How many of you were raped or molested in your youth?
No sexual abuse in my past.
None.
Molested by 2 different boys when i was around 10. Im a mtf these days.
>>6150232
details plox
>>6150250
This isnt fap material for you sorry
Never got diddled but sometimes I wonder if 4chan was a legitimate source of trauma for me.
I remember being like 11-12 and browsing all the gore threads, trying to desensetize myself as much as possible so I could be like badass anonymous.
I thought being a hikkikomori was the coolest thing, but what I really wanted was to be a troll. I thought trolls were the most badass people that existed and I strove to make myself a good troll. I'm still not a very good troll.
I even tried jacking off to loli a couple times because I thought it was really badass and tough to be a pedophile.
It was part of my aversion therapy. They said so you want to be a girl. Girls get raped. Then they raped me.
Got my dick sucked by my (still) best friend when I was like, 5
Repressed it only recently, probably a year ago. Now I'm a homo and he's straight as an arrow, doubt he'd even remember if I brought it up, not that I want to.
I was in a number of sexual relationships in elementary school
Broke all sense of trust and it took me until college to try having an intimate relationship again, which lasted for 3 years then exploded
>>6150327
Seems reasonable
>>6150327
that sounds like what happened to me.
only the person saying that was my grandma.
not my therapist.
either that or "then girls wear dresses. put this on and wait outside in the cold until your parents get home"
>>6150155
kill urself faggot
Not childhood, but early teens.When you already know you're not a boy, and you don't act like a boy, and for the most part have the emotional fragility of a girl, its really not a good idea to let your self end up in relationships "as a boy".
>>6150308
>why underage b&s should never be allowed anywhere near 4chan, the post.
>>6151526
Pretty sure 4chans average user base is like 16 years of age to be honest.
I started browsing /b/ when I was 12 too and have been here pretty much ever since.
>>6150308
>I even tried jacking off to loli a couple times because I thought it was really badass and tough to be a pedophile.
i can't stop laughing, halp please
>>6151537
so what you're saying is that you're 16?
>>6151588
No, I'm 23, I just can't form coherent sentences yet.
I had sex for the first time at 14 with a 24 year old woman while I was drunk and practically incapable of moving.
Almost instantly went from liking girls to being attracted by manly dudes.
Also went from wanting to get tall and be a muscly dudebro to realizing I'm a tranny early and staying thin, young and smol. Thank god I didn't give T enough time to ruin me.
>>6150155
Not a childhood thing, but when I was in my early 20s I got a call from a friend at 2am, he was hysterically crying saying he'd been raped and he didn't know what to do. Ended up picking him up and driving him to the hospital.
I don't know if he ever told his gf about it but they did break up shortly after. He got very depressed after it happened and killed himself a few years ago. I still feel like I could have/should have been able to stop him.
>>6151747
was he raped by a man or a woman? I'd be inclined to think that getting raped by a guy as a straight man would probably be way worse than being raped by a woman.
>>6151806
Yeah, it was another man
>>6151061
Oh the therapist didn't rape me. There was no real therapist. It was relatives. The therapist was just a preacher.
Humiliation was certainly part of the process.
>>6150155
yeeep :/
>>6150155
2face
I was molested on a school bus by a nigger chick and her latino friend. They liked to lick me and touch my dick. They often liked to say "Y'know how I LOVE Chinese chow mein, anon."
Dunno why they did that. Prolly cause I was known around school as the Gay Mute.
Not that I'm either. I found it really fun to draw dicks realistically.
i was raped by big macs and burger kings
>>6150155
My older brother raped me when I was around 4. It sucked, he's a piece of shit, and I don't talk to him.
best friend's dad raped me when I spent the night at their house once, never went back again, stopped being friends
>>6150308
I was 11 when I started going on 4chan, worst decision in my life so far.
>7 years later and I can't get away
was raped when I was 15.lot of people say i should have known better since i was drinking with a guy i had a crush on.
>>6152521
How do people even let themselves get to that point.
>>6161593
They're big-boned, of course.
I was
When I was around 7 I was sleeping over at an older kid's house because his dad was babysitting me for my parents or whatever, and he blackmailed me into doing stuff with him by saying "I'll tell on you if you don't!" (I hadn't even done anything, I was a dumb kid lol) so I did everything he said, we took "turns" and each turn I had to pick between eating his ass or sucking his dick (it was pretty big since he was like 14 or something) and then when it was his turn he would suck my dick or eat my ass. At the time it wasn't very enjoyable since I hadn't hit puberty yet but I don't feel traumatized by it now and I get hard whenever I think about it honestly so whatever
>>6162314
This reminds me of another story I read some years ago, about some guy who was molested by his uncle when he was around 6/7 years old but wasn't traumatized or anything like that and thought of it as really fond memories.
I used to bait pedos online all the time when I was a horny kid but I never got raped. Still not sure if it's cause I'm too ugly :(
There's probably a treasure trove of my underage nudes somewhere on the Internet lol
yup. From around the age of 9 I had two very close friends, one I had known since I was 3. Then this girl joined the school when we were around 12 and managed to get into our little group.
>bullying starts escalating by time we're 13, I was initally aggressive in reaction to it but I gave up
>starts molesting me at sleepovers when we're 14 until I'm nearly 17
>she would berate me all hours of the day until we 'had' to sleep next to each other
>while all this shit is going on I realise I might be bi and feel confused and disgusted by myself
i thought that it meant I enjoyed being molested by her, that she 'turned' me
>i come out to the group in a very roundabout way
>she refuses to speak to me again during school for a week
>i'm confused and furious that she won't respond to me at all
>then I'm summoned to a meeting with her, her guidance teacher and my own, seemingly out of the blue
>"what's going on between you two?" they ask
>she tells them that I molested HER all of these years and that I bullied her too
>I cant even respond, I'm in tears and frozen in anger
For the rest of the year at school teachers warned me, in front of the whole class, not to sit next to her. My friends side with her and I have to see my best friend for all of my life take her side. The whole school thought I'm this monster and I can never change it.
I've only begun talking through this with counsellors.
She was an evil little cunt.
>>6162822
ugh that is awful.
No abuse. Genderfluid, pansexual, assigned male, 30 y.o., white, if you're trying to gather statistics.
>>6162735
hey, me too. why do you think you did it?
My fantasy is to find an inexperienced weak teen im 26 which I would lure into blowing me and
>>6165183
I thought it was kind of fun. I don't think I'd actually hookup with any of them though lol
But I was surprised none of them even tried. It was just harmless camwhoring.
>>6162314
did u like it?
>>6165066
Bit old to be that speshul snowflakey, doncha think?
>>6150155
my stepbrother molested and raped me every weekend from when i was 6y/o to 12y/o
my family hates me now because they want me to cover it up, but it came up in my suicide note
oh, and also they hate me because i gave up being a god-fearing attactive masc guy to become a godless tranny bislut
>>6166023
stop making me feel shitty for using that pic to complain about my morning hair
>>6150308
I thought I was the only person that says diddle, haha. anyways, on 4chan it's true that despite being anonymous, we still develop a 'hivemind' mentality, a lot of people on here strive to impress people they've never met/never will meet, which is even more sad to be honest.
I did the same thing with gore, though, although to be honest it's helped me a lot as I'm a biochem forensics major and I don't think I would've been comfortable choosing this major if I weren't as comfortable with the idea of death as I am now. Guess I can thank 4chan for something
was physically abused by my dad, verbally and emotionally by my mom. my dad pulled a gun on us a lot of times and would threaten to kill us (he's mentally unstable and abuses alcohol/drugs) as well as call the police on us randomly by setting us up in situations if we made him mad
example: after my mom's brain surgery he threw his pills in front of her in the floor and called the cops, saying we stole them, and lied to the police about us trying to poison him...
we finally got away from him but he still uses my mom's alimony to threaten us, randomly taking money out so we can't pay the bills completely.
also grew up around a drug addict aunt who would invite men over and do drugs (one a convicted pedophile who later sexually abused a neighbor girl) while she was baby sitting me...so yeah, that's fucked me up pretty bad, although I'm working on getting passed it.
>>6156024
that was no excuse for him to do that to you, you deserved to be treated with respect, hopefully you're doing better
>>6154898
fuck...how are you coping with things?
>>6162314
some people are able to compartmentalize things well and realize they're not less for something like this happening, which I think is where most trauma from rape for victims occurs; the thought that you're somehow less or not worthy anymore. if you're able to realize it's not your fault, it's easier to heal. I wish more people were able to get past their abuse this way, but I know it's easier said than done.
>>6165066
does your name start with a G?
>>6151537
I'm 24 and I'll say I was here mostly when I was 16 and I left for awhile to reddit and then realized how fucking awful that place is. It's like this world where everyone speaks like "Hi, Bob! Well hey Neighbor!" to each other. It's creepy like the twilight zone.
This place is just an edgy cesspool mix of angst, love, and vitriol.
mtf
how many people molested a younger sibling in their youth? I did so before I knew what sex was, just once, but it's still the biggest regret of my life, even though it seems like nobody will ever know.
>>6166355
not a sibling, but when I was younger I forced a boy a year younger than me down and made him kiss me before I'd let him go. It might not sound extreme, but it's always stuck with me and made me sick to my stomach, since he obviously didn't want it and I was taking advantage.
yeah, i was about 8 (can't remember desu), and this girl who lived across the street from me started grooming me (i think she was 15) she started playing "games" with me (she'd always make me pretend that i was a lesbian and she was an innocent straight girl i was trying to corrupt her) then she started emotionally abusing me and hitting me, one time she threw me at against a (parked) car, another time she gave me "food", i remember, it was uncooked ramen noodles with the flavour packet rubbed in. I tried to eat it but i hated it so i politely declined (she explicitly stated before that i could say no if i didn't want it) so she started screaming at me and calling me an ungrateful little pig until she slammed my head into the table. She also tried to shove an entire tin of cookie dough down my throat :/
she raped me three times, and did other stuff other times (way more, i cant actually remember any of it, except she'd force me to fellate a texta occasionally).
idk, i hate that i was so weak and stupid to let it happen, and i wonder sometimes if thats why im a bi trans man.
>>6166327
Yeah reddit is fucked up. Someone shares some stupid story about being raped and everyone says how sorry they are for them. I dont understand it
after girl scouts i went to the home of one of my friends and they would want to play this weird game where we'd pretend to play prostitutes belonging to pimps and some things happened and i actually tried to have my mom make up excuses why i couldn't stay after 2 pm on sundays so i didn't have to go... i know that's not rape but i never actually wanted to do it and i'm not sure how much that is responsible for the fact i have vaginismus now. i also am diagnosed with borderline now but i think that has more to do with bullying in elementary school (i had glasses and braces at some point and my parents wouldn't really take care of my appearance, besides i was an easy target, i would just accept everything thrown at me and i had low self-esteem, etc)
i think i'm trans now i don't know if that's because of all of that bc i literally never felt comfortable in my body
Not sure about it but I have no memory at all before high school and friends from middle school told me some nasties about the school I went to (weed and prostitution).
Maybe I got involved but at least not when I was with them.
That and I found 4chan when I was 16.
If anything I think /g/ making me anxious about privacy is the worst 4chan has done to me as it scared me from any social network.
Not angry about being gradually attracted to futa, then traps, then twinks.
>tfw had to deal with grooming shit from my dad when I was younger
>molestation at first from around age 6 to 12 but eventually rape once I got older
>finally hit around 17 and make the fun discovery of This Isn't Normal At All
>eventually manage to get away from that
>seminormal.png
>hit age 21 and start dating qt dude
>date him for a long while and eventually move in
>turns out he's an abusive rapist asshole
>wellfuck
Fast forward to three years later and now I'm a lesbian. Welcome to hell.
>>6150308
I watched gorey movies as a kid because my parents didn't like me watching girly movies or kids movies (cis female).
I never saw the anonymous as badass since many people do anonymous stuff like they do, except they don't get recognition.
I have always hated hikkomori. I'm a Christian and I believe sloth is awful and that people who are sloths should become slaves on farms or buildings.
As for trolling, I don't troll too often. Usually once or twice a week. It's only done to make fun of myself rather than others.
>>6150327
damn how'd that come about. Who raped you and how old were you? Was it one time or over a period?
>>6150155
Oh I was but nothing bad happened to me I just hate everyone because I'm a ass hole.
>>6170989
I was gonna make a joke about female rapists looking the same as someone stabbing you if they see it from a distance or something. I'm really sorry.
Have you gotten counseling? It's very easy to assume we have learned from our bad experiences but without sharing and disucssing it in detail is very easy to stay trapped in a repeating cycle.
>>6150155
my uncle manipulated me into his personal blowjob and anal hoe from the ages of 9-17
i became super horny boyslut convinced my donkeydick younger brother to let me be his whore for a couple of years too
>>6175272
>my uncle manipulated me into his personal blowjob and anal hoe from the ages of 9-17
Did you view this as wrong or did you feel good about it (either because it felt good or because you were close to your uncle)?
>>6176111
i guess if I removed the other problems I have *2many2name* the guilt wasn't that bad and I loved the feeling and his dick and he gave me so much love it made me feel so good about myself, but it made me question myself and my worth, and if im good enough for any other human, still don't believe I am but somehow married
>>6151497
>emotional fragility of a girl
Wish I had this... my parents were the "I'll give you something to cry about" (especially my dad) and it killed me on pretty much every emotional level. I had to dead pan my youth just to avoid getting hit.
>>6175272
story on younger brother?
>>6150308
Jesus Christ kid, 4chan didn't even exist when I was 12. Fucking newfag (former?)underageb& cancer, no wonder this place went entirely down the shitter.
>>6150155
My father watched porn with me when I was a little kid. Like 9 years old. He also fapped.
At 11 or so I was getting sexual fantasies of getting dicked in every hole, and I'd go into yahoo chatrooms (this was so long ago, back when that shit was popular), and I'd cyber with people. Pretty much kept that up until I was 15 or 16, at which point I kinda went hardcore repression mode.
Wouldn't call it sexual abuse since I never got touched by anyone, but I feel being exposed to porn so young, and also given complete free-reign over doing anything I wanted with the internet and with the computer. There was no 4chan back then or anything like it, but I still exposed myself to all sorts of shit I shouldn't have been allowed to. I was fapping to internet porn at 11, way back in the day with dial-up internet and shit.
I don't think it made me a faggot or anything though, I think I was just naturally an effeminate pure bottom faggot.
>>6178524
> but I feel being exposed to porn so young, and also given complete free-reign over doing anything I wanted with the internet and with the computer.
Forgot to finish that sentence.
I feel like being exposed to that stuff and having free access to the internet definitely corrupted me as a kid and made me way more perverted and desensitized to sex and lewd things in general.
>>6175272
Got any stories about your uncle?
This is probably a weird question, but would you define the following as sexual molestation?
>around 9 years old
>visiting relatives
>male cousin, about 14
>offers me halloween candy if I let him fondle my ass
>think lol gross who wants to touch butts and let him because candy
>do it again after he offers me the whole bag
>think its weird when I hear him moan
>leave and don't tell anyone ever
I really never know how to compartmentalize what happened then.
>>6150155
My dad raped me throughout my childhood. Most of it doesn't even hit on my emotional radar, but I am moderately adept at compartmentalizing my emotions. I brought it up with him a couple of times and have never gotten a coherent apology or explanation as to why. He knows what he did, as do I, but my parents are old and very happily married, plus my sisters adore him and I rationalize that if I'm able to move past it, there is no reason to cause unnecessary pain to my family.
Older kid in my neighborhood used to make me play "weiny in the hole", which you can guess what it entailed.
I've had some extremely sketchy sex in my early to mid-20's which probably legally qualifies as rape due to my level of intoxication, but I chalk that up to my own fault.
I do not believe that any of this has anything to do with my sexuality. Gay cis-male.
>>6178827
I absolutely would :(
I'm sorry.
got blackmailed in to sucking my friends dick when I was 16, he was 15, he wasn't the one who blackmailed me, I think it probably messed him up more than it messed me up, but I'm still sexually confused, I don't find guys attractive, but I sometimes get hard and cry at the same time when I remember the feeling of his dick pulsing in my mouth when he came
I'm 29 and have been child molested every day since I was 2, that's why I suck dick
>>6150155
when i was 8 my older step-sister forced me to perform sexual acts with her and kept telling me that if i told anyone then she'd tell my father that i had done it to her by force. now im an 18 year old with an extreme distrust of women and the feeling that if i get into a relationship with a female then they'll expect some sort of sexual interaction or they'll emotionally blackmail me to get what they want
i wanna rub my dick in a 13 y/o armpits
no pedo
