Usually twice a day, three times today

>>689475294
This

An unhealthy amount. Life sucks and then you get shot at a gay nightclub.

Not as often after I got a job for the first time last month. 25 and my first job. Hearing my ex is getting engaged to my brother is tearing me up today, though.

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>>689475084
Never.

>>689475084
Daily, multiple times a day.

>>689475528
YOUR BROTHER IS A CUCK

Daily, sometimes hourly. It just feels as though the prodigious dark passenger of life, lurking in my shadows, is slowly taking control. Bad things come in short waves of melancholy madness, like a faint hint of sorrow and despair. Depression consumes me, despite the lights I have. I can't rememer the last time I went a day without contemplating the end of my existence, and the forced almagation of my oblivion and fade from society. The grey sea is at it's zenith, corroding the whole globe.

>>689475084
At least weekly. Things have been getting shittier so it might happen more often.

>>689475084
Every ten minutes when I'm alone at least. I don't even want to do it; the thoughts just come anyways.

>>689475746
jesus christ

not too much, but it does come across my mind sometimes, especially lately.

I could never follow through because i wouldn't want to devastate my family.

Never.
I dont have time to dwell upon such negative and meaningless thoughts. The reason why u losers think about suicide so often is probably because your lives are negative and meaningless. Just be productive, stay busy and do things u enjoy doing, beta faggots

>>689476249
"u"

every gd minute of the day, comrade

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>>689475084
What anime

>>689476645
Gunsmith Cats

>>689475084
Used to be an almost constant thing. Eventually, through SSRIs, therapy, and counceling I got over it.

>>689476645
minnie waifu OO:

On a daily Basis

>>689475084
About three to five times a week but getting better.

I'd murder before I'd suicide.

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>>689476249
Another moron that thinks his behaviour causes his emotional state and not the other way around.

>>689475084
Minimum once a day

It used to be constant with breaks maybe once a day if I was lucky, so I guess life's improving?

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I mean, I'm 20 years old. I've thought about it probably more than I should. My life so far has been pretty damn easy. In High-School it was pretty common for me. However I spent a lot of time thinking about the state of mind I was in, and eventually decided against the whole idea. I generally just stopped caring about a lot of petty things and decided to grow up. I got a job, a girl-friend and decent life going on. I just hope it stays that way, shit can go so wrong so quickly.

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>>689475084
So. Fucking. Much.

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>>689475084
How do you stop?

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>My dad left my family when i was 8
>I have no job
>I have no money
>I have a drug addiction
>I'm a virgin
>I should go to college but I live with my mom
>I care more about video games, weed and anime then fixing my life
>I only jerk off to traps and shota to ease my pain and I argue with people on 4chan to make me feel smarter than I really am
>I think about suicide every now and then but I'm too much of a pussy to do it because I always have a false hope that everything will turn out good for me someday
>literally crying right now as I'm typing

My life sucks dear god I'm such a fucking waste of space. Don't even feel sorry for me I'm just garbage. I hate myself and everyone in my family hates me because I'm so distant. If I get enough money I might just buy enough coke and heroine to off myself feeling high as fuck

A better question would be "what doesn't make you think about suicide" and to that I would have to respond with a blank stare, slowly exhale, and say "how much of a whore OP'S mom is".

Way too much, but it's fun to fantasize

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>>689480150
I don't mean to sound disrespectful, how does being a Virgin really amount to anything negative. I mean, one of the most respected men I have ever met is still a virgin... And being honest Sex really isn't it's all cracked up to be. But I still question as to why that's such an accomplishment. And I can't really say I sympathize with you mainly because I don't know what it's like... So my condolences I hope it get's better man.

>>689475084
have thought about it about it but i just cant see myself doing it i would rather live with the pain than to be a weak coward

>>689475084
Too often.

>>689480150
As an adult, it literally gets worse. You'll never really live up to everyone's expectations. You'll realize you can't numb the pain in video games and anime anymore. It only gets harder to meet people and to network, and chances are you'll be alone for a good portion of your life. Hey, if a tree falls in the woods.

>>689475084
just everytime the love of my life is with her bf

>>689475084
Often

>>689475084
Maybe 10 times a day. I usually sleep it off.

OK here goes
to answer question a lot.
but, i feel as though my reasoning is sound for wanting to do so
> be 33
> $60000 in loan debt
> had mental breakdown last year of undergraduate.
>6 years later still can't handle keeping jobs
> literally 30 jobs in 6 years
>severe alcoholism like i went to the hospital for alcoholic gastritis a month ago
>still drinking
>Just had a baby with a 24 year old tinder slut who literally fuck 5 people in a weekend (2 guys 3 girls)
>she hates me and is making any progress in that department nearly impossible
>dead end job most likely going to get fired as I have to work a waiter
tl,dr I had a Shot a Yale had a breakdown and knocked a dumb slut up

>>689480944
Nothing just people mock you about it and a lot call you gay

Everyday! :D

At least every couple of hours a day, even with i'm with people who are close to me. life is doomed for me so there's really no point in hoping. I just want to die already but I'm too pussy to actually kill myself.

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>>689480150
>I think about suicide every now and then but I'm too much of a pussy to do it because I always have a false hope that everything will turn out good for me someday

Its not a false hope, get out there and get a job, make some friends, start a family. you have your whole life to live, you have to be the one to make it better though. If you leave things as they are nothing will change, so go get em lad I believe in you!

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>>689481580
Kind of reminds me a lot of Middle School, then again kids in Middle School are also full of shit.

>>689480944
>one of the most respected men I have ever met is still a virgin
Wow, I didn't know you respected me that much. Say my name, just in case.

>>689475084
Every fucking day, usually some time in the afternoon or the middle of the night.

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>>689475084
Who even cares anymore, everyone around us outside the Internet doesn't. why do we even bother counting.

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>>689475084

Recently its been about half of each day and all night. Ive started sitting on a dark curb next to the highway in my town when i cant sleep. I feel like if a car or truck was going fast enough you probably wouldnt feel a thing... What do you think /b/?

>>689481998
It happens to adults to a lot

>>689475084
Never
Check em

About as often as you beta kids think about sex.

I think about suicide at least a few times per week - but only in a general sense, or in the context of thinking about philosophy, not actually attempting.

That said, I know exactly how I'd go about killing myself if the need to make an emergency exit ever arises. I know a perfect spot where I could jump in front of a train without the engineer ever seeing and my body would be knocked into a gulch where it'd be unlikely to be found for a considerable period of time.

I go to bed with a loaded gun in my mouth hoping if i kill myself in my dreams i can do it in the real world too.

>>689481881
You should at least find comfort in the fact that it'll always be an option for you. One of the most fundamental human rights is the right to end one's own existence.

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>>689482014
A-N-O-N-Y-M-O-U-S..~
No besides the point, I've been at that point, mainly over a girl and a couple of people; whom I thought were my friends. However after about 4 months of whining I said "Fuck it." Life is to short to be depressed.

>>689475084
EVERY

SINGLE

DAY

I'm not exaggerating. It's literally become first nature to me, on the same level as breathing. I have to TRY to not consider suicide.

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>>689480944
>sex isn't all its cracked up to be
You're probably right but I just want someone to love me. The closest thing to love was from my cat. I never told anybody this but I loved my cat so much I use to let him suck my nipples all the time and even though he would bite and claw me I just held it all back because he looked so comfortable and it made me happy to know he loved me like his mom.

>>689475084
Sorry OP, but do you even know who you posted a picture of? Just curious.

>>689482922
That anon is wrong. Sex is amazing. It feels best if you're doing it with someone you care about though because it's both mental and physical.

>>689475084
Incidentally, I think of suicide everyday.
As in, I incidentally think of suicide whenever I see a gun or think of any way to harm myself and possible cause my death but I've never acted on that except to have guns near me.

Everydaay due to the history.

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>>689482922
Just try drugs. One tab of LSD and you'll know the meaning of life.

>>689475084
Once every night at least whenever I look at my closet

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>>689483650
Eh the drugs stopped working for me.

>>689482922
Love is a very fickle thing, and as a Human being it's in our nature to be wanted, or desired or even felt like we're useful to others. An animal's love is unconditional and so simple to obtain... I guess my advice is what my brother told me. "If you're going to love someone, you need to learn to love your self." But that's something even I still have yet to do... And is probably the hardest thing anyone ever can do.

>>689475084
I've had these dreams. Ones where I die, and I'm just dead, but I'm happy. It's like it's finally over, my chapter has come to an end and I can rest forever. Then, I wake up and the first time it happened I sorta cried, first time I'd cried since I was a kid. I was crying because I had hoped it was real and I was done, but I woke up into a nightmare.

Now when it happens I just take it as a moment of bliss. It's why I sleep so much these days.

>>689483756
More drugs. Harder drugs.

>>689482326
The thing is though I think I am gay. I mean women are beautiful and all but I see them as just a really expensive pleasure accessory for men

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>>689483412
You're probably right, I mean I've had five sexual partners... And I only really ever loved one of them, and since that time. Anybody else I've slept with is well... Not the same. But the girl I'm dating now, we have sex on occasion but I don't really feel that spark of love. Or how I did with some others, I hate my self for it. But I guess I don't get very attached to people. Because they come and go so quickly it's a dangerous thing to do.

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>>689483769
your brother is gay he loves a man lol

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>>689484256
I mean, you wouldn't be wrong... Lel.

>>689475084

Honestly, for years I thought of it every other day to multiple times a day. I knew how i was going to do it and everything. I was gonna just lay my head on some nearby tracks, or just slit my wrists in some nearby vacant lot (didnt want my sisters seeing me. Didnt want to fuck them up)

I figured i was just a burden on everyone and that I would be better off dead.

Came to realize that my urges to commit suicide stemmed from my general sense of worthlessness that my mother played a significant role in.

She would beat and berate me. To the point where ai would feel dizzy evertime she claimed that it would be my fault that my sisters wouldnt have a mom (the stress I caused her would kill her, not her shit diet or refusal to seek/listen to medical advice)

Worse yet, I was a deadbeat. Neet without the neetbux. With some help, I finally got a job and my sense of worthlessness, along with my suicidal urges largely went away.

Long story short, getting a job made me feel better about my self worth, even if the jobs themselves were shit.

>>689483412
That is a lie.
>>689484166
>they come and go so quickly it's a dangerous thing to do
This is accurate advice.
I suggest everyone take his word.

The world is a big place, this universe is even bigger. Each and everyone you know or will ever know are insignificant and pointless to the conclusion. So stick to your mission and that's all that matters.

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Always

>>689475657
other way around.

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Multiple times, every day. What can I do for myself?

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>>689482922
>>689484844
>>689484955
>>689484166
Looks like I've stumbled upon a dubs thread.

Check these.

>>689483650
I have done acid years back and I remember it being the best day of my life. I never felt so in tune and happy with just every single fucking thing. I even remember writing myself a quote while I was on acid, it went something like.
"My only enemy is myself, I can only be blamed for not achieving what I want to achieve."
My life then had meaning again and I remember getting straight A's that year after that experience. But then I became a senior and got the worst fucking case of senioritis and started fucking up my life again and everything went downhill from there

whenever I get suicidally depressed I lock myself away for a while and snort deschloroketamine, methoxetamine or another dissociative until I am a non person. I am ok for a bit after that.

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>>689485200
Checked.

>>689475084
I usually think about it once a day. I don't want to commit suicide yet but I almost already know that i'm probably going to kill myself in ten or so years when I just can't take it anymore.

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>>689485200
Oh shit, I'm two for two! Bad joke, I'm a terrible person.

>>689475084
Haha. Never bro. I want to kill everyone else though. Sorry for you, bro.

>>689485200
Damn son. How did you do that

>>689475746
This

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>>689485200

>>689485144
>>689485200
They keep coming!

Roll

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Used to think about it almost every day, but now I'm on Zoloft. I don't feel happier but less fucks are given.

>>689475084
Not so much anymore, to my surprise. Sometimes I'll cave and the thoughts will come crawling back but it doesn't last like it used too. Things are better than they were. Much better.

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>>689485554
He got TRIPS check it.

Daily. I don't even have a terrible life I just hate myself.

>>689477704
Hah. Dont take my word of it then, fag. Stay sad and suicidal, who bitches and whines about your pathetic life

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>>689485554
>off by one

>>689480944
Thats complete bullshit. Being a virgin is one of the worst things that can happen for an adult. Virgins will never know what its like to fell a woman warmth. I will never feel complete.

All I want in this world is to raise a nice family with a nice qt. But thats never going to happen.

>>689485286
Are you really going to let some measly shit like laziness stand in your way of success and learning? What the fuck anon?

>>689475084
That depends on how many beers there are on my fridge

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>>689485925
>Being a virgin is one of the worst things that can happen for an adult
Holy shit dude you are pathetic.

Just, wow.

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>>689485922
>DUBS

>>689475084
Not since high school when I figured out it was pointless

>>689482614
Do not do that imagine how shitty the conductor would feel when he finds out what happens.

The way i would do it is grab a blanket and a bottle of draino find a dumpster. I'll set the blanket over the trash and get comfortable. I would then try to down the draino, trying to get as much down as i could.

Drinking draino is suppose to be the worse way to die since it cooks you on the inside.

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>>689485925
This is the least coherent thing I've ever read. Almost exactly what I'd expect from a meathead who unironically thinks sex and "felling a woman warmth" is of the utmost importance.

>>689484955
What mission you dumb fuck. What if your mission is to simply have a loyal wife a family.

>>689485922
Fucking hell so close

>>689486556
>>689486193
NORMIES REEEEEEEEEEEE

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>>689486266
>>689486066
>>689485922
The ride never ends.
This is truly the blessed dubs thread.
I am glad, and honored to partake in the receiving of dubs, if I may.

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>>689485925
I mean not really, congrats you did something that animals do on a daily basis. It's a reproductive action, and if you don't have sex oh well. No matter what happens, the world will keep on turning. Sex is probably the least of my worries as an adult, I'd be more worried putting food on my plate, then getting my dick wet.

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>>689486556
don't you mean "fell a woman warmth"?

>>689485200
You lovable conformist piece of shit

>>689475746
What happens when it's all grey, faggot? Change. Time resolves all, even the pitch black of death is but a fleeting moment before the cycles of life. Pointless, as it all is, who gives a shit? Will you fight or will you die like a dog?

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>>689485925
>Being a virgin is one of the worst things that can happen for an adult.
It's only what you think of it.

>All I want in this world is to raise a nice family with a nice qt.
If you're young (below 30 or so), git gud on life and achieve success. by the time you hit wizard age, pussy will come flying at you.

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>>689486818
wait until you see these

>>689478948
This tbh

>>689487222
TRIPS WHAT IS HAPPENING IN THIS THREAD

>>689486888
>I mean not really, congrats you did something that animals do on a daily basis
I can't even accomplish as much as a fucking animal in the wild.

Whats the point in putting food on your plate when you have no reason to live? Can you really call yourself an adult? You haven't had any children have you?

Thats all I want really. I just want to have a nice loyal wife to raise a family with but I know that will never happen. I'd be happy just putting food on my child's plate. I will always be a virgin.

Nice trips by the way.

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>>689485925
>The worst thing to happen to an adult
OK I'm the depressed virgin but I don't think that's even remotely true, Or maybe I just love porn to much to care. Either way, nobody knows how to make you feel good as much as you do. Which is why I have a dildo and butt plug collection and a pocket pussy

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>>689486888
>>689487222
The thread.
IT'S ASCENDING

THIS is NO LONGER A DUBS THREAD.

IT'S A TRIPS THREAD.

CHECK THESE.

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>>689483756

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>>689487222
>30
Yeah all of those great women who spent their 20's whoring out with other men will come begging to you for shelter an money. By the time i'm 30 women my age won't will hardly be able to give birth anymore.

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More often than id like to think

>>689488106
Exactly, which is one of the reasons I stopped caring.

People will always talk, virgin or not. Just do you.

>>689485759
How much? I'm a month in on 50mg a day, think i need more

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>>689487493
My reason to live, is because I'm afraid of dying. It's going to happen, I've accepted that. I wan't say in my final hours. "I'm proud of what I've done." And yes I'm naive I'm 20 years old. But I'm not going to roll over and die, this is a dog eat dog world. I won't to enjoy every second of my life because once it's done. That's it game over. My personal life in this Universe is a speck, and is also completely meaningless. But I'm going to make my life mean something not for someone else. But for me.

See my thread, here >>689488094

>>689486583
I cannot tell you that, only you know what your mission is.

I know that mine is to protect and serve. To be used as a tool for survival and the success of humanity.

Honestly, I'm surprised if I go five hours without thinking about it pretty heavily.

Maybe tomorrow will be the day.

>>689486066
You're right, that's why I said don't feel bad for me though. I mean I know being successful and rich is awesome but I just imagine myself doing more drugs and just buying hookers and escorts if I ever become successful. Which sounds fuckin awesome but its not true love and losing virginity to hookers sounds pathetic, and even if I do retrieve a dream waifu while I'm successful she will just be there for my money so its bullshit either way

>>689488577
No you attention whore.

Bring your thread here.

>>689488106
I'm pretty sure menopause hits waaaay later than you think. Also, why the hurry to settle down? You're young. Go travel somewhere. fuck whores. finding your "so called qt wife" is just part of grandiose romaticism.

>>689488360
>Just b yourself
Yeah what an exciting life I will lead, completely alone for the rest, rotting away with no real purpose or goal. I guess I could always join ISIS If I got desperate enough.

At least two times a week. Used to be every day, then they put me on Zyprexa.

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>>689485903
If you weren't an intellectual shutin you'd be aware of the millions that fake it just as you suggest I order to survive.

News flash, people hide how they're feeling.

>>689488878
Who said being yourself would get you friends?

You walk the path you chose. Regardless of what others do. Sometimes that means walking alone. For me, that sometime is all the time.

>>689488515
I can't see myself living life for nothing but myself. Whats the point? I don't care about myself.

>>689475084
A lot.

>>689488653
Are you in the army or something? I'd like to throw my life away fighting in a war. Seems like the best way to go. There are just no noble causes right now.

>>689488825
Then don't worry about money and shit. Just find some hobbies, learn, and contribute to humanities progress. Laziness is the worst.

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>>689488515
damn

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>>689489635
I can say that's not a healthy way of thinking. But it's not me, like I said I can only understand you as a person to a point. We're both extremely different. I'm very competitive as a person, so I strive to be better than anyone else. But in your situation, I don't have any advice to give you... That feeling is pretty bad. To me, it felt like my heart could fall out of my chest. And the point to life, I wan't you to call me when you figure that out. Perhaps if I have the chance to get married, and have children my views will change. But what do I know I'm 20 and still pretty ignorant to a lot of things in this world.

>>689488874
>just part of grandiose romaticism.
but it not though. It used to be a normal thing for people before all of this degeneracy.

>travel
That sounds nice but expensive. Where would I go? What would I do? Whats the point if i'm too autistic to make any connections.
>fuck whores
I'm not a degenerate and even if I was I wouldn't be able to get in a womans bed.

>>689489962
No, at least not yet, about to go in the Air Force though.

However, that's been my stance since I was born. People and soldiers are two different beings. It's something you're born into, you don't chose it. I exist only to help others, that is my purpose.

>>689489436
You just said be yourself.

>For me, that sometime is all the time.
Ah I see. Your just one of those people whose temporarily convinced themselves they aren't unhappy.

I don't know what to do i'v never done anything i'm still at home without a job licence or anything i just don't know

>>689489195
That's a problem. Why do you do that?

too often

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1A9z8InfZkE

I like to go run, not get fit, but because the pain reminds me what it is to be alive.

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>>689491001
HEY! I don't have one either, but working on it though. I had to go out and get it my self. Can't let things fall in your lap man. Got to chase what you want.

>>689490871
Who said I was happy. I don't have emotions, I have objectives. If I have to give up something to succeed and survive then so be it. Emotions hold no value and will get you nowhere. Something I learned long ago.

>>689488422
50mg a day but depending on the amount of stress you go through in a day its not going to help much. Speak to your psychiatrist to switch you onto something else.

>>689491169
Because he's smart.

>>689491421
What does that even mean?

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>>689490703
I considered the Armed Forces, I decided on not doing it. I'm simply not cut out for it, and afraid I'll admit it. I'd rather help people physically so I decided to join the medical field. Become a male nurse, I feel like it's a Noble Cause. But I have more respect for our Service men and women than anyone else in the world.

>>689491862
Is he? What kind of life is that?

>>689490046
I do poetry.
That's it though. Sometimes I feel good about it and sometimes it makes me cringe. I always hear good feedback from it but idk if people just don't wanna be mean. I wanna be an artist but I draw like an autistic child
Maybe if I learn how to draw my life will have meaning again but idk if I can achieve a talent that has to be trained at a very young age. If I make something beautiful one day though then I might learn to love myself

>>689475084
I don't, I think of being dead and all the repercussions.

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>>689490661
You're missing the point completely. You're just blindly charging in the darkness without knowing where are you going or even running into. Being a socially inept individual won't take you anywhere as much as attracting another autistic people on your level, and finding a gf will seems like you'll need god's intervention. You need to get good. Be an interesting person. Nobody likes the type of people who whines about every single bad thing in their life. That's practically what you're doing right now. Whatever you do in your life, YOU are the one responsible. Take my advice or not. Whatever. If you want to kill yourself, you'd better just do it rather than complain how horrible your life is without trying to make it better.

>>689491677
Objectives have no value either. The only point in reaching an objective the emotional value of achieving it.

>>689492092
A life of common sense and getting things done. You let your emotions get in the way and you don't accomplish a single thing. No one cares about your feelings, they don't matter.

>>689485925
Anyone under 25 that has not had sex is a complete waste of space and a loser. And 25 is giving you PLENTY of time.

I love everyone saying this guy is an idiot, you're all virgin losers.

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>>689492173
Yes, I like this

>>689486556
You're a virgin that's why you didn't get trips

>>689492190
Wrong. My objectives have no emotional value. Only end results.

>>689492670
What is an objective of yours?

Whenever I'm alone
>Always

>>689484924
lol

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>Just got out of a bad situation
>no suicidal thoughts

>>689492173
Its not like I actually complain in real life. I know I am a boring person but i'm always going to be boring. It doesn't matter what I do. The truth is everyone is boring. You can accept it or not.
As I said before I'm almost 90% certain i'm going to kill myself in 10-15 years. I just haven't gotten to that point yet.

>>689475084
A bit recently coz i'm on the run from law for cheesy pizza overseas and if they can be fucked to extradite me im fuckeeddd hahaha

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>>689492852
Spoilers:
>You're not alone though

>>689493224
>via9gag.com

>>689492841
My primary directive is the preservation of human life.

>>689492190
This, I hope that guy kills himself after reading this

A few times a week but not really seriously. Just fantasies. A missile drilling into my spine and removing my hemisphere from the globe. Slowly sliding a knife between my ribs and watching that final fade to black. Becoming a smear on the floor of my workplace. (But that's just fear from the dangerous equipment I operate) Sometime when I drink a little too much I decide to drink way too much. Either I'm trying to get blackout or I'm trying to poison myself. Idk, I can never remember those moments for obvious reasons.

>>689493420
Shut up

>>689492418
Well fuck you dude I can't force women to have sex with me if they don't want to because I'm not a fucking rapist. I don't give a shit how much time it takes me but I can't be fake 24/7 to trick women into liking someone that I'm not. I can pretend to be a guy with confidence and charisma but the truth is it would just be a mask to hide the ugliness of my weird and obscure thoughts.

>>689493448
Way ahead of you.

I promised myself that I'd kill myself in the future a long time ago.

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>>689493611
>he's mad

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>>689475084
Never.

Married to a beautiful woman.
Make 105k/yr.
Live in a nice house.
Life literally cannot get any better.
I find it odd myself that I'm even posting on /b/ with the rest of you losers.

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That moment, when you don't plan to stick around in a thread. And you stay for almost three hours, more importantly this is probably a more interesting one I've visited tonight.

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>>689493224
I had to

>>689493929
you could win the lottery

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>>689493929
>being a wageslave
sucks to be you

>>689493611
Why are you angry?

>>689493929
I would murder you to take your place.

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Anywhore, I hope all of you Anons have a decent day, evening, night whatever time-zone you're in. I bid you all adieu.

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>>689494300
>Life literally cannot get any better.
>sucks to be you
Stay mad I guess.

>>689494704
Anon, if you have a dream then follow it. Do not ever listen to negative thoughts telling you "you can't do this or that"
You're worth more than you give yourself credit for, trust me.

>>689494797
I bid you $100

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>>689494797
Bye senpai have a nice less shitty life than most of us

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>>689475084
I think about it less now that I got a girl but it still creeps in the back of my mind atleast once a week but it's not through lack of purpose or will it's simply due to boredom

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>>689494300
>>689495030
>wageslave
Dude you got burned.

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>>689495276
I love traps

>>689495030
don't you waste most of your life working?

>>689495276
Aww shit my porn,
Umm nothing to see here guys that's just a banana under her panties

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>>689493371
>>689494153
fixed it

>>689495490
Don't we all.

>>689495276
tfw you will never be a trap
it's awful

Daily. I survived my attempt. Things have definitely gotten better since then, but I haven't stopped thinking about how I tried to kill myself. Every. Day.

>>689487131
faggot its perish like a dog dont try to act like you made that line up

>>689487131
I chose to parish and be erased like the thousands who died millenia ago.

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>>689495576
That is what makes vacations/trips all the more special and worthwhile.

I used to eat cold stale cereal with no milk for dinner growing up because my parents had no plans nor money. It will be a cold day in hell before I ever go back to how things were when I was a child. Working a lot is tough, but I finally have everything that I had ever dreamed of as a kid.

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>>689495726
Tfw you will never have a trap gf, wife.

Why even live.

>>689475084
i don't because im not a bitch who feels sorry for myself

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>>689495726
:/ you're right. I wish I could be a beautiful slut

>>689496301
>feels sorry for myself
Pretty sure people who feel sorry for themselves do the opposite of committing suicide.

>>689475084
Everyday, on the hour.

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>>689496373
tfw not a small cute japanese boy

never
I value this precious life that I was blessed with
every single human being is a fucking lottery winner
the fact that we're all here is a miracle itself

>>689487860
this pic gets me every time.

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>>689497120
Do you think maybe I could be a twink?

>>689475746
Dexter?

>>689497257
>every single human being is a fucking lottery winner
Fucking this. All of us have untapped potential. We just need to find our niche.

>>689497463
maybe how tall are you?

>>689497463
>that beard

>>689475084
ever couple of weeks or so

>>689497257
>every single one of us is a lottery winner
That would imply we are all lucky, we were all the fastest sperm out of the millions which means we were the best ones out of all of them

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>>689498316
>last $5
>buy 5 scratch tickets
>win absolutely nothing

>>689498316
We were all born with the ability to do great things. We can't let fear, embarrassment, uncertainty stop us from achieving our goals.

>>689485090
Kill me,Pete

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>>689497734
5'11"
>>689497772
Shut up I shaved

Every time someone mentions it, or when the existential fear and panic start to set in.

Possibly, every time I look in a mirror. Especially if I make eye contact with my reflection, or if I've been drinking.

Thing is, I see it as the Cowards Way Out, and I'm no coward. But that doesn't stop me from considering it.

I think if I had no debt, no family left, and enough money in the bank to cover disposal costs, I'd off myself. I'd be the last person of my generation to start life in debt, and not pass it on to the next generation upon my death. At this point, it's really the best any of us could ever hope for.

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>>689498782
can't hurt to try i guess

Not everybody is cut out for living.

>>689499381
thats not true fuckface
some people just suffer more than others
some people's minds are worse than others