in denial.
>>25463518
Do you think couples don't get bored of each other?
Anyway, in the real world, you don't have sex that often. At first, you have it on average every night, and that's a managable frequency for your brain, and as you grow older you have it less and less especially when you have kids etc.
Anyway, it has been proven that over time it becomes harder and harder to orgasm to the same woman. SAME woman. When you watch porn, you go through dozens a week. Now you see the difference it makes to your brain's arousal system?
>>25461693
What the fuck does this even mean and how does it relate to this thread
>>25460028
I was raped and used by my fagot sitter from when I was 5 and he was around 18 for around 5 years. I repressed all of it till I was around 19 when watching too much porn, getting really into 4chan and flashbacks of getting fucked all happened together. Flashbacks started giving me messed up arousals and then I started feeling fucking submissive and now I want it to happen to me again. I'm not attracted to men generally. I like women, so I think my fantasy with reliving it and liking towards women also makes me like shemale on male porn too. Really messed up in the head right now and don't know wtf to do.
>>25464311
I'm so sorry to hear about what happened to you, anon. I'm kinda in the same boat, although you've been through worse than I have, by far. I am unable to offer you any advice, really, since I am fucking confused and a trainwreck myself.
>tfw all these people with fucked up childhoods ending up with these fetishes
>tfw never molested or had repressive parents but still a massive degenerate
>>25460028
it's posts like these that make me think i actually fapped myself into a state of dysphoria.
But then i remember i was cross-dressing before i even knew what porn was.
>>25460160
imagination is much worse than porn though
it's more extreme
>>25466791
Same here. Had barbie dolls etc. Makes me think that maybe I'm trans.
>>25467541
>that feeling when you were a kid, parents leave house for an hour or two and you can finally play girly video games
>ITT faggots don't realize they're faggots
Guys nothing wrong with being gay.
Don't try to no-fap the gay away
>>25467649
> And dress in your sister's clothing.
>>25468032
>tfw no sister, only step-sister
>comes to my parents's place once to stay overnight
>goes to shower but leaves her clothes to change into outside
>here_i_come.exe
She never found out i came all over her panties since i was a kid it dried really fast. I wished ever since then i had a sister, would allow me to cross-dress sooner (both sexually and not), realize i'm trans sooner and start hormones before puberty...maybe i would have a different tripcode right now.
>>25468160
> Tfw put on my sister's thong (took it from the laundry basket), sat in the bathtub, pulled them aside, fingered myself and managed to reach my prostate. I came so hard with them on - and it was a hands free orgasm. I sat in the bathtub til I had to piss and I wet them as well. Washed them afterwards, snuck them out, took them outside, dumped them in the dumpster and never mentioned it.
Anyway: I'm 24, soon to be 25 - be happy you're not me. I've gotten fat due to a bad eating habit (depression) and I have an extremely hard time losing weight due to antipsychotics. Other than that; I have broader shoulders than 70% of all men, size 14 feet, 10 inch hands and a brick jaw. I come from a religious family and all in all, I'd be pretty fucked if I decided to transition.
>>25468416
i'm barely better than you, i could never pass and i'm taking hormones for two months already
>>25468577
We're in the same boat then. How lovely to have met someone who's just as fucked as oneself.
>>25460116
>Don't give up on life, don't give up on yourself. There's still time.
Thanks Anon.
Not him, but you've encouraged me to do better
>>25460028
>Childhood and porn
Homosexuality is a predisposition. You're probably just gay and in denial. No shame, bro.
As for the piss porn, it isn't that strange. It's just taboo.
>>25468967
Well, I did jerk off with friends a ton of times during my early teens, so who knows.
See, most of my fetishes are pretty degenerate, but I'm actually fairly vanilla when it comes to sex. I mean, I'm down for whatever, but it really doesn't take much to get me going if you know what I mean.
Some sexual stuff is best kept to yourself. Sure, you should totally try living out your fantasies if given the chance (assuming that your fantasies are legal and performed by consenting adults) but you should seriously ask yourself which of your fantasies are worth living out, because some things are better off in our imaginations. Follow your dreams but don't follow of all of them. One of my friends wanted to be a jellyfish when he grew up, he didn't follow that dream, nor should he have.
>>25460028
>tfw always try to find my way back into light
>end up cutting hair, shave, dress properly
>try to smile much more, act more social
>refuse to drink or smoke
>excercise
>read and draw in free time between studying
>it takes one particulary bad day
>I fucking lose my shit every time
>stuff face with some greasy food
>drink half a bottle of rum
>smoke a pack of cigarettes
>spend whole day lurking 4chan, playing some time-sinks and fapping to some insect impregnation hentais all day
>fall asleep surrounded by jizz-tissues while crying like a bitch and listening to sad music
I really feel you anon, it is also not even about >tfw no gf for me anymore, its some fucking nightmare. I try to go full paladin every now and again, but always end up fallung to new levels of degeneracy.
Maybe its who we are.
>>25470225
I know that feel, anon. At one point - at the end of the summer break - I tried to man up before going back to work. This included buying new clothes, shaving, trimming hair and meditating to get ready. I set a goal to be more social, outgoing and to do more class teaching instead of students working individually (High school teacher) It took 4 days - fucking 4 days - before I broke down. I couldn't hold a facade like that. I broke down, called in sick, called my psych. and cried for hours on the phone. I jerked off 20 times, spent all my money, got drunk, ate a fuck ton and didn't sleep for 2 days. I was in a mixed state of mania and depression. I was hospitalized and was sick from work for a month. When I returned to work I decided to just do one thing; survive. Now I go to work, come home, watch Tv, order takeout, jerk off and sleep anywhere between 3 and 5 hours. I tried everything to make my life better. Meditation, nofap, diets, gyms and what not. I've lost all interests I had; music, graphics, drawing, photography, classic films and what not. Maybe it's just first world problems, I mean, what the fuck do I know. It sucks anyway.b
