Bipolar
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Is anyone else here bipolar? I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 a little over a year ago, thought it was complete bull shit and refused to believe it. I never went back for treatment. Looking back over the last year though its pretty hard to deny it. What do I do?
I get weird mood swings, sometimes I'll be sitting around at work minding my own business and within the space of ten minutes I'll get really fucking down and think about how much I hate myself and everything around me for a few hours. Usually balances out again after that. Or I'll spend hours trying to get to sleep with my thoughts racing and constantly fidgeting and rolling around. I tend to say and do stupid stuff and get more boisterous in that mindset, too.
So, maybe. Maybe not. Never seen anybody about it because too scared
There are some other problems too but that's the one that has the most impact on life
What symptoms do you have for it?
I'm an art major, I went from getting up at 5 in the morning and putting in over 12 hours a day in the studio, kicked out this 8 by 10 foot drawing in a week, kicked out another 7 by 4 foot drawing in a day, a bunch of other stuff very realistically drawn. Literally thought I was the next picasso, thought I was going to make the next art movement. Was getting lots of good feedback from professors etc also. Extreme confidence, kicking ass. Professors were loving it.
Then everything blew up out of know where, 6 days where I haven't made any work, I'm going to sleep at 3-5 in the morning and waking up at noon. For the first few days I was very high energy and depressed at the same time, was very hostile to my professors for a couple days. Now my mind is like scrambled eggs, no creativity at all. Just sitting around in my room drinking. Feel like I'm going insane a little. My confidence went from extreme to literally nothing, I think all my stuff is garbage right now.
How big of a deal is bipolar, how worried should I be?
I think I am, switch from hours of feeling good, outgoing actually talking to people, to hours of feels, thinking how I wasted this day because I didn't studied more, eaten more, read more, and avoid talking to people
I don't remember a day when I was one of them
When I make plans at some point in the day to go out to a club, I'm confronted by the "awful mindset" near the time I should go, so its hard to choose at that point
