Does anyone else here turn down and actively try not to engage with girls just to spite themselves? I hate myself and women and i don't want to have sex or a relationship even though i crave it. I like to imagine myself as a 40 yr old killing himself when gets drunk one night and nonone cares. When girls talk to me i make sure to be as rude and assholeish as possible to keep them away from me, i love being miserable
>>29378310
Little bit yeah.
It's probably more to do with me working nights and almost never going out during the day.
Having no friends to drag me outside.
I find myself buying into the poisonous rhetoric on this site, but really I dismiss it when I realise I don't know any women and can't fairly hold any prejudices.
I really can't afford to give up this job. So it looks like I'm not going to meet any women and test the theories laid out before me.
Maybe I should take some holiday and fuck off somewhere sunny for a week. But it's as you say. I like being miserable.
>>29378719
it's only poisonous if you see them as lesser beings, otherwise its good for keeping people from making bad decisions. I don't hate women, but i realize that i just cant operate with them, im just saving myself trouble this way
I do it to because I hate females.
yeah but its more because im insecure as shit about being skinnyfat with a 4.5" dick and no life besides jerking off to anime porn. although i do look decent with clothing on which is why girls talk to me occasionally.
I am starting to believe that traditional happiness is just a meme. I don't want to be in a relationship, I would rather use men for sex than to reveal intimate parts of myself they are just going to hate or step on anyway. Having men only crave me for sex gets exhausting, and most aren't good at it. My only flaw in being alone forever is that I really need good sex to live a stable life and masturbating just makes me feel like an actual robot, searching for the simulated feeling yet only being able to read a code, not really experience it. I didn't know how much of a robot I was until I realized being a cute girl is probably the only thing saving me from deciding to end it all because maybe some day my talents will matter but for now its just about how I can pretend to be like them in order to infiltrate and destroy, eventually ruling things by myself. I don't know if I want to do this to spite myself but I am driven towards the successful but lonely life.
>>29378310
>Homely cute girl invites you to a party. Refuse.
>A girl tries to befriend you. Act like you don't care until she gives up.
>Another girl compliments you on your look. Ignore her.
>An ugly girl knocks on your door and ask you out as soon as you open it. Tell her you're not interested and shut the door on her face.
I think I might be sabotaging myself.
>>29378963
Thisis slightly arousing.
>>29379096
This exactly, i love it when they give me attention but i force myself to be an ass so they will leave me be, id be fine if i wasnt funny and girls didnt fucking bother me in my public life
>>29378963
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