>went to my doctor who I've been going to for years
>tell them a few issues
>they are extremely sympathetic and say they'll get me some help
>say they believe I have high functioning autism depression and other symptoms
>send me to a (((neurologist)))
>takes me months to get everything set up
>first appointment he just says hi to me and asks me what I'm going to do in college
>I'm the full 9 yards robot barely go outside or speak, cognitive difficulties, can't understand others or connect, always anxious panicking and still need to work myself up for an hour just to make a phone call
>my semester grades despite studying went 180 nosedive and college is suffocating and horrible (but you guys get it) but I do want to go back just for something different so I don't fail again
>neurologist has me and parent do 3 fucking questionnaires like the ones that get posted on r9k for autism
>next appointment I get is some click test that you click on letters with a spacebar for 15 minutes
>next test is EEG
>today was final appointment
>doctor says EEG was perfect, difficulties on click test, and dificulties shown from the dumb questionnaires
>tells me I have mild ASD
>tells me not to go into liberal arts because I'm smart and I can't socialize so I'll fuck up there
>says he'll see in 3 months whether to give me drugs
>says I need therapy for my anxiety mood disorder ASD that I have
>says good luck
>feel like I've been told to just be myself
I'm going to look for a therapist or psychiatrist. I don't know. Is it just me? Any other robots got experience with this? I don't feel stable at all. I want to cry right now. I thought I would get a genuine answer but I didn't. My last hope is the therapy. Why a life so fucked, I'm not this way on purpose so what the fuck? Don't go into another field because I'm fucked up? Who says that. I wish I never existed what kind of limbo is this.
>falling for the psychology jew
maybe a depressive episode of type 2 bipolar with anxiety? i dunno. what you went through sounds routine and they are taking you for a ride. usually its just a single questionnaire, a talk with a general practitioner, and a prescription. i can say its rare to have a doctor that will help beyond giving out prescriptions and then trying to push therapy. if you get one like that, its up to you to say which drug works and which doesnt, and then deny therapy.
I also got memed by the Jew doctors.
>see a therapist for a year, tries to coach me through simple anxiety disorder
>doesn't really work, see a different psychologist for a few months
>it's going okay
>suddenly mom thinks I'm autistic because her mid-day housewife talk shows had a special on autistic sons
>makes me see an autism specialist
>surprise, the autism specialist thinks I'm autistic
>the other two psychologists disagree
>that doesn't matter for some reason
>now I'm forever an autist
>can't even get any autismbux
>fucking jews
Your mind is significantly more systemic than social. His advice of changing majors may or may not be a good suggestion based on other aspects of how you think and learn. I for one am a visual thinker so in order to understand mathematics more easily I must find ways to visualize most problems. depression can be caused by a plethora of different variables. Therapy wont hurt if you get a decent therapist. However if you wish to improve your psychological health and improve your understanding of yourself I suggest experimenting with psychedelics in a safe and controlled environment. Before I was given a prescription by my neurologist I used moderated doses of sativa dominant cannabis to alleviate most of my symptoms. for you i would suggest using a sativa/indica hybrid strain like blue dream since you also have anxiety. Also be sure that you have proper nutrition. take a b group super complex vitamin avoid sugar like the plague identify any subtle allergies stay fit etc... Systemic thinkers are a minority in a world full of mostly thoughtless socialites with little grasp of detail and logic.This makes our lives more difficult but if you prevail you be very valuable to the system.
>>29885236
>marijuana to treat anxiety
That's some shit advice.
>>29884788
>doctor tells me I might have asd
>tell him to go fuck him self
>walk out
>>29885279
Someone doesn't know the difference between indica and sativa.
>>29884992
It's all I have left.
>>29885160
My mom ignored what the doctor said and claims I'm normal. Wants to force me to pay for college and is blaming everything on me again. I feel horrible and will probably end up never going back to college if I move out.
Fucking normies man they say just ASK FOR HELP LOL by nobody wants to Fucking help. They just blame shit on you and make your life harder.
I'M trying to find a psychatriast that isn't a ((())) and isn't female that also takes Fucking Medicaid. I fucking hate everything. Who cares if I'm successful. Absolutely nobody
If anybody cared they wouldn't be threatening to beat me blood.
If my parents want to beat me into submission for no fucking reason I'll make sure they kill me. I'll suicide by their hands. I don't care haha I don't care.
How am I someone who gives up easily when I've put up with so much just to get where I was before.
>>29885606
I smoked on and off for about a year. I've tried indicas and sativas, and no matter what it was it increased paranoia and anxiety and gave me about a 50% chance of feeling like I was dying. Now I even have long-lasting effects of increased anxiety an paranoia in general.
What it comes down to is how it interacts with your individual brain. Not everyone reacts the same. I suppose it might be worth trying, but I wish I never did
>>29885862
Cbd tincture may be better for anxiety most people don't have access to that though. I noticed a spike in anxiety when I smoke higher doses. Normally I would take very little.
>tfw only the Rich get the best treatment
I hate being middle class sometimes
>>29884788
>can't connect with people
>social anxiety
>no friends, girlfriend problems constantly, girl to girl and etc
>mother has spread rumor my entire life that I'm an aspie, ruined my fucking life
Fucking generalized anxiety disorder and depression. 3 doctors refused to do any tests for asd, say there's zero chance.
My whole family, half of my ex girlfriends some of which left me just because my mother said that early on, a bunch of friends. All because she lied and told me I'd been diagnosed. I had never been diagnosed.
>tfw munchausen by proxy
>>29886159
Somebody please tell me I'm not the only one with this feel.
I don't know what to do with it.
>>29884788
I was diagnosed with Aspergers when I was 5 :^)
>>29884788
> fall into a self diagnosed depression
> start having panic attacks
> have worst one of my life I thought I was going to die, went to the hospital
> a psych comes in and ask me questions, listens to me talk
> speaks to my mom
> comes back and tells me I had 'odd thoughts' and unusual thinking patterns and I should go to special program
> go to special program
> psychologist tells me I am indeed depressed
> diagnosed psychotic depression with schyzotypal personality traits
> basically the worst kind of depression and they call me a fucking weirdo for rejecting society and standing for myself, but not schizophrenic
> get happy pills, they work well enough
> life is still awful
> NEET on disability for life now
> basically told I may never get better
> I can't work or go to school
> going to school in the fall anyways
I don't want to live this life forever, I aspire for more!
>>29886523
Sit tight, more is on the way.
What defines your aspieness? Normies are driven by what's worked for them socially in the past, their brain lines up who they meet with how to act and they learn to act on that without thinking. You don't. But you can learn to
>>29886523
topkek i know this feelerino
>have a long history of "mental health problems" since elementary school
>last october start a "job" being one of the fags who scares people in a halloween corn maze with two of my friends
>see this really cute girl there, basically looks like a female version of me, kinda autistic, no makeup but really cute with tight jeans and doc martens and a nice ass, I really wanted to tear off her clothes and eat out her butt 2bh
>too autistic to talk with her much
>wasn't prepared so I'm assigned a cuck clown costume
>it looks retarded, I look even more shit than usual
>finally the attendants arrive, I'm hiding behind corn stalks and having a fucking panic attack because I don't know what to do
>start crying
>muster the courage walk up to the supervisor of the section of the maze i'm in and tell him what's going on
>tells me to go back to the tent
>drive home
>smoke a ton of dank dank medical shit
>look in the mirror
>don't recognize myself
>panic attack x 10
>felt like I was seeing the world for the first time, didn't know what the fuck was going on
>manage to call a psych emergency number that I had written in my wallet
>get taken to the hospital
>they tell me to go to outpatient group therapy
>a bunch of normies there bitching about normie gf/bf problems holy shit shut up
>i yell "jesus fucking christ" and storm out at one point
>get kicked out
>get told I have psychotic depression and a personality disorder
I got memed
>>29886730
Guy you replied to, you did have psychosis. Mine was induced by a panic attack, I felt illusions all over my body, my heart and mind were racing but I didn't have a goal to think of. The world felt like a dream as I was disoriented and I couldn't stay still I always had to move.
It felt like the only thing that could stop this was to knock myself out, but I was afraid I might actually do it by any means necessary, even if it meant jumping off the deck or something,
Went to that hospital and they told me I was fucked.
>>29886730
>>a bunch of normies there bitching about normie gf/bf problems holy shit shut up
God damn. I wouldn't be able to sit in a group and hear that bullshit either.
>>29884788
What exactly did you expect them to do for you? Change your whole personality? No one can do that, not even you, except perhaps to a limited extent and over a great period time. What they can do for you is help you to learn skills which will help you to adapt and get by. That's life, buddy. Whoever told you that you could be anything lied to you.
>taking liberal arts
You deserve to fail
>>29887301
I was taking engineering you turbofag
Obviously you fail to realize that there's more to my retardation that caused me to quit.
>>29887268
I expected them to give me a direct answer of what's wrong with me and then tell me of the counseling or treatment I can get.
They've given me absolutely NOTHING to work with here. I'm still a fucking mess and I don't know what to do. My parents don't help me with anything.
