We'll op let me tell ya whenever I walk into a class/room with people all I want to do is kill them all.

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>>681151223
I need to get my ass to eastern europe

>>681151636
For what reason?

>>681151223
I'm Jewish.

>>681151223
Depression 4 years already.
Literally nothing helps gona have to live like this or suicide

I invert the Y axis in all my games.

>>681151836
d i s g u s t i n g

>>681151818
Yeah, I've accepted that I am going to be stuck like this for the rest of my life, however long that will be.

>>681151772
Psychosis, schizophrenia, obsessive compulsive

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>>681151836
Sub-human filth

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>>681151223
I am extremely depressed. The only times I leave my house are for work or to find something that will get me fucked up. I tried to an hero in December and a dyke pulled me out of my car while I was asleep and called the police.

>>681152258
How'd you try off yourself, carbon monoxide?
To be fair it's your fault for doing in a public space.

>>681152412
Yeah it was pretty stupid, I ran a line from my exhaust into my car, but I figured it was late enough and no one would care/notice what was happening.

>>681152885
You're lucky you're not brain damaged.

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>>681151223
Chronic and borderline manic depression

Schizoid personality disorder

Ugly as fuck. That is all.

>>681152258
If you really want to, use an exit bag. Don't "try" to an hero, you either do it, or you want attention.
So go seek help or do it.

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>>681153023
Is this you anon?

Bipolar
SAD
GAD
RLS
Sadist

>>681153168
Haha, hell no Im not a fat fuck. I just have a strange face that puts people off.

early 40s, bulimic, alcoholic with a cocaine addiction.

>>681151223
Coming off antidepressants. I was on them for 9 years and ive been off them for 4 months. I feel like shit all the time and I talk to myself out loud although I've always done that

Wish I knew what a normal person felt like

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eOScYBwMyAA

You are in control. Society is the disease.

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>>681151223
depression, faggotry, personality disorder, anxiety, social awkwardness, low intellect, small penis

>>681151223
I'm really fucked. I'm actually okay with the world. Please help.

Well I browse /b/ so automatically I have autism.

>>681151223
Treatment resistant depression.
I switched doctors and she hooked it up with some dank adderall, it makes a difference and it doesn't give me man titties like antidepressants.

>>681153340
How long have you been an alcoholic for? How many years do you give your liver?

>>681153559
>4chan
>help

I was diagnosed with dysthymia and anxiety. I tried everything. Then I tried this new drug viibryd ( viladazone) It stopped my depression. I am off it now. I can't believe it. Fuckin miracle.

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>>681153306
Embrace it anon. Or grow facial hair like me

>>681153707
God is dead.

>>681153691
Good job man. Let's hope it's permanent.

>>681153603
Probably been drinking every day for 5 years or so.

>>681151223
Low impact adult ADHD master race reporting in.

>>681151223
Major depression can be solved. Stop wallowing in it. Only you can change it, so fucking change it.

It's actually unbelievably that simple. I tried to kill myself 5 times, then I realized how fucking childish and stupid I was being.

Take some LSD and learn to appreciate this beautiful existence.

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>>681153770
Embracing it is all one can do. And as much as I'd like to grow a beard my job wont allow me to because its "unprofessional".

Sometimes I wish a bullet would randomly fly in my direction and strike me directly in the head.

>>681151223
I could be a terrible person and have all the evilness in the world to commit the worst possible
attrocities you can possibly imagine with no remorse for anyone or anything
but...
I have jesus, im a christian and i believe there is a hell.
in that sense
I have something to live for in my life, and look forward to after my life is over. and i dont want to go to hell
In this case OP , I probably have the most fucked up mind here.

>>681154440
If you need the fear of God to make you a good person, you're not really a good person.

>>681154170
>bullshit
You dont just "change" things faggot,they destroy your ability to function
You were never depressed,you were sad

>>681154176
Having a well kept beard is not unprofessional

>>681154440
KEK
fell for the jesus meme

>>681154170
>>681154781
I understand what anon was getting at here, but it's not an on/off switch.
But yes, you need to be willing to change if you want anything to get better.

>>681154562
It helps, there is sin all everywhere in the world
we live in it
If my values are that i have to fear god in order to not kill someone just because i can and get away with it or because i just say fuck it, then i
would be killing people every day, and not tell anyone , and doing the
most fucked up things to people just for the lulz. I am am good person
because of it and im happy that i have something to look forward to after
my life ends , because i can look forward to all the happiness

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>>681154440
>I probably have the most fucked up mind here
kekekekekekeke
Do you now where you are?

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>>681151223
>chronic depression
>depressive episodes
>afraid of the dark
>bad social anxiety

>>681155121
My fear of the dark disappeared when my fear of death did.

>>681155074
Of course ,
I am surrounded by a hivemind of like minded scholars
who have to a certain degree of thinking as i do

>>681154992
>willing to change

>can only eat a protien bar as only meal for the day
>literally faitigued,takes massive effort to get out of bed to just take a piss
>Numb waiting for life to end

You cannot change the amount or lack there of,the chemicals in your brain that control all of this

I'm extremely functional and pretty productive, but also pretty sure I'm an alcoholic. I don't drink a lot in one setting, but I drink three or four times a week. Most of the time I just get buzzed, but about once a month I'll get pretty drunk.

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>>681153770
what & turn into hipster faggot....may as well kill themselves before letting that happen....lol

>>681153884
Thank you.

People don't give up there is hope. Try Viibryd. There is also ketamine which has shown some promise.

>>681155074
Also unlike all the depressed suicidal people out there, i dont want to commit suicide either
because i will go to hell. I just have to wait out this life constantly asking for forgiveness
in my head every 5 minutes in a given day or whenver i think of god. It could drive a person insane, but i think of it as if i get killed right in this very second, and i stand before god, im going
to wish that every second on earth i asked for forgiveness.

>>681151223
>Light ADHD, had to take concerta and ritalin when younger up until college.
>bisexual
>Light social anxiety, only got 2 friends, but I do well in groups and am quite popular when a bit drunk.
>severe procrastination

Nothing too bad

>>681155427
You fucking faggot. Come back when you're drinking at least 10 beers daily

>social anxiety to the point I can't leave my houe
>depression to the point I plan my death every day
>ocd to the point that my hands are bleeding due to excessive washing.

I've tried several antidepressants and beta blockers, stuff got worse...I'm on paxil but nothing improved.
Idk what to do :(

>>681151223
>Occasional depressive episodes (1 meal a day, no human interaction)
>severe procrastination
nothing too bad
>>BONUS ROUND
>Started drinking and smoking a whole bunch at uni
>Doing that right now, instead of revision
>
>
>

>>681155829
You arent a special snowflake,nor are you this bad ass you seem to think of your self ass(Delusiosn of Granduer)
If your mind is that weak, that a imagination dead wizard has control over it, i think that is bigger problem then your "depression".You arent a sadist,you're pussy god fearing faggot.

I can rape,murder people all my life,but on my death bed,i can call in a priest and atone for my sins,in the last minute of my life, and they will accept it.
How can you honestly think that can happen?
Your "god" is a manifestation of the human mind trying to give its life a meaning,we die and rot in the ground,that is solid evidence.
I have yet to see an image of your "god",no one has touched "god". All religion is a manifestation of human weakness

>>681156088
Get on lithium
SSRI/SSNI are toxic poison(SSRI withdrawl syndrome)

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>>681156088
>beta blocker

hahhahhahaah

>>681156489
I feel you...I can handle the brain zaps and other withdrawal symptoms but I can't handle the side effects....I take the pill few days -> side effects -> I quit because they're too strong -> Withdrawal symptoms -> I take the treatment again ->Repeat

>>681156507
What's so funny ? Can you explain so I have a better understanding of what's better for my disorders?

>>681156660
Talk to your doc about getting off that toxic shit,if he dosent,slowly taper off your meds,and buy it online,is like 4 bucks for a month supply.

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>>681156709
Please be real

>>681156840
The lithium side effects are skin problems, hair loss and so on...

>>681156855
I'm real, tell me.

>check 'em

>>681156359
This, all religious people are delusional.

>>681156709
MAOI and beta blockers are kind of old for depression/anxiety.They were 2nd or 3rd generation.current meds are 5th gend

>>681156709
you can't fix being a broken beta faggot by taking a "beta blocker". get adderall and a gym membership.

>>681155121
i forgot to add
>alcoholic
>eat maybe one meal a day if im lucky (no meals today)
>constant thoughts of suicide
>never had a real girlfriend
>like a girl atm but not sure if i should bother telling her
i can think of some more

>>681156890
You're reading the <0.01 side effects.
I've been on it 5 years with no side effects.

>>681156974
>MAOI and beta blockers are kind of old for depression/anxiety.They were 2nd or 3rd generation.current meds are 5th gend
Can you give me an example of new ones? Are you talking about benzos?

>>681151223
I don't trust my own mother...

Am I fucked up ?

>>681151223
Perfectly normal. Hahaha fuck you OP you depressed cunt

>>681151223
My diagnoses have included the following:

Major depression
Borderline
Bipolar
Avoidant personality disorder
ADD
Anger issues

And yet I still refuse any and all treatment.

>>681157066
i just figured it out! you're depressed because you're not American.

>>681157198
Normal is overrated.

>>681157243
You sound like a nice lady.

>>681157391
Oh I am from a distance. Best friend/acquaintance/neighbour/coworker ever. But if you get too close to me emotionally, then shit starts going crazy. I'm very adept at pushing buttons and doing so unapologetically.

>>681157066
Actually looking it up,it was the first atypical drug for anxiety and depression.Antipsychotic meds would be the next place to go,mood stabilizers too.They are normally paried together.
nih has a large list. They list every side effect that the drug trials reported,you have to realize most of these are on a 1k,10k sample size for years of trials.Yes one person out of 50k died from the medication.They legally have to report this,does it mean you're going to die? No.

https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/mental-health-medications/index.shtml

>>681151836
jesus fucking christ
you should be drown in holy water

>>681157676
loooooooving youuuuu

is easy cuz you're beautifulllllll

doooten dooten doo doooooo

>>681156359
God judges all of us, you can't just go about
your life rapeing and murdering knowing full
well that you are going to
do what your scenario is describing. You are putting words in my mouth which i did not say.
I am simply saying that i have more horrible thoughts than that of you,
you can argue with me all day , but at the end of the day , you are arguing why you have
worse thoughts than i do. You arguing about that just proves that you dont have as
bad thoughts as i do. Does that make sense?

I wish i didnt have these thoughts homie, it sucks.

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>>681157932
Don't think beautiful is the word you're looking for.

>>681157243
A lot of that can stem from ADHD.

>>681151836
This is MADNESS!!!

>>681158171
Maybe my elementary school teachers were on to something. During that 90s major push to put kids on Ritalin, my mom got called by my teachers every day suggesting I had ADHD. She always told them to fuck off cos I still got all my assignments done.

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>>681158134
>horrible thoughts than that of you
You don't know this. Your autisim is greatly showing.

>deflecting religon comments
Typical godfag,cant come to fruition about their own mental delusions

>>681158163
Oh, gross. That really wasn't necessary. We're all anon's here for a reason, faggot.

>>681158389
adderall and the gym!

>>681158464
I'm glad I killed your boner. Keep your manic pixie dream girl trope to yourself fucking nigger faggot

>>681151223

I'm fine, thanks.

>>681151223
just ADD...
basically nothing else then a licence to legal amphetamins

>>681158519
Adderall first for sure. I've tried doing the gym first, but it doesn't work. Still waiting on getting health insurance that I can afford before getting adderall. I'm definitely too broke to get it illegally.

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>body dismorphia
>episodes of depression
>anxiety
>weird kinks

oh well atleast i have an allright face

>>681158669
my boner never dies! i hope you spilled your mountain dew whilst typing that angry drivel, you sweaty beast.

>>681151223
Don't know but I hear voices and I learn a lot from them, people say I'm a narcissist too. Maybe schizo? Only time I was dangerous was when I got too drunk and couldn't remember anything after.

>>681159121
The fap to me bitch!

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>>681155015

just keep telling yourself that, shithead.

My "values" didn't come from anyone listing them out for me, and they certainly didn't come from a millenia-old book of bronze age mythology. I rape and kill and steal exactly as often as I want. That amount is "never", because I'm an actual decent human being, and not a cowardly little shithead hiding his vile thoughts, bigotry, prejudice, and hatred behind a thin veil of "jesus will forgive me so it's all okay".

We're all wormfood in the end. I'll at least have tried to make this world a better place.

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>>681159391
no way, pervert.

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>>681159702
The only thing that will make the world a better place is your death.

>>681159712
So much for that undying boner.

>>681159913
go back to ltbg.

>>681160064
Wouldn't it be /soc seems how I'm blatant attention whoring. Christ, you suck at board redirects.

>>681159899
>3edgy5me
You're not this giant manson lesqu level sadist

>>681160323
no, ltbg!

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>>681159899

>being this pooperpouty

aww, hit a little too close to the mark? it's okay, you can just use this as further justification for your dipshit persecution complex.

>>681160460
NO U

>>681158389
About 50% of ADHD cases are "cured" as the patient reaches his/her teens. The rest change character to a wide variety with some facets being pronounced while others are subdued/disappears. ADHD "mellows" post-teen, so to speak.

Find a good psychiatrist with speciality in ADHD (non-specialists tend to go the easy road aka meds). Get the awareness and tools to handle ADHD related difficulties.

>>681160511
Better get right with the Lord, sinner. Start walking the righteous path before your eternal soul is lost forever!

>>681151836

Putrid.

>>681160697
>as the patient reaches his/her teens
I meant the end of their teens.
Sorry.

>>681160697
I can definitely try, but I'm not too optimistic on the outcome. When's the last time you heard "good doctor" and "Idaho" in the same sentence?

>>681160995
Just yesterday.

>>681154170

>I am bullshitting through my teeth with absolutely no experience dealing with mental illness

Fuck off faggot, nobody is falling for your shit, you dont just change out of depression after 5 suicide attempts.

>>681151223
I also have dysthymia. So I smoke weed.

>>681161070
I call shenanigans

>>681151223
im fine and my life is on track everyone in this thread can eat a dick

>>681161239
I like my Adderall, bitch.

Major Depression, Paranoid Personality disorder, And crippling anger issues.

I cant really function well. suicide attempt at 12 and got real close at 19, got referred to some special anti suicide place, they said they would send me a letter, they didn't, and i was forgotten about.

I'm autistic

>>681161501
doesn't count. we all are.

>>681161481

And slight autism.

>>681161239
Sure you don't wanna talk about the high level of closted faggotry and anger issues you have? You're projecting so hard I could point you at a wall and do a powerpoint presentation.

I'm fucked enough to know how fucked I am. It makes it better, but in a way its worse because I know I'm fucked but knowing that means I'll be okay I guess.

>>681160995
Can't say I ever have. Then again, I'm danish. "shug"

>>681161748

It just means you're not in denial.

Which is good.

>>681162001
Can't really fault you there then. Not even Americunts can point to where Idaho is on the map.

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>>681151223
Non 24 sleep disorder
Bipolar
Borderline personality disorder
Ptsd
Intersex
Social anxiety
(Haven't spent time with someone or left my house in about 7 years)
Self harm

>>681157243
That's the sort of shit that the yankee doctors tell parents so that they get their kids hooked on pharms,chemicals will make any of these so called disorders worse, you don't get much of that shit here in the UK, if kids are quiet or a bit weird then that's how they are.

>>681162583
So how much better of a person do I need to be to emigrate to the UK? I do suffer from the crippling disability of being an Americunt tho

>>681160697
It's called fucking PUBERTY! the day you yanks figure out that teenagers are just hormonal mood-fucks and don't need pumping full of drugs the better.

>>681162896
But but but but MAH FREEDUMS

>>681162583
Nothing wrong with most of your youth, it's hormonal/puberty but your doctors are fucking terrible and just promote chemical company policy by pushing drugs on you.

Being in agony for 2 years has given me a guro / death fetish