>tfw you are a 20 year old khhv
>tfw you have no friends
>even your parents don't respect you and despise you
>you don't even have a passion to put your mind into
>out of every possibility you ended up like this
>in high school you thought you were different and normalfags were unconscious ignorant brats
>tfw you finally realize your huge mistake
>it's too late because you didn't adapt on time
>you are on the verge of extinction and the world is run by themand the only place you could express yourself is now full of them
>>24697800
Keep going, I'd like to see the inner workings of you mind. I have just turned 20 I empathize
You left out:
>be so new and omega that you actually believed the poorly forced maymay that r9k was a hugbox for your kind.
>>24697877
Well, since I never really experienced anything of the teenage years, I'm probably still a child inside (I don't play video games,or have that kind of autistic behavior though). I didn't manage to adapt to the "corporate, real world" , and I still delude myself on the perception of life as a "good,just ,experience". Never had a girlfriend, I used to talk to girls, but they never were really interested in me. Thinking that I believed I stood a chance makes me sick. I didn't turn into a bitter aggressive person, but frustration and feels do come along. What's your life? Career? Friends? Family?
Is there a way to get out of this misery, or is it an inner inescapable condition?my most recurrent feel is that I think I was always like this, even as a child
>>24697898
Never believed that, I never expected any advice or kindness from this place, and /r9k/ was always shitty. But it had it's magic you know.
>>24698034
At the basic level, I am the typical robot. Never had friends, sometimes kids lingered trying to talk to me but I can't be social like them so they left as quickly. Same with girls, I always felt like I was undeserving of them, plainly not believing of it. Everyday of school was hiding away, looking away. Now I'm repairing myself, my body and mind firstly. I am grateful for my parents, over anything in this world
>you thought you were different
You, we, are different anon, not saying that we're better or worse just different
The best course of action is to kill yourself.
>>24698034
Oh yeah also, I know I was like this as a kid. My mom recently told me how in kindergarten she had to attend a meeting with the teachers, they told her how I was always away from the other kids and never played with them. I don't know why, but I'd of do remember those days, sitting away from them. I have embraced it, and am coming to peace with myself.
So then why don't you just off yourself? Not trying to sound like a major dick, but seriously, if you're this miserable and you believe the world has shat you a bad hand, then just put a bullet in your head already. Clearly you've already given up by the sounds of it, why drag other people down that have learned to cope with your negativity?
>>24699048
Apparently they wanted to send me to a doctor for it, but I'm happy my mom didn't do it. Even if I had become chad and wasn't bullied, beat down, isolated, depressed, anxious, become suicidal, and developed a killing spree idealation(and more). I am proud to have experienced such things normies couldn't dream of going through, my soul is empowered.
