>used to be in a deep relationship with grill
>we met on facebook discussing a picture and added eachother as friends
>shes really good to talk to and has the same oulooks on things as i
>start talking to her everyday
>happiest i'd ever felt in my life
>she lives far away but we message on FB and text eachother
>work is depressing and extremely unrewarding
>come home and talk on facebook and call sometimes
>the notification chime gets me really happy
>don't feel depressed anymore
>we talk for hours on end
>i end up getting an unlimited mobile plan
>after about 3 months of talking and messaging we decide to organise to see eachother.
>her place is a almost 2 hrs away
>drive there and arrive at her place
>no one is at home and she looks so much more flattering in person
>drink some wine, eat dinner at her place and watch movies for the rest of the night
>getting late and need to head back
>still a bit drunk
>ask if i can sleep on the couch for the night
>tells me i can share her bed
>don't have a change of clothes
>she lets me borrow her clothes as pajamas for the night
>take a shower at her place, and shampoo smells so nice
>her clothes smell really nice too.
>We lay in bed together talking about periods, penises and stuff that scared us as kids
>we both get tired and fall asleep
>i wake up and tell her i should probably head back to get ready for work
>still dressed in her pjs
>>29969799
>put on my shitty work clothes that smell like last nights meal and wine.
>really happy about life now
>keep talking heaps for like a month
>notice she isn't as "exited" talking to me as she used to be
>keep talking to her as i normally do
>asking if everything is alright
>ask if we want to meet up again
>gives a vague answer about it
>start getting worried and depressed
>ask if she wants to call
>doesn't respond
>start thinking about what i'd do if she didn't want to be with me anymore.
>keep checking my phone non-stop.
>been about 2 days, she usually responds in about 2 hrs usually less.
>finally responds, but texts me instead
>she asks if i want to call
>in the middle of work
>tell i'll call her in 2 minutes
>head to the toilet
>call her
>she picks up but doesn't say anything.
>i tell her i miss her and ask her is there is anything wrong
>i wait through 5 seconds of silence before i get a response
>in my head i imagined this unfold in the 2 days she didn't respond
>prepare myself
>she says that we should probably give eachother some space for now
>she doesn't want to talk about anything else and just says shes sorry
>it hits me so fucking hard even though i braced myself
>tell her okay
>hang up and cry like a bitch in the toilet
>get out after drying and washing my face
>co workers asked if i 'cried or something'
>start feeling really insecure about everything and laugh it off saying i had something stuck there
>go home after spending a hour in peak hour traffic
>lay on the couch and cry
>end up drinking till i vomit
>>29969823
>half a year later after working and trying to forget her existence
>i get a spam message and decide to delete all of them finally
>i end up looking at my inbox
>see her messages and tell myself not to look at them
>look at them anyway
>start getting memories
>start feeling seriously depressed
>want to die
>get drunk
>i end up going through her facebook
>nothing has changed
>look back at her old messages and photos
>i end up going through my old voicemail messages from her
>feel like i'm ready to just end it
>i go for a walk around my town drunk
>come back and tell myself i'll probably kill myself tonight
>i stand at my apartment verandah and start climbing the guard rail
>tears and shit streaming down my face
>i don't end up killing myself cause i was to scared of jumping
>look up methods like breathing helium
>don't want to go peacefully
>end up passing out
>wake up
>headache
>remember shit and get depressed
>call in sick
>end up going on a drive through a few states.
>got a text saying i'm fired in the middle of my trip
>probably cause i didn't respond to any of the messages and calls they sent me over the week
>i don't even care about anything anymore
Why live right now?
>>29969823
>lay
It's actually "lie". I hate that mistake.
You fell for the "be a nice sensitive guy" meme really bad, OP.
>invites you to her place
>is all alone
>you guys have drinks
>SHE INVITES YOU TO HER BED
>somehow this meant "talk about periods and penises" in your mind rather than "she's signaling me to fuck her brains out"
You deserve it you pussy faggot. Just remember that as you cry over your sweety messages and voicemails she's looking for someone to fill her with cum and make her mind go blank like she expected you to. Cuck.
get over it
she wanted you to fuck her btw
:( better luck next time anon. She definitely wanted the sex
>woman only want sex
>tfw you just want friends and someone to talk to whatever their gender is
Life is just unfair.
>>29970023
Thinking of just getting a dog. Nights hurt to much alone.
>>29969840
>>29969823
>>29969799
Jesus OP you're overreacting.
Just give her some fucking space and stop being so clingy. Ask her what's up and don't be dramatic about it. Probably something is going on in her life and she wants to deal with it herself.
It's true she should at least give you closure - be forthright in asking if she doesn't want to talk to you anymore. Also you need to tell her how you feel about her if you haven't already.
>>29970232
I wasn't clingy, I only responded when she did. I was never forceful in anyway about things. When she told me she wanted space I just left her to it and never bothered her again.
I don't even know what i did wrong. It just all fucking happened.
Do you think I could even bring myself to tell her how I feel about her after this long? Honestly I don't even fucking know.
