>>29765038
>depression and anxiety
>no motivation to do anything
>no goals in life
>no hobbies
>every friendship ends after a few months cause i get bored and lose interest
>not interested in having a romantic relationship

>can't work because chronically I'll (going on 6 months now)
>live with family in suburbs
>in some debt, plus student loan
>suffered the nightmare mode anxiety condition derealisation for a year straight
>haven't socialised or really left the house since March
>largely abandon societal constructs
>happy despite all this
>need nothing more, don't even think about girls and not misogynistic anymore

It's all in the mind. Attain spiritual enlightenment. I'm getting to the point where life feels like a fucking gift. Also stop looking in mirrors, they're unnatural.

>>29765038
I am useless. I could improve, and I highly vallue this this sort of thing and anyone who manages to pull it out, but I am simply unable to because of my fucked up lazyness condition. I have come too deep into the comfort zone back when I was a delusional unaware autistic kid and somehow I thought being "lazy but smart :)" and a fucking "gamer" is somehow cool. And now it is fucking grained into my brain, like I would be programmed. I know it looks pathetic and stuff, that's the automatic and standard reaction to lazyness of others in everyone, but at least some understandement would be nice, they always think that demotivation and rudeness is best cure to lazyness, when really they just are naturaly annoyed by that and are not affraid to show it. It's just they're excuse that "oh, I'm just motivating you :^)". Anyway, I'm a hopeless waste of time and resources, with little to no chance of actual improvement at this point, so might as well speed up things a little bit.

>No Joy in living
>unable to see any point in things
>the fact we never existed for billions of years
>having to watch loved ones die
>Know were biologicaly made to never be satisfied
>starving children and cancer