/r9k/ I need your help. I don't have any friends, you guys are only friends so I have no one else to talk to about this or give me advice:
I'm at a very pivotal point in my life and don't know what to do. Basically I'm in my fifth year of college and nowhere near graduation after having some bad semesters. My mom wants me to graduate but I'm tired of college and don't think I can do it. I feel like I am handicapped compared to the average normie. I need at least 10 hours of sleep a night and if I can't get it I feel extremely tired and can't think about anything besides sleep. I will make up that sleep by napping or sleeping even more until I make it up. I also have social phobia and social anxiety. It's so bad I have an uncontrollable tic that physically prevents me from speaking that I can't get rid of. I feel unmotivated and have trouble completing school work or studying because I procrastinate it and can't focus even when I force myself or have a test in front of me to complete. I haven't had one friendship stick from college or had a single gf let alone a girl I could orbit. I just don't think I have what it takes to finish college.
Am I just doomed to misery and being a loser? What options do I have and which one I should go for I don't know. I just want a normal life but right now it looks like I'm tumbling down the path that leads to a live like eggman of becoming an irrelevant loser who works as a gas station employee that isn't famous like eggman.
>>24623966
I think by having love eggs attached on your penis and a couple more in your butts, you can overcome it.
No kidding, I used to be very anxious when doing anything in public, especially talking. You know those self-evaluation you have to fill in school but that nobody actually cares about? Well, it is like a self-evaluation, but pushed to extreme, scrutinizing every single detail of your speech, every bits of your gesture, and anything going against expectation feels like the end of world.
I know that feeling too well. But then, I started to conceal sex toys on me while in public. For some reason, it offers me a twisted sense of relief. The thought that I'm doing something that no other dares to do just by being in the public, and not actively doing anything, reassures me from my inadequacy, my internal struggle.
I started to push that feelings, I wanted more of that comfort, of no longer being afraid. So, gradually, it turned to love eggs tapped on my cock which is in turn taped to my left inner thigh, and one in my ass, just because it makes the orgasm better.
Now, I'm no longer afraid of the public. I feel more daring than most people on the street; I feel superior. You can try it too, if you want to.
I could give you a long answer, but the short answer boils down to finding a reason to work at it, push yourself, and keep going forward. Doesn't matter if the steps are infinitesimal or large. You need something that gives you reason to succeed and which you can count on when you want to quit.
For me, it's family. It's knowing my mom didn't go through hell for me to throw my life away. It's knowing my youngest brother needs me, because we both grew up with a shit absent father, and it would be absolute trash if he had to do it all essentially alone. I'm his source of income, but I'm also an emotional support here and there. If your motivation isn't other people, if you can't find the compassion to do it for someone else, then you need to learn how to do it for your own damn good. For me, it's a hybrid, others and myself. But others are most helpful if I get to feeling like you do, and i want to quit. I'm reminded that I can't. Don't give up.
>>24624297
Lol I know this is a joke but carrying a sex toy in public would make me even more paranoid.
>>24624360
It's not that I don't want to let my parents down I really don't know why I can't do schoolwork easily. Maybe it's because I hate myself and want to sabotage my life.
No one is ever doomed to misery.
If there is one thing i learned while converting to christianity is that everything has its place. The circle is perfect, and if its interrupted, it will find a way to make itself go to the natural form again.
Struggle to find force from deep within your soul, and accomplish your objectives. If you dont have one, find one, life is open to you.
And,also, dont have this "being-a-loser" complex. If you accomplish your dreams, no matter what these are, you will be a winner.
Anyway,good luck robot.
>>24624774
what if my dream is to reach orgasm by prostate stimulation only?
>Converting to Christianity
Dropped and stopped reading there.
>>24624828
gayyyy
But whatever,that is your life
>>24624893
I just want a better orgasm, a different kind of orgasm.
>>24624952
>Implying prostate orgasm is any better then the regular one
But why am i awnsering you anyway
>>24623966
Have you seen a doctor about your sleeping problem? My friend had similar problems until she consulted a doctor and discovered she has a food allergy.
>>24624884
As if i cared about you reading or not reading what i have written. Go back to reddit.
>>24625088
>As if i cared about you reading or not reading
Yet you spent that time replying to my post. Sure showed me you didn't care.
>>24625113
I dont care about you reading
Yet, i do care about you tipping your fedora here and there.
But lets just end this here, this is supposed to be a thread to help OP
>>24625200
You still took time out of your day to reply to someone you don't care about. So, good show.
However, for the sake of the OP, we shall disengage
I've dealt with similar things, OP.
First off, no matter what - make sure you complete your degree. Even if you end up spending 10 years out of the workforce dealing with your issues, that piece of paper is going to be worth something.
Second, how often do you fap to porn? What's your diet like? How often do you exercise?
In my experience, when I started noporn/nofap, after about a week or two my sleep actually starts to 'restore' me, I'm better able to go to sleep in the first place and I actually wake rested - I also have significantly better concentration and ability to focus and read, no foggy head.
I used to have major social anxiety, and the best thing for this is nofap, exercise, and no sugar. The exercise will pump endorphins through you so you'll be more relaxed and natural, and your muscles won't have the 'potential energy' (this is pseudo-science language I'm using here, but it's how I understand my own body) to 'tick' as much the moment you're self-conscious (in fact you'll be less self-conscious in general, in a good way).
>I'm tired of college and don't think I can do it
Nope. Stop thinking like that. Only 1 in 100 kids born in the world has a realistic shot at college. Your "feels" do not exempt you from that opportunity. Don't squander it. Go see a shrink. Do whatever you have to. But don't throw yourself off the social ladder. You're never going to have mom and dad there to pay for it again. Do it now, when it's easier.
>>24625409
>how often do you fap to porn?
Every couple of days or so
>What's your diet like?
Eh normal meats, veggies, carbs. I've cut milk out of my life because I found out I was lactose intolerant.
>How often do you exercise?
I have a bench, barbell, and weights that I use so I don't have to go to the gym to deal with normies. Once I tried using a barbell and this person was bothering me telling me I was doing it wrong and that I should just leave.
I've tried doing nofap and the urge to is too strong I think I'm addicted.
>>24625503
I know I have the opportunity but I just don't have the "equipment." I want to see a psychiatrist so I can maybe get some adderall and deal with my depression and anxiety.
>>24625716
>I think I'm addicted
Addiction. This is something that will cause a shit load of problems. Realise that you are aware of this addiction now and perhaps change the pattern. I am going through this as well.
Although I am also overcoming drug addiction, as well as having nothing productive to do with myself, it's pretty fucked.
How old are you?
>>24623966
Power through it and finish your degree. With dat white collar job, you can laugh at all the Chads as you sign their paychecks, and their gfs when they start kissing your ass because of your newfound status as a winner of bread.
