Who here depressed for years?
How are you doing?
I have basically become a zombie. I hate getting up in the morning because I am so constantly dizzy from the anxiety and depression. I am fed up of being so fucking tired.
I'm a pedophile.
https://youtu.be/6Qp6Cf2J1nk
>>28879515
No one fucking replies. I am going to kill myself.
>>28879515
Since 2005 here. Stated skipping school until I was places in a spacial school by force, which I also skipped, mostly. Could never even bother with HS and have just spent the past 8 years in my room, with no motivation to leave it.
I don't remember what life feels like.
I've had it since puberty, probably since childhood. I'm 26. I've always just had a different mind than others. Literally my mother said she didn't get me psychiatric help because although I was an aggressive impulsive disobedient shitlord, I didn't hurt animals (yes that was literally her test) and I did well in school.
I'll be starting new meds soon, one way or the other. If the new medication doesn't work, I'll be switched to an MAOI. I've already been on an MAOI, but my last one gave me shitty side effects at high doses (pain and fatigue, I have arthritis shit). Otherwise it seemed like the medication stopped some of the daily terror.
Waiting on my brother to get me the title for his car, literally my first priorities will be for seeing rheumatologists and stuff, because I've had joint pain my whole life, find out my family knew my biological father had an untreated spinal disorder. Now my sister sees a chiropractor and shit, and my brother has had two disc replacements when he was ~27 and should be on pain meds that rest of his life. They don't like talking about how I used to complain about everything hurting.
I've pretty much always been depressed. I literally always feel like something is off.
>>28879542
you're a bitch if you don't end up in the news bro, make us proud
about 12 years
lost in translation
dazed and confused
i dont know where i am anymore
>>28879515
6.5 years here, but I am getting better
Started going to a mental day hospital and it's very helpful
>can try a lot of meds really quickly
>a lot of therapy
>"forced" to go outside every day
>"forced" to eat
>talking to other humans
>everyone is super nice
>tfw getting compliments every day
I might make it
>Be 23
>Depressed since 14
>Quit high school because anxiety and spergers and couldn't handle it
>Systems like "oh ok"
>Go to local college to try and do what I missed at high school at 19
>mfw still there, nearly done though
>Have qtgf and qt baby daughter
>They bring me no joy, just like everything else
>Social anxiety so bad I can't get a job to support, so we live on collegebux
>Sometimes think I'm only still here because it wouldn't be fair to leave her with a kid
>Hopefully university will give me purpose if I get there
>If it doesn't go well I'll probably just kill myself
FMLTBQHLOL
>>28879791
What hospital? How did you get in? Please I need this.
>>28879950
It's a fancy private hospital that costs 398.65 euro per day
My psychiatrist wanted me to go to a hospital for half a year, but I always declined
I hit rock bottom(panic attack) and agreed with her
She called a few places and then made an appointment for me
First day was the first of April
You should probably talk to your GP/psychiatrist if you want to go to one
If you don't have one and don't mind being in a hospital 24/7 you could try going to a normal hospital and join their mental ward, but they probably aren't as good
I have a very fancy health insurance so they pay for the private hospital
If I didn't have it I would probably go to a normal one
3 year of depression now after get kicked out from engineering schol... Failed my driving test last week, even community college rejected my application and fuck got rejected from job application due to my 3 year of doing nothing.... Kill me
>>28879924
Reading this summons a picture of a tattooed emo stoner, white trash degenerate. Am I far off?
>>28880667
No tattoos, and not really white trash in the traditional sense (from a low income, broken home but I'm not violent or stupid) but, yeah, pretty much. I am red check shirts and self-pity.
>>28879515
I'm moving into supportive housing.
I couldnt tell you how long its been. Ive lost track of it all. i know that opiates seem to make the days go faster. and sleeping my day away is dangerous because im scared of the dreams
Been depressed for 5 years
>Fighting off pedophilic urges
>am scum of the earth
>graduated yesterday its even more depressing
10 years.
Life is just a haze at this point. At best I can manage to distract myself through simple pleasures
I'm scared to get a proper diagnosis but from everything I've read about depression it appears I have it and have had it for a long time now. I have a diaper fetish which has hindered my sexual development and contributes to my masturbation addiction. Even if I had a normal sex drive and interests then I still couldn't attract the sexual partners I want since I have absolutely no "game." My few friends have always been surprised by my lack of sexual experience but then they get to know me and they can see pretty plainly why no woman is interested in me. The only thing that really makes me happy any more is weed and that's quickly growing old.
I constantly want to be left alone and I get my wish. That's the biggest problem of them all.
>>28879515
6 years, I have tried a lot of treatments, drugs, psychotherapy, ECT.
No real improvement, my depression has been labeled "treatment resistant". I'm going to see a specialist soon, who has expertise in mood disorders with treatment resistant, hoping (barely) for some success there.
3 years. desperation has become numbness and acceptance
remaining friends are about to give up
Anyone else on SSRIs here?
Feel like I'm making some progress. Still a KHV but I can handle daily life ok now.
6 years here
Dropped out of high school this year when I was almost done with it because my mental health took a plummet and needed to deal with it somehow.
Now I'm a NEET who's struggling to not be a shut-in. Medications don't seem to make a difference, there's never any clear effect outside of their side effects. The side effects only worsen as my dosage gets increased, but my symptoms seemingly remain the same, so they end up doing more harm then good.
I've been off of medication for a while, and I've been seeing a therapist for a year now. We work well together and I find her supportive, but I end up missing appointments if I'm too stressed/anxious to go out.
I try to get out when I have enough motivation, but it lasts only for a matter of a few days before I go back into hermit mode again.
My life is pretty much in limbo, I honestly don't know what I want out of it, what to do with it, or how I would take action if I did know what to do.
>>28879515
>Bones
nice anon
