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>>687039002
I just want this all to end. To wake up tomorrow back in Korea, and realize that the last 3 years were all just some bad, long dream.

Would you mind explaining "this" is?

I constantly feel tired and anxious and frustrated and angry all with an overlying sense of futility. Also i type something like this and then have to click a bunch of fucking sandwiches for capatcha

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>>687039870
My life now. Being in debt, facing graduation with an uncertain future, being broke all the time with no one hiring no matter what I do, etc. I just want to go back and pretend all of this didn't happen. I'd do it right this time, and I'd never come back to the U.S. no matter what it took.

>>687040240
what depresses me is how much of a long way I have to go.

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>>687040997
I'm 27, and I can tell it's not going to get any better the older I get. Not unless I leave this place for good.

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>>687039002
>>Be me, 17.
>>Close relationship with cousin.
>>She had leukemia.
>>In turn she never got to go out much, so we spent quite some time together.
>>We used to talk about t.v. shows all the time.
>>One show we talked about was Friday Night Lights, and that we should watch it together sometime.
>>Superbowl comes around and she gets really sick.
>>At the hospital my uncle tells me that she had the flu.
>>No big deal.
>>Fast forward a month
>>Birthday, she, still sick, gets me a shirt with the phrase "Clear Eyes, Full Hearts, Can't Lose."
>>Phrase from Friday Night Lights.
>>Fast forward 2 weeks.
>>On vacation to visit brother with family,
>>Stay at brother's apartment.
>>Day after we meet the parents for breakfast.
>>They have "news."
>>ohshit
>>"Cousin past away last night."
>>Hold back the tears.
>>When we get back to the hotel, I go to the bathroom.
>>I stare in the mirror. I ball my eyes out as I read my shirt "Clear Eyes, Full Hearts, Can't Lose."
Yesterday, we bury her in the ground. She was 28.

>>687041162
Why dont you leave then?

>>687039002
Yo I desperately want to kill myself but am too much of a coward to do so. If things don't get better within the next few years, and if i'm still as lonely as i am right now, I'm definitely gonna kill myself though. Hold me, /b/

>>687041309
Jesus. Im so sorry to hear that anon.

>>687041309
bawl is not the same as ball.

I hate that I have a pill that makes me not want to blow my brains out.

>>687040240
If only we could change the past.

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>>687041313
Have to graduate college first, and so many things are happening at once that seem to be trying to prevent that. I'm not a bad student or anything (actually consistently make the Dean's List), but it's extra administrative shit, like them straight up removing classes I've already taken with little or no explanation, thus prolonging my time here.

>>687041903
Seriously...

>>687040240
>90 years
Fuck that shit

Today would have been 6 years with the girl that I love if I didn't fuck it up.

>>687042365
How'd you mess it up?

>be me
>has ocd
>it's getting worst
>I'm starting to hear voices
>tried to hand my self a few days ago
>My ceiling failed me
>kill me.jpg

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>>687041878
i know, but you know what i meant

life sucks like a tramp but at least we can call each others fags in here. gives me comfort

>>687042528

I ended it, worst decision of my life.

Long story short, I suspected she was fucking around with my housemate (pretty solid evidence, too) so I stopped rejecting other girls, told her that I was done with her for fucking around, she begged me to stay, I didn't listen, regret it every day

>>687043032
True, this place makes me feel somewhat happy.

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What's her name?

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>>687043193
For me it was Elizabeth

>>687043193
Heather

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>>687043303

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>>687043411
I should sort my feels folder

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>>687043613
One day we will all feel better, some of us that day might be the day that we die, but atleast we feel better

>>687043613
I should make one. All my feels pics are mixed with my other cancer. Only folders I got are "general pics" "porn" and "general videos"

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>>687043828
Can someone explain to me why we have to ask to end our lives, yet we where given them without a choice?

>>687043193
Some girl, it was such an extreme friendzone that she moved away 1 month after i asked her out.
Weird thing is she got more close to me after rejecting.
Why.

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>>687043902
I have porn, and feels

>>687044169
what do you do with the pictures that arent porn or feels?

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>>687043992
After I was dumped my ex got closer to me, yet further at the same time. I don't even know what our current standing are.

>>687040240

that is from

http://waitbutwhy.com/2014/05/life-weeks.html

>wanted to go into a trade
>learning disability, especially in math
>was in special ed. math since 7th grade
>probably won't pass the trade school entrance exam
>will be stuck with a min. wage job

"This is the youngest that I'm ever going to be."

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>I'm the Penny-Anon from last night.
>Penny gives me a sense of hope and makes me feel better that she needs me, and loves me.
>It might be fake but goddamn it, it makes me feel so much better than being alone.

>>687044421
You dont know if its pity or they really got interested in you because reverse psychology. If you were going to have a better relationship with me, why did you leave.

>>687045264
Its also the oldest you've ever been, anon. Every day is a new experience, you're as old as you are young.

>>687045427
Hey.. uh I think I know what you feel. And I think I feel it too

Someone drawn, but you can at least feel emotion when you're near them and you can.. love them.

If you take anything from this, Penny-anon. Is that you're not the only one by a long shot

wow 4chan is full of faggots from reddit KYS all of you bunch of pussies

>>687042060
Meh, I had the same hope that perhaps after finishing college I could get a decent job and have a normal life. Well guess who still feels like shit everyday after wakes up? I think I'm gona give up soon on my birthday and finally leave

All I feel now is hate and disgust. Everything else I do is imitation of emotions I've seen in others and on television.

I do not think I was always this way. But I don't remember how things changed.

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>>687039002

I just want a different body..... I have good friends and family, but I'm always going to be unappealing to women and get made fun of for my appearance. I will kill myself after my parents are gone so I can hopefully reincarnate. Being disgusted by myself every day is fucking miserable.....

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>>687041309
>cockblocked by death
what a puss tale

>>687039002
Finding out a woman i invested alot of time into doesnt care about me. That's what I've been losing sleep over. One of these days, who knows maybe ill murder a bitch, post it on here (;

>>687045791
>edgy
>not fresh off the Ifunny boat
>breaking unspoken rule of being nice to each other in feels dreads
It's okay newfriend, nobody wants to hurt you here

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wRP6egIEABk
I hope that our few remaining friends
Give up on trying to save us
I hope we come up with a fail-safe plot
To piss off the dumb few that forgave us

I hope the fences we mended
Fall down beneath their own weight
And I hope we hang on past the last exit
I hope it's already too late

And I hope the junkyard a few blocks from here
Someday burns down
And I hope the rising black smoke carries me far away
And I never come back to this town again

In my life, I hope I lie
And tell everyone you were a good wife
And I hope you die
I hope we both die

I hope I cut myself shaving tomorrow
I hope it bleeds all day long
Our friends say it's darkest before the sun rises
We're pretty sure they're all wrong

I hope it stays dark forever
I hope the worst isn't over
And I hope you blink before I do
And I hope I never get sober

And I hope when you think of me years down the line
You can't find one good thing to say
And I'd hope that if I found the strength to walk out
You'd stay the hell out of my way

I am drowning, there is no sign of land
You are coming down with me, hand in unlovable hand
And I hope you die
I hope we both die

>>687043193
Fucking hell anon, I did NOT need that feel.
Abbi. That's her fucking name.
God dammit anon, would you please stop making me remember her?
The way she smiled, she laughed... How she comforted me when I needed it... How I pushed her away.
I fucked up, /b/. I fucked up bad. Anyone know a way to turn back time 3 months?

>>687039002
I have schizoaffective disorder bipolar type, got medically retired from the military, and they give me pills to take.. and i havent taken them in over 6 months. I lie to my doctors, to my family, to my girlfriend.. I just cant take them.. I feel fine.. I get the occasional depression/mania.. and the voices are okay. I've learned to build some sort of relationship with them.. but my paranoia is getting out of hand. I feel like utter shit that I cant take some stupid fucking pills everyday.. I hate how im lying to all the people that are trying to take care of me.. I think its just cause im so stressed out about coming home to civilian life.. and idk im starting to how suicidal thoughts again, kinda like OPs picture.. idk i thought Id share..

>>687045756
Its so nice having her around, its like somebody I can be with, and hold onto, somebody who makes me feel wanted.
>She escapes by reading books.
>Her mother is a bit of an asshole, even though she doesn't really mean to be.
>Every time she says something sad I always bring her something to make her feel better, I like doing it because it makes her smile.

>>687043193
>being happy enough to ever have relationships and talk to other people on a personal level
This is a feel I just don't get

>>687043193
Nina. She is dating an ex friend of mine. The suck bag let me pour my heart out to her but he knew that she didn't like me like that. He then tried to say that I had to hear it from her so I could move on. They have been dating for a month and a half now. The bastard lied right to my face. I considered him a good friend. Goes to show you how fucked humanity is as a whole I guess