I came to the conclusion that I will be lonely all my life long ago; however, I just now realized how terrible it is. I'm ready for it to be over.

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Is it weird that I don't feel anything yet?
The realization is probably gonna hit sometime tomorrow and it's really gonna suck.
This is her basically saying she doesn't like me anymore which I really have no idea what to think of.
I'm not sad, but I'm not content either. It's like a numb feeling

>>683717773
It must be nice to have touched another person who cares about you.

>>683717773

It happens. Don't worry too much about it, only makes it worse when you do come to care.

Make sure everything is final. This kind of ending in the screenshot can "hold up" your feelings. You need closure. Say everything you need/want to say, do what you need to do, and make sure you leave nothing that you wish you had done.

That will help you to feel less numb about it.

What's life like without depression? I forgot.

>>683718138
It was, but seeing as I probably won't be again for a while, I hope you get someone to touch soon

>>683718205
It's more like, my mind is just cloudy and I can't even think.
Probably because my mind hasn't processed it all the way yet. What do you suppose I say?

And yeah, I'm 17, so is she. Not that much underage but I really don't care at this point because I desperately need help
Thanks for reading

>>683717773
she'll feel something if it's the right person. you're just not the right person.

I mean, you could kill yourself. But honestly, you should just accept that you're not meant to be and move on. Bitches are a dime a dozen. You won't believe me now, but you will one day.

>>683719062
lol you're a retard. you're 17. stop taking life so seriously.

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>>683719062
Sorry, forgot to add pic

>>683719065
But that's the thing, I don't want anyone else. She's the dime and I just want to keep her

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>>683717043

>>683719176
"it's kinda rare that I feel anything
when it comes to you"

translated: you don't make my vagina tingle anymore, and I think I'm super deep and intellectual and above the laws of attraction. You bored me. I'm 17, and I have an entire life ahead of me. I have no idea what the concept of real love is, and I'm doing my best to break it off without hurting your feelings.

Get a grip, faggot. Go find another girl.

>>683719780
lol no shit, you're 17.

I thought I met "the one" when I was in high school too. She tried to break up, but I salvaged the relationship because I thought she was "the one".

Then I went to college.

then you know what happened? I met 10+ girls who were just like her, and just as easy to obtain. So I was conflicted.

I left her. I don't regret it. Stop lying to yourself.

>>683717773
Before you stick it in finger her get good at that then after 39 mins of fingerings eat her out for another 10 or 20 mins then stick it in don't cum when I feels really good stick it out eat her then finger her and eat at same time

Why did I have to be born? Why couldn't one other sperm have made it? Or maybe, why did my parents have to have sex at all? I don't appreciate life and wish I didn't have to live it. I'm not looking to kill myself. I just want to know why I had to be born at all.

If there is purpose, show me please. It gets more and more unbearable. I might actually go insane soon

>>683720507
Same, except I wish I could kill myself. Would be too much for family to handle tho

>>683720803
I mean, if I had no family I would kill myself or get myself killed... same thing I guess

>>683717043
I got that feeling, somebody killed me, I got that feeling, zero feeling, zeros killing, all your millions, SOMEBODY KILL ME, SOMEBODY KILLED ME, I GOT THAT FEELING, ZERO FEELING

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>>683719982
>>683720238
But the thing is, I can't find anyone else, I haven't dated anyone since freshman year and I probably won't for a good while. I just need a quick way to get over her or something. My mind is just blank and I really need help keeping it that way before I become more of an edgy faggot

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Well my thread just died so I'll dump in yours
>>683717773
You're young and you have a girl that might be interested in you, you have it better than 98% of this board/thread.
Be happy my dude.

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>>683721724
Dumping my shit

Nobody wins

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>>683721724
She isn't interested anymore, and honestly I don't think she has been for a while

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>>683721689
Acadiana? As in Acadiana High School?

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>>683722070
Oh shit AHS Rams. I went there mate. Shit sucked nigger central.

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>>683722070
Aposematysm dude.
Dated one of those before.
At least you know you're not wasting your time man, and it doesn't matter how optimistic you feel, that is a very good silver lining.

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>>683722187
Yeah
>>683722285
It really does, I just transferred because my family moves a shit load
>>683722505
I just want to not feel like shit, there really isn't much I can do at this point, unless anyone has any suggestions

Also thanks for the support guys, glad there's somewhere I can go, really appreciate it

>>683722910
Anything for a /b/ro

>Wanna ask a girl out
> recently gained alot of weight
> cant afford gym
> know she wont take me as I am now

Feelsbadman.feel

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>>683722910
Cool, so you in lafayette or surrounding area? I broke up with my girlfriend of 5 years a month or 2 ago.... just found out tonight that shes dating someone else. First time I cried in a while. Feels bad man.

be me 19
oversized
6'4" 320lbs
I can give speeches
I can write papers
I am very confident

and yet I cannot talk to her

The year is 2012 and I'm working at a local pizza joint. I'm a senior and just looking forward to getting out of school and out of my small rural town. I've been promoted to manager and I'm headed into work. on my way there I check the schedule. It's the same group as usual a couple cooks, guys I knew from school, me as the manager, and a couple waitresses. One of the waitresses I had never seen on the schedule before. Lets call her Billie..

Let me describe Billie, she's very short, at 6'4" i tower over her. She's slightly older than me, 25-27. Short blonde hair. Very cute. With a beautiful smile. But the thing that always catches me off guard is her eyes. She has one of those gazes that you will fall in love with if you look into it for too long. Cont?

>>683723207
go fucking running.
stop eating cookies.

you dont need to afford the gym.

>>683723541
I started man.

I lost a lot of weight ages ago, bit recently I havnt had enough time keep up and I put a shit ton back on.

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>>683722505
Is that from fucking hey Arnold

>>683719940
>this kills the mudcrab

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>>683723274
I am, and I know that feel man. Hopefully someone new will come up and be better for you. Until then, I love you man, stay strong

>>683723460
Please do

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>>683723943
No shit

>>683724045
She said the same thing...which just killed me more. Shitty thing was I broke up with her in a fight not expecting it too last...but it was forreal this time. I fucked up.

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>>683723943
>>683724369

>>683724369
Just got here mate? Hows 4chan treating you?

>>683721689
bro im going through the same shit you are. everyone on here saying to "grow up" or "you're 17 get over it" is true. im 18/F just barely started college. its time man. its just time

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>>683724523
>18/f
>You dun goofd

Billie is different than the other waitresses. It almost seems as if shes not in it for the money, but to genuinely make people happy. As a consequence the other waitresses don't really see eye to eye with her. This leads to her often being tasked with doing some unnecessary duties that should be the responsibility of the other waitresses. But, she doesn't mind, always cheery and upbeat. No matter the situation. I love every minute of working with Billie, she was just one of those warm caring figures. Someone who could make you feel better no matter what.

>>683724045
shit son I prolly should've replied you in my story post. >>683724672

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>>683724408
Dude I'm sorry to hear, is your relationship not at a fixable point?

>>683724523
I just don't know, I just can't invision myself with anyone else and it really bothers me

>>683724764
Damn, the relation is way too real, man

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>>683723822
Yeah man that episode messed me up

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Is therapy worth it?

I was really depressed earlier this year, but it's for the most part back to my usual numb self. I've been depressed for as long as I remember but it really reached a high point. After some convincing I finally decided to go to a palce my college referred me to in town, they paid for five sessions there. By the time I was finally able to go the worst had passed and was probably repressed away. One of my friends still thinks I should go and I got into a bit of a fight with her. One of her friends that went to therapy and took medication also talked to me about.

I'm very objectionable to seeing a shrink and especially taking drugs though. It just doesn't feel right. There's something about having someone take notes on how I think and feel to figure out what's wrong with me, and the idea of needs pills to feel better that I just hate. I don't even know what better feels or looks like.

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>>683725115
Well I thought it was, I was in the process of working my way back with her when she said she was dating... after 5 years with me it takes her less than 2 months to date someone else..so my hope has quickly drained, turned to sadness, now anger. Just fucking sucks being alone dealing with this. Youre the first person I actually talked to about this. Thank you so much for listening, actually means alot.

>>683725191
you got me with this one.....I connected with it.

>>683725222
check'd

>>683724672
Step forward a couple months, I've noticed that Billie is late for her shift. We weren't really busy at all just the usual Sunday church crowd. So i had almost planned to call her off for the day. when suddenly Billie knocks on the glass entrance door and motions me to come over.

I step outside. She has been crying and I can make out some bruise lines under a thin layer of makeup.

(Feel free to call me a white knight at this point.)

(I was raised in a rural home where respect for women is regarded as one of the pillars of society.)

Obviously very embarrassed, and very traumatized I gave her a quick hug and stepped inside to clock out for the day. I told Nate (another cook) that he could have my remaining half hour of managerial time. +1 dollar per hour woot!

I step back outside and lead Bobbie to my car. and we make our way to my place.

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>>683725115
You're 17.
When I was 13 I lost my first GF because his brother ran a red light when they left my surprise birthday party (she arranged it, I didn't have a lot of friends)
She died 2 days after my bday, parents unplugged her. And I've been to a lot of therapists and I've done some real deep thinking and I can't tell you everything is ever going to be the same again, but you learn to appreciate people more. Sure, it made me scared of commitments and attachments because I feared how I'd feel when they were gone, but life is like that my dude. I'm happy, but I lurk these threads and drink everyonce in a while to remember her. And I feel sad, and it's okay.

>>683725222
To add to this, I asked /adv/ if therapy was the best solution a while ago and it was pretty discouraging

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dumping

My fiance messaged me 2.5 hours ago that she was going to the hospital. She's 8 months pregnant and was bleeding a fair bit when she went to the bathroom.

I haven't heard back from her still, won't answer my messages and not online at all. I'm worried and there is absolutely nothing I can do. We currently have 10,000 miles separating us and I don't get back there for 10 more days

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>>683725222
It definitely makes a difference if you see the right person and you take it seriously. Change is entirely up to you.
They didn't put me on any meds
(>>683726072)
And I can honestly say it helped, but I had to work for the stability I have rn.

Now, I had never known Billie to be one of those girls who'd go out seeking trouble, but it turns out that she had found her way into another bad relationship.
I made some hot chocolate and sat her down on the couch. we talked for a couple of hours. Mostly about her absolute cunt of a boyfriend.

Lets call him Keith >>683725917
>>683725115

>>683725222
Yes.
If for no other reason than you'll have someone close that can listen and will never betray the confidence you place in them.
Sure, they're not a 'friend' in the sense of the word, but they're reliable and there for your well-being.

Sometimes, talking things out with someone who just wants to listen will help clear your mind and make things seem to make sense again.

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>>683726315
Oh fuck anon. Are you on a business trip?
Could still be a slightly premature birth, I know girls who were born just 7 months in.
I hope everything goes well. How are you feeling right now? Have you done anything to relax?

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>>683725604
I completely understand man, she went into another relationship pretty fast, maybe she'll realize she made a mistake and will go back to the better man. You're a good person, she just done goof'd

>>683726072
Man, I feel so bad for you, I couldn't even imagine what I'd do if I lost her. But you're right, thank you for your input, I really appreciate it

Well it's 1 am and I'm all out of silly pictures, plus I still have finals tomorrow.
>>683726487
I'll lurk a little longer for the rest of this story tho
Thanks for listening and not calling mods /b/ros, I love all of you <3

>>683726939
No. We live in Thailand, I just went home for a Canada for a few months for work and to bring my mom back with me to Thailand (she is coming with me for 2 months for the birth of her first grandchild). Her cousin just had a baby a few days ago but got pregnant a month before us.

I'm about to go smoke a fat joint and hope that distracts me until she calls. I don't want to miss the birth of my first child :'(

Basically I had never met Keith up until this point. But it's just kinda one of those things where you know you aren't going to like the guy even before you meet him.

A little more back story on me:
I had never been in a fight.
No major injuries
I was in my rebellious teen years AKA i bought a fast car. I loved my car, A bright blue 98 GT, 4.6L 5 speed. it was a bit of a late model resto. Just some rust and stuff.
But anyway I was always level headed, with a straight back and a broad shoulders. I was born a working man. Just like my father and his before him.

Back to the convo with Billie, shes telling me how obsessive this guy is, following her around, watching her work. all the usual evil boyfriend stuff. When suddenly I hear a huge crash outside followed by several dull thuds. >>683726953

I'll enlighten you all with the advice my father gave me growing up, because I think it's valuable and might help someone out there:

"People saying things will get better is horseshit. Life is mean. It hurts, it sucks, and sometimes you just don't understand why everything seems to be stacked against you. But there will be a day that you wake up and realize that even though it hurts, it hurts less than yesterday. And the next day, it'll hurt even less. You'll keep waking up, day after day, and slowly things will start to feel better. I won't say there will be a day when it doesn't hurt, because if I've learned anything, it always will. It's never going to not hurt, but it will hurt a little less everyday. That's what life is all about."

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>>683727367
Don't do funny drugs, trust me you'd rather be alert if anything goes down. Have a cig if you smoke, or go for a jog if it's not too late in mooseland
>>683726953
No problem my dude. There's tons of other girls, even if your city feels crammed, it's just because you're still in the same circles. Go out, have fun, you're at an age where being an idiot is a must.

>>683727639
dam, My father just told me:

"Anon, Best friends are only good for eating your food and fucking your wife"

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>>683727777
Quads of truth, sucks.

>>683727777
Quads checked

If they're fucking your wife, are they really your friend?

>>683727777
Quads say your father was based as fuck.

>>683727758

Too be honest, if I had anything besides weed on me I'd probably be doing that instead. I know that it is likely no big problem but I'm still super worried. If my daughter wants to be born today then so be it, but I just hope nothing is wrong.

I look out my window to see a tiny guy maybe 5'4" smashing the glass in on my car. Again, I'm super level headed. I walk out and shout at him, asking what the hell he thinks he's doing. He asks if I have Billie.
Of course I do
Did you leave that mark on her face?
This answer is something that will haunt me for decades to come.

"She deserved it. "

Billie steps out the front door, sobbing.

Why would you ever think it's OK to hurt someone as innocent and as small as Billie. she couldn't defend herself even against a tiny manlet like Keith.

He drops the baseball bat and pulls a small pistol out of his waistband.

"I bet you are fucking her too huh"
"are you fucking her too, fatass">>683726953

>>683728214
no, but you let them get close enough to do it to you.

>>683717043
You BASTARD.

>>683726478
>>683726662
How do I find a good one then?

What if I'm still resistant to treatment and therapy?

What does better look like? I was asked this question a couple weeks back and I still can't seem to answer it. I suppose you can say I don't know any better.

What if there is no, "better," for me? What if it's just a lifelong struggle to cope with it?

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LsQtnBu3p7Y
If youre going through a breakup give this a listen, guarantee youll like it. Unless youre a faggot.

>>683728648
I started to close the gap. he was maybe 25' away. Two steps in, I feel something hit me, at this point it doesn't really matter. Might as well be throwing baseballs at a freight train. Third step lands me right on top of him. I clock him so goddamn hard I broke my right hand, and half of his jaw. I was on the ground on top of him at this point. The blow had put him out cold. I was covered in my own blood. And me being the wuss that I am nearly fainted when I saw it. I started to stand up. and then I passed out.

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Dont die on me!

The next thing I remember is waking up in a hospital. with my parents. Apparently the round had passed through some skin on the lower right part of my stomach. avoiding basically anything serious.
My first question was, is she ok. My family steps out. Billie comes in, she's completely in tears. But, she's ok.

Im sorry guys I'll end here. it looks like the thread is dying.

I always wanted to be a hero.

>>683728598
Yea he got that saying from my grandfather.

Long story short father and grandpa are sitting in a living room

Father starts telling gramps about wife/life and best friend

Grandpa drops said bit of knowledge

Dad gets pissed

doesn't talk to gramps until he figures out that he was right


Never met my grandfather he died of a anger induced heart attack well before I met him.

My father is probably going out the same way

I probably will as well

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>>683730293
You're my hero, anon.
See you, space cowboy

night bros See you llater

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Let's suffer some more.

>>683728619
OK so her aunt just messaged me saying she is OK. Her aunt knows barely any English so getting any other information is pretty damn hard.

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>>683731430
>perspective

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>>683728863
Life is an everlasting struggle for everyone anon. You're just making it more miserable focusing on the bad things.
And the right psychotherapist isn't the one with the fanciest office or the dirtiest sneakers, it's really a matter of finding it yourself. What's better, if you know someone with struggles like yours, ask for guidance on the therapist part. Do you live in the u.s.?

>>683725701
>>683725191
Someone made a short on this
https://vimeo.com/152985022

I am probably going to an hero after I finish university and can afford a flight to somehwere far away

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>>683732004
Thanks for sharing that anon

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Maybe this isn't the best place to post this, but fuck it. I need to type something. Clear my head.

I've been really depressed. For a long time. If I had to think about why, I don't think I could come up with a solid answer. It never gets better -- sometimes it just seems less worse.

Recently moved to a new area, trying to change things up a bit. Got a new job, which while I don't love it, I don't mind it much either. Moved to live close to work. Try to save some money. Do well for myself.

And then it hits. Just out of nowhere. One night before I know it, I'm a fifth and a half of Five O' Clock into the night, and someone calls the cops on me because they're legitimately worried that I was about to kill myself.

But that's whatever, I guess. I've done stupider things. I can laugh about it now, I guess. Because if I don't laugh about it then I have to take it as a moment of clarity and get my fucking act together, which I have no idea how to do.

And then, last week, my apartment gets broken into. Someone got in through the window, stole about half the vidya collection I've been putting together since I was a kid, some money, and all of my dope.

So, now, on top of the echoing emptiness that fills my day to day life, I'm living in a constant state of fear. Someone pulled up in front of my house about an hour ago (totally harmless), and I had a full-blown panic episode.

Everyone says that it gets better, but does it? It gets harder and harder to face the day each morning.

Anyone else feel comfort in thinking about suicide? I've noticed it really calms me down and helps me fall asleep faster. Anyone who can relate?

>>683731940
Yeah I'm in good old CA

>>683733049
hell yeah.. knowing that if shit gets too fucking hard you can just end it

>>683732834
Well fuck.
It was most likely one of your neighbours. Guy smelled the dope, came in for some and cashed in on the vidya. If you're thinking on filing a report (don't, weed.) Say someone in the building has been giving you looks in the stairs or the elevator.
Where do you live anon? How'd they break in?

>>683733216
Dude cali is filled with therapists for rich people, so it'll be hard to find one that really helps and isn't just looking to give you more appointments to milk tf out of you.
Damn.

>>683718736
I'd love to tell you.

>>683733049
It honestly still scares me. It just feels wrong thinking about it but sometimes it just won't leave my mind which is the scary part I guess. I dunno but yeah knowing that it'd be easy to end it kinda helps I guess

>>683733592
Good thing I'm an absolute poorfag in the shittiest areas of the state

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>>683721689
HAHAHA You weak willed faggot why do you think about girls so much? I was a 19 yo KHV until last week when someone told me that French kissing is tricky to get right. So I picked up a girl last Friday and went to her house drank her shit then made out with her for 2 hours. Wasn't able to fuck because I didn't have a condor. However I did try French kissing but her tongue kept hitting my teeth and I was wtf is this shit so I left. Why must you retards be ruled by your lust for the inferior gender. Just go do something challenging fag and better yourself.

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>>683734127
>kisses 1 chick
>becomes alpha male
>mfw

>>683733359
That's what I'm talking about, being able to end it because shit's so fucked
>>683733989
It doesn't state me but I know how wrong it is. My biggest worry is leaving without being an asshole, like leave a note or even a tape where I explain why I did it and shit

>>683734366
scare me*

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>>683733383
I live in Pontiac, Michigan. Real shit hole.

I did file a report. Fuck it. Cops found my grinder when they swept the house, asked if it was mine. I owned up to it. They didn't harass me about it or mention it again at all.

Cop actually came back and left a note in my front door that said, "Call me." Hit him up, said they have a suspect. Dude's a suspect in the case because on his person when he was arrested, he had the card with the incident number (because I filed a report) that the cop gave me when it happened. Means the guy's been back, too.

I live in a town house, not an apartment. Dude was able to get in because as it turns out, my front window doesn't lock. Like, at all. And the electric meter is right under the window, so it's literally a stair-step into my house that I couldn't lock. Went to the office about the windows, they don't seem to give a shit.

In the process of reinforcing the windows with 2x4s so they don't open though. Have magnetic alarms on the ground-floor doors and windows now, too. Might prevent it from happening in the future, but doesn't change the fact that I no longer feel safe in my own home.

>>683722070
Why do you care about that thing?

>>683735202
why do you care about anything? it's all relative, bud

Why is it so hard to vent to people? I have some good, maybe even great, friends. They are good people who i know would help me if i needed them to. So why is it so hard to tell them anything wrong? Why can't i bring myself to ask for help. to tell them how fucked i feel all the time, lonely, suicidal, depressed, stressed out. why cant i just talk to someone...

>>683734525
Dang.
Hope he didn't sell your games anon. Was he black? Shit I live in Mexico and I can't imagine how it must feel to have someone in your own home while you're gone.
That's not a suspect that's the fucking guy, who else would have the report number? Shit

>>683736373
I don't know yet. Found out the cops had him last night after I found the note and called.

He said he couldn't tell me much right now, but he'd be in touch when they knew a bit more.

I mean, I intend to press charges when I can. Will never see my shit again, or feel safe for the rest of the eleven months I'm here (seriously I've lived here for a fucking month.)

Just gotta do what I can. Make a new normal, I guess.

I have testicular cancer, I have refused treatment and I think about putting my self down everday

>>683732760
Bumpppp
Keep it going

>>683730207
this one gets to me, reminds me of long ago when i could tell the difference between love and pain

>>683721689


Whatever you do don't post about it facebook or something. One day you'll look back on this and realize what a small deal it was, having it on the internet forever will make you cringe

My brother died 2 years ago today. He was 19.

>>683737364
Im sorry for your loss, anon

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>>683736745
How bad is it my dude? I had a friend who sadly had to get a ball removed but he's got two beautiful kids rn
>>683737364
What happened anon? I'm so sorry.
>>683736731
I get you dude. And the feeling of the guy coming back for revenge is the fucked up part.

>>683736745
dude, you only have 2 nuts so that they can share the burden of ejaculating, it wont bother your cum production or ejaculation to be out 1 ball, so if you only have it in 1, get rid of it man.

Hey guys my mom and Brother convinced me to go to therapy.
But i really don't see the point of telling a stranger my Problems.

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Don't worry about things like love /b/ros. It's just a biochemical reaction in your brain, same with feeling of hapiness. Just some dopamine in your fucking brain, nothing more

>>683734127
>Elliot Rodgers, is that you?

>>683736111
You can talk to me anon,
[email protected]
If you really need someone.

All of my friends are on completely different roads than me. I just got my class a because I suck at pulling out. I'm content with my wife and son, but it scares me thinking that my friends, none of whom show any gumption of getting past partying, are going to inevitably drift away from me.

>>683737699
Not really painful, just kinda awkward down there

>>683737699
>>683737364
He was run over by a car. It was mainly his fault though, as he was walking on the side of a highway at night in dark clothes, but it still hurts.

>>683734127
>relying on a condor to get laid
This faggot doesn't even have a backup cockatoo in his bag. Betafag.

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>>683738420
> friends will drift away
this is kiddie grade feels.

>>683718603
this is a feels thread, not a beta thread.

>>683718736
I had forgotten until this week.

>>683739026
just feel like im too old to make new ones

>>683739580
i do this too, always was the class clown, tell a joke to cover feelings, change the subject or just dissuade people from looking deeper.

I dunno if this is really the time to post this but I just wanna get it out.

When I was a little kid my dad was never in my life, he would promise to come over and I'd sit in the window all day until I had to go to bed crying realizing he wasn't coming.
It eventually got to the point where I never saw or heard from him until I was 14.
At that time he wanted to make up for everything he did wrong and wanted to be in my life.
It took time but we grew a bond and hung out all the time, he even bought me a game every time we hung out.
He said he didn't know much about games and tried his best but he always seemed to get the perfect game for me.
One day though I came down and my mom was crying and told me to sit down that we needed to talk.
Apparently my father had just died and it had left me heartbroken not knowing what to do.
After weeks of crying and thoughts of suicide I had to go help clean his place out.
As we where cleaning the place out I found a box full of old video game magazines with games circled with stuff like "anon said he wants this one" and "work overtime to buy anon two?" And this left me heartbroken realizing my dad spent a lot of his time reading and studying something he didn't like or care about just because he loved me.

I probably have some form of autism. Doctors have always said Bi polar disorder and schizotypal disorder but this one doctor I saw this year thought at first glance that it might be autism. He didn't' really follow up on this after the 5 minute conversation we had where he decided this.

It makes sense though. I can't socialize with other people. In fact I try to avoid socializing because of how extremely difficult it is. I always feel like I don't have what it takes to handle hanging out with a person one on one. I feel like i'm going to fail really hard and get really awkward on them or something or cause some other problem that will make them not like me. I was introduced to a new family member at a family birthday party and they wanted him to socialize with me for awhile and I almost got overwhelmed in the first 10 seconds of trying to just talk to him solo. When theres nothing to relate to with a new person I just dont know what the fuck i'm supposed to do to build a connection with them. All I can think to do is make small talk and I think that comes off as distant and disinterested in them

Really sucks that I have this problem because interacting with people is such an important part of life but I just royally have such a problem doing it

>>683739653
thats because, when you grow up, you dont have friends in the same capacity that you did when you were young. you grow apart, they get thier own lives...im not one of those people, im happy to be without friends, but some people still have that thing in them that seeks human interaction, and you should overcome this feeling of being too old, while you still want to.

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>>683739580

>>683723681
Well stop making excuses. Get off the fucking computer and go do some pushups or run. If you got time to post bullshit on /b/ then you most def have time to move your ass. Do it now!

>>683740211

Not to play the "NO I WANT TO SAD"bullshit, but it's really more the fact that i'd be perceived as at least sort of having my shit together, while they are all strung out on dope, with literally no ambition.

Love them as people, just growing more uncomfortable around all that shit.

nice dubs btw tbh fam

>>683731871
>>683731871
Oh look I just beat tha-
SPOOKYSCARYSKELETAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHNNNNNssssSSSSSSS!

>>683726478
This gives me bad feels. Not because of the movie but because my ex loves it. Fuck I miss her

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This probably gets posted all the time, but Butters is 100% right. In fact this is probably the most poignant message the South Park guys have ever made. It's good to be sad, it's good to be mad, it's good to be happy...it's really all about balance. All of the stories I've read in this thread are things that only time can heal or can be easily fixed by changing one thing in your life. I've had some shit times, but they all pass. The most important thing to do is try your hardest to be better than the person you were yesterday. That's all I ask of anyone.

>>683740595
>fam
no
also, who you hang out with says allot about you, in my experience, tweakers generally only care about the next high, its time to leave them behind and go make new friends, otherwise you will either end up just like them, zombies looking for a buzz, or you will end up just like me, after you watch them all waste away and die, you wont remember how to value a human, having seen the worst they have to offer, considering it the norm.
dont end up like me, and im not alone...so many of us on here are just numb to loss, we come in here in the hopes that something will make us feel a shred of the people we used to be...and we usually leave dissapointed.

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>>683741541
THIS. I've said it before and I'll say it again, this right here is the best "explanation" of how it's like being depressed

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>>683741984

>>683739993

fake and gay : he didn't open one of the gifts

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>>683723460

TL;DR: I'm a rural 19yo fat beta fallen for a 27yo 3/10 employee girl

>>683741261
Thanks anon

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>>683741984
i lost it when dr cox walked out that door when he fucked up and couldn't save those patients.

>>683717773
nice trips. anyway, do you want her back or just move on? how long have you known her for?

>>683725191
felt.

>>683722070
Mate listen, I've been there before. If she isn't interested, sitting around feeling sorry for yourself definitely isn't going to help. Take the time you need to feel down, but eventually you need to pick yourself back up & start feeling good about yourself again. At that stage, you can (1) choose to contact her again, and hopefully she'll see the things she liked about you, or (2) just move on.

>>683723460
Continue pls.

I feel nothing inside except emotional pain, that why I hurt my self, because it is easier to cope with the physical pain than the emotional

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I have no one that truly cares about me

i have always wanted to die giving my life to save others, because in that split second before I die i will know i did something with my life, for the greater good.

>>683742575
thats nice but not what it says