>that feel when every time you hug someone you cringe heavily internally because you know they can feel your tits
>that feel when you can't play music with people without your tits being revealed by your guitar strap
>that feel when you used to be in several regularly gigging bands playing multiple shows per week but you quit all that because it's too awkward to be this boygirl thing on stage
>that feel when anyone who spends any decent amount of time around you will eventually notice them because it's impossible to hide them 100% without using a binder or other uncomfortable means.
At least I can suck my own nipples I guess?
>justfemboyfeels
i am a closet mtf and i can say with at least 86 percent accuracy no one notices your tits and those that do just think they are 'bitch tits' no one cares, they only care about themselves.
Its so fucking cringy to hug with these booblets. I know they can feel the breast buds pressed in hard. Usually I am on top of it, and do a weird sternum hug thing that avoids the nipples
>tfw never get hugged.
>>6537079
Here's what I'm working with, the nipples are rather puffy unless they're hard, although at least they've rounded out over the years and quit being conetits.
>no one cares, they only care about themselves.
Oh I'm sure they don't care. I care. I'm the one who they hug and then go "lol he has boobs" in their head. Same when they notice them at all. They kek internally, and I have even gotten insulted to my face because of them by dickheads at my old job. They might not think about it much after, or ever again, but that has no bearing to me. What matters is the embarrassment in the moment.
I'm not some closet mtf who doesn't give a shit about their boymode and just dresses like a slob to hide them. I have the goal of actually looking like a cute faglet every time I get dressed, and I have to adapt that around boobs.
>>6537590
I think your boobs are nice, but I must be the weird one here.
>>6537590
another pic with different angle? because it feels like you just got the pic off somewhere online.
>>6537590
looks like a white version of rick ross
>>6537590
Son it is time to just become a girl.
>>6537757
IMO they are shit, not that I care.
>>6537765
Well I post that one here now and then because this board is SFW and it's hiding nipples without me having to block them out afterwards.
>it feels like you just got the pic off somewhere online.
How? It's a fucking smartphone picture lmao, I just don't see what about it could possibly give that impression.
You need to learn how to properly ask for proofs though. Another angle doesn't prove shit. Another pic doesn't prove shit. Another pic with a timestamp proves shit. You guys are too willing to accept things as reality without sufficient proofings. Here you go. I even laid on my back so gravity would help make it less flattering. If you like I can sit up and put on the same sports bra in the earlier photo and recreate it with a timestamp, if you want more conclusive proofs that that first pic I posted is indeed me.
Please don't tell me to clean my room.
>>6537781
I am 4% Portuguese, so sadly I'm not white. You know, one drop rule and all.
>>6538070
Maybe that person didn't care about proof and just wanted more pictures of your boobs.
>>6538093
Yeah almost certainly.
Story time.
>20 years old, HRT for a few years.
>31" underbust, 37.5" bust.
>Completely closeted and presenting as gay male until I can afford FFS etc.
>Need to do a presentation in front of university class
>Only wearing a thin hoodie over singlet and compression bra.
>Get up in front of other students.
>Realize there's a super strong draft in that part of the room.
>Blowing into me and silhouetting my clothes so that my bust is clearly visible.
>Face starts to redden, stammer out rest of presentation.
>Girls in front of class giggling.
>Leave, drop class, spend remainder of year working from home.
>>6538126
I remember you telling your story before in a femgen thread I think. Fuck I'm so glad I was done with uni before I started gormones.
>>6537173
>tfw I was a middle school student and girls would offer me hugs to cheer me up I guess (because they always said I looked sad). I would ask them why and they would say just because or something like that so I would only do it because I didn't want to be rude
>tfw during the hug I would just ask myself, "Why are we doing this?"
>tfw a girl offered to give me a hug (which I still didn't want) in the latter half of high school but that time I refused because I saw it as standing up for myself, which I had done very little of my entire life
>tfw I started feeling some strange sadness as I wrote this, maybe regret?
I seriously don't think I would have been like that if my parents had been open to the idea of having a transgender child.
>>6538223
;.; I have had similar happenings myself back in my school days. It does make me a bit sad to think back on refusing a hug.
>>6538126
Did you actually get ffs? I was like you but then I realized FFS wouldn't help me cause my face is too wide
>>6538315
It wasn't refusing the hug that is sad to me, it's that all of those offers and hugs meant nothing to me. Like I really didn't care because I was empty.
>>6538412
O fugg. Yeah that is pretty sad. How do you feel about hugs now?
>>6538347
No I'm still saving. I want to get each part of my face (forehead, rhino, jaw/chin) done by a specialist plastic surgeon so it's gonna take a while.
Imo having a wide face isn't a deal breaker in the same way that a long one is.
Why do you take title skittles then? I bet you love your boobs, "boy".
>>6537590
>be mtf that started hrt at 17
>hrt for two years so far
>femboy has infinitely better tits than me
I would do crazy things to have a chest like that :/
>>6538538
Why do you think I take them? Didn't want to become all masculine as I kept aging. Pretty much felt like shit seeing my youthful boyish looks beginning to slip away. I had seen what this shit does to trannies who take it, said "fugg it, I want to be smoother and cuter and I don't give a fuck about looking like an androgynous freak." So I ordered everything online and just started taking them, and went about my daily life as usual as if nothing was different. Figured I'd just go with it and see how it goes, I had no desire for kids, still don't, so I wasn't worried about permanent sterility if I had decided to back out. I liked what was happening to me though and began to get increasingly happy at what I saw happening and what I saw in the mirror. I slowly shifted into this androgynous boygirl thing. I was pretty straight acting before, that's shifted too, now I'm a maaaaaaasssssssssive faggot although I don't go over the top with the accent or anything, I just sound and act effeminate, not campy or flamey or obnoxious though. I won't lie though it does feel fucking weird, I constantly forget that I look like this even years in, it's like my brain is still running on the old body map, then I'll go "oh, yeah, I look like a heshe. lol this is weird" and keep going on with my day. It's just weird as fuck to think about what I've done to myself and exactly what I exist as. My expectations before taking the pills and the reality after taking them were very different. I didn't expect it to go the way it did or as far as it did with me still being totally cool with it. I have no desires to be a girl, but it's really enjoyable to me to be walking around as this strange rare androgynous creature, even if it has caused a fuckload of awkwardness and changed how people interact with me in a major way. I view it as a body modification, think like those people who tattoo themselves all over, except instead of ink I used hormones.
>>6538689
I'm sorry ;.;. Have you considered altering your hormone regimen/tried it already? Might give you a little boost at least.
Also you probably wouldn't want to ask which age I stared.
>>6538538
Additional info:
While tits do make it more difficult for me to choose clothing, cause discomfort from hiding them, and cause a bunch of awkwardness and all that other shit, I actually don't really mind having them. I disliked them at first but they've grown on me (well, both literally and figuratively). I like having them played with, I can't lie. Felt like a forbidden pleasure at first, I was super bashful in regards to anyone else seeing them and touching them for the longest time. But as with some other effects I've gotten more and more used to them over time and now I wouldn't ever want to get rid of them to be honest. It's weird as fuck, just like everything else, but I'm enjoying it and I see no reason not to. I still view myself as a male regardless and I see no reason why a pair of tits should stop that.
That said I'm still pretty self-conscious about them.
>>6538821
>I have no desires to be a girl, but it's really enjoyable to me to be walking around as this strange rare androgynous creature, even if it has caused a fuckload of awkwardness and changed how people interact with me in a major way. I view it as a body modification, think like those people who tattoo themselves all over, except instead of ink I used hormones.
Did your boobs give you a lot of good dicking?
>>6538865
If you aren't saving up for a double mastectomy you are a tranny in denial, sorry.
>>6538939
Jelly tranny detected? Don't be mad spread the love bro.
>>6538927
>Did your boobs give you a lot of good dicking?
Don't know if they lured anyone in but so far every guy I've been with has been very into them, which makes the dicking even better.
ITT: femboy makes jealous all
Way to go op. Rock dem titties.
>>6539845
;^)
On a scale of 1-10 how do you pass?
Gave pic?
>>6537072
Anon, you are my fetish. Move in with me and become my cute femboy spouse. We can just cuddle and read all day forever and then who cares about your breasts?
>>6543966
>On a scale of 1-10 how do you pass?
Do you mean as a guy or as a girl?
For the record I never really -try- to present/pass as a girl but it happens accidentally all the time until I open my mouth. My voice -forces- male passing thankfully. It is comically mismatched with my body.
Not that I'd do anything to change that.
http://vocaroo.com/i/s1KgvW5BBZ6a
>>6544137
I'm sorry but I'm already taken ;.;
>>6537072
Great pic, OP!
Just for clarification: You are taking hormones, grow breasts and identify as a femboy?
>>6545074
Yes. I'm having plenty of fun with it.
It feels like you're about to call me a repressed tranny or something. If that's the case, be warned, I am prepared to defend my honor.
>>6537072
>>6545340
You're a transsexual in denial.
Just kidding.
It's totally valid to take female hormones to have fun with it.
But don't go all sad putin about the fact, that you are actually growing breasts and have trouble to hide them. That's what female hormones fucking do, [spoiler]you fucking disgusting and retarded tranny in denial![/spoiler]
>>6545400
I accepted that this was a distinct possibility when I started taking these. I knew I'd grow -some- level of boobage. I thought I'd probably grow really little ones like most people do but nope, turns out the whole "genetics" thing is not just a meme.
The stuff I talked about in the original post is about as far as the downsides go as far as I am concerned. I know I could throw on a binder but [spoiler]I actually don't want to fuck up their shape[/spoiler]. Plus that doesn't seem too comfy. People knowing I have tits is an acceptable tradeoff. Adds awkwardness but also adds to the "is that a fucking guy or a girl OH GOD IT TALKED HOLY SHIT ITS A DUDE LOL. What the fuck dude his voice is deeper than mine" factor, which is something I actually like, despite the unavoidable awkwardness associated with it. It's nice to be this rarity.
>>6545511
Okay, now I get a little bit better, what you're into.
You're propably one of the very few, who takes female hormones and do n o t want big and noticeable titties. From what you've written, I hope for you, that your breast growth does not continue.
I also highly appreciate now, that you are calling yourself a femboy and not trans-whatever... if you called yourself "transgender" or even worse "transsexual", you would contribute to the idea of transsexuals taking hormones "just for fun".
>>6537072
Just put on a binder, stupid.
>>6545602
>I hope for you, that your breast growth does not continue.
At this point, I view it as "too late" and wouldn't even care if they grew bigger. I think they're basically done though, but who knows. I'm on cyproterone now (because spiro made me feel like shit) and it has been shown in rhesus monkeys to induce extensive lobluloalveolar development of the mammary glands. I have noticed some pains and additional rounding on cypro so far but I don't really know if it's really increasing in size overall still.
>I also highly appreciate now, that you are calling yourself a femboy and not trans-whatever... if you called yourself "transgender" or even worse "transsexual", you would contribute to the idea of transsexuals taking hormones "just for fun".
To call myself trans would be a lie, so I wouldn't ever do it. It is pretty lame that there are people doing it for similar reasons to mine, saying they're transgender, and spreading around the idea that trannies do it for fun.
>>6545977
You're cool, femboy. I like the way you respond to me and your opinions in general, because they seem to be quite elaborated.
I am mtf and had just a little breast growth by now. Maybe I should try cyproterone, if my titties stay small!
>>6546135
Aww thanks.
> Maybe I should try cyproterone, if my titties stay small!
Wouldn't hurt to try it now, don't know what you're on but there was just this weird and shitty body load that came with spiro which I didn't even realize I had until I came off of it. I had many negative side effects and they were just worsening over time, on top of this. Cypro made my skin better looking too, a bit glowier.
