I've thought about it for a while and I can't keep on making excuses for myself anymore. No more 'it's just my shit genetics', no more 'women are all evil cunts', I've realised it's all my fault and I'm never going to have love. I'm a horrible, mean person who's just too much of a pussy to end it all.
Pic related, it's something that won't ever happen to me
>>24744308
great blogpost, i feel the same way
I don't think that love is something to deserve per se, but I can see the line of reasoning where you really don't see a reason why you should have a relationship over the like 80% of people who are much nicer/hard working/reliable than you were were.
>>24744308
Your post comes off to me as a plea or a desire to change your circumstances. By exposing yourself online, even if it's just a little, maybe pixie dreamed girl desu will save you from you misery. The chances aren't impossible but I wouldn't bank on that chance. What's good is you can identify the problem but I disagree with your victimized conclusion to it. You feel you can't change, but it's more accurate to say you either don't want to or are too used to the status quo to change. So git gud faget hat and find things more fun than love. Having to go through waves of roastie whore special snowflakes for the 1% chance of finding dreamed girl is not worth the effort. It's not that you don't deserve love, it's that love is too annoying to pursue. So stop being a tumblrfig and buy an anime girl hug pillow to do pic related.
>t>>24744537
What is it if not something to be earned? So many people on here have the mindset tha the perfect girl should just fall into their lives without ever having to leave home
>>24744308
>I've realised it's all my fault
In what way?
>>24744308
everyone is a disgusting being.
if a guy like chad can get a girl, so can you.
everyone is in reach of love, they just think too less of themselves
>>24744845
Well, when I am talking about relationship in general, I mean one that is based off feeling of love and love is something that should be a feeling between people that is not natural/unforced and arises spontaniously. You cannot really build to it/force it. It either is or not. You can rightfully say that you can build yourself to be successful/nice person/trying to have rock body/anything, but that's merely secondary to the feelings/relationship and it influences them indirectly, that's why I'd say that it's just something you deserve/nor work for. It's just something that either happenes or not depending upon factors. You cannot just make someone fall in love with you, you can just at best try to increase your attractiveness.
>No more 'it's just my shit genetics', no more 'women are all evil cunts', I've realised it's all my fault and I'm never going to have love. I'm a horrible, mean person who's just too much of a pussy to end it all.
One delusion substituted for another.
>>24744845
But it is something to be earned. You either have the necessary assets and qualifications to be worthy of a woman's 'love' or you don't.
>>24744308
Good OP first step to letting it go. First when you've given up you can start to live.
I'm incapable of trust, and that's one the fundamental requirements for love
>>24744925
This is completely wrong, some people are objectively better than others
>>24745227
>objectively
No, they are superior by some measure of a certain ability. Granted that people are not objects, but rather subjects (really they are both) and granted that evolutionary theory is established, your statement is profoundly religious.
>>24744308
Maybe it's time to become a monk. Go to a monastery somewhere and leave all these earthly things behind.
>>24744969
But the whole point is that without that initial jump in attractiveness, a below guy won't even show up on a girl's radar. You could have an ugly guy who had an excellent personality but he would hardly get any attention because that initial spark of attraction that makes him catch a girl's eye isn't there. You could have already passed by your ideal match and been completed ignored by her because at first glance, you didn't fit her criteria for attractiveness.
>>24744308
>26 kv reporting
That is essentially how I feel. Once you accept that, it will feel better. Not good, but better. I accepted the fact that I'm a shitty person who is incapable of loving myself years ago. I don't hate people, society maybe, but people are just people going about their lives. Why should I bother bringing down their lives. If they want to talk to me, that's their choice and I will accept that. If they want to love me, that is also their choice and I will accept that, but I will not go out of my way to make them. I'm beyond that. Eventually, people will stop caring and you can fade away forever.
Hate yourself enough to let go of pride
It takes super human mind strength to do that, but literally every problem in your life can be equated with treating yourself too seriously/ too importantly
>>24745428
It's time to go to a rock concert.
>>24744823
>it's more accurate to say you either don't want to or are too used to the status quo to change.
But don't you see? That just proves it is his fault.
normies have not grabbed ahold of any concept(s) more meaningful anon you are certainly blessed to be punished, ostensibly... Society is profoundly sick and from it's selected actors 'The Cremation Of Care" is demanded.
sometimes feel like i dont belong in this world
which fills me with huge amounts of resentment for it, and want to destroy it.
you better hope to your god i dont aquire any super power of any kind
>>24744308
After years of blaming everyone else, constantly, my entire twenties have passed by and I'm an extremely depressed, bitter person.
And it really is all my own fault. Every single opportunity I ever had to try and get myself out of this mess I chickened out of, and dove deeper into fantasy. But eventually that stops working (the closer you get to 30 or so) and by then you have no more chances because everyone sees that you're a horrible person and won't give you one.
I don't mean just girls, I mean everything in general. And I blame myself for being a coward and not dealing with things. It's always easier to occupy your mind with video games / anime / porn than actually try and live life.
>>24744862
He said hes too mean
I accepted this when I was like 16. I've barely spoken to women in my life (23 now) despite being around them. I've never felt like I have anything in common with them or that I have any desirable traits they like. It feels like I have nothing to say to them, and they certainty have nothing to say to me either. Making a woman love me is an impossible concept for me to grasp
>>24744308
you are all idiots.
>>24746143
Same feel senpai
>>24746273
amazing insight
>>24744308
>implying love is nothing but the mental disease of the mind
women will never love you the same way you love her. Her love for you is utility based. all women are gold-diggers because they expect a man to have a job but that has never stop a man from loving a women.
>deserve
what does this word even mean
>>24744308
time to an hero op, take a few normies while you are at it
>>24746327
Love is something that needs to be earned
>>24746443
What makes you believe that
Deserving something doesn't mean you'll get it. Just because you don't deserve it doesn't mean you won't get it. Realistically though non of us will every get it. Ever.
