You have at least one happy feels to hold on to right now.
You can be an unemployed friendless parentless NEET, but you have at least one thing that make you live on more day.
What is it ? Tulpa, Waifu ? Show, Game ? a memory, a hobby ? a dream, a plan ?
Me. I'm rewatching TV shows of the 60s-70s. I'm not really into Star Trek, or A team and all. But when I watched them with my father, he always shared a bit of his past and tried to explain the context of the episode, like "back in the days, commies were the real enemy, son. remember this" or "I win your mother's heart with this song, son. Remember chicks love disco."
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b5LsCC1zNLY
Now that he passed away and that I am totally friendless, I have this 60s-70s bittersweet nostalgia, even if never lived during that time. It's my happy place, and I have this autistic dream to be a cop in the 70s, where some disco moves can get you a hot chick, where everybody know where is the enemy on a map, and maybe meet my father
pic semi-related
is porn waifu
Hope.
Hope that I'll graduate university with no problems and land that job at Blizzard.
Hope that I'll find a girlfriend, maybe even start a family.
Hope that I'll make my parents proud of me, moreso than they already are. (I'm the first in my line to graduate high school and attend university)
Hope that tomorrow will be better than today.
I have fun with vidya and chat with friends online, so I'm doing alright as is, but I want to have an even better life. Not much, just a little, but better.
Always stay hopeful, Anons. Things can always get better. Always.
>>29023891
>Hope
That's great. Hope is not something I can relate to anymore. I'm fine with my porn waifu
who else here has a porn waifu ?
I am waiting for the anarchist revolution to come
that's the meaning in my life right now
Weed and moe anime.
>>29023891
Similiar to this really.All I have are my dreams and little stories I daydream about. I don't see them coming true but at least they are nice things to keep my mind busy. Being happy or doing anything with my life seems so foreign and like a joke to me.
reading about people inspiration makes me sad
>>29023777
>Friends and a dream
Even though I don't have much, the fact that I have a few sweaty loser friends means that at least I didn't fail alone.
My dream is to escape loserdom and be a Chad, but I don't have the genetics.
>>29023777
my tulpa des
anime and vidya are nice too
My computer.
Not a happy feel but the want to share true love with a girl kind of keeps me going too. Some dumb kind of rage.
>>29023777
so who is that in the pic? googled the image and didnt find anything
>>29023777
I am happy about the fact that as I am nearing 30, my brain deteriorates, and with decreasing intelligence comes decreasing impressionability in the sense of acquiring other people's bad habits and beliefs. In other words, I'm happy that I'm dying alive.
>>29023777
>>29023891
Lost my faith for game development a long time ago.
But like a year ago i started closely following SpaceX and Elon Musk.
The idea that in a decade i might be able to buy a ticket to go live on a another fucking planet, which has never ever happened in the history of intelligent life.
And holy shit they are so successful now i legit believe it will be possible.
I don't want to miss out on the 4th Reich
>>29026427
My waifu
>>29025925
pls more about your tulpa
one time I had a tulpa, it was when I worked at night as construction worker I pretended to come back home being welcomed by a warm meal and a loving wife
>>29023777
>You have at least one happy feels to hold on to right now.
Actually I don't. I'm waiting for the helium tank I bought online to arrive.
>>29026722
promise of nothingness is a happy feel, sweet dreams
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qeMFqkcPYcg
>>29023777
Well today I didn't shit as much blood as usual, it's nice.
>>29026505
You're going to be bitterly disappointed.
>>29026797
>promise of nothingness is a happy feel
I don't know. I don't believe in reincarnation or heaven but I'm terrified of being wrong and having to go through life again or be stuck somewhere for eternity.
But you made me smile with that youtube link. Thanks.
>>29026824
no. you don't get the point of this thread, you it's about what is coming not what has been done
you should at least put it like "I hope I will shit less blood than usual tomorow"
>>29026829
you're being an horrible person, you know this ?
>>29026836
nah you're welcome anon, I've watched X-men Apocalypse recently, there was this song in it
You should watch it before the helium tank arrives
Or maybe do something with your money and time you have left, like a good deed, just to be safe in case of afterlife
>>29023777
Watching the X-files while eating popcorn is pretty comfy. I also have hope of finishing uni and maybe one day have a qt gf.
>>29026988
>You should watch it before the helium tank arrives
I really don't like the super-hero movies that have been coming out recently. I'm waiting for my Ghost in the Shell downloads to finish, tough. I hope I won't get bored from watching the movies again.
>Or maybe do something with your money and time you have left, like a good deed
I'm leaving a letter telling those who will find me what to do with my belongings but I really don't want to do anything while I'm alive, in case I fuck up and end up having to live a bit longer.
Planning on drowning myself using the tank as a weight if I somehow manage to fail to asphyxiate myself.
>>29023891
Job at Blizzard doing what anon? I'm an artfag and know a few people who've made it there but it took them years and years to become their best. Looks great fun though like a comfy atmosphere among workers and they treat employees so well.
My thing is I have a doughnut waiting for me when I get out of bed, and once I've done all my painting for the day my friends might play some ARK. It's a pretty comfy game, but I don't have much patience for the collecting resources thing so I'm just going to make a raft and a shit ton of spears and hunt me some megalodon.
>friends playing as cavemen while I play as the japanese
>>29026656
she's generally quiet, I think reserved would be a good word to use.
also extremely self-concious about distracting me when I'm out doing something, I did nothing to influence this, although I do appreciate it.
Her personality would be close to pic related if you've watched it
As for her looks, I assume she's taken a form to which I think is most attractive. Perhaps because I let her choose her form from originally starting as a fog/cloud
Sometime this week I might make another thread just for this topic
>>29026874
Oh I see. Well what helps me is remembering that we all die and usually sooner than we expect. And adopting a minimalistic, simple lifestyle has helped a lot, I wouldn't say I reached peace but the less I own and the less I have to manage the better I feel.
>>29027086
>watching the movies again
watching something new always bring new feels, but ultimately it's your decision
I think I'm gonna watch the new movie too
>don't want to do anything while I'm alive
but it's the first step toward nothingness : get rid of your stuff, money, maybe give your food to homeless people
drowning is extremly painful, I think that helium bag is popular because oxygen deprivation is painless, the brain doesn't realise it's in danger, unlike carbon dioxyde excess (because of drowning for exemple)
>>29027468
yes, I know about Yukino best girl, smart and sarcastically funny. you have a great tulpa congratulations. I'm not really up to date with the process, but if I decide to have one again, I would like her to be like pic related, both in term of personnality and looks
>>29023777
Anon I want to buy you a 12-pack and just be some company for you
>>29023777
Music
After being away from piano for a long time I started taking lessons again last fall.
I've been practicing more than I have since I first started and I've gotten really good again. I was always the most talented musically in my extended family and now I want to make something of it.
Focusing on piano actually helped get over my lack of a social life and sex life. Now those things are secondary or tertiary to music. Unfortunately I've been working out less too though
>>29024256
Don't wait for it to come
Be a true revolutionary and help bring it forth
it's literally just my fear of what comes after death
doesn't feel all that happy desu
My hatred is what keeps me going. I live on to spite people.
Mostly my writing, if I can finish a novel and get it published (not self published christ no) then I can finally be a success at something worthwhile.
a hope that I'll be a soldier for nationalism against the tyrannical international cabal and their new world order
>>29028036
are you afraid of sleeping ? no ? but you all the time you are asleep you litteraly doesn't exist, you are not self-aware.
why death should be different ?
also consider that your younger self doesn't exist anymore. you probably doesn't have the same thoughts, desires and dreams.
so, you have already died many time before
>>29028149
>feelings aren't completely rational
lik o m g
anyway, I'm not that scared of not existing, I'm scared that it gets even worse
>>29027900
you can relate by any chance ? I'm glad I was able to convey this kind of emotion, yet again...
I hope one day it will be me who can feel pity for others not the opposite, like be of some help (reason I started the thread) but more, like a cop, you know
60s-70s heroes are so cool
here take a free anjelica pic for making me feel accepted
>>29028099
why can't you finish a novel ? and what kind of novel are you writing (if you don't mind telling us) ?
>>29028229
Don't worry. Once you get to Hell, you'll be with a bunch of sadomasochistic souls who are just like yourself, only they'll have more experience with it.
>>29028349
can't wait for her next scene tbqhfam
>>29026992
maybe watching x-files with qt gf ?
maybe jokingly pretend you are mulder and scully ?
maybe turn it into sex roleplay ?
"b-bu-but mulder we can't, we have a mission and we are colleague, this..."
"shhh scully, I've looked out there and never find the truth because it was right in front of me"
maybe pillow fight because she is too embarassed
god... I'm not doing myself any good
The only girl I ever loved once said that she wants me to be happy. I try my best every day, telling myself "be happy for her, the only person who ever believed in you, don't disappoint her". I don't think I'm gonna make it, but I'm not enough of a coward to give up.
>>29028382
I'm never happy with it so I always change up the structure of the plot or the characters, I've restarted the same book 4 times. It's why I don't share the premise cause it might change again. Basic concept is a girl with fire powers hunting down the guy that killed her uncle.
>>29028906
what do you use to organise your story ? Do you have a novel story board software ? AllMyNotes changed my way of writing !
Now I can write any part of the novel I want and merge everything later.
Keeping track of what you do is the most important I think
>>29029014
I just keep it all in my head, I'll try that allnotes stuff later though, thanks. Probably won't work cause I'm a stream of consciousness sort of writer though, best stuff comes from improv which an organised system can dampen.
>>29028057
>tfw cant maintain love or hate
>tfw eternal apathy
fucking goddamn shit.
>>29023777
Who me? As for me, I'm gonna have to say lifting weights. And the dream of finding a street vendor girl I haven't met in 10 years. Really should've got her number.
Killing myself is too scary and people will laugh at you for failing. So I have to live on.
