I was that guy from the disney movies. The nice one. The one who came from squalor and met the perfect woman. The one who would have given her everything if he had it, but gave her everything he had anyway.
>be me
>senior and virgin
>3 years of shit had gone by
>managed to throw together a ragtag group of misfits
>for 3 years we had more fun than anyone in my shithole hometome
>we were deviants and we didn't give a fuck what anyone thought
What do you do when all you have is time?
>you do whatever the fuck you want

>so three years of being a paradox payed off when I got to my senior year
>popular kids stopped being faggots and pretending like nothing in life was as cool as they were
>they started joining my group for the shitshows we'd cause
>chicks started to take notice too, and I was the only attractive guy in the group
Always had that goin for myself, which made me feel like a wildcard waiting to be used when it would be most opportune

cont..

I've got a few greentexts if anyone wants them.

>>684058435
contd.
>Finally women are getting wise to the "bad boys are sexy" and "good boys are probably gay" bullshit
>since they're taking notice, I play it cool
>stay distant
>one chick decides to work for it
>play along, go out for awhile, do plenty of stuff but never pound it out
>she tries to play me
aint havin that shit
>I bailed out and moved on
>one sexy ass girl in my civics class wants to hang out and smoke some pot
>4 of us drive out to Ohio and get stoned
>feelsgoodman
>go to a movie with the chick and her friends
>she goes home and I hang with another chick afterwards (during my brief scumbag phase)
>blah blah blah shit happens but we dont fuk
>Homecoming is coming up
>votes for the court come in
>holy shit Im on that shit
>feelsgreatman
>on the homecoming float in my suit and sunglasses lookin fly as hell
>take a ride around the stadium in a mercades while im grabbin this chicks ass in front of the whole town
>feelin godly
>fast forward a month or so
>ego has returned to normal size, bitches have moved on
>working in the shitty drive thru of a shitty restaurant when a beauty pulls up for some deep fried pickles
god damn it I still remember what she ordered
>she looked so perfect, even though shed just got out of practice and she was all sweaty I swear she had me floating
>we grinned at eachother like retards and later she sent me a message on twitter
cont..

>>684058435
contd.
>Finally women are getting wise to the "bad boys are sexy" and "good boys are probably gay" bullshit
>since they're taking notice, I play it cool
>stay distant
>one chick decides to work for it
>play along, go out for awhile, do plenty of stuff but never pound it out
>she tries to play me
aint havin that shit
>I bailed out and moved on
>one sexy ass girl in my civics class wants to hang out and smoke some pot
>4 of us drive out to Ohio and get stoned
>feelsgoodman
>go to a movie with the chick and her friends
>she goes home and I hang with another chick afterwards (during my brief scumbag phase)
>blah blah blah shit happens but we dont fuk
>Homecoming is coming up
>votes for the court come in
>holy shit Im on that shit
>feelsgreatman
>on the homecoming float in my suit and sunglasses lookin fly as hell
>take a ride around the stadium in a mercades while im grabbin this chicks ass in front of the whole town
>feelin godly
>fast forward a month or so
>ego has returned to normal size, bitches have moved on
>working in the shitty drive thru of a shitty restaurant when a beauty pulls up for some deep fried pickles
god damn it I still remember what she ordered
>she looked so perfect, even though shed just got out of practice and she was all sweaty I swear she had me floating
>we grinned at eachother like retards and later she sent me a message on twitter
cont.

>>684059474
holy shit, powerful stuff

>>684058268
>>684058435
>>684059460

Are you that guy with the trips who said he can do better than saying

">alone" ?

>>684059538
fast forward to christmas eve
>get a message on twitter from aforementioned qt3.14
>"Hey anon, you're precious. Merry Christmas Ever"
I fucking remember every detail down the the perfect grammar and it still pisses me off
>My fucking heart and hopes shoot off like a rocket into the great unknown
>I respond "Precious enough to get a number? ;)"
>"just one or all seven" she replied
smartass
>so we talk that night and all christmas days
>we really hit it off and she really (I mean really) digs me
>week or so goes on like so
>tell her I need to see her face to face
>she sneaks out at 2a.m. or so and drives to my house
>she wouldnt look me in the eye for so long because it made her "weak"
>it didn't matter, I would've done anything for this girl even that early
>wouldnt dare take advantage

im losing the will to go on, it kind of hurts

>>684059460
si, senor

I have good one...
3 years ago
>get out of a two year relationship, we were living together
>she moves out and dumps me
>emotionally fragile, but still trying to find somebody
>meet this girl online
>kinda crazy
>but really hawt and similar interests
>first date goes amazing, best first date I've ever had
>go back to her place, fool around, but no sex
>hang out with her for the weekend
>I like everything about this person
>come sunday, in a beta emotionally fragile stupor in bed
>I say "I love you"
>after 3 fucking days of knowing her
>instantly know I've fucked up
>acts cold and distant
>stops talking to me
>I drink my sorrows away

And now present day
>see her at my gym
>she doesn't recognize me, my beard is a lot longer
>bring up who I am, we kind of laugh about it
>see her at least once a week at my gym now
>never approach her, but she always comes up to me, just to make small talk

Am I forever that guy? or can I salvage this shit?

>>684059408
see for me it was funnier when we were all 13 living on home street going out with the girl next door drinking with my friends who are 19 but in highschool every night after robbing the local ball-park concession stand for the fourth time and playing playstation 2 on a cracked 17" flatscreen t my friend richie who moved out to just across the street from his parents and punching holes in his walls after krysta cheated on me with someone in her grade and walking around town smoking jays with my one black friend and getting stopped by the police while we're walking and getting away with it because my mom knows people until i decide to run away from home because i got grounded on my birthday

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>shit soaked life anon
>>684060452
Please /b/ro. You've made it this far.

>>684060452
so shes at my place in the middle of the night, and both of us need to be in school in 6 hours but who cares
>We're laying on my couch, and finally I get her to look at me after she resisted for so long
>the moment our eyes met we kissed for the first time
>tosh.0 went on in the background for hours while we kissed
>that movie with eddie murphey came on "coming to america" and we never watched it, of course
>she left maybe an hour before school would start and I was already in love
>we did this several times in the months to come
>we'd stay up all night and talk like nothing else was going on in the world around us
>she told me about her scumbag ex who cheated on her for a long time and broke her heart
>this was my first love and I could never imagine doing something like that to someone I care about, which is what I told her
>she said she could never do it either and I believed her
naive

>>684060519

dude just tell her who u r, pretend u don't give a fuck about what happen, and start talking about other shit with her.
Play it cool, (that doesn't means to be an a-hole)
And if she wants to fool around again, be smart lol.

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>>684060812
and end up in the juvenile system and keep myself there with my anger and come out only to realize i never learned how to be an adult and getting accepted into college at 17 and spending 3 years dicking around only to drop out and go work for the state tlling people like me how to live their life as a prison guard with a fiance with her own kid and my own house with too many bills to count and calling in sick tomorrow just to go to a concert because it's all that reminds me occasionally of the life i used to lead when i thought i was hot shit but now i know im better off on a cleaner path but somehow still miss doing drugs and having fun with my friends who have all moved away and my weddings coming up and ive hardly planned for it at all and im wondering if itll all come together and how the rest of my life will be like

>>684061727
topping it all off with being on 4chan and actually posting in a feels-thread no less

Im 19, just stqrted studying architecture since its what ive always been passionate and ive always liked. And im pretty good at drawing and using softwares like sketchip, maya and autocad. First semester goes by, im decent/bretty good in each class but math. Im pretty sure im not gonna pass math. Tomorrow is my dinal math test and im gonna rely on cheating and gods will.

>i have to get 30 points out of 40 to pass that shit
>wanna kill myself
>never felt so badly with myself
>think im a total failure
>no greentext cuz lazy

>>684062086
bro this was me
I now work in "law enforcement"

>>684061378
>>684061048
its long, and it may drag on, but I'll keep going

>still living the high life of a high school senior
>literally pushing women off of me at my new years party, which my girl couldn't attend because she was out of town
>she comes to the next party and we blow everyone off to go in my room and makeout
>she showed up late and I was already too drunk, but that was the night I asked her to go steady (of course)
>she said yes and afterwards we had sex
>it was my first time and I was pushing rope, but fuck it cause we had plenty of good sex afterwards
>we layed in bed and talked forever like we always did
>we were so close and intimate. I'd never been so vulnerable in my life, yet amazingly I was unafraid
>I threw another party a couple weeks later
>she was supposed to come but she wasn't feeling well
>bummer but whatever
>I was hungover at work the next day and I hadn't heard from her yet
>she finally texts me late in the afternoon telling me that she got grounded for sneaking out to hang out with her friend
>Im like wtf, you said you were sick and tired and shit, then ya left to hang with your hoebag friend?
>whatever, life goes on
>a month goes by of her being grounded and barely being able to speak to me
>she gets real weird for awhile, and hateful as well
>starts telling me I need to quit getting stoned cause thats what broke her up with her last bf
red flag. didn't he cheat on you?
>this month of grounding is coming to a close and finally she can come see me
>she was different than before, reserved and protected like she didn't trust me
cont..

>>684059474

I love how well written and realistic this is, for the most part. I feel like its written by someone older, who never managed to move beyond some of the problems that initially bogged him down. I relate to that a bit, I suppose.

My biological father left when he found out my biological mother was pregnant; she gave me up for adoption. The first couple that adopted me returned me, I have no idea why. The next couple (the people that raised me) were distant and dispassionate. They never seemed to care; dad was too busy with work and always angry, mom was terrified of him and just tried to stay out of the way. I had to learn how to fend for myself, within the house I lived in.

They said a lot of horrid things like, "I've failed as a father," or, "I don't understand why you are the way you or" all the time. There was so much yelling and arguing all the time and no one ever said sorry. I never heard anyone say, "I love you" until a girl I dated in my early twenties said it. Thins like that stick with you a bit.

Now, I'm thirty three and late last year, decided things needed to change. I'm over a third of the way into my life and finally starting to shed the labels the people I grew up with forced upon me. It feels good, although I know that its happening far too late; that worries me. I have a good job, own my own place and car, play in a band I love, with good people. I'm with someone I care about, who cares about me. Still though, I just don't feel good enough, I've never felt good enough.

That's a strange feeling; like learning to jump higher and higher, but never quite being able to fly. Or, not even being sure if its POSSIBLE to fly. You keep trying anyway though, because if you don't, things will never change. Even far into your life, there's always time, I think.

>>684059434
I mean the little nigga has horns, what did he expect?

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>shit soaked life anon

Can relate to this pic.

>>684062478
contd.
fast forward a week
>we're still not getting on well, but I'm confident it will pass because I would do anything for us to be happy together
>one day Im playing black ops 2 zombies with my buddy
>pausing frequently to text and hes getting annoyed
>she starts in about how she has something to tell me about that night she skipped my party to hang out with her friend and she got grounded
>i guess she didn't exactly tell me the whole story
>she makes me pull the details out of her like Im pulling teeth
>it was torturous but I loved her, so I needed to know what heppend
>she left that night to meet her friend and two guys
>one of these guys was her ex
>they made out that night
>she fucked me afterwards to feel better about it
women logic
>I was fucked up, m8
>"but you said" ____ "but you promised" ____
>"I know, I know, Im so sorry"
I didn't want to, but we breakup

>>684063691
god damn this is a long story. might as well be my fucking life story, and i feel like a fuckhead writing it all down for you people to judge

>>684061078
man, that one really hits home. I've done that quite a few times

>>684063850
meh, I wrote a brief life story and even though no one replied, it still helped a little. let it out bro

>>684063691
>>684063691
contd.
>literally the lowest point of my life begins following the breakup
>go to skewl
>walk the halls
>pass the tests
>go home
>play vidya
>dont even jerk off because i thought of her
>sleep

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>>684064111
check'd

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>shit soaked life anon
>>684063691

I'm not judging. Hope you feel better after getting it off of your chest. Only complete jackasses would judge you in a thread like this.

>>684064111
I think I was replying to you right when the thread got deleted :(

>>684064349
o no this poorly typed pos was me
>>684060812
>>684061727
>>684061974

I kinda wish I'd greentexted it but now anon is onstage

>>684058268
I hate knowing that I could love over and over and over again and because I'm so fucking ugly and creepy, no girl would want to date me.

>>684064739
It's not sad so much as I'm just sad. I'd say relatively I have a pretty good life.

>>684064111
appreciate that, m8
>>684064170
contd.
>weeks pass with my moping and wasting away
>she approaches me one day at my locker
>tears in her eyes she asks me something stupid like "you left this at my house, do you want it back?"
>keep it
>shrug and walk away
>she cries as I leave her standing there but I feel so empty that I couldnt possibly fix it (yea, I still wanted to fix it)
>another week goes by and shes making an ass out of herself on the internet over some basketball drama
>feel like i never knew this girl at all
sucks dick
>carry on moping
>she approaches me again at my locker
>starts crying in front of everyone but nobody cares but me
>she's apologizing and saying she didn't deserve me and that I didnt deserve to be treated like that
damn right
>nothing changes for what felt like a long time
>she started texting me again, often fighting
>seemed pointless so I stopped replying
>she got desperate for my attention and straightened up her act
>started making promises to be better if I gave her another chance
>this goes on for some time before I submit to her temptations
>let her come over to fuck
>sex was good, then crying
>she apoligized so many times that it felt empty, but I decided to take her back under several conditions that I later discovered would be meaningless
>My heart and hopes that had shot off into space months prior were now the smoldering pile of embers once known as apollo 13
>figure im already empty, what is the harm in risking it again
dumbest thing I ever did

>tfw I have a good life but I still wanna an hero...

>>684065231
Stay strong anon, no worries, everything is gonna be fine

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never posted before so here goes.

>be me 20
>ex gf texts one day after months of being broken up saying she has to get somthing off her chest
this was after she left me for a dude that lives down the street from her (we were in a long distance relationship but would drive an hour and a half every weekend to see her)
>anyway she continues to tell me that shes sorry for how everything went down and that shes about to get married and all kinds of crap (we were engaged and together two years)
>she continues to tell me that she cheated on me.
>heartstops.jpg
>she then tells me that she cheated 5 times each with a different guy
>tell her all is forgiven and told her ill always be here for her
i always look back at the times she saved me from drugs and almost killing myself... and i still have the ring i gave her...

>shit soaked life anon
>>684065231

You're a true /b/ro. Be strong, my friend.

>>684064343
respect
>>684065231
contd.
>we went out for a year after that
>I had never been so close to someone and at the same time entirely detached
>She tried really hard at first because she knew she fucked up and needed to earn my trust again
>months go by and suddenly the blame was on me
>I need to get over it
>I need to trust her more
>Im acting crazy
>Im being unreasonable
>bullshit bullshit bullshit
>I'd go through her phone occasionally and find messages from shitfaces across the county hitting on her
>confront her about the flirting that would ensue and suddenly its my fault again
>I need to stop invading her privacy and trust her more
>BITCH, STOP PLAYING GAMES
>still go out with her because without her I feel nothing

Despite feeling like there was a piano dangling precariously above my by a rope whose threads are slowly tearing, we had many good times. I told her I loved her after three months. We'd play N64 in her bedroom, and shed go so turned on when I beat her at pokemon (she was really good at it.)

>she was at my graduation
>she was there for the aftergrad parties
>she was there for my 18th birthday and we went to the bahamas
>for the most part it was incredible, but it was speckled with these insecurities and uncertainties

>>684066008

And here you are to tell the story anon, You're still around for a reason. Maybe you haven't found that reason yet but here you are. I'd love to be able to tell every person with hardships that it gets better but I don't honestly think it does. We just become more tolerant to bullshit and eventually numb to everything around us. A least that's how I perceive it.

>>684066008
take the ring
stomp it till it's flat
throw it into any body of water
walk away
never forgive someone for doing you wrong
be a fucking man

>>684065258
Get over it you faggot. If you have a good life, then why are you even here? If you have a good life, then go enjoy it instead of being a mopey faggot online.

>>684066625
actually you should:
take her captive
stomp her head till it's flat
throw her body into any body of water
never forgive someone for doing you wrong
be a fucking man

>>684066625
she saved my life literally and she used to kiss the ring i wore every morning because she said it would bring me luck and remind me that shes waiting for me when i got home. i proposed with that ring and now it just sits on my windowsill collecting dust.

>>684066931
I like your style

>>684067074
Exactly. Let go, dude. You have to find another reason to live, because she's not it. She isn't waiting for you anymore. You can do this.

>>684066276
contd.
fast forward to august
>moving away to university
>warning her that boys will try to get her attention while Im gone
>theyll try their hardest to tear us apart so they can have you for themselves, but its not that far and remember Im only a couple hours away
>encourage her to always trust me because I'd never hurt her
>make her promise to keep focused on me even when guys make her feel special, which I warned her they would be doing soon
>months of college go by seemingly well
>visits are infrequent but ever so sweet
>shes starting to get the attention I warned her about
>I still don't trust her after all this time, so I get jealous and don't know how to cope
>she's no help
>tells me I need to trust her
k
>start smoking a lot of pot
>like a lot
>she takes issue with that
>always asking if Im high and fighting with me about it because I was always high
>so I stop texting her so often
>she starts texting the boys in her school instead
>months of insecurity ensue, and I'm so doped up that I don't give a fuck
>finally the fly landed on the camels back and I dumped her over some petty shit right before the summer
>i was dating this girl from high school like two weeks later and suddenly my ex is telling everyone I cheated on her
bitch, aint you forgetting what you did to me?

and maybe it doesnt seem that bad, ya know? it was just kissing after all, but i was so naive. so vulnerable and so trusting of her that it consumed all of my emotional capacity (which was a lot.) When that was taken from me I would never be the same person.

>>684059596
Me in a fucking nutshell at 22

>>684067377
>summer romance with new girl
>she's great, but her dad hated me
>still maybe the best relationship of my life, despite it lasting for 3 months
>go back to university in august
>fall in love with another girl from high school, go out for like 6 moths
>quit smoking pot and suddenly feel nothing, so we break up
>months go by and I still feel nothing
>the original bitch starts texting me out of nowhere
>wants me
>wants me bad
>Im not responding but she persists

For the record, she never "wanted me" in a sexual way. I was an emotional crutch for a very unstable girl, and every time I would try to leave she would coax me in with sexual endeavors.

>still feeling nothing because I quit smoking, but admittedly I found her pursuit of me exciting
>one day i realized that and decided to indulge
>had to feel something, anything
>she shows up at my house
>i try not to fuck her, cause I know the game shes playing
>she starts wrestling.. my heart, m8.. my heart right now is betraying me

>>684067798
really? my advice as a 21 y-o:
Stop smoking weed, go work for corrections
they don't care if you're fat, and definitely don't care if you're retarded

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>open imgburn to burn Xbox 360 game
>see message at the bottom

>>684068082
contd.
>she's wrestling with me
>Im fighting the urges, but she wiggles her way between my legs
>she stops for a moment and looks up at me with those big brown eyes, fully aware of my hardened shaft pressing against her ass while her legs rested on my shoulders
>thats when I couldnt stop myself anymore and I fell to her meeting at the lips
My heart hurts because I remember the way it felt. It was the first thing I had felt in months and it felt exactly the same as our first kiss.
>shit hit the fan, m8
>we had rough, long, and indulgent sex
>it was incredible
Then it was over. Again I felt nothing and I sent her home dissappointed
>our relationship went on like this for a long time, in fact it went on like this way too long
>she was broken and vulnerable, and she came to me to put the pieced back together
>if I had been whole myself I might have been more useful, but I was hollow

continuing with the last bit next

>>684068707
>but I was hollow
There's your problem anon! You have to be human when you talk to her. Have you never used a wiki?

>>684068707
contd.
>time passes with us using eachother for comfort and sex without ever actually committing or being vulnerable to oneanother
>she starts to get fed up, because she really wanted to make things work between us
>I was and am still broken from her lies, but my third year at university was starting and she was there to help me move in to my new place
>for a week we stayed together, working and playing and cooking and laughing
>things finally felt real
it was terrifying

I should mention that for three years at university I have wasted my time studying, playing vidya, and watching netflix instead of going out and indulging in the culture that us shitbag youth are "entitled" to.

>so again, be me
>3rd year at U
>havent done anything noteworthy other than heartbreak
>starting down the same road again
>feeling a bit like Ricky Bobby's dad and the pressure is on to make a decision because the fire is edging closer and closer to the fuse
do I settle down with her and give us another shot or do I take the first out available to prevent another broken heart?
>those thoughts didn't occur as clearly as I have them written, but that was the dilemma
>classes are starting and she returns home after one of the best weeks of my life with her
>just the two of us in my house, living together, cooking, and fucking like a real couple
>then she goes home
>class starts on a friday and so do the partys
>for the first time in three years I was invited to come along
>i felt like I could do both
>i went out and got drunk
>a pretty girl was hitting on me and I hadn't felt that way since high school
>it was intoxicating, and I ended up walking her home
>she wanted me to come in but I declined
>we kissed and I walked home
>later I told my girl about it out of respect, i know its what i would have wanted if i were her
>mfw I made the same mistake as her 4 years later
>she dumped me as soon as I told her
>no trial period, no makeup sex
>no empathy or forgiveness
its over now

>>684070432
>now be me
>20 years old
>afraid of vulnerability
>cant trust a woman
>cant trust myself
>still hollow
>still crave human connection
>still deathly afraid of it
>and still miss my girl

>>684070655
>still hollow
goddamn it just use an effigy you can get more later

>>684070794
Underrated post

>>684070655
Well I'd say you should actually go find a goal in life that is unrelated to a girl. You'll grow up eventually and that's when you should be settling down. College isn't for romance. Neither is High School. If you find a girl then that's okay. Unless your goal is to be a family man then there's no need to have your main focus on a secondary objective.

>be me
>25
>crippled
>dick doesn't work
>no social skills
>ostracized by everyone around me growing up
>no job
>no money
>no marketable skills
>no experience
>no future
>never going to have a significant other
>never going to have kids
>been alone so long I have no desire for any human contact
>life can only get worse from here do to medical problems/aging

>>684070794
OP here.

Dude, I think you just changed my life

>>684071173
And if everything feels shitty to you, just pick a goal that sounds like something you'd find respectable. Do it without thinking and later you'll change again to eventually love it. By the time that happens, you should have already met the woman you'll spend your life with.

>>684071173
thats the thing, m8. I've always been a hell of a student. got a free ride through U, and Im headed for grad skewl after this. that shit is great, but I still sit here at 2:48a.m. and post about a girl I havent talked to since september. its not because I miss her so bad that I cant move on, honestly she and I werent that good together. But honestly, without something like that to look forward to I feel like this whole doctorate pursuit is meaningless.

>>684071571
>>684071693
also, everything i see is shit. Im stan in the assburgurs episode

>>684071693
Trust me, you'll find out that it's more meaningful than a girl. You'll find a girl. Also, try finding comfort from your close friends as well. Maybe you could consider the fact that you may be gay. Do you get adequate exercise?

>>684071357
if thats true, you are one strong, resilient mother fucker.
Crip on, m8

>shit soaked life anon
>>684070655
Thanks for the story /b/ro. Sorry to hear it turned out like that. If she couldn't have shared the same honesty with you, then she didn't deserve to be with you. I hope you find who it is will give you the feeling again. Stay strong /b/ro

>>684071814
Well, I feel like that sometimes too. I just set my alarms and write out my schedules and do nothing but focus on my work tasks while at work, my current projects(whether they're fun anymore or not) and just keep doing rather than thinking or feeling. I find that it always gets better eventually.

>>684071967
yea, yea. I aint gay, and I get plenty of exercise. The trouble with taking comfort in close friends is that for 3 years I didnt do shit outside of my house or class. I didnt live in the dorm and I dont have a job. It doesnt allow you to meet alot of people, and those I do meet tend to be shallow bitches and/or bastards.

I value loyalty and trustworthiness. Not many people at U meet those criterion.

>>684071357
no marketable skills? Begging is highly lucrative. Also, try working for the state. If not, milk the system for all the money it's worth. Thievery is also a viable option.

>>684072100
thanks bub, respect

>>684072014
Just want to get a job mang.

I live in the middle of nowhere, there is no public transportation, I have no license, no car, no friends to bum a ride from...

Contacted my state disability services to see if they could do anything, they just put me in contact with some charity that teaches disabled people how to do interviews and shit.

Can't work from home because my internet cuts out regularly, and I like I said, I have no marketable skills.

Just biding my time until I lose my parents insurance in a few months and get sick and die.

>>684072399
Lol, you won't find any people like that at this age. Just learn to accept them even with those flaws. Don't trust them with anything that can cost you money. Just think of them as temporary companions. As for finding them, find ONE OR TWO clubs to join. Make sure you actually like what the club is about. Let it run from there. I have a few friends from college I'll always love and we'll always rekindle our friendship whenever chance may bring us together, and that's because I just put myself out there and act unselfishly and wholeheartedly, even when it costs me dearly in stress from disappointments by others.

>Be me

>Really don't think I know myself

>Well adjusted enough. Wife, kid, career

>Failed musician, but show me a different type nowadays

>Addicted to pain pills, see no problem with it outside of constipation

>Sure i love the old lady and the boy

>Just not sure about anything else

And I don't even know when it changed, really. I was a pretty affectionate guy, 6 or 7 years ago. Heart on the sleeve, positive outlook..Now, I just kinda...dislike a lot of things

>>684073081
gods a cruel fuck, isnt he? but who knows, maybe you'd murder babies if you were able bodied.

apologizing for the speculation now.

The universe has a way of dealing us shitty hands, and I guess being an adult is learning how to play em. Anyhow, it sounds like youre due for a new hand, anon. Good luck

>>684073081
just move to the city and live off of the welfare of the state and of strangers.

>>684058515
yes pls

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>feel nothing
>realize i'm hollow
>dont want to tell anyone
>town finds out
>drag me to center of town chanting "BURN THE WITCH"
>realize im hollow because i didnt suck enough dick
>becomes town prostitute
>turning 8 in a week
>shit ton of people are going to show up
>mfw

>>684073188
checked

thats some solid advice, m8. It happens to be exactly what I'm afraid of doing, but progress doesn't come cheap.

empathy is tough to come by, I appreciate it

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saved a few screenshots from a feels thread that i saw earlier.

Emojize test

>>684073238
Feel for you because that's close to home
>Be me
>Wife, kid, career respected by many(but me)
>Failed to be eligible for military service
>Addicted to caffeine
>Aspiring to do amateur MMA but keep getting injured
>Sure I'll always love my family
>Not sure if I'll ever achieve my other life goals with children around

>>684060421
>>684060176
makes me think of the crunch by bukowski

bukowski.net/poems/the_crunch.php

>>684073452
Can't do it man... One because you need money and mobility to move somewhere, neither of which I have...

And two, two and half decades of my Republicunt dad drumbeating into me not to take any handouts ever makes me feel sick just thinking about taking any welfare.

Just hoping I go out in my sleep before life ever gets too unbearable.

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>shit soaked life anon
>>684073040
Respect to you my /b/rother.

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I wrote this on a VCR message titler 15 years ago. I dont remember what i shouldnt forget

>>684074444
This hits too close to home right now. I really wish I didn't see it.

>>684073663
Thanks /b/ro.
I actually was supposed to go to bed because I've got a lot to do tomorrow, but I wanted to finish your story and say a few words. Have a good night anon. You'll do fine.

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>shit soaked life anon
>>684074444
check myself.

>>684074557
Story?

>>684074855
checked

>>684074393
You see, that's a stupid way to look at it. Welfare wasn't meant to have this negative context to it. It was created not for slackers and underachievers, but for those who need it. Those like you. Just accept you are half a man and use the advantage that our system has in place. Otherwise you are wasting my fucking tax dollars you piece of shit, because if it doesn't go to a cripple it goes to a cunt. Sometimes to man up you have to be humble.

>>684074855
Lemme greentext that for you
>Im 22yo
>Im an audiovisual producer
>Works for kinda big company
>Needed to transfer some tapes to digital
>I need a VCR
>Screw around my parents house
>Found 2 of them
>They where my first editing equipment
>The had on-screen message alarm
>i used to set them to remember kid stuff (cartoons, shit, etc.)
>I remember i setted that because i needed to remember something important to me
>was 15 years ago
>i literaly cant remember it
>i just remember it was important and happened on 9th july of 2000 at 19:45hrs
>this is haunting me more than it should

>>684075441
>16 years ago
my bad

>>684075079
Yeah but people don't distinguish between "those who need it" and freeloaders. My life is already shit, I don't want the ridicule that comes with taking any handout on top of everything else.

And I know first hand of the ridicule because almost anytime I see someone mention having medicaid or something at a doctor's office or hospital, which I frequent, they get treated like absolute shit by everyone there, including the staff.

Just going to keep applying for random desk jobs until some day maybe one will offer me an interview, which has yet to happen.

>>684071357
you can still learn some skills, which would open up job oppurtunities. Which get you money and force you to talk to others which gets you social skills.

Its surprising how everything kind of builds up once you stand up and start trying.

>>684073931

Kinda feels like you're just a cog now.

>>684058435
Kek is this the plot to inbetweeners

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>>684074675

>>684075441
Fuck man,is it something about a girl or someone?

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Don't die on my thread

>>684070655

Same brother, I feel exactly as you described. Soon to turn 20, about a year out of a 6 year long relationship. Life has been empty.

girl i love most in the world got married. i think about her every day. what do? background too long to greentext, basically she crushed on me first i ignored it, she found a guy, married him, im in a LTR but broke it off because i realized if this chick asked me i would leave in a heartbeat for her. now shes married. last time we saw each other she gave me the longest most awkward hug infront of her husband (she initiated). ive considered telling her how strong my feelings are but i just cant stand to complicate things between her and her husband. she seems happy. guess im just hoping ill find another girl i love as hard, but its been 8 years and i havent come close. any advice?

>>684075441
going to sleep,i was pretty interested in your story though,hope i can see you again here some other day,saved your story

>>684077615
i cant read the note.... and what dude shot up his work then offed himself im assuming?

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36 single for 3 years now. Now one will compare. I stood up for the things I believed in and the evil shot me down! 1 year since that and I need to sort my shit out!

>>684070655
Not even sad get over it you fucking normie

>>684078829
Yup.

>>684059375
Jesus that's sad

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i just feel like shit /b/ i didnt/ couldnt/ rejected everytime i got the nuts to talk to a grill
i want to get fucking hammered smoke my lungs out curse into the either about "why me o lord"
why me of all people get excommunicated from most of my friends and some i dont remember because of my shit memory
i keep telling myself not to break down because thats not who i am so to speak i just dont know what it is
i dont know why people cant help but hate me

Hey, i'm the anon caring for his sister and little bro.
I posted in previous feels thread, over a week ago, i think.
If anyone wants to talk, just go ahead.

>>684077443
I really dont know
I feel depressed because of this
I think is something about my parents

i want to cry.

>>684080394
Go ahead and do it man, let it out.

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>>684078512
someone i need advice plz before i do something retarded like send a drunk text