ITT: Post a story from your childhood that made you into the robot you are today.
>Watching TV with family as a 5 yo
>Comercial about some romantic series about to air in the current channel
>Couple kisses onscreen
>I stare, as it seems kinda weird to me
>Dad notices and teases me about it
>I get mad and throw a book at him
>Whipped and grounded, scarred for life about kisses or any showcase of affection from men to women
It all started then
mummy didn't feed me
I'll kick us off.
>Giantess Russian girl went to my middle school
>I was about 5'6", she was 6'0" roughly
>Pretty sure she liked me because she'd pick me up and hug me every day
>My friends would laugh
>I go and hug her one day in front of her friends
>She acts like I am a freak, doesn't pick me up and I walk away
>Later on my small group of friends and I are all hanging out in front of the school waiting on my friend's mom to pick us up
>Russian giantess shows up
>She holds me down and I cannot move
>She starts giggling and she touches my chest and crotch
>My friends are laughing too
>She does this for maybe 5 minutes
>Finally the mini van pulls up and I want to get out of there
>She from there on out does that every day after school while we are waiting for my friend's mom to pick us up
>be autistic kid living in a neighborhood full of kids
>neighborhood bullies love to pick on you because you're suck a freak
>one day I'm playing tag with hispanic chad you uses toy plastic hulk fists to play "tag"
>he punches me in the face and bends one of my teeth
>he stops hitting me after a minute
>gets up crying while all the other kids are staring
>starts smiling and laughing out of embarrassment
>chads friend says "why are you laughing freak" and his girlfriend just looks at me in disgust
That's just one of the stories.
>>28734564
>9 years old
>hungry
>suckling on mommy's breast
>neighborhood kid comes over to borrow a text book
>next day at school everyone is making fun of me
>all the girls my age think i'm a freak
>ptsd-like aversion to mommy gf
just end me
>>28734564
>13
>get invited to a friend's birthday party at a lake
>cant swim
>cant swim because never was brought to a body of water to learn
>don't go because afraid of drowning
>friend calls me from lake
>"haha anon why arn't you here"
>"hey I just couldnt go s-sorry"
>"o ok man"
>closest thing I had to a group of friends
>was too embarrased to talk to them after that
>slowly drifted away
>got into vidya and 4chan around that same time
>probably that afternoon is when it started
>25
>virgin
>still cant swim
>>28734700
Congratulations your story gave me a semi
>3rd grade
>One of my good friends has a hot sister in 5th grade
>qt blonde already getting boobs
>my friend, his younger brother, and his sister come over to play house
>neighbor's sister says I should be the husband so "its not weird"
>time to "go to sleep" and its just me and friend's sister in separate, closed-off part of jungle gym
>She tries to move in close, put her head on shoulder, etc.
>I felt awkward, push her away a bit, she gets offended and we stop playing
>Move 1 year later, never see her again
>Think back in around 6th grade about how retarded I was
>Start to get into depression around this time due to other shit going on
>Can't get thoughts of her out of my head
>7th grade
>qt track runner in 8th grade in my Spanish class
>Completely forget old friend's hot sister
>Ask out 8th grader one day after mustering up courage for months
>She says yes
>Super happy for first time in a year or so
>Talk to her a couple days before what I thought was going to be our first date
>"Oh, you meant just us two, sorry anon, I don't like you like that"
>I get flustered, tell her to forget it, we stop talking much at all
>Slip back into what I remember as depression from back then
>Extreme lack of confidence
>Friendships begin to whither away, don't make any new friends really once high school starts
>Gain weight despite playing Lacrosse
>Hated about half of people I had to spend time with after school
>Can't talk to girls easily at all really
>Very few actual friends throughout high school
>Quit Lacrosse before Senior Season
>Gain more weight, depression worsens
>Graduate 2 years ago, maybe 5 actual friends
>Never got a gf, still a kissless virgin
>Never went to Prom
>Took 2 years off to try to fix depression, only made things worse
>Now 250 lbs at 6'2
>Going to college in the fall
>On strict diet to try to lose weight before college and stop being so socially retarded
There is a chance I can right all the wrongs I've made in my past, but it's a slim one right now
Why I'll be forever single
>9th grade
>Having a rally in the school's gymnasium
>walking to the bleachers next to girl
>she's a cheerleader, petite, hot af, C-Cup at minimum, thick ass
>essentially the most Stacy-like Stacy you've ever seen
>She was popular as hell, too
>Stacy drops her School ID card
>I attempt to be alpha, lean down and try to pick it up
>it keeps slipping out of my fingers
>Stacy watches me try to pick it up and visibly cringes
>whole freshman and sophomore classes witness my struggle
>spaghetti intensifies
>she kneels, picks it up herself, and runs away to her seat
>mfw
Never tried to be alpha again
>>28734793
Yeah, I wish a QT giantess had done that with me. It's like that greentext was meant to give robots a rubbery one more than it was to explain anything about being on /r9k/. LOL
>>28734564
>be 8 yo
>stop going to scool because i was too scared
>8 years old I think
>my mom lets me hang out with her abusive boyfriend
>he takes me to some flea market
>after were finished browsing "anon follow me I have to go to the bathroom"
>he brings me in the stall with him
>he puts his dick in my mouth and makes me give him a bj
>when he's done, "stop crying and I'll buy you a toy"
I have know idea why my mom let me hang out with him. Nearly the same shit happened to me with one of her female friends.
>>28734887
haha sounds pretty hot haha
>>28734873
>Getting molested everyday in front of friends is good
I should also mention she wasn't that cute and giantess girls are not my fetish. I hugged her to make her to try and make her embarrassed like she did to me in front of my friends. Also I still don't get why if she liked me she didn't ever do anything beyond molest me.
>>28734900
I guess. Good thing it didn't turn me into a faggot though.
>>28734680
So you are fine with kissing other males then?
Mum used to strangle me as a kid, like Bart Simpson style
She was kind of a cunt until she went to a mental hospital and then she became the average mentally retarded woman
Not much of a story I guess
>like to sit at the very back of the bus in the tiny seat
>get on bus first
>sit down in tiny seat
>two stacies sit in the regular seat across from me
>about 5 minutes pass, waiting for bus to leave school
>"anon, why don't you sit by somebody who actually wants to talk to you?"
>take it as they want me to leave(which they may have been, they may have just been stupid cunts who don't watch their words)
>get up
>move to seat in middle of bus
>some chad tells me that stacy is going to sit there
>move to the very front of bus
>sit next to bus drivers retarded daughter for the ride home
I wish I could go back in time and just tell them to fuck off.
>see this thread
>alright
>start greentexting story as you remember it
>suddenly, that one detail and full story hit you like a ton of bricks
>ctrl-x, repress memories again
why'd you do this to me OP
Wow, you drama queens have no reason to call yourselves robots. I thought most of you were gonna have some seriously fucked up shit that happened to you.
>>28735152
>Dude who got molested/sexually assaulted by mom's boyfriend is a drama queen
kys edgy faggot
>>28735152
When I was 6 years old my parents died in a car accident.
>>28735182
That was me you faggot
Childhood was good, teenage years were all sorts of fucked
Worst story I had from childhood was running for class president
>be in 3rd grade
>people running for class president
>decide I should, write meaningful speech, powerful emotionally, moderate in policy
>excellent, get overwhelming praise, class autist stands up for me on my behalf, makes a speech about how great of a friend I was to him (only kid who would be nice to him)
>gets applause
>now it's fuccboi mcJewnose's turn to give a speech
>gives terrible speech, plagerizes mine almost entirely, but says unlimited recess and no line in the cafeteria
>gets a standing ovation
>ends up winning the election by like 1 to 3 votes
One of the key moments I realized that humans behave very similarly to animals, and can be controlled in a herd-like mentality
>inb4 muh sheeple tibs bedora
>>28735215
>inb4 muh sheeple tibs bedora
How about
>muh you're not as amazing as you think you are and one autist praising you doesn't change that
>>28735152
I got molested by a girl in front of my friends.
>>28735210
ok don't kill yourself
>>28735282
That's hot dude. Be happy you got some action from a chick.
>>28735296
Don't tell me what to do. I'll kill myself whenever I feel like it.
>>28735205
edgy
>7th grade
>PE class
>Just standing around with my friend talking
>Get pantsed by Chad
>It was fucking cold outside since it was the dead of winter
>Half the class saw
>Rumors that I had a small dick circulate
REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
>>28734767
9years old and breast feeding
wut
>10 years old
>running in school cross country which takes a detour down the sidewalk of a public road
>doing well for a fat kid, coming slightly above middle of the pack
>kinda enjoying exercising for the first time in my life
>think I might keep doing it and lose weight
>suddenly an old man leans out of a car driving past and yells "Get a move on fatty!"
>instantly lose all happiness and self esteem
>walk the rest of the way back, come last
Not really a story but every time I was interested in something, my dad would find something about it to insult. Or if they were toys, he'd take it away from me and throw them in the garbage or smash them with a hammer if he didn't approve of them.
Now I don't like to show anybody my interests in pretty much anything. So I just come off as uninteresting to a lot of people.
>be born
>inbred
was doomed from literally day 1
>>28735347
wait, was it just pants and they were judging by the bulge or underwear too and they actually saw your dick?
>first serious girlfriend
>completely in love with her
>girlfriend dumps me
>i go over best friends house to talk about it
>walk into best friends room
>girlfriend is on my best friends bed
>best friend is rubbing lotion on her back
>i don't know what to say or do
>i just sit in the corner of their room, awkwardly watching them both
>after a few minutes i leave and go home
>sit alone in my room for the next 10 years
>>28735397
Completely saw my dick.
>Dad left
>stepdad abuse me
>literally beatings for nothing
>body image issues
>now I'm a depressed freak
>>28734776
>Mom pushed me in the pool so I could learn how to swim
>Am now terrified of the water
>>28734564
>hit puberty
>turns out i'm gay
i'm pretty sure i would have had a relatively normal life if i was straight. oh well, now i'm here i guess
I remember one day in high school, I was in the gym, feeling uncharacteristically happy about myself and life in general. I decide to say fuck it and finally be the type of person to say hi to someone rather than being forced to get to know someone because I was assigned to be around them in a team, or whatever. The look of disgust on their face when I tried greeting them taught me that I'm just not meant to interact with people. They don't like it when I keep myself and they REALLY don't like it when I initiate any conversation.
So I gave up and spent the next 7 years as a shut in trying to get the courage to blow my brains out. Not to say ONLY that moment caused these feelings, but it's one that sticks with me.
>>28735477
My uncle did the same thing and I love swimming.
>>28734776
>>28735477
>almost drowned 3 times
>swimming instructor in 2nd grade was throwing kids into the pool
I eventually did figure out how to doggy paddle in 8th grade out of curiosity and I was pretty amazed at it.
>>28735394
What's your parents relationship to each other?
>>28735518
What age where you? I was around 5 or 6
>>28735501
there are many gays with healthy social lives
>>28735604
they had much different circumstances than mine, then
>>28735477
>be 9
>go to lake with family
>the water looks and smells like diarrhea
>"uh, i don't want to swim haha"
>Anon, get in the water.
>"i don't want to swim"
>a bunch of my family members try to pull me in the fucking water
>get gargantuan splinter in my foot from the dock
>'STOP THERE'S A SPLINTER IN MY FOOT!'
>haha it's nothing too bad, Anon! just come swim with us!
>'STOP PULLING ME!'
>they finally manage to fling me into the water
>almost drown in diarrhea water
>manage to get back out
>they keep doing it, i get even more splinters
>mfw the whole time
Destroyed my entire life with a phone call
>Be 8
>Mom drinks a lot with her friends
>Scared to leave my room when her friends are in the house
>Not molested or anything, but they'll treat me rough, take my stuff, and smell bad
>It's always so dark outside, pitch black
>Didn't have cable or anything, only broadcast.
>Love PBS, though, gained a love of science and nature from that
>Mostly was Sega that occupied me when everyone else was over
>How I loved video games, but not how I really because a robot
>Pretty much have to take care of my little brother, make sure he get dressed, goes to school, gets something to eat, etc.
>Mom's around less and less, going out longer and longer
>One morning, I wake up, she's gone again
>Cold and empty home
>Finally dawned on me that my mom has abandoned me and my brother
>Just completely breakdown and call the cops
>Cops come, take me and my brother into foster care
>End up at my grandmother's
>Not really sure at this point what's happening at all, the world's just shifting around on me, but at least I'm somewhere I know for once
>One morning, my grandmother wakes me up, tells me I'm going on a trip to see my grandpa in Washington
>Excited, absolutely love him and always wanted to see him again.
>Curious why we're going so early, and not bringing my brother along, but I figure I'll be back in a few, no biggie.
>Go to the airport
>Wonderful trip, first time I was ever in a airplane
>Read and look out the window the whole time
>So excited, so happy to see my grandpa again.
>He picks me up, we go home
>Grandma is nowhere to be seen, but it doesn't really come together for me right away.
>Spend the day looking around, unpacking, other stuff.
>It's bedtime
>Lay down, and then it all hits me
>I'm up here for good
>I'm not seeing my brother again
>I'm not seeing my friends or my school again
>I'm not seeing my pets anymore
>I'm not even seeing my mom again
>I was basically tricked
>Cry myself to sleep for the next week
>be 5 or 6
>phimosis surgery
>have to pull back foreskin afterwards but it hurts so I refuse
>parents have to pin me down and do it for me. Incentivize me with candy.
>I refuse to make it easy on them so they give and tell me I can address it again when I'm 9.
>Fast forward to 9th birthday, start crying because I'm scared they're going to force me to touch my foreskin again. Have become afraid of my own penis.
>mother asks me why I'm crying and I do not tell her. Parents don't bring up my foreskin and I continue living in fear until I'm 13.
>mother takes me to a doctor who attempts to pull back my foreskin while lying on a couch.
>nearly vomit.
>they say I'll be circumcized.
>As a kid I was so repulsed by circumcized penises I used to have intrusive thoughts about the floor being made of circumcized penises that buckle as you step on them.
>reluctantly go through with surgery. Am told 2 day recovery.
>six weeks later still have not returned to school.
>when I finally do, I don't wear underwear, and all the kids ask where I've been.
>I don't tell them because embarrassing so they all start thinking I'm some lazy degenerate (Private school).
>Bullying
>World of Warcraft
>Culminates over a school camping trip when some kids find a dildo in the woods.
>They retrieve it and bring it to camp. One nerdy kid is saying the have to return it.
>People are yelling over each other.
>I decide I'll yell too.
>I say "They'll take it back..."
>everyone goes silent.
>"...if you lick it"
>One kid says "what the fuck (my name)" with visible cringe in his voice.
>spend the summer carving notches into my desk with a knife and having brief but intense panic attacks.
>never recovered the end
>>28735795
>I'm not going to see my mom again
Should have been happy, she sounds like a whore. Where was your dad? Let me guess, single mom?
My obsession and fixation on feet has probably had something to do with my degeneration.
>be me
>around 5 years old
>aunt lets me play with her feet
>favorite thing to do is lay on floor and have her rest her bare heels over my eye sockets while she sits on the couch
>spend lots of time under her soles while she watches tv
>always asks if I want to play with her feet when she visits
>at night she lets me get in bed with her and go under her blankets
>i lay at the end of the bed sideways and have her press her soles on my stomach to use me as a footwarmer
Best days of my life, but definitely led me down the path of being absolutely addicted to feet to the point that nothing else does it for me. Vanilla foot fetish has also degenerated into more extreme things.
>>28735520
Cute desu
I learned how to doggy paddle out of curiosity myself
Turns out my grandmother hated me because of what my father did, and didn't like how I got my mom in trouble. So she threatened my Grandpa to either take me in or send me to an orphanage.
From then on, I completely afraid to make my own decisions anymore. I would wear whatever was given to me. I would ask for as little as possible. I couldn't smile when I got presents because I felt like I didn't deserve anything. I was given stuff, but I wouldn't move them from where they were placed. I would just go with whatever anyone else says, because I could not ever make a worse decision. I would stay in my room, like I always did, only video games and my own thoughts to keep me company. I was so frightened that the world would fall down on my head again.
>>28735850
Should mention I've never had a satisfactory sexual experience despite many opportunities. Trauma of botched phimosis ruined my ability to think of myself as a sexual being.
>>28735793
>diarrhea water
>that wojak
Are your family members of the smug type
> be in 5th grade
> random class from 1 PM
> dad walks in randomly drunk af
> oh god not again
> he talks shit during the whole class
> young teacher runs out crying
I still have nightmares and stuff. My stupid ass fucker dad did many similar things during my life. He is a true faggot. I'm male btw.
>>28735900
I suppose I should have, as it is true, she's with another man with a daughter now, but back then I missed her warmth. I guess just being ripped from everything you know will do that.
Met my dad for the first time two years ago, so yeah.
>>28735941
this is for
>>28735795
>Big Shot teacher make us do some 2 hour government roleplay scenario shit for Civics and Philosophy, counts towards grade which I need if I don't want my ass beaten by parents.
>No one in class takes it seriously at all, they elect me as a leader for a joke
>Teacher is furiously making notes while I try to do the best I can . I miraculously don't fuck up or make a fool of myself. People begin to chip in without being prompted and I begin to not feel so bad
>Teacher's entire 30 minute feedback session next week with class is a psychoanalysis of me because supposedly the formation and role of leaders was the point of the exercise.
>Just sit there in class with a thousand yard stare and she says I am an "insecure but well meaning person who is intimidated by men". Says I am "Women Driven" and starts naming girls in the class she thinks influence me. Mentions Napoleon Complex, suggests I "suffer from internalized racism" but that the entire exercise was an excellent case study and that they will include an anonymized version in a philosophy text they are writing.
>"You get the highest mark I can give you anon, very well done!"
>>28735795
just letting you and your brother stay together at the very least would make a fucking world of a difference. I'm genuinely so sorry anon
>>28735988
Why are whores like this even allowed to have children. If she can't even raise her original children why is she given the responsibility of another one?
I wish society wasn't so forgiving of women.
>>28735915
>i lay at the end of the bed sideways and have her press her soles on my stomach to use me as a footwarmerI don't even like feet but that's pretty hot desu
>was a normal kid in middle school
>got into high school
>became semi-popular with girls
>this one landwhale everybody yatee had a giant crush on me
>she made impossible for other girls to approach me because she figuratively and literally blocked their way
>other classmates noticed and paired the two of us every chance they got
>was bullied by the whole class that we were OTP for the entirety of high school
>became isolated from the popular group and was unable to get a gf because of this
>settled for anime and vidya for company
>became increasingly edgy as well
> carried this attitude into college till I dropped out
>>28736024
Get her fired you fucking retard
How is any of that acceptable
>>28736033
Single mothers are the worst threat to the first world. Pretty much every problem in our society can be traced back to them.
>Welfare state
>Crime
>Niggers
>Big government
Etc. Knowing /r9k/ most people here probably like the welfare state, I more so have a problem with how women abuse it by having more kids to get more money. At least NEETs only get a fixed source of income, single moms can literally make a living off of it by having tons of kids then neglecting them all.
>>28736028
Yeah, nowadays, he just goes in and out of prison. His gf is the worst. He just got diagnosed with diabetes. Worse of all, I can't ever feel like I can't get close to him anymore when we met. It just doesn't feel the same. I don't even recognize the kids I went to school with anymore. I only managed to get really connected with my cousin/best friend back then. I just feel so divorced from the world, now.
>>28736024
>mfw teacher did a psychological analysis of class room
>mfw teacher said I was the only leader
>mfw rest of class were labeled followers
High school was cool. It's been a nose dive since I started college. Haven't had a social experience in almost 7 months now
>4th grade
>first day because I just transferred to this school
>originally from down south so the accent already excluded me
>lunch is you sitting with the class due to it not being seperated from recess
>kids at lunch table are talking about models
>"Being a model doesn't sound too bad i wouldn't mind being one haha"
>used to collect dragonball figurines so misinterpreted the word
>table burst out with ew's and insults towards my appearance
>blonde girl tells the teacher i'm being a creep and literally every other student from that class agrees
>teacher makes me sit an empty separate table for the rest of the year
>moved to the table in the back of the class away from the students
>being a model is shit
>>28734564
I'm adopted.
posting to see if i'll die this morning
>>28734802
I feel you bro. Just know that things aren't going to just get better, you have to make the effort. I'm trying my best but things still aren't quite working out how I would like them to.
>>28734700
that's kinda hot desu
>tfw had a crush on a 6'0" 200lb mongolian girl at school
>tfw she was ESL and didn't quite understand when I made passes at her
>>28735966
Oh yeah, and he told my friends that he beats me up every day (he did not btw) and told some perverted stuff to the teacher and to my female colleagues.
He did the same thing in 11th grade, in recess he entered my class full drunk, he could barely walk, with a random gipsy fag and gave me all of his money. I gave some money to that fucker and asked him to get my dad the fuck out of here.
It wasn't just one thing, but many bad choices that were done for me and by me. Eventually not fitting in, saying the wrong things and not taking the opportunities.
A whole life of missing the target completely.
>>28734700
That was kindve cute until it got sexual
>>28735477
My father would throw me into the pool and then make motions of how to swim to teach me.
Or would lift me up and dunk me backwards into the water, I know he wouldnt let me drown, but being lifted up after I just surfaced choking and crying only to be dunked again made me hate swimming.
>be 11
>birthday
>didn't have many friends so there were like 10 kids there (including cousins)
>on of my little cousins keeps pinching my ear
>wanted to slap him
>every one grounds me
>my father beats me up in front of everyone and takes my birthday money (always loved money so they didn't bother getting me gifts)
>crying in front of everyone
>blow the candles while crying
>everyone stares at me like I am a freak
>go to my room , still crying
>my wish was to never cry again
He actually beat me up many more times , but this was the most embarassing moment because everyone saw it . Now I feel very awkuard around people knowing I had such a shitty childhood . At least I don't cry anymore , no matter how sad I am , how much pain I feel , I just can't cry ,
>>28735521
Brother and sister. It was rape but my grandparents were staunchly Catholic about pregnancy.
>be ~11 year old fatty with moobs and long hair
>go to the pool
>while swimming, a girl a bit older than me asks me why i'm not wearing a bra
>embarrassed, i tell her im a boy
>she replies with "no way. why aren't you wearing a bra??" louder than the first time she asked
>repeat that i'm just a fast boy
>she laughs and swims away
>her and 2 of her friends ask me about wearing a bra 9-10 more times throughout the couple hours i'm there
>more than a few times there were multiple people that overheard us, and even looked over at us, but did or said nothing
going outside is hard as fuck and i haven't swam for about 7 years, even though it used to be one of my favorite things to do
>>28736604
Cool. Have any weird deficiencies at all? (besides getting to the point of posting here)
Shouldn't your grandparents have like shunned your dad or something from the family? I'd imagine incestual rape is probably a decently bad sin of some sort.
>>28736676
i stopped going swimming when i got self-conscious about my body too
>>28736676
>repeat that i'm just a fast boy
fat* boy, fuck me
>>28736812
it's shitty anon. one of my dreams, if i'm able to buy my own house, is to get an in-ground swimming pool so i can swim in privacy
>parents would always fight
>sometimes I wouldn't come home
>couldn't stand that shit
>never had a friend over at my house
>was always too ashamed
>became the biggest liar in class
>I told anything but the truth in order to cover up what was going on at home
>absolutely zero social skills because of my parents' constant bullshit
>one day parents have the worst fight yet
>grab the largest kitchen knife and go in the room
>hold the kitchen knife up to my chest
>threaten to kill myself if they don't stop fighting
>I was only 9 years old when this happened
I hope they both get fucking cancer and die a slow painful death. I thought moving out would make me happy but I'd been living on my own for 4 years and I still think about the constant screaming, broken furniture and shame like it was yesterday.
I just remembered this story.
>be 6 years old
>just moved into new co-op
>all the kids are older and mean to me
>Prob bc i was the only negro
>didnt help that i had behavioural issues
>they corner me one day.
>in a state of franticness i whip out my dick
>all of them wretch and i run home without my pants
>mom beats the shit out of me bc they were nice pants
pic unrelated btw
>>28735850
haha you're fucking lame
>drama/ music fag at age 14
>in a school play, part of the chorus
>some guy with a minor role calls in sick, I volunteer to do his part
>super enthusiastic during my line, some people laugh (it was supposed to be kind of comedic, was playing a dumb jock)
>really proud of myself
>next day on MySpace, looking at one of the girls profiles from the play
>see a conversation on her page between her and the guy I replaced
>they were laughing at my performance and he said he heard I was "pathetic"
>nomoreselfconfidence.jpg
my parents got divorced and I never made any real friends
the end
>fell in kindergarden,
>discover i have Osteopetrosis
>break leg in kindergarten, spent almost a year in a wheelchair/on crutches
>almost missed all kindergarten
>break leg 2 times during elementary/ primanry whatever you aemricans cann school for kids under 16
>one of the breaks took 2.5 years in wheelchair
>basicly missed out on my entire teenage period
now im constantly scared of falling, broke my arm falling out of my bed once too but that healed in 6 weeks, dont count toes or fingers anymore because they cant do jack shit about it in hospital.
thankfully ive never hurt my head yet
>>28736880
Damn that's fucking awful. I feel for you man, this is why I haven't taken my shirt off in public in about 5 years.
>>28737445
during the two and half year period
>had to go to the doctors every 2 weeks for exrays to check if there was progress
>been told "no sorry, cant risk you walking yet" every 2 weeks for 2.5 years
>couldnt get handicap aid because it wasnt a "permanent condition"
>couldnt get handicap parking license because it wasnt a "permanent condition"
>only had a cast on my leg for 6 weeks and so the rest of the time i was just normal looking in a wheelchair, and if you are normal looking in a wheelchair people asume your mentally retarded,
>literally only one guy, who wasnt my family or knew me talked to me like i was a normal person, he asked me how my day was going in a movie theater elevator
>>28737436
This mostly, except
>Family completely fucked in all ways and I"m exactly in the middle of it
>Don't even know who the fuck I am because I'm so different between friends and family that I'm literally two different people
>Lonely, no real friends, no one to date because I'm the only gay guy I know due to not being flamboyantly faggy
>Social and generalized anxiety
Life sucks
>>28737445
>have unmedicated ADHD
>parents never took me to doctors
>psychiatrists refuse to treat me because they think I am a drug addict
oh boy here we go
>be four years old
>parents arguing in kitchen
>open door
>mom is on the ground, dad beating her
>shut door
>apparently this happened all the time. mom left dad soon after, never saw him again
>age 12
>mom has cancer
>one day in the hospital she tells me the doctors have done all they can
>13th birthday soon
>in hospice with mom
>all she does is sleep all the time now
>everyone else in the room is just chatting
>sit alone watching her sleep
>her eyes open and machine starts beeping
>she's dead
>after that, sister is supposed to take care of me
>neglects me instead to be with her nigger boyfriend who abuses her
>be completely alone in the house for most of my life from the age of 13
>move out when I'm 18
>get letter one day
>it's mom's letter to me, my sister had kept it from me for some reason
>she tells me I need to be a brave boy like peter pan
>cry a lot
>>28735959
laughed so hard I coughed up phlegm
>High school junior year
>Get completely bullshit fresh out of college Chad history teacher
I'm talking like absolute normie trash when I say Chad, like take everything you know about normies and put them into a fresh out of college slightly muscular douche-bag haircut and clothing and you'd know him
>Do slightly above average in class, turn nearly everything in and get a good grade, never upset teacher, minded own business
>Sat with two nerd friends, none of us were ever too loud or interrupted anything
>One day have state test during school, finish early and go to third period, history
I'd like to mention that everyone but me and my two friends in that class were normies. Like, white girls with star bucks and iphone tier normies.
>Sit down and see almost no one else is in the room, still testing
>Just me, one of my friends, and a few normies
>WW2 film is on the projector, just some random b-movie
>Teacher isn't in the room yet
Will continue next post
>16
>have gf
>mum dies
>she can't deal with me being sad, dumps me
>>28735793
>>at cookout on Lake Michigan with friends family
>drunk guy tries grabbing his sister and throwing her off the 7~ ft seawall
>she struggles and he ends up throwing her like a foot and she slams on the concrete
>her top falls off
>saw my first real life boob
Good times.
>>28737701
cant handle the bantz aye cunt?
>>28737651
>Decide to get out deck of cards and play a quiet game of rummy since the film wasn't something we had been watching before that day and we were caught up on our work
>Teacher gets back in
>I start putting away the cards
>Friend decides to ask for the cards
>He takes them and says he's gonna organize them-not in like a "gimme" sort of way, just a casual "I'm bored, lemme just sort them" way
>Teacher asks us to put the cards away
>Okay
>Start putting them away
>While doing this I mumble to my friend, "I just don't get why we aren't doing work or something y'know"
>Teacher gets up from desk and sits down at our table
>"Do you have a problem putting those cards away?" Extremely passive aggressively, by the way
>"No, I'm putting them away right now"
>"What'd you say just then? What's your problem?"
>I just ask why we aren't doing some work or something, or at least allowed to do something more interesting than watch a random movie
>"I put the film on for everyone to watch, if I gave work out it wouldn't be fair to the class" extremely passive aggressive at this point
Completely dodging that I was asking why we couldn't just work on the goddamn assignment we got the day before
>He goes back to his desk
>I'm dumbfounded why I'm in the wrong for playing cards for a bit when the normies in the class have gotten away with failing, showing up late, interrupting the class, etc.
>Space out for a bit looking at wall, not movie
>Teacher looks at me and in the most rude way I've ever been addressed
>"If you're not going to watch the film I can just call your parents and tell them you're being disrespectful and unruly."
>Turn my head 60degrees towards the film and sit there astonished at how hurt I am by realizing how I'll never be able to beat the shit out of him for treating me like a bitch
>mfw normies will always win
>>28737766
This reminds me
>Senior year of high school
>EVERY fucking senior got to leave early
>School stuck me with a full 7 period day since I had transferred schools
>My last 3 classes were completely worthless and I did nothing in them
>School made me take them because fuck you
>Told the front office I do fucking nothing inside of class and I should be allowed to leave like everyone else
>It turns out one of my classes wasn't even going to be fucking required for graduation the next year after I graduated, but they still made me take it because fuck you
>I was in the office basically REEing at the guidance counselor
>She continues to be a cunt
>I started skipping my last 3 classes and only showing up at lunch period to makeup the work, which was literally almost nothing and it only ever took me like 10 minutes for all the classes
>Office calls me in
>They bitch I haven't been showing up even though I got all the work done and had A's in all the classes
>They make me do some shit program called "Attendance Recovery" at the end of the year
>Sit in library with Chads and Staceys who skipped class to do Chad and Stacey activities
>I skipped just so I could get out of that hellhole
>Literally sleep through recovery
>On the last day of school I tell my guidance counselor her job is meaningless and her and every other government worker wonder why our school system is so shit as they stick students with retarded, meaningless classes because fuck you
>>28737943
I feel you. During high school I had all of my credits done by the end of junior year, besides one year of english and current world problems.
When I was signing up for next years classes I was told I had to choose 5-6 classes, and the most I could shave off was one period in the morning or one period in the afternoon as a "late start/early release" thing
I spent two weeks trying to get that counselor to realize how bullshit it was that I had to sign up for classes I didn't fucking need, yet they made seniors make a project on how the classes they took guided them to their career
It's bullshit.
>>28734564
>be 10
>been friends with this guy since we were babies
>he grows up a chad
>his eleventh birthday
>me, him and about 6 chad friends
>he owns huge property
>we all are sucking on zooper dupers
>one of his cunt friends pisses in the wraper and tips it on me
>i get mad
>start swearing
>they get angry at me
>im the one they get fucking mad at
>jump in his pool to get piss of me
>they get mad again
why the fuck are people so cruel?
>be 5 or 6 maybe younger
>be in early 1990's gym class, kids wearing nothing but our vest and underwear
>i had probably had skid marks
>literally no idea how I made friends with this girl named Charlotte
>we would tickle each others dirty bare feet
>feet covered in dirt and grime from gym floor
>at 8 years old, she asks me out at a rollerblading club
>i say "ew, girls are gross" and reject her
>at 11 she becomes a slut, flashing her pussy to other kids
>never speak to her again ever
>i'm now a 28 year old virgin and that was the only girl who ever asked me out and liked me
>foot fetishist with an attraction to children
>be like 13
>birthday
>invite all my friends
>mom and sister prepared snacks, a cake etc
>only 1 kid came
>current year
>i dont have friends
>>28734879
why were you scared?
>>28738133
>we all are sucking on zooper dupers
Is that what kids call sucking each other off?
>>28738223
its an ausfag iceblock
>>28734680
I guess you could say you threw the book at him
My whole life has been fucked up...
1-6
> Mom introduces me to men she cheats on my dad with
> I once mention my dad, she tells me in the car ride home that I am an embarrassment to her
> Standing by my parents at a bbq she's talking to her friends, no children at the bbq, I try to say something my mother shouts at me for talking too loudly and being annoying, tells me to go sit inside the strange house alone
> develop a general fear of speaking in groups on people
>>28734767
>>9 years old and breastfeeding
>sexually harassed by a bunch of 14yo girls when I was 10
nah but that's not the reason probably
>>28738278
Cont.
7-15
> Parents never give me attention
> in grade 5 I go for an operation thinking I will get attention
> I am in a wheel chair for 3 months, no one visits me
> if I want food or go to the bathroom I have to crawl down stairs. No one helps me
> I ask my mother to talk to me because I've been so alone
> she tells me that she has a life
> she tries to commit suicide by taking sleeping pills, I clean her vomit and try to keep her awake she blames me for ruining her life by being born alive
>>28734564
>Mom did meth when she was pregnant with you
>That's why you're the way you are
I'm like halfway autistic so it kind of makes sense
I'm not a robot though due to good genes and studying human interaction, some kind of autism is definitely here though
>>28734923
yeah man, close call
>>28735325
ok maybe kill yourself
>>28735521
They were married, had sex and had me as a result
>>28734901
She probably got molested as a kid. MONKEY SEE MONKEY DO.
wandered onto the internet and discovered porn when i was like 6, and that was that. ever since then i felt dirty on the inside, like i had a secret that would freak out everyone around me. i felt this way back when i was a 10yo just looking at pictures of boobs, but later i developed plenty of fucked up fetishes to make it a self fulfilling prophecy too.
>>28735850
Jesus that's so Freudian
>>28736155
>social experiment
Youtube ruined this term for me
>>28734564
apparently as I was told as a baby I simply refused to suck my moms tit, I literally fucking cried and screamed if she did tried, which basically forced me to drink supplement and separate myself from her in a sense.
Tho i cant remember it myself does it count?
>beaten almost each day from age 4 to 19
>raped by my blood father at 11 and 12 3 times
>never told anybody because i was scared it would break apart the already shambles of a family i had
>my dad starts to cheat on my mother
>after a year of raising me on a string income she has a stroke and gos blind in her right eye sees less in her left
>i take of my mom now she has surgery for her left eye this Tuesday
>i still have not told anybody about me being raped by my father and i cant tell my mother now because with all this she now has high blood pressure and will most likely have to go to the hospital if i tell her
>but since i was "asleep" when he did it he does not know that i know and i am forced to talk to him almost everyday because my mother tells me to get over being beaten by him and i cant move out and leave her alone
>>28736191
Guess you could say.... You weren't the model student
>>28737701
Why the duck do normies do this
A girl I'm seeing was going out with a guy for 2 years and he broke up with her cuz her mum died of cancer
i never had a big traumatic event, just a bunch of small ones that slowly piled up
>>28734564
Not hugely traumatic but pretty shit
>be doing camping trip expedition thing
>with males in my team
>we start smoking grass rolled with map as a joke
>almost everyone is doing it
>one annoying dumb kid thinks he's exceptionally cool because of it
>friend rolls one
>they offer for me to smoke it first
>aw thanks, maybe everything will be o-
>turns out my friend plucked his pube and put it in
>they screamed to the all the groups how I was smoking pube
>he was the one who plucked his pube and put it in why the fuck am I being criticised
>everyone laughs at me
>almost every day people give me weird looks and make jokes
>killme.jpg
>be 8 - 9 yo
>watching television with family
>my mom brings up something about mortgage
>dad gets visibly mad but still watching tv
>mom insists worried
>me and my two siblings get tense
>dad interrupts her
>"shut the fuck or you'll see"
>mom keeps on
>dad ignores her with an angry look
>she then starts yelling at him for buying a tv and getting in debt with credit cards instead of paying mortgage, how is he unemployed because he doesn't want to work in something humiliating after making decent money and how she only carries the family as a wageslave
>they start to discuss
>louder and louder
>mom defends herself
>all of sudden, dad throws the tv remote at her head
>she's sobbing and leaves the room
>go upstairs because too scared
>hear my bigger sister histerically scream
>go downstairs
>see mom on the ground while my dad hits her; she fights back and both screaming horrible shit at each other
>can't recall what happened later
It was so shocking as a kid that I didn't even remember that for a very long time, until:
>years passed; family is less shit
>cleaning my room
>find something beneath all the shit
>a diary
>my fucking diary
>open it
>cringe at the pages full of corny crap but smile at the same time because of the typical innocent happy thoughts of a child
>but then I see this one page
>there's just one sentence in a shaky handwriting
>"dear diary... this is the worst day of my life"
>3-4 yo
>ridding down my street on a pink toddler plastic bike
>pass this house with the front door open
>inside a group of older kids are talking
>they all start laughing
>think they're laughing at me
>go home crying
>>28734564
>be me
>7th grade
>get bullied and made fun of a lot
>get tired of it
>start fighting back
>bullies all hang out with each other
>have math with 4 of them
>one day they're standing out in the hall talking and shit
>walk by them to go sit down
>they come in, bell rings, teacher still out in the hall
>one of them keeps kicking my chair while standing up
>stand up ready to fight him
>they all jump me and beat the shit out of me
>whole class laughing
>already wasn't popular
>get up, walk out, go to principal's office
>tell the principal I was going to bring a gun to school and kill them
>seen her a lot and she liked me, and offered my Mom to put me on home bound
>home bound was where you met a teacher once a week at a local library, an alt version of homeschooling for delinquents and pregnant girls
>get put on it
>don't interact with kids until literally 12th grade second semester
>tried going back before but couldn't handle it
>barely handled it then
That fight ruined me. It took away what little confidence and pride I had. Being around no one but my Mom and her boyfriend who hated me didn't make it better.
>join Army at 17, ship out at 18
>hate it as much as I hated school
>get bullied by my platoon
>get in fights in the bay
>hate the kids there with me more than everything else
>go to sick call
>tell them I'm fucked in the head
>go home
Not even going to mention how hard it was to get in because my JROTC teacher kept telling recruiters who came to pick up my transcript that I was fucked and not to enlist me. Guess he was right.
>be me
>be 15
>girl i like in maths class
>stupid chad classmate messing around, "hey anon, you like her right?" proceeds to try and set us up as a joke
>she turns round and says "you know he's only joking right?"
>i nod, but secretly die inside
>>28735372
The old man was probably only joking
>>28734564
Not really a story but around high-school I stopped having friends.
I was a giant normie in primary school, heaps of friends, stacies hung out with me and stuff.
High school, I sat in the corridor and played on my phone all interval and lunch time.
It's not fucking fair, how come other people can make friends, but nobody wants to hang out with me?
>>28739665
>watching a movie with friends
>friend say hey [girl] would you ever date anon?
>she laughs and says ew no like i'm not right there
>>28739871
she was probably just embarassed
>>28739945
nah. you had to hear her tone to know..
i didn't have a crush on her or anything but it still hurt me.
>6th grade, 11 years old
>2nd week at new middle school, no friends but optimistic
>School plans swim day at local pool for all 6th and 7th graders
>Love swimming so I am excited to go
>Day comes, go to pool in buses
>Live in small town, so local pool is kind of poorly built
>Boys changing rooms is big open room with benches on walls, and some showers in the corner
> Have to change infront of everyone else
> Don't really mind because I have been to the pool before and get myself changed with a towel wrapped around my waist
> Notice some 7th graders looking my way and giving me some angry looks, they whisper something to each other and go to the pool in their own group
>shrug it off and get into the pool, have a nice swim.
>pool staff bring out big inflatable crocodile which is used for a wrestling match, king of the hill style
>successfully get onto the crocodile and eagerly wait for my next opponent
> it was one of the 7th graders, he charges me and I dodge him, I turn to see 2 more of his friends climbing on
>he gets behind me and puts me in a headlock, he is easily twice my size
>his friends start kicking and punching me as I am being strangled, desperately trying to get free
>lifeguard calls them off and they shove me into the water, laughing
>I surface and cough my lungs out, gasping for air since I was just strangled
>can barely climb out of the pool because of pain
> sit on edge of the water and look over to see them getting in trouble with teacher because of what they did to me, they look over at me and one flips me off, I ignore it and get back into the water
>spend rest of swim time on my own, out of fear of being attacked again, actively avoid other people swimming
>bell goes off and we are all called to get out and get changed
>freezing my ass off as I make my way to changing room
cont.
>>28737586
that was pretty sad man
not so much childhood ~teens~
>in computing class
>sit next to weird dude
>he is browsing the old 4chan archives
>what the fudge is this anon
>its r9k
>start reading funny autism stories
>dam this is funny as fuck.jpg
>go home
>go on r9k everyday for the next like 7 years
>>28739945
like that excuses treating another human being like shit
>>28739871
I feel your pain brother, roasties are cruel.
>>28739968
yead iktf man. Similar thing happened to me except i had a crush on her. She started picking on me later on because she though i was mentally handicapped. Jokes on her though she ended up staying behind a year
>>28734564
>in military university being totally alone
>finding a close friend after months
>getting too much close which spending most of our time together
>in summer camp
>in bathroom together
>try to shave his face then he told me that I wanted to fuck him
>I didn`t have that kind of feeling and he just wanted to make fun of me
>but I couldn`t again to talk to him or talk to any female
> I couldn`t get rid of thinking about him as I saw him every day
>and can`t communicate with any other human like before
>>28740048
cont.
>get inside and showers are full at this point, decide to skip hot shower to get changed
>taking swimshorts off with nothing but a towel wrapped around my waist
>7th graders start whipping me with wet towels, aiming for my ass and dick
>four of them are doing this to me, they are laughing as I yell at them to stop it
>have tears in my eyes at this point, please just stop for the love of god
>the ringleader of the group tells them to stop and he comes over, twice my height, spits in my face and shoves me onto the ground
>everyone in the changing room is laughing at me being humiliated, giving this asshole an ego boost
>I stand up and they begin to whip me again, I slip and my towel falls off, everyone sees my naked 11 year old body and starts laughing hysterically
>crying at this point, pick up my towel and try to ignore it as much as I could
>7th grade retarded kid with down syndrome sees this all happening, literally has some kind of rash covering all around his mouth, boogers and drool too.
>he walks up to me, I am scared because he is way taller than me, guess he saw what happened and wanted to get some laughs, too.
> he grabs my crotch and shoves me backwards, I am speechless
>all the boys in my grade and grade above me are laughing at me
>I am bawling my eyes out and grab my clothes, put a towel around my waist and run out of there. I go to a toilet stall, lock the door and sit on the toilet seat, sobbing
>finally get changed but stay in the stall until they have all gone
>the 7th grader and his friends start pounding on the door laughing and mocking me
> stay quiet until they go away
> eventually leave, I am the last person on the bus
>sit next to teacher on bus
>stay silent out of fear
This same fucking kid bullied me for the rest of middle school and into high school. He left school last year and is training to be an athlete. He has a girlfriend who loves him aswell.
I am currently 200lbs, 6'0 and on r9k. I fucking want to die.
>>28740314
fucking horrible
sorry to hear that
>>28740152
>try to shave his face
Wtf??? Is this for real?
>>28737550
Then di a test dipshit
Adhd coaches are a Thing.
T. I am following an adhd course and use Ritalin
>>28738304
>>28735359
Us robots often have dysfunctional relationships with our mothers. My mom used to dress me in the morning and wash me in the bath until I was 13.
>>28737586
How you holding up :(
>>28734564
Hot chicks asked if i was a virgin and if i ever kissed, and then they wanted to make me lose it but i was pussy. and my face turn red and now it turns red every time i see any girl even remotely hot.
>>28738877
Fuck me that's depressing. Wish I could hug you ;_;
>>28740070
yeah :/
>>28741813
I'm 24 now and I want to kill myself every day
>>28740314
Why does the world allow terrible people to succeed?
I saw this thread and it was depressing bringing to mind all the things that happened to me as a kid. Now I read the thread and its even more depressing because you're all listing one incident when things that are worse then a lot of these things happened to me over and over again....and they are a variety of things like child abuse, parents fighting, peer humiliation and bullying at school, bullying by teachers etc
>>28737586
Hi Anon. This is my post >>28742186
and I just wanted to say I hadn't read your post yet when I posted it. I feel like I have nothing to complain about now but I'm not saying that to make you feel bad.Your post reduced me to tears. And this one as well
>>28738877
its similar to the things that happened with my parents but the violence wasn't nearly as bad. It was that last line that got me
>>28742790
also this post >>28740314, I wasn't reduced to tears but nothing this bad ever happened tome
>>28742790
>and I just wanted to say I hadn't read your post yet when I posted it. I feel like I have nothing to complain about now but I'm not saying that to make you feel bad.Your post reduced me to tears.
true it could always be worse. either of could have been born in a war torn arab shithole and got beheaded by abdul before our 16th birthday
this thread deserves a bump
and I got muted for 2 seconds for bumping it
>>28743935
I'll post
> 6 years old
> Tell mom i should just kill myself because i didnt get my way
> She scoffs
> Go to my bedroom closet and strangle myself with a belt
> Repeat for years
> Don't realize how fucked up it was until after high school
Really explains a lot of my experiences throuh middle and high school. Mental illness sucks.
>>28735215
It's depressing that this is exactly how it is in the adult world too.
>single mom
Should I continue?
>tfw born to single mother
JUST
>junior hs
>chad slaps my face into the board
>they recorded it
>>28737621
Here is reply. I need to be original, but I am not. What do you expect Mr. Hiroyuki?
>live with who I think is my dad and my mother
>not aware he's not my real dad, real one did a runner
>one day I'm told he's not my real one, sad
>they have an argument one day
>leads to my fake dad strangling, trying to kill my mother
>little brother notices and he stops
>they divorce
>living with my single mum for rest of life until not long ago
now I'm a spineless, work shy mental wreck
pretty sure my dad was abusive too, all I remember was him being aggressive and a real cunt, tyrannical
what a life
probably not as bad as some people here though
>mom had me at 32
>caesarean
>AT 9 MONTHS
THX FOR FUCKING UP MY DEVELOPMENT
>>28735122
share the story with us, I promise it'll make you feel better!
>>28735122
post it faggot
>supplant the robot
>>28737621
Fuck you now I have to post ITT
tl;dr some people shouldn't be allowed to have kids
>>28734564
>be me, 5 or 6 years old
>always wake up with underwear pulled off and blanket strewn about
>not even sure if it was mom or dad because both were sexually fucked up
>listen to Law and Order SVU blaring from the living room long into the night
>mom and dad are swingers who forced me to play with other couples kids instead of just paying for a babysitter while they went out of town to go fuck in dungeons and shit, a lot of them were attention-starved bullies who sexually fucked with me, hold me down and pull off my clothes, grab at me, no forced penetration just molestation
>become middle school beta who gets sexually messed with at parties, including a particularly bad house party where a crowd of girls pulled off my clothes and molested me while others took pictures
>grow up to be basically asexual, afraid of everyone for good reason, touch-repulsed, i even hate masturbation because it reminds me of being molested and the fear and anxiety it caused me
>>28735795
why did they separate you and your bro?
>>28734564
>be 11 years old
>had recently moved with mom and stepdad
>don't get to see my dad anymore
>stepdad got mad at mom one night and began beating her
>she screamed for help
>I just hid in my room and cried while it happened
Oh fuck I didn't want to remember this. It happened more times than once but this time was the first so it stuck out to me.
>transfer to public in 5th grade
>best friend from old private school transfer with me
>after a couple of weeks he starts joining in with the other bullies
>bullied relentlessly by everyone, even teachers all year
>felt betrayed
>slowly started realizing the world is shit and people are good God-fearing people like I grew up to believe
>bullied into high school
>become more and more jaded over the years
>harden my heart towards everyone, push everyone away, can't trust anyone
>now I'm 20, alone, on r9k, and a blossoming alcoholic
This is the biggest problem with the modern generations. We were told at young ages that we could be anything, and that everyone will be our friend if we just try. And then reality hits like a truck, and those of us who can't handle it turn into steel from all the feels.
>>28735505
I remember in high school I would say hi to random girls on the street they would either say hi back or just ignore me
If they ignored me my edgy friend would begin to heckle them
But I always stopped him
>>28745366
>even teachers
got any examples of their bullying? I've never seen anything like that
>born with autism
wooooooooooow this game is fucking bugged what was I supposed to do I pressed the buttons
>>28745278
>I just hid in my room and cried while it happened
there was nothing you could do
don't be so hard on yourself
>have a crush on this thick blonde w/ huge ass
>also have crush on her sub-Arabic friend
>talking to Arab on facebook
>ask if blonde would go out with me
>she says no
>I say it was a joke anyway
they both knew that was a weak defense and I cried myself to sleep after realizing just how shit my life is
to this day still no gf
>>28745498
Not him but when I was in 6th grade there was a kid that got bullied by just about everyone. The teacher didn't exactly bully him but she did get testy with him and wasn't that supportive either. I didn't know him that well and I was the only kid from his class who went to his birthday.
>Dad "asks" me to help him build a shed in the backyard
>Hard work, lifting huge ass pieces of wood and shit
>Dad makes me stand on the ladder and hold the wood up while he aligns it from the bottom
>Do this for about an hour in the hot summer sun
>Start struggling to hold the giant pieces of wood, get tired and start letting it down
>Dad gets pissed off and pulls me down from the ladder
>Tells me from the ladder and says "I know finishing this doesn't mean shit to you, but it means something to me so you get your ass in gear."
>Acts like I was getting tired on purpose
>Hold back the urge to sock him in the fucking face, he had never pissed me off that much before
>My older brother got home later and I asked him to take over
>Dad again starts bitching that it is my job or some shit
>Walk away because I was on my last rope and tell my brother he can take care of it
>Later on my dad "apologizes" by saying he was just frustrated and that somehow justifies the shit he said to me
>This happened pretty much every time he'd ever "ask" me or my brother to help him, he'd instantly flip the fuck out when he realized something would be hard and acted like it was our fault
I blame literally everything on him. Abusive, both verbally and physically. My brother was overweight as a kid and my dad made him cry because he insulted him over it. Then he wonders why I don't want shit to do with him now. My brother for some reason still talks to him, I have no idea why.
>>28745498
My math teacher would hold me after school to give me extra work, which is fine since I was struggling a bit. But she would just sit there and call me stupid, incompetent, etc. because I wasn't at the same level as the other kids. She never offered help, just degrading comments the whole time which didn't help with my already non-existent self-confidence due to all the other bullying
>>28745849
Sounds like my dad. I also got "asked" to build a shed. And a pulley system for bikes. And repaint the whole house. He'd always fly off the handle when I got tired. Like, fucking hell, I was only 11, you can't expect me to build a whole shed in a fucking day
>>28745954
I was 18 when I had to build the shed, except it was fucking summer and we lived in Louisiana. I never got the urge to attack my dad until he did that shit to me. He'd beat me and even then I didn't feel the need to do it. I guess maybe as I got older I stopped looking up to him and thinking he could do no wrong and saw it for what it was. If I ever have a kid there is no fucking way I'd let my dad near him/her.
>>28745849
Reminds me a little of my own dad.
Ages 15-20 I spent every single weekend in my bedroom watching Red Dwarf, Blackadder and Monty Python getting drunk.
>Walking into school one morning
>Walk past a girl and two guys
>After I walk past I hear the girl say ''Ew he looks like a shrivelled up rat''
>Why
>In an Xbox live party chat with ''friends''
>Talking about something or other
>''Friend'' tells me to shut up and that I talk too much
>Start rarely talking on Xbox and in school too
>Was friends with this kid in HS
>We were pretty tight
>Sometimes fuck his shit up for banter
>It's sometimes kind of mean spirited
>He starts getting visibly more pissed off with me
>He hates Facebook and I keep teasing that I'll make a Facebook account of him
>He begs me not to
>Do it anyway
>Last straw for him
>Messages me with a long paragraph calling me out for being a piece of shit and a bad friend
>Try and do damage control but to no avail
>Friendship over
>Try many times to talk to him again at school, he always ignores me
>One time it feels like he's starting to like me again
>Overhear him say in class to someone ''I don't even like anon''
>It's incredibly awkward whenever I'm near him
>Takes a big toll on my self esteem
>Stop talking to the mutual friends me and him had
>Become a loner for a while
>Tfw I deserved all this
>>28745849
you sound like a spoiled little shit who whines about having to do a bit of work around the house instead of sitting infront of your computer all day. And the fact that your dad apologized on top of that... fucking grow up
>Being 14 years old
>Get cuck by a lesbian
>Depress a lot but move on after
>Being 15 years old
>Got expel of my own apartment because of my father's debt
>Get to a new town, live in a shitty hotel
>Stop middle school because of this, lost all my friends
>Being fucked up without any social contact during one year
>Get fat
>Father who've finally found a new apartment
>Get back to middle school but in a new establishment
>Try to talk to middle scooler for the first time since one year, stutters a lot, doing dumb thing
>Became the victim of bully
>Try to change in highschool
>Lose weight
>Seems to work
>Few weeks later, doing dumb shit again, stutters a lot again
>Get a bad reputation, until the end
I'm in college now but without any IRL friends,
>>28735215
>One of the key moments I realized that humans behave very similarly to animals, and can be controlled in a herd-like mentality
I noticed that exact thing whenever our teacher would bribe us to be obedient with 1 fun-sized piece of candy per person. I used to think "Come on guys... you buy more candy than that at lunch every fucking day. And when the candy dude isn't there you don't care at all."
>>28746355
The thing is my dad would always do shit like that, then say "Sorry, I was mad" as if that changes what he'd say to me. Everyone gets frustrated, but to literally get mad and immediately default to taking it out on your kids as punching bags, THEN apologize as if nothing happened is bullshit. Saying sorry doesn't make up for shit, all it is is an admission that you did wrong, it does not in any way rectify what you did.
>>28738325
Sounds hot. Got any details?
>be 15
>everything going okay, have gf been dating for about 2 1/2 years
>friends with the nerds/other weird kids in HS. at least i don't eat lunch in the bathroom anymore
>suddenly one day i absolutely do not want to walk into the school, stopped dead in my tracks at the front door
>scared shitless of people all of a sudden, can't even talk to people over the phone for pizza whatever
>drop out
>gf breaks up with me shortly after, tells me she doesn't love me anymore
>have been a shut in neet the last decade
it wasn't 'one' thing yea but it all happened in a 1 month span, haven't recovered since. i feel like i just 'broke'
>reading all these stories
>painful memories start to come up
Why couldn't I just be a normal person?
>>28745849
>>28746018
is this some fucking joke? after reading some of the shit people are saying in this thread and you think what your going through is hard. You're 18 and you think that holding a piece of wood for your dad so you can make his job easier is "unfair" and that you felt like "hitting him in the face". Since i was 13 i'd spend about 5 hours every day working in the woods with my father doing a n adults work when summer came around. It's about time you got out of that bubble of yours. Your dad seems like an ok guy that has to deal with spoiled brat
>Can we go to McDonald's
>NO...
>there's food at home
>>28746439
he shouldn't even apologize. He should have given you a slap which he has probabily never done
>>28746594
>Your dad seems like an ok guy
Lets go down the rabbit hole then, friend.
>Be sophomore in high school
>Brother makes bathroom filthy
>Dad asks me to clean it
>Say no because I didn't do it
>Dad says it is my chore
>Say I will switch chores with my brother but I'm not cleaning up his shit mess
>Dad beats me until I say I will clean it
>Weeks later dad "asks" me to spread mulch in the garden
>Get pissed because my brother's job was to pull weeds and mulch stops weeds from growing, I was basically doing his job for him
>Dad tell me to "quit whining, life isn't fair"
>Explain life would be fair if he wasn't one of the people who made it unfair
>Get beaten, still refuse to do it out of principle
>Mother eventually has to force my brother to do it because she sympathized with it being bullshit and she knew my dad would never admit he was wrong
I've got plenty more stories if you want them. My dad has constantly asked for my help and I never fucking hesitated. I'm not some prissy bitch who has never worked in the sun a day in his life. And I'm not 18, I'm 21 and have moved out.
Your dad sounds like a good man. I bet he never beat you or screamed in your face when you helped him. Be thankful you had a man as a father and not some bitch who used his kids as punching bags for his own frustration.
>>28746300
You sound like an annoying cunt
>be 10
>friend invites me over
>we argue cause he wants to stay at home and watch tv while I want to go to the park and play soccer
>after a while I ask if I can use the toilet
>go to the kitchen instead
>his mom had just baked a pie
>decide to piss on it as revenge
>come back to my friend
>sneaky bastard.jpg
>after a couple hours go home
>his mom calls my mother, angry as fuck
>my mommy forces me to apologize
>had to change school afterwards cause I kept on getting bullied
>>28746736
ok my bad. But your initial post did make you sound like some spoiled kid
>>28746864
How would they know you pissed on the pie?
>>28746907
Piss has a pretty recognizable smell, so I guess it was pretty simple for them to notice.
>be me
>born into some shitty family
>dad abused mum all the time
>police did jack shit
>he was a massive dickhead
>mum finds love with new guy
>movehouse.gif
>all is well for a while
>get to primary school
>start being bullied daily, called the 'weird kid' for no reason
>harassed and beat up a bit
>wanted to kill myself alot, never really told parents
>called fat so much even though I wasn't really, now I have self esteem issues
lots of other stuff this is just a few pieces that maybe made me into a malformed depressed piece of aids.
>>28734564
>Be me, sixteen years old
>All throughout childhood I was bullied by my dad
>Always just brutally insulted me, occasionally smacked me around. Once choke slammed me to the ground and made me drink half a bottle of soap because I swore at my brother
>Crippling self esteem issues, have been very depressed for years
>Don't have any friends anymore because secondary school ended and I went to a different college
>Hadn't slept for a week because of crippling anxiety.
>Had completely run out of any drugs or money to get anything
>I just broke down one morning and just couldn't stop crying
Parents were away on vacation somewhere. Often are without me.
It's hard to describe what it was like. I just couldn't think properly. My whole existence was pain.
>Screaming, crying, literally pinned to the fucking ground
>Tried crawling to the kitchen to get a knife to cut my throat but it took too much energy, so I just cried into the floor like a little bitch.
All I wanted was just someone to tell me I'd be okay. That was all. Just to let me know everything was gonna be okay.
>Suddenly feel a food smacked into my head
>It's my alcoholic brother
>"Stop crying and fucking stand up"
>Literally can't move or talk. I'm trying but I really can't.
>He boots me again, then again and again
>I get up and punch him over and over in the face
>A moment of clarity comes over me. This is it. I can finally do it.
>Stop punching him and grab a sharpened steak knife
>Slice both wrists as fast as possible, two deep cuts on either end
>Brother rushes in and tackles me to the ground. Ties a towel around my arms to cut off the circulation.
>Starts telling me he loves me, he's sorry
>I ask him to please let me die. Please just let me die.
>Keeps me pinned down because he's a fat piece of shit.
>Pass out from exhaustion. I already know I've failed it.
>Wake up in an ambulance
>The whole ride the two normie paramedics are lecturing me about how it's bad to kill yourself (I'm serious)
Cont.
>>28746941
But how did they connect it to you? I get how they noticed it, but what in their mind made them say
>"The pie smells like piss, it was anon!"
>>28747003
Me and my friend were home alone.
He wouldn't piss on the pie his mom made, plus I was the only one to leave his bedroom while we were there.
>>28735477
My mom did this I nearly drowned but I'm actually a pretty good swimmer now.
>>28746986
>Look you obviously have a brother that loves you otherwise he wouldn't have called us
>Anyway, your cuts aren't deep. I've seen worse. You obviously didn't mean it.
They literally said this word for word. Only now does it hurt. Like they were rubbing it in. At the time I couldn't really feel or think.
>They make me walk from the ambulance down the road to the hospital in my bare chest with only swimming shorts and socks.
>People staring at me all throughout the hospital, with my bandaged wrists and naked body.
The utter and complete shame is like nothing I've ever experienced.
I don't want to write about this anymore. It hurts too much. But guess what?
Nothing changed. They wouldn't check me into a mental hospital. I never got help. Two years later and I've worked on myself hard. I've learned to shrink inside to ignore family. I've worked out, gotten fit, meditated a lot, focused on school, gotten good grades. Reconnected with my friends. But you know what?
Nothing fucking changed.
I'm still empty. I still feel worthless and no matter what I do I don't think it will ever change. I'm empty inside. This constant digging pain in my chest never goes away.
Thanks for reading I guess.
>>28736676
>embarrassed, i tell her im a boy
Shit sent my sides into orbit
>Starting HS in city, private school, everyone is a snob
>90% of class are girls
>Break down every time I talk to them
>Best friend drops out
>Sounds like a harem plot but I'm sweating nervously everyday and because of this my stomach are always making rumble noises in class
>No one wants to talk to with me anymore
>Teacher always feel sorry for me
Recently I dropped out of college not because of being socially retarded like last, but just because I'm a failure.
>>28747114
I'm not entirely sure if you live in the United States, but if you do, the hospital is legally obligated to check you into the Mental Ward if you've had a suicide attempt.
>>28738615
Sorry to hear that anon, stay strong if you can.
>>28747172
>Stomach rumbles
I know this fucking feel, and it never failed, it always happened when class was quiet. Also, most of the school being women sounds like heaven to me. I know most of them would wind up sharing Chad, but even then if 90% are girls those are still way too good of odds to wind up single if you're at least half decent.
>>28747315
Did people around you react when it happened? There was a time I thought only I could hear it.
I have no story. Nothing seems to have contributed to me being the way I am. The most depressing thing of all is that unlike most of you there was nothing that damaged me, I had it made in life and I still managed to fail.
>went to private school
>raised in a posh area
>good parents who are still married to this day
>in line for a large inheritance
>potentially on the way to a good career in the law debt-free
>not completely hideous
>relatively intelligent or at least able to give off the impression to others
>no debilitating illnesses or conditions, not even a single known allergy
>managed even to have a single girlfriend for two years after meeting her through sheer luck
All that and i'm still unhappy and spend much of my time on 4chan. I don't even fit in with robots and I expect most of you will loathe me for the advantages I was born to. After I went to secondary school (middle school in the U.S) life just seemed to dip and I never managed to keep any friends. I didn't even get bullied, I was just that strange silent guy on the other side of the classroom that nobody wanted to talk to. Maybe the phimosis I used to have contributed to it, or the lack of friends.
>>28738615
>>28738348
Y'all are not alone. Thanks for sharing, robots.
>>28747352
Yes, I remember one case where the second my teacher stopped talking my stomach rumbled and the black people that sat next to me looked over and laughed. I started eating breakfast thinking that'd solve it, it didn't. Funny enough my stomach doesn't do it anymore now that I never am in public, maybe it was some anxiety thing.
>>28734901
remember that video with the russian teacher whos always touching the kids heads? maybe its like a thing over there
>>28735850
kikes wonder why people hate them
>>28734564
> dad stuck dick in mom's vagina
> shitty egg met shitty sperm
> egg became fertilized
> pieces of each parent's DNA combined into what would be mine
> mom probably fell a few times during pregnancy
> a couple months later I am born.
> the end
>>28745366
Sounds eerily like my own experience.
>tfw you once had hope and idealism for humanity and the world
>tfw you spend your days desperate trying to numb the pain however possible.
>15, high school
>overweight, short, glasses, red hair GENUINE PUSSY SLAYER
>its swim day, both sexes. i swim in shirt because embarassed
>afterwards, go up to girl i like and for some reason
>"i did it, i went for a swim" like a fucking toddler with the shirt wet and sticking to my flab
>why i chose to reveal my powerlevel right then and there ill never know
>somehow, im not actually a virgin and im pretty happy
jesus i nearly froze up retelling that horror
>>28746551
It's our curse. We must feel the brunt of the pain so that normies may be happy.
Maybe if we inflict as much possible pain onto normies, maybe we can be happy.
>>28735347
Jan from Gaymerny?
>>28747239
no, the UK. Mental health here is a fucking joke. A fucking bad one.
>>28747455
Fug, I hate how people laugh at things people can't help.
It is the anxiety, I don't get it anymore either because of not being in school anymore.
>>28747386
It's not the life that makes the robot, but the mind.
>>28747743
It still feels pretty awful and uncomfortable.
>>28746946
hold on anon, i know that feel.
>>28735215
Once in HS they elected me and my only friend in school as class presidents ad a joke to film our reactions (we were not running for it)
>>28735325
>person posts about parents dying
>"edgy"
get the fuck out of here, you underaged edgelord
>>28737766
was his name Mr Jacobs? I had a teacher like that
>school wide dodgeball tournament
>teachers allowed to participate but not many do
>he's on the Chad team, of course
>he's literally pegging nerds in the face with big red dodgeballs, just like the good old days
it was actually kinda funny
Lol you're a bunch of pussies. How the fuck can you be such a bitch that you let yourselves get bullied?
>>28748318
My school had zero tolerance rules. If you hit a bully back, you get expelled. Meanwhile the ones that start shit are immune because the school wants to protect their football stars.
>>28734564
>in class
>normal day
>start having a panic attack
>feels like im going to have a bad orgasm if you can imagine the feeling
>suffer for an hour and a half then leave class
>start skipping classes to avoid the torture
>fail school
>become NEET
>contemplate suicide daily
>>28740314
well you're a big guy, so you should turn that far into muscle and then put him in a wheelchair for the rest of his life
>>28746659
Don't cut yourself on that edge
oregano commentali
>>28745768
>30x28
nigga what
>>28745768
>using png instead of gif on micro res image
>>28735572
Not the same anon, but my mom threw me in the pool when I was three, and I also love swimming.
All these stories, all these feels. Thanks guys, it's sucks knowing how terrible this RNG world is, but we can feel together r-right? I hate this planet, I didn't ask to be born, I didn't want to be here, and I still don't. I wonder if there is other "intelligent" life in this universe, I wonder if humans are the worst compared to them all
