Who /lowselfesteem/ here?
>>24590044
> Sabotages a lot of friendships cause feel I don't deserve them
> Rejects girl I like cause "you can do way better than me.
> Barely speaks anymore out of fear I'll take spotlight from others
> Nearly punched some girl for getting too feelsy at a party
> No effort in appearance cause who cares, won't make a difference.
> Bisexual but still afraid of other guys since bullying as a kid caused the self esteem problem
> Often asks for as little as possible at birthdays or Christmas cause not worth the money
And none of this in a "Look at me I'm so humble XDDD," I genuinely hate being this way but can't do shit about it.
>>24590257
I can understand and relate to all of these except
>nearly punched some girl for getting too feelsy at a party.
Wouldn't getting exploited be fine if you don't think you matter anyway?
my self-esteem goes from decent to healthy to absolute "i'm the scum of the earth" tier
sometimes i think i have bpd
>Apologize way too much because I don't want to be an asshole
>Never ask for anything and hate myself for talking to my friends about feelings because I don't want to be a burden
>Try as hard as I can to be outgoing and generous because if I don't I feel like a horrible person
>Apologize for things I can't help
>Apologize for things I've done to help people out
>Never take food from somebody even if they say I can have it
>Constantly feel like I'm being judged for everything I do
>Feel guilt for things I didn't do
>Apologize for things I didn't do
Who else /OverApolagetic/?I'm sorry ;_;
>tfw it's impossible for you to believe you're anything more than a pile of fresh feces no matter how hard you try
>>24593256
>Feel guilt for things I didn't do
I know a lot of these feels but I didn't think I'd find someone else who experiences this.
>>24590257
Fucking normalfag
>going to parties
>having people wanting to be your friends
>having girls wanting your dick
>people give him gifts and acknowledge his birthday
Go back to facebook
my self esteem fluctuates too fucking much for me to handle
I suspect sometimes when I get blackout drunk my self loathing gets to the point where I try to irreparably damage my life on purpose
>tfw two decades and then some with no relationship because I'm horrified of being intimate with someone and then being rejected on such a personal level
>tfw really bad at reciprocating closeness with my best friends because of the above
>tfw whenever a female friend is affectionate or kind to me I start to fall for her and simultaneously begin to hate myself for thinking that she actually values me as much as I'm imagining
I'm trying nofap for the 6th time to see if I can get a handle on it. Every other time I ended up stopping because I started thinking it was just broscience and it was all in my head but each and everytime I end up falling in to a slump and spending a solitary weekend drinking and jacking off to JAV and feeling even worse about myself
I suppose seeing a therapist would be a more legit method but I don't want to burden someone else
>>24593256
i feel sorry that im just a boring shit that doesnt have anything interesting to say and i want to talk non stop with one person, but i just cant
my life is boring, i cant do anything good and i dont even want to do anything anymorei just want to sleep forever
>ugly as shit as a kid
>even uglier as an adult
Gee, I wonder why I'm depressed, have low self esteem, and wish I was dead.
>self-esteem so low you act really shy and awkward
>people don't want anything to do with you because of it
>self-esteem goes even lower
>>24593408
i'm this >>24592134
guy, not him, but my mom said she experienced stuff like that when she was younger too. it really sucks because i am fucked up in some ways, and it doesn't help the false guilt.
>>24593623
An hero my friend
>>24590044
It's the exact reason I've never been in a relationship or never asked a girl out in high school.
> "What could anyone possibly see in me?"
> "Who would want to be with an ugly loser with Asperger's?"
>>24593954
Probably another ugly loser with asperger's. Keep looking
>>24590044
I recently realized I'm a complete and utter failure.
>low self-esteem in social life
>it infects the rest of your life till you don't think you can do anything
I once tried to ski. I literally ended up just walking down because I was afraid of going off the cliff. Then, in my dream last night, it was the same fucking thing. I can't even imagine I have confidence in dreams!
>>24594111
That is kind of cute.
>>24593992
That reminds me. I know this fat chick who literally does have Asperger's and she has managed to get laid before.
I have a great self esteem.
Like, im pretty much invincible. Maybe im not the cutest or the smartest or the strongets but i love myself anyways.
So cheer up, people. Be more like me.
:^) back to crying on the corner
>Try to make friends online
>Think I'm screwing something up
>Apologize
>Read into everything
>Stop responding to them eventually
>Try to improve myself and fail every time
>Feel like the few people who do like me are just doing it to avoid hurting my feelings
Well except for one person, but I don't even feel comfortable around my family.
>>24594357
Ktf
If you take up drinking it'll help.
>>24594357
>Try to make friends online
>Think I'm screwing something up
>Apologize
>Worry if I'm being annoying so ask regularly
>Become annoying by doing that so much, they delete me
>>24594387
Drinking makes me feel sick and doesn't help me lose weight.
I smoke weed but that doesn't really help me feel better either.
>>24594411
I know that feel.
>>24594357
I'm like this too. M-maybe we could be friendsor just hug
>>24594387
I'm doing this now!
>>24594411
Man, this. My desire is to make online friend(s) but I just can't. The few times I did, I thought I was being annoying to them so I just gave up. Now I don't even bother anymore.
I just don't get why I can't be content with who I am, I always have to find a flaw with myself.
>>24590257
>> Often asks for as little as possible at birthdays or Christmas cause not worth the money
I hate it so much when my mom does this
>"Hey anon, what do you want for christmas/your birthday? You wanna go out somewhere? Don't be shy ;)"
It's nice to ask, but it gets annoying when you know the answer and you're pressuring me to answer oppositely.
I lelled at some other thread. Someone posted, and then without any response, apologized at how their comment could be considered rude.
I'm low self-esteem to the max, but there's a point where you're in "constantly being stupid for things you don't do because you're assuming everyone is as dumb as you"
>>24594609
I have a good amount of online friends but speak to very few of them because I can't help but feel I'm being a bother/annoying.I'll be your friend since we're in a similar boat
>>24594818
Happens the same to me, haven't spoke to them in months, I just don't know what to say or what to talk about.
>wish I had friends
>I find every single person annoying, boring and not worth it
>>24594867
>>24594818
>had bunch of skype contacts
>deleted them after not talking for months and months
>3 left
>somehow ended up getting a girlfriend beginning of highschool
>i didn't really try to do anything, she just liked me for some reason, no one else has ever displayed any interest
>she takes all the initiative, is very touchy-feely (which i hated) and calls me her boyfriend
>i see her in class and go to her water polo games to cheer her on
>she texts me one night saying that she likes me
>i reply me too, etc.
>like three weeks pass and she starts to imply she wants to fuck
>we both are virgins
>start to avoid her more and more
>finally just text her that i don't find her attractive or something and say we can still be friends
What the fuck is wrong with me. There goes my last chance I guess.
>mfw born to be alone no matter what
>>24594818
>I'll be your friend since we're in a similar boat
Thanks friend but I am too insecure to make friends. There are just so many things I could fuck up.
>always go out of my way to help friends because maybe I'll feel better about myself being helpful
>the very idea of anyone doing anything for me makes my stomach turn but I usually let them help anyway while having a fake smile on.
>afterward I go home and contemplate how I'm a piece of shit.
>felt guilty when my friends threw me a surprise birthday party(how fucked is that? I felts guilty because of it!)
>>24595166
>>felt guilty when my friends threw me a surprise birthday party(how fucked is that? I felts guilty because of it!)
I believe I would feel the same way but I don't have any friends so I don't know ;_;
>>24590044
Me.
I just wish to die but the thought makes me incredibly sad.
>Someone does something nice for me, even if minor (e.g. sending me a download link)
>Feel like trash for making them go through the trouble
>Feel useless because I don't do the same thing
>tfw nobody responds to your post so you don't have an anonymous shoulder to cry on
>>24595484
Cry on mine.
>>24595523
I just don't want to let everyone down and convince them I'm a failure but it's so hard
>>24595553
Me too, anon. It's hard to meet everyone's expectations, but I know you're doing your best.
>bad at talking to people i don't know
>stutter and stumble over my words sometimes
>i do want to talk to people and start conversations but i'm always afraid they'll give me The Look if they hear me stutter/stumble
>friends are always complaining about how they have to talk to me first all the time
>some of my friends have left me because they think i'm being 'aloof' or some shit like that
>>24590044
>tfw low self esteem because i'm a subhuman who should end it all
m-maybe i could find a m-master then i'll be of worth
>>24595842
I'm also /severestutterthatdestroyedselfesteem/ here
sorry man, it's a fucked up hell. I wouldn't meet people that lived by me, who I talked online, because I didn't want them to think less of me when I stuttered.
>>24596073
Post a cute anime girl and we'll see.
>>24596297
>tfw no master who uses you as a body bag
>>24596318
I'll be your master. I won't use you as a body though because that's mean!
>>24596379
what im i worth for you then?
>>24596412A suck and a fuck
psst, daily reminder to kill yourselves
>>24596460pls tie me up and do anything you want, kick me, slap me, strangle me, gag me, just do whatever
>>24596659Only if you show me your dick
>>24596614
Thanks Tomoko, you should kill yourself too!
>>24596756
how about no, mister anon
>>24590044
>Stop breathing or breathe slowly or shallow when very close to someone cause Im afraid I'll bother them
>Always stand alone cause afraid I'll be a bother, annoyance or that I'll make a fool of myself
>Never ask for help or make questions cause afraid of being a burden despite being clumsy, confused, lost and careless
>Always do some agile moves not to brush against someone's shoulder not to be mean
>Usually wait or nod on the pedestrian crossing so the car goes first, then feel awkward when they wait for me to cross
>Always entered the class last, while the free time between lessons spend standing next to the wall so as not to take someone's place.
what the fuck am I doing anymore
as I think of it now the breathing thing in particular is really fucked up
like, I always control my breathing so none hears, just as despite wearing earphones I turn the music so quiet so none hears, or also I always do my best so as not to look or stare at someone, cause usually I stand still in one place almost motionless and just look into one spot like a statue, that is unless someone ends up standing in the spot Im looking at, so then I look somewhere else so I do not appear to stare at someone... what the fuck
this seems like social axniety but I highly dobut it due the sociable periods, not to mention im hell of a smooth and passionate talker, not to mention I usually have so much to say, or that I usually delve deep into the subjects, or get lost in them etc, and yet somehow im afraid that I'll be boring or that I won't know what to say, or that I'll get lost in toughts, just, I don't know
>>24597000
Give me a hug.
>>24597000
awww
you just need a bf to protect you desu
>>24597032
I'd gladly hug You for real.
But hope this imaginary huddle will do just fine.
No homo though, just nice and polite or what not.
Something wrong? If I may ask
>>24597063
As mentioned im not into men. The furthest chan influanced me was just made me a bit lean of a hetero.
Everyone
/thread
Seriously, there's absolutely no reason to come to r9k if you have good self esteem which can be associated with an overall good life. There's no reason to be here if you don't dislike or hate yourself, you will never properly empathize with other robots, you're just wasting your time and being a stupid normie.
>>24597063
>>24597132
Actaully, I might be just as well homophobic as racist. I understand being tolerant, but degeneracy makes me want to save up money for a flamethrower sometimes.
>>24597132
Nothing wrong. You just seem like you put a lot of effort into making sure people aren't inconvenienced by you so I want to make you feel good.Please date me
>>24597185
Fucking this. OP's question is fucking stupid.
I'm just a weak person, and I completely blame my childhood.
Males are not supposed to be raised just by a women. And when that woman is crazy and abusive towards you from a young age, you don't develop properly as a man. I'm not confident and I have no self-esteem. Normies with these things can claim their "earned" them, but they didn't.
>tfw did well in high school
>always thought school was the one thing I was good at
>get to college
>start off okay
>grades start falling more and more
>realize I actually suck at school
welp.
>>24597217
Why thank You kindly.
Well, if it makes You happy then let me tell You that You've succeded with making me feel good cause I feel charmed by the spoilered part. Hunh... I might consider getting to know You better I guess, if You'd like, that is.
Also writing this made me ralise another kind of humbli-sh thingy, being that whenever I write to someone and directly turn to them, like, simply said I capitalize "You, He, She, They" etc out of sheer respect, that is, when I do, cause then I write to mena people or alike I cease to do so. Being said that's kind of a refferance cause it's an actaul thing in my language haha, but I like it, one of the little things that make my writing just seem, mine.
Insanity.
So, what do You say?
does anybody else wear caps all the time to hide their faces and don't draw attention?
>>24597384
Do you have steam at all?
>>24597494
hope hoods count
>>24597525
Yes I do. Um..
http://steamcommunity.com/id/vvvemn
or just look up Vemn
whatever works.
I truly am hyped about this.
It's, like a beginning of a new and wonderous adventure, venturing into the unkown. Looking for sparks to ignite closure.
yesss
>>24597384
Shut up gaylord
>>24597619
I like your moth girl
>5'7 manlet
>Not even full 5 inch
>awkward
>look gay as fuck
Just tell me one reason to be alive
>have one really good online friend I've known for years
>he always wants to watch shows and play games together
>he has interesting stories to tell because he actually leaves his room
>feel like I'm repeating the same things over again because I have nothing interesting to say, or I don't know how to respond to him
>fear one day he'll realize how boring I really am and leave me forever
It hurts brehs.
>>24597881
glad to know
although it's kinda disturbing
that You might recognize her
>>24590044
My self esteem is usually trash
I cant even bring myself to look at the computer most days. I just stay in bed and watch netflix.
>>24598054
She's clearly a month
>>24598143
I dunno, honestly I might not have recognized at first if I were You.
Just as well she could be a very fluffy lady using lots of cosmetic powder.
>>24597525
Please come back, my apologies if I scared You.
>>24597965
>have one friend left
>it's been a few years since he's visited
>he has a high paying job
>everybody naturally likes him
>people look up to him and think he's great
>I'm an autistic jobless virgin loser with a stutter
>my friend visits me
>can't barely enjoy my friend visiting because I feel worthless in comparison
>not to mention years of isolation and depression have taken what little social skills I had
>hate myself even more for being a shitty friend
>all of this self-loathing and my friend doesn't even care or perhaps realize how much of a loser I am
try to get past your insecurity. if your friends seem to like you then stop worrying and enjoy it as much as you can.
>>24598284
You know what you're right anon. I should be happy I have at least one person that wants to hang around me and shares my interests instead of whining like a bitch. I won't be as negative about it anymore.
>>24597898
seems like not even one
>>24597898
robowaifus
>>24597525
Im sorry if I gave a bad impression or did something wrong.
I know I shouldn't write this but I'd like to apologise just in case.
gaaah my apologies if I should be more hesistant even about this post or regarding how much I write, or for the impatiance or worrying, I don't know
Try non existent.
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>>24593256
Jesus, are you me minus the outgoing part?
>>24598827
How big is your dick kind anon?
