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alright robots. im depressed and need to get some shit off my chest. gonna write the whole story of me and this girl i've know for a long while and am very much in love with and how it's all going to shit. i'll start back from when it was relevant and catch you guys up to the present.
>be me
>know girl who's been close friend since birth
>i'll call her jess
>parents are bffs
>see her and her family every few years
>throughout early childhood me and her just besties
>assume we're gonna get married since besties
>fast forward to age 10
>spending week at her house in tennesee
>parents put us together in the same room
>alone
>spend every night staying up extremely late and talking
>eventually get balls to try and kiss her
>completely dark cuz its the middle of the night
>dont know your supposed to turn your head
>results in extremely painful nose bumping
>jess gets extremely nervous and tries to avoid me for next few days
>confusion and stupid drama results in us "breaking up"
>we were like 10 so it seems retarded now
>next few years girl treats me like the scum of the earth
>at first still into her, but eventually get over it
>eventually move to colorado
>leave all friends behind
>become extremely cynical and jaded
>start spending too much time on 4chan and reddit to dull my pain
>become extremely withdrawn and anti-social
>fast forward to age 14
>going to visit her and her family in tennesee for a few days
>nervous as shit
>left things poorly the last time we saw each other
>turns out to go pretty well
>put my autistic obsession with vidya and animu on display
>she's nice and tolerates me anyways
>start to fall in love again
>keep up occasional contact through e-mail and texting over the next year or so
>fast forward to early 2016
>16 years old
>discover she has an instagram
>still pretty good friends
>private account
>request to follow
>next day
>littledidiknow.png
>shocked to discover she has a boyfriend
>they seem pretty close
>get extremely depressed
>parents decide the two families will get together in may for week at beach house in florida
>decide to become way more of a normie to try and win her romantic affections
>get rid of my autistic tendencies and weird habits
>may comes around
>once again nervous as fuck
>things go way better than i could have ever imagined
>plan to be more of a normalfag works out far better than expected
>totally in love again
>talk all day
>tell each other all our secrets
>stay up all night watching rick and morty and freaks and geeks
>lifeisgood.jpeg
>never been so happy
>begin to sit extremely close together on couches and shit
>establish regular physical contact
>barely discuss her boyfriend
>catch each other staring at each other multiple times
>feeling proud of myself for my plan working out so brilliantly
>jess eventually talks to her boyfriend on skype near the end of the week
>suddenly becomes offended by every minor form of physical contact
>things start to sour
>pick things back up on friday night
>stay up late again talking and watching nathan for you
>have to leave saturday morning
>she gives me awkward af hug and abrupt goodbye
>leave kind of sad, but still overall satisfied with my results
>and this girl
Stopped reading right there. Enjoy your "depression".
>she informs me instagram has a direct message function
>begin to message her frequently
>struggle to keep autistic tendencies in check
>still depressed by pictures of her and her boyfriend
>mother abruptly reveals plans to fly me out solo to see her and her family for a week or two sometime later this summer
>shocked af, but still cool with it
>look back through all pictures with her boyfriend
>realize she probably sees me as her twin brother instead of romantic material
>get depressed af as i realize she'll probably never love me
>still going to have to hang out with her and probably her boyfriend for over a week later this summer
>fuckme.wma
>realize i will probably watch the love of my life grow up and marry another man
>return to old habit of wasting time on 4chan
>playing uncharted 4 multiplayer tonight
>thinkin bout you by frank ocean comes on spotify
>lyrics are super relatable
>start to cry
>trulypathetic.mp4
>go on /r9k/ to post all this shit
sorry for unloading all this on you guys. just really felt the need to get this off my chest. any advice on how to deal with this would be appreciated. i would love to spend the rest of my life with this girl even though at this point it's pretty unlikely
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>>fast forward to early 2016
>>16 years old
Mods please.
enjoy your ban normalfuck
