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>>688916079
did you say bean(er)?

I only love my girlfriend when i'm horny.
When i am not horny i just don't care about anyone or anything and it pisses me the fuck off, i'm stressed out at the moment and don't know what i am anymore.

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>>688916293
Hmm... out of curiosity how old are you, and how long have you been with your gf

are there any qualities in your girlfriend that you specifically dislike? or do you feel it is more of a lack in ability to feel?

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Well no one wants to hear it but ill tell it anyways as im drunk and sad.

>Be 20 years old
>2 years since i graduated high school
>had lose friends in school and wasn't antisocial but never had luck with girls
>really desperate for a girl to love and live with
>have really high hopes for university getting better and finding real friends or a gf
>study economics for one semester
>can't find any friends go to every lecture alone, have lunch alone, drive back alone
>don't even have any contact to old friends as they scattered across the country
>fall into some kind of quarterlifecrisis and throw my studies of economics as it gives me nothing
>be down for half a year until caring dad kicks my ass and tells me to at least get a job
>am really late for any internships and dont really wanna do anything but dad forces me to make calls
>get really lucky with this job to overwatch 2 retarded boys in elementary school for twice the normal paying
>20 hours a week for 950€ netto it's k
>just working and otherwise just sleeping and playing vidya games for half a year
>decide that's not fullfilling and want to give studying 2nd chance
>Start studying law
>only find lose contact in random chosen seminars, there's this one guy Nils i can get along with but thats it
>just feeling sad it's going the same way again and start to wonder how shitty i have to be so no one wants to hang with me or do anything
>half into semester stayed really focussed about the studies but feel alone and empty
>one day sitting in public law lecture it's boring as hell
>sit next to cute 7/10 girl i've never talked to before
>she asks me if she could borrow a colored pencil

that's how it started
cont. ?

>>688917322
>>get really lucky with this job to overwatch 2 retarded boys in elementary school for twice the normal paying
tard sitting does not seem fun, not to be a dick

yes please continue

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>>688915872

My boyfriend revealed to me that him and his stepsister used to have an insect relationship. Ever Since he told me about it, I've never felt so self-conscious about my body and everything about me. I also fear that he thinks about his sister while we have sex. He even calls his step sister attractive and it just fucking hurts me. We had many fights about it and he thinks i'm over it but really, i'm not. It's been causing my self-esteem to drop massively and I don't know how to cope with this. I do believe him when he says that he loves me and only me and he never wants to cheat on me with anybody BUT another part of me is telling me that he is lying.

>>688917322
pls continue

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>>688917322
>i should add that i'm kind of a beta
>every girl i crushed on and got closer with i got friendzoned because of me beeing retardedly shy and not telling them about my feelings
>2 times it was really bad to a point where i was just used until they couldn't squeeze anything more out and then they just dropped me but these are different stories

>so cute girl asks me for a pencil
>manage to build complete correct sentence even tho my bloodpressure raises to one 180
>"yes sure here you go" hand her pencil
>that's really all we talk for the lecture
>next lecture in same room
>professor comes in fucks something up with technical equipment so speakers don't work anymore
>i'm here to study not to fuck around (and am also a pussy) move to first row telling girl to just maybe give back the pencil whenever she wants
>realize im a pussy for literally escaping the first female talking to me in a whole complete year
>next lecture speakers work again i immediatley get my balls together and move back
>make dumb joke about how i dont like first row because i can't sleep there
>she laughs about poor try of a joke
>not any much more conversation for the day
>at the end of the lecture she thanks me for the pencil gives it back starts packing her things and gets ready to leave
>i say "you're welcome im anon btw"
>"oh okay anon im femanon"
>instant fucking crush for this girl
>not only beautiful but literally the first girl that doesn't treat me like dirt until i prove im not worthless
>oh well guess i'll never see her again because why would she want to talk to me again
>fast forward 3 days
>sit alone in one of the backrows of the lecture just as usual
>headphones in because lecture hasn't started yet
>feel finger poking my shoulder
>"thefuckistouchingme"
>it's femanon

>>688917559
Tards where actually nice boys and it was stressing but really easy to do
they were just dumb but otherwise kinda socially normal (i knew they'd be bullied later in school but oh well)

>>688917322
holy shit anon are you me?
also cont.

>>688915872
I don't like church.

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>>688918913
Cont please

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>>688918937
then feel free to leave,
though not actually a church really i have no idea why i called it that, I am just someone to talk to
leave or do not it is your decision

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>>688915872
COURAGE AND HONOR, SAD MORTALS

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>>688918913
>Tards where actually nice boys
Yeah I have known some that are very very nice and good natured, I just feel it would not be a "fun" job, or like you said stressfull


Please tell us more about your story

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>>688919161
I wished the emperor was real,then i could live and die for something that is worth it.

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WHAT AILS YOUR MINDS TONIGHT, BATTLE /b/ROTHERS?

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>>688919780
FIND SOMTHING TO LIVE FOR.

go adventure see the world!
at the end of the day all you are is not cells not matter, not a soul, but a set of characteristics and experiences, Go live the most fantastic life you can dream of

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>9/10 from my work into me
>planned to ask her out today
>she had the day off

She doesn't have facebook, and I don't have her number. She is so gorgeous and definitely into me, but I feel like she is going to meet up with some Chad this weekend and forget about me.


Feel like I've blown the chance of a lifetime to get with my dream girl..my weekend is ruined.

>>688918074
this is very true

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>>688918913
>"Hey anon what are you doing back here all alone haha? Why don't you come sit with us?"
>gives me a smile literally blowing me away
>"yeah sure i'd really like to"
>sit next to her for the lecture
>we get to talk more pay barely any attention to professor
>learn her parents are from russia she's just graduated high school and is one year younger than me
>she introduces me to her group of friends
>asian tryhard, lame dude with alcohol problem, kinda manly bro girl, harmonic as fuck girl and selfish even tho ugly girl
>oh well i guess it's a start
>go to eat lunch with femanon in canteen
>we talk more it's really easy and we both enjoy talking
>i ask her for facebook name so we could chat
>she accepts me at facebook we continue to chat there
>she trusts me for some reason
>tells me really private things regarding her feelings, fears and dreams
>not that average bs smalltalk but really interesting quality conversation
>tell her a bit that i got problems bonding with people especially girls and talk a bit about my own motivations and fears
>chat from 8pm till 2am
>holy shit femanon is like my soulmate
>she tells me she doens't understand how i cannot have had a gf yet as i seem to be such a nice guy
>laugh it off tell her i guess it's just bad luck even tho i know it's really just my pessimistic aura
>she tells me that can't be it and i just choose the girls i crush on badly
>laugh again tell her that might be it
>ohshitit's2am.jpg
>tomorrow's lecture starts at 8am
>wish her a good night and that i look forward to see her tomorrow
>btw forget to tell but story started at the end of november 2015

>>688918925
always the same with girls i guess

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>>688919780
>I wished the emperor was real
THE EMPEROR IS REAL EVERY TIME MAN MAKES SOMETHING GREATER THAN HIMSELF
THE EMPEROR IS REAL EVERY TIME YOU SERVE ANOTHER
THE EMPEROR LIVES AS LONG AS HUMANITY ENDURES

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>>688919780
THE EMPEROR IS THE ONLY TRUE GOD. HERETIC.

>>688920563
Reading this anon, sick and in bed on my phone. I can relate to this, just graduated and brings me back to my social retardation

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>>688920624
Emperor's damn battle /b/rother thanks for making feel better, have the imperial creed just for you.

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>>688920301
there are others,
even if their aren't I'm sorry to say what you got is what you got, nothing wrong with working to bettering yourself of course.

Getting caught up in what is going on and reacting to how it makes you feel is the wrong choice, rather than do that, observe how it makes you feel, and try again, never give up, for you only have one life.

Love the life you got because it is the only one you have

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>>688920203
End Life as you began it.

SCREAMING AND BATHED IN BLOOD!

>>688920820
technically, that's blasphemy
fucking retarded blood angels, when will they learn?

>>688920563
Go on, attachment can lead to much suffering

>>688921312
dying for a just cause can be noble

>>688915872
Love yours
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yPQQtohu1h0

>>688921193
thx m8, needed that. Really shouldn't let myself get hung up on a oneitis

>>688921840
To be honest I really do wish to end this life in service of my god.

Its just sad that most people are so adsorbed in their own lives that they couldn't fathom sacrificing themselves for a "greater good".

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>>688920563
>Same procedure the next days
>Sit next to femanon talk all lecture long and have lunch together
>miss most of lectures content but what do i care im not here to pay attention right?
>chat every evening
>i ask her for her phonenumber so we can chat via whatsapp as well
>kinda spend all day talking or chatting with her
>really enjoy her presence and feel as things are looking up a bit finally
>thank my fate for finally giving me a chance
>can talk with her about sense of beeing alive and politics about death and ethics but can also gossip about people studying with us and just joke around
>ask her if she want's to meet and go out to do something fun next week
>note how i didn't say "date"
>she says she would really like to
>says she would like to meet at sunday maybe
>plan to go to a hookah cafe
>continue week going to university chatting with her all the time
>saturday evening she writes around 10pm if i minded to pick her up and just go to a hookah cafe right now
>would need to drive 40km but who gives a shit
>say yes i'd love to immediatley
>she's on a friends birthday and it's horrible as all the other girls there are arrogant and boring
>i promise to be there in 40 minutes
>put on best clothes and ask dad to borrow his car (I have an own car but ofc dads is more impressive)
>drive to the club they were celebrating her friends birthday
>text her im there and she can come out
>wait 2 minutes until she comes out
>2 cars there just me in my fathers car and a VW in front of me
>she walks to the car in front of me and tries to get into the VW
>realizes her mistake blushes apologizes and hurries to my car
>her blushing must be the cutest thing i've seen in 10 years
>we laugh together and it's just great
>she dressed for partying just looking gorgeous
>ask her if she still wants to go to the hookah cafe
>sure why not
>joke a bit more on the drive there about how she is a bit clumsy
>we get to talk about "beeing normal"

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>>688919437
Honestly, I always remember that no matter how bad my life is, at least I was given a fully functioning brain. Mentally challenged and physically deformed people live life in ultra hard mode. They're inspirational to me.

I'm still madly in love with my ex but I keep trying to delude myself into believing I've moved on. I don't want to take her back after what she did, I just want to go back to the way things were before.
Fuck it hurts.

>>688922278
I agree, Though there is somthing to be said about your cause perhaps lacking ethics? I do not know who you fight for, but i know standing for nothing and having nothing to die for is abhorrent, i respect those who will die for what they believe

>>688917322
Reply to that pic
Stop romanizing clingy girls, no one likes them.

>>688922582
Same I have diabetes (type one i am not a fat) I used to get bitchy about it, but now I stop and realize, I am alive and I can controll my life

>>688922315
being normal?
Moar pls?

>>688922315
>>688920563
>>688918913
>>688917322
why are these goddamned stories so long?
no wonder no one fucking likes you, just get to the point

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>>688922315
>we agree that's she's definetly not your average normal girl
>but she's also not crazy
>so i jokingly say she's "normal crazy"
>she finds it really fitting and laughs
>we arrive at the hookah cafe
>order something sitting upstairs at a table
>smalltalk a bit
>she noticely shifts topics into deeper not so light ones
>tells me about how her parents were part of minority in russia and how hard they had it
>tells me that she's endlessly thankful and loves her parents
>tells me how her exboyfriend was an alcoholic and that her best friend in the final year of highschool just backstabbed her for a boy and she felt so betrayed
>i can relate so damn hard
>suddenly starts crying
>leans on my shoulder
>"anon my boyfriend told me he's taking drugs"
> W T F
>she has a fucking boyfriend and didn't tell me in these 2 weeks
>she is fucking trusting me enough to tell me her complete lifestory and most private feelings
>she has A FUCKING BOYFRIEND
>and this little fucker is appearantly taking cocaine
>was taking drugs since she got to know him but she only recently found out
>try not to show i died a little inside because she has a boyfriend
>hold her at my shoulder wondering what all this means
>try to reassure her
>"he can change himself"
>"you're a beautiful awesome nice girl he would do anything for you"
>i hope he won't, i don't know this guy but i already fucking hate him for the fact alone he's hurting her
>she tells me how she got to know him
>he's at her workplace and just asked her out on a date to the christmas fair
>they drunk a lot of glogg
>kinda just happened
>i feel like dying inside that can have only been one month before i got to know her
>later she would have jokingly told me several times that if she hadn't have a boyfriend she would have dated me
>i continue to reassure her and give her the best advice i can
>this fuckers drug problems should be a topic for quite some time as i didn't know yet at this point

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>>688922818
Glory to you anon, whatever god you serve, I still respect you more than most.(I'm happy your not a shallow and vain asshole who would abandon his beliefs for fads and social pressures)

>>688923357
well fuck im drunk and this happened over the course of 3/4 of a year so chill out
i'm not forcing you to read it and also we're getting to the drama right now

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First gf just broke up with me because her controlling parents don't want her dating. Sucks.