Who else here is suffering from crippling depression
>tfw i am just a parasite siphoning money out of my parents pockets
>tfw i can barely hold a conversation with my parents about anything other than trivial bullshit
>tfw each phone call with dad/mom lasts less than 3 minutes and is about nothing other than "how is your day anon, what did you have for lunch/dinner, anon are you happy"
>lie and tell them i am happy
>tfw no motivation to do anything other than eat sleep go to class and masturbate.
Share your stories /r9k/
>be me
>student 3rd year of 5 year program
>leeching off of state and parents to live
>one friend whom I genuinely enjoy spending time with
>cant initiate any activities because of lack of confidence
>tfw meds stop working.avi
>slowly fading into my own mind and drifting away from family and friend
>cant for the life of me make me go to doctor for new meds
I plan on finishing my education though, things might get better and they might not... if they dont, which they probably wont because I do nothing for things to change, I will be ending it shortly after
>tfw I got nothing that drives my existence except the faint belief that things might get better
>be me
>college student
>good grades
>not ugly
>have friends
>always lonely
>always sad
>unmotivated
>i knew from the beginning of my college that I'll probably kill myself before I graduate
>still planing on doing it
>think about it every day
>friends and parents think I'm happy
>I don't even know when I was actually really happy the last time
I'm lying in my bed right now, with my laptop, at the verge of crying and want that the feeling is finally gone
>>24474973
Why are you depressed senpai? You are doing good in school, attractive, have friends. Would you mind sharing what is truly making you depressed?
>>24475095
not senpai, but in similar position
nothing really gives me enjoyment, I do things because I have nothing else in my life.
School comes very easy to me and I pass with passable/good grades with very little work.. not the most attractive but not ugly either (probably 6-7)
I have a few good friends with whom I spend time occasionally
but there is nothing that really drives me, nothing which motivates me. It's gotten a bit better since I started taking meds for depression and anxiety but I still feel that I have nothing I genuinely want to life for
>>24474861
>>24474973
>>be me
Who the fuck else are you supposed to be?
>>24475206
preferably not me
>tfw even writing something in this thread feels like too much effort.
>>24475095
Mostly because I'm always lonely. I can't share my feelings. Makes me feel vulnerable.
And I have trust issues.
I can't get a gf, because the thought to tell her about my feelings freaks me out.
>>24475164
>It's gotten a bit better since I started taking meds for depression and anxiety
Can I buy these meds online or do have I have to visit a doctor for that? I'll probably have to see a doctor for that and I'm definitely not doing that.
>>24475206
hello newfriend
>>24475275
One of my friends actually forced me to visit the doctor and I got a prescription for Citalopram. It made me feel worse the first few days but after that it got better.
I bet there are some SSRI's you can buy from the net, illegally though, but I'd recommend visiting the doc.
You know the "roller coaster" you feel? Things feeling ok for a while and then bad and then better and then worse?
The meds I'm on lessen the peaks between bad and ok and makes me feel more stable in general.
>>24475356
Yeah I know it. A year ago I had these really shitty days once a month. I always knew that it was only for one or two days and that I'll feel better afterwards.
It's now once a week and sometimes twice a week. Today is extremely bad. These shitty days are also the only time I visit /r9k/.
But I never knew that this was a thing. I always thought that I'm weird for always getting sad without a specific reason, because I've never spoken about it. And no one knows about it. (At least that's what I think)
>>24475515
yeah, id recommend you pay a visit to the doc before you have one good day each week
>>24475834
I'll consider it.
