>>676263208
Roll

>>676263208
I've been happy twice in my life
normally I'm not happy or sad
and I have never been suicidal

-3.1416

3, but I am too much of a pussy to do it

Bamp

>>676263695
Why only twice anon?

65, to increase it imma need the rest of that picture

>>676263208
I'd say 60
Find a purpose in life I guess

>>676264219
Me too, but Imma need the whole album!

24/100

Medication

>>676263208
5 im close. Sleeping all day letting myself fall to shit havent had a reason to be motivated recently. Was reasonably fit applied to join the army here in britbong 2 years ago, ended up in hospital with pancreatis then put it off and got a job as i couldnt continue with my dream for a year whilst the anethstetic they put me on was in my system finally got through to selection again recently could have smashed the basic requirements but didnt get that far they diagnosed that i have two heart conditions that theyre still testing me on to see the extent of what that means for my capabilites. Mum was abusive, dad wasnt there cause he was off having a good time with his family grandad was the one who raised me and im watching him deteriorate in his old age cousins ask for money all the time for drugs and shit even though i have about as much saved as them. Out of work now waiting for my diagnosis to be completed got no reason to continue if i dont pass these tests i got nothing left no education no real potential just feel guilty that ill leave the family that might care for me behind.

>>676263208
27, at which the age Hendrix, Morrison, and Joplin died

85. Better pay & location

>>676264204
takes a special occasion to push me out of my mellow

>>676263208
55 maybe
But i will roll

-125
ive come full circle and am double suicidal and pretty much have abandoned almost all humanity and feeling that i have. funny thing is that the brief moments of emotion that my psyche affords me are only 1/4 shitty so basically 75.

I dunno, lets roll and find out.

>>676263208
50

everything is grey. it always is.

New episodes of Firefly would help

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>>676263208
35ish
>good looks, white, pretty fit, stable job as carpenter, still young
>constant feeling of inadequacy, no friends, no gf, social anxiety mess
Being able to talk to girls or even meet people would help alot..

I'll let my las two digits decide. If below 50 I'll seek therapy.

>>676263208
80/100
Cuddling with my crush again would make it 100 but yeah, good friends, good fun, good sex (not with friends), life's great

>>676263208
30, don't really enjoy life, don't have a reason to an hero

Probably a 30.

When I consider where my future would lead, I think I'd just rather be dead.

.
40 at the moment. I lost contact with a good friend and it hurts because she was the first girl id met who was almost exactly like me. I miss her and if i got her back id probably be at 60 or some shit

>>676263208
a legit 15 and to change my life and make me happier i want the last 8 years of my life back because in those 8 years my wife cheated on me divorced took half my money my buisness went under because i had to find a new place to live and i didn't have a job custody of my child was given 100% to my ex wife who wont let me see her without her being there i can't even take her to get ice cream... i gave her everything and she fucking leaves me for a piece of shit bartender

45

Question is biased
> implying not being happy = suicidal

Here not happy or sad and definitely not suicidal

51. Definitely not suicidal but not happy either.

>>676263208
I feel like I have reached complete stasis. I don't even think I enjoy things anymore. I don't really do anything. I just exist.

>>676265960
>>676265364

oh and not suicidal

I'm a solid 1. Like I'm not gonna kill myself cause I tried before and don't plan on trying again. Kinda at the stage where death could come naturally and I wouldn't care.

0, hoping to kill myself this upcoming weekend

10
only thing holding me back is waiting for some games/movies to come out
what would need to change? movies get rekt, loose a leg or some shit.

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>>676263208
I would say a solid 82.
Still young, free, ignorant, and of course well endowed

>>676263208
85. Maybe if I get more popular with the girls it would boost it to 100.

-42
Wife needs to be ressurrected by the might of fucking zeus in order to increase score.

3,14314159265359

>>676263208
5 to 15. Don't want to kill self, simply desire to cease existing. I try to be chill but truthfully I hate myself. Working on it though.

>>676263208
I'm perfectly happy; but I'm definitely suicidal. I'm very happy because I'm going to die. Where does that place me?

I'd say 5. I'm young and my life has been paid for so far. Nothing to complain about. I'm lucky I didn't grow up unable to appreciate what I have like my younger brother. 18 years old and going to college in the fall.

>>676263208
Id give myself a 55?
Maybe 60

>>676268738
in the faggot graveyard.
Don't forget to stream your death on /b/

>>676268973
Whoops, meant 95.

>>676268460
probably about the same here. I don't see things getting better, I'm just waiting for things to get bad enough to give me enough reason to end it.

I'm at a solid 45 right now. My new antidepressants are really working well. I hope it can only get better.

It fluctuates for me between 15-30. It's hard to care when you feel like you have no willpower.

At least 25

I need to learn to be a responsible, functioning human being.

>>676268973
Well I'm glad for you. Cherish it my friend.

>I have 1 Irl friend because its the only friend ive made my whole life
>all of my online friends and the irl one are ignoring me atm
I have no job even though im applying and waiting
im in college with no fuckin clue of what I want to do in life because I have no interests
id say 20 ish- not quite ready to jump off a bridge yet

>>676269548
Okay I'm retarded I'm meant 65.

100 on a good day, -100 on a bad day. :))

>>676263208
Right now, I would say 125

>>676263340
Fkn kek

>>676269400
Agreed. I don't know what that would be though, to send me over. But I keep going for now.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6O-xtriwWMk

I'd say a solid 50. I don't feel sucidal or anything, i just feel kinda tired of everything. Like, I've seen all there is to see in the world, although that's obviously not true.

Kinda intensely world-weary, idk.

>>676263208
I don't know, 65 maybe.

Maybe 1-10. I would never consider killing myself as an option, but I wouldn't mind if died tomorrow.

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Currently at a 38/100. Stuck living with family for first time since 18 and moved out due to financial hardship caused by being hit by car on motorcycle in 2014, left leg is POS. After 2 years, I could finally get compensation. Was hit and run. Depending on outcome, that number could go either way. Spam good vibes, plz. I'd like to wake up a rich gimp.

>>676263208
85

Probably would move me up if I actually take to my hobbies a little more. Like I have plenty, one of them is making board games, but what I mean is dedicating myself to them more. I have one really great one I've prototyped that everyone has loved to play, I just haven't had the time or drive really to actually produce it and sell it.

0. how could i fix this?
>when i go back to school, find out why i was doing shitty and then do better
>find out why strangers yell/laugh/spit at me in public, and change it
>find a way to combat my depression and anxiety, so i don't get anxiety attacks and want to kill myself all the time
>find a job. ~300 applications in less than a year, 1 call back, 0 actual employment opportunities
>find a way to make my dick bigger. shit's tiny, and it sucks

40/100

Have a roof over my head and I don't have any major problems, but I have no friends and I feel that life is pointless.

95
Still underage and fucking enjoying it before life actually starts. Vidya and easy school.
>Inb4 MODS
Fuck off I've been here 5 years

>>676265345
lower the bar anon

About a 30. Girl and I developed feelings for each other, but she's moving out of the country in a month. We agree it would be too difficult to maintain.
Also, run of the mill clinical depression.

I'm at like a 95.5 the only thing that would improve my life is if I was making more money right now

83
Would like gf

>>676263208
Around 20.

Not much, not many sympathetic people in my life left. Been thinking a lot about suicide lately.

>>676263208
70

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>>676263208
50. I don't care either way. There's no point in wanting to die when you eventually will anyway.

>>676270999

UPSIDE DOWN SATAN

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>>676263208
>On a scale of 0 being suicidal and 100 being perfectly happy, where would you place yourselves?
Id say 10
>what would have to change for you to increase that score?
stop breathing would help

>>676271175
Marshall?

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Hovering around 15

>>676265867
It's really your fault anon, don't ever trust a woman.

50 I'm still in the twilight

22/100. Medication doesnt work that well.

>>676263208
76

20-25
I have depression and no general life prospects and I'm failing school, but I've got a roof over my head so i can't really complain

>>676271803
this. it's his fucking fault for being dumb enough to marry that woman. ALL women cheat, given enough time & opportunity

>>676270999
Dem trips now I'm at a 98

35, to change that I need to stop being a retard with sever social anxiety.

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40
suicide is a daily thought but things could be worse

Im past the point of wanting to kill myself. Im far too sad to kill myself. Ive come to realize no matter what happens Ill just go with it. But i dont care anymore I have no response to things. Its all the same. No emotion.

65
I'm chasing a gril that doesn't like me back
I'm failing sophmore bio
And my dad recently got sick

80-85

>>676263208
51
>not feeling the pain but knowing its there

>>676263208
66

>>676271659

Sorry.

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>>676263208

37, not in a good place but there are people out there worse off
Can't complain too much

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80
I'm happy overall in general, I just need to start doing the things I always wanted!

>>676272503
Thats life Man!

>>676272271
I'd hate to see any lower then damn

>>676263208
I'd say about a 30. What would have to change? The list is too long, but if i could just get a halfway decent job (i smoke pot OMFG CALL THE COPS) so i can't get a very good job, which is where the lazy stoner stereotype comes from. fuck this society.

I'd say 45.
Life feels boring. Like I'm in what I'd expect purgatory to be like.

>>676272248
A lot of my friends are dead. My girlfriend was murdered. I dropped out of school and work at walmart. Im addicted to drugs, and I killed a person. And have hurt so many more. At this point im with you. Ill just broswe this site until i die waiting for something besides the same three threads to appear. And it will never change.

>>676263208
I'm this
http://www.streamboobs.com/hiddenheritage/

so on the edge

>>676263208
>a milli

>>676263208
-∞
There is no way to change this. Not even being edgy.

>>676272801
I just try to be positive about it.

I'd give myself a 87. Lifes been pretty good to me. Have pretty based parents and I'm about to take my drivers test and if I pass my dads gonna help me buy my first truck.

>what can I do to increase the score

Well I was born anorexic, so there's no changing that

92/100. Just nervous about finishing a book for English on time, having a test over it soon. Don't kill myself stressing over anything, so my grades are alright, but could use improvement. Overall though, I'm perfectly happy with how life is going right now :)

>>676273369
>*･゜ﾟ･*:.｡..｡.:*･'(*ﾟ▽ﾟ*)'･*:.｡. .｡.:*･゜ﾟ･*

45 get 0ff of fucking probation

Probably about 40
Boyfriends in dibilitating pain daily and there isnothing to be done until surgery in 8 months.Its painful to be so helpless.
He's disposed to depression and insomnia (gets like for hours night).
So I'm worried as fuck.
We're both stuck doing the night shift with awful people.
I have to do everything (I don't blame him for that) but it's a little overwhelming.
6'5 130 pounds but still fucking hate my body.
So most things wi get better eventually but suck right now.

>>676263208
Some days I'm a thirty and some days I'm a thirteen.

>>676273873
Kill me please

>>676274643
Had this backwards I'de say 60

>>676274643
U male right

>>676263208
last 2 digits

>>676263208
67
Not finding a cure

>>676263208
82
i could use some more friends and some more money coming in, but im pretty damned content atm

>>676274703
>Mr. Happy will b/ with you shortly
>
>(V) (°,,,,°) (V)
ᶘ ᵒᴥᵒᶅ

Whatever my roll is, that's it.

69

45
Finding a cure

51
a job

>>676274953
Nope

>>676268738
that places you at being that huge fucking faggot that can't just answer the fucking question.
"lets say hypothetically youre in the jungle-"
"I WOULD NEVER BE IN THE JUNGLE."
^ thats you right now, cuntstain

>>676263208
60.
need to lose more weight in order to get jacked af, have purpose, and make money.

>>676263208
>15
>Getting in shape (im underweight), getting more work done at school to boost GPA from low 3s to ~3.5 before I graduate, getting a full time offer out of school, having friends, not being on 4chan

50
I need to get out more

>>676270999
I feels ya mon.

75, need money to do stuff i want but i'm too much of a faggot to go work for it

>>676274643
I'm too tired to write anything properly so I meant to say 5'6 and add that in feel suicidal probably at lest in part of how stressed out I am.

idk like a 30

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>>676263208
40, at this point I just don't care about life yet I don't cry about that shit and always thing about suicide. However I still consider it from time to time.

1000

>>676263208
70.
I would have to become a father (single father please, don't want bitches telling me what to do) and make a seriously sucessefull book.
>Inb4 your grammar sucks for a book writter
Yeah i'm not american, my grammar on my first language is perfect.

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40

Unemployed, Broke as fuck, living off Benefits (even though I don't even want to be on them.)

I just want a job I'd actually enjoy doing, regardless of pay.

Id say im at a flat 50
Everything I do comes with both a positive and negative and I hate it but dont
> + Just got a new job that pays decent (12.35$/ hr as a FA at Amazon 4 days a week
> - Tons of walking, 10+ hour shifts, scheduled Saturday-Tuesday

>+ Broke up with girlfriend
> - Broke up with girlfriend

>+ now have money
> - now have financial responsibilities

I'm just being a fucking baby and I know it. Could be so much worse though and I am thankful to the fates I'm not a nigger.

I don't know if I'm happy, but I'm definitely not suicidal. Just OK with things.
50 I guess.

Inb4 00

>>676275233
Unless Mr. Happy is gonna kill me I'll stick with Mr. Depressed.

25

>>676263208
10, will increase to 15 if I get image sauce.

00
If I kill myself then everyone else's score will increase so that's a plus

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50
I wish I wouldve stayed inn school, took better care of my teeth and overall health. Its a 50 tho because i have a job and my own place and a lovely girf. I'd be lying if I said I dont think about just ending it all the time anyway

33-35

99.99999999 repeating infinitely which just happens to be exactly equal to 100 prove me wrong

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>>676277766
chekd

From 30 to 60. I need a sense of purpose

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Bounces between the 70s and the 30s

>>676277695
i see people bouncing so probalby between 20-and 50

I'm 65, i just need the following
>A daughter, always wanted a little girl.
>A new dog, love dogs.
>My girlfriend to get the fuck away from me, she's psycho.
>Get sick when we reach 11 of april so i can spend the whole day in Dark Souls 3.

>>676263208
I'll say like a 55 or 60

>>676268018
Get a better belief than mythological gods ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

65

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85. it would probably go up to a 90 once I actually commit to going to the gym and lose weight. I'm going starting tomorrow

>>676277766
wrong actually, a number in the decimal place actually designates the PRECISION of a numerical value. In scientific notation that number is actually less than 100 however the exact value is unknown but is less than 100 and more than 99.999999998

Gonna let last two numbers decide.

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>>676277483
>>676263208
Ha! 15 it is, then. :)

>>676263208
Id say 70, not sure what to do with my life, I think im giving a lot of importance to not having money i dont need right now (getting a house, and try to guarantee my family future, etc...)... any advice?

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>>676263208
I'm at 25/100 rn. It used to be a 70/100 last year but now I'm lonely af and just have been in the feels lately.

>>676263208
Negative 0

0/100

The only reason I haven't killed myself is because I am afraid of death.

I'd say 75

2
I would have to leave hickville kentucky and get a sex change for that to go up.

My last digits are literally how I feel.

>>676284538
Well.

6. Would like to have a girlfriend thats nice. Likes games and animes. Appearance isnt really a factor just so long as she wasnt overweight. A job that wont treat me like shit. I dont even have any friends. I dont even care anymore.

Would raise it to 100 if i had both those things.

50 I have a system

>Always keep chunk of money saved and tell myself I won't kill myself until I blow it all on coke and hookers or something
>Decide to get sex-change before suicide
>Take Heroine before suicide

>>676265801
Go find her

85

Need to sort out my hairline with some minoxidil, no hard task.

Need to work off the last of the extra kg's; won't take long.

Need to acquire smart gf, am sociable so won't be too hard.

>>676285293
Yeah man friends fix alot and help with everything, best part is that anyone can have them. Work hard at it because it'll pay off big time.

15/100, been real hard to motivate myself to do anything lately, even getting out of bed. I think me not having a job anymore finally freed my mind of distractions to all the shit thats wrong in my life.
And cause of my last job and why I got fired, its put a bit of a block on looking for another job, do to what happened.

5, just have to git gud

47.
I'd probably have to lose the fat, line up some good career options for after college, get my own place, and get a girlfriend to put me close to 100.
Some things I can't fix though, like the bacne scars.

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Ive been at 0 quite a few times i'd say I'm like a 30-40 rn I have major depression but lately its not effecting me as much shits not going to bad time to puck fitches

>>676288136
For the things you can't change, change your attitude toward them.

I've got some mild scarring, and I figure that a girl isn't going to care at all about a bit of scarring on the back which she won't constantly be looking at, so I treat them as a kind of battle scar representative of crap I've been through. Sounds stupid I know but it helps with dealing with things.

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>>676263208
today. 1. life is a never ending parade of disappointments, guaranteed failure and crippling debt masquerading as opportunities.
We get told it's not how many times we get knocked down, but how many times we get back up but after a while getting back up just smacks of masochism and self abuse.

>>676288848
Yeah, I've been told that before.
I accepted that long ago, now I'm just trying to deal with the consequences of it.

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>>676288718
btw im 19m not done hs yet, due to severe anxiety and depression but honestly finishing high school online plus making myself not worthless; and getting a job plus gf would prob put me to like a 50-70 but i'm always susceptible to my lows / suicidal phases

>>676263208
I love that girls body so much I wish there was a real life version of her or a really good cosplay version jesus fuck

80

>>676289623
40

>>676263208
probably a 25
not exactly suicidal, but depressed as fuck.

i can't really change it: I have schizoaffective (basically bipolar+schizophrenia).

>>676270010
Excellent book, decent movie.

About 65.

>>676263208
60
a job

1, But too much of a pussy

>>676288136
Oh yeah, and the ulcerative colitis.
Hell, getting rid of that would put me on top of the world.
I'd feel invincible, I'd fuck right off to the army, or some obscure part of the world and have a blast with my health.
Too bad that's not gonna happen...

25. I'm not unattractive, but i'll kill myself if I don't find a significant other in the next year or so.

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>>676289623
This might interest you.

5 or 6 great home great parents which are just punches to the gut because waiting on testing for being a sociopath, constantly want to kill myself (example) I see a wall I think and see myself bash my skull in on it, I see a pen I want to dive it through my eye

>>676290953
I'll be in my bunk.

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>>676289623
>>676290953

>>676290680
Suicidal person here fuck off autist shitty reason to kill your self go buy yourself a hooker or some shit.

Was at about 20 a year ago, I'd say I'm at about 80 currently. Took MDMA for the first time about 6 months ago (and many more times since), like a magic cure for depression. Anti depressants never really did anything, but this just kicked it out of me.

>>676269908
>scale from 0-100
>says -100
You're a fucking idiot.

>>676263208
50, i'm acceptable and alright but i could be happier, but i don't mind.

>>676290454
I have this too but I take abilify and depakote the combination works perfectly, have you tried these meds?

>>676290977
Oh and I want to actually kill myself to escape the torture, I also have anger to the point where I am always tired and am having stomach problems really surprised I haven't been an hero yet

I'm at a 2 I couldn't really careless what happens to me and wish I had committed suicide when I was seven and initially saw all the bullshit in my life before it happened.

>>676263208
I'd say I'm at a 10
Moving out of parents house would bring it up to 25
Having a job I love would bring it to 50
Having a spaceship capable of interstellar travel would bring it to 75
Having a very large and diverse harem of human and alien babes who worship me would bring it to 100 I think.

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>>676263208
6

There is nothing I can change.
I looked through the looking glass.
I know what awaits us.

So all I can say is if you seek the "American dream" do it and keep those you love close.

I do not know how much time we have left.

But shit IS going to hit the fan.

Christian prophecy will happen but the Rapture is a lie.

Trump is not the Anti-Christ but he probably IS the false prophet, else Hillary is the whore of Babylon. One of them is going to introduce us to the Anti-Christ and lie and tell us he is the Second Coming here to Rapture everyone away.

We have been protected from Super Natural beings for over 2000 years that may end at any time.

>>676263208
15, adderall and getting my ex back

>>676263208
0. my school grades kek

>>676292358
Well why can't you get a job, anon?

About 30
In university studying something I like
Moderately Healthy
Not hideous
------
Not good looking
Contempt for people
Find it hard to talk to people
Broke up with girlfriend
Still in love with her 8 months on
Not been happy since then

30 maybe, everything has seemed pointless for years now so I'm about to finally give in and get some pharmaceutically induced happiness

>>676292962
I have had plenty of jobs and I have one now, I am just not making enough to move out, I would need to find at least one reliable roommate and I don't know anyone like that. Fuck craigslist roommates I have had too many bad experiences living with people I didn't know I could trust.

>>676263208
50
literally reroll

>>676263208
22 I guess. I'd kill myself but there is no afterlife and the mere thought of that sends me into panic attacks. So here I am still. Existence is torture.

>>676263208
About 20
>considering starting drugs

>>676294019
>Fuck craigslist roommates

Odd I have had really good luck with them.

My last three were craigslist. But current is a friend of 16 years.

Roll for truth

>>676267331
I'm happy for you anon.

Eh about 70/100
Just want faster internet and more oxy
Only download 177 kb/s max rn and only have 8 oxy left and it takes 2 to get me some form of high

>>676263208
51

I would leave college and actually try to become an actor but since that is virtually unfeasible I'll complete my degree

-7
What has to change? I have no idea
I accepted these feelings as permanent

>>676277766

It's not exactly equal. It's infinitely close.

well if 50 is halfway to being suicidal, then id probably be a 65?

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49

Would have to stop being a massive autistic faggot.
Go outside more.
Start in the gym.
And trying to meet some girls, even if the first 10 dates are a complete dissaster (which after 8 years without a girlfriend or sex, they would)

My social skills suck

65, possibly 70
Better pay, living in a better location and not having panic disorder/hypochondria.

20/100

I need to break up with girlfriend and get on aderall, but she needs me (and I need her). I dunno. Life is pretty bad.

>>676297472
>autistic faggot.

Well then to start you may want to quit being a fucking sheep.

Those are /b/tard words that prove you are far too concerned with fitting in rather than being your own person.

37

3
I'd kill myself

Usually the 40-60 range. Gotta get a gf to change that shit.

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A solid 60-70
I literally have no reason to be sad currently, maybe it's the stress and pressure put on me but, honestly, I have no idea. I should be happy, I have everything fucking handed to me. I'm just scared about what the future holds.

>>676263208
60.
Never thought about suicide and i was happy about 3 times in my life. I mean, real happy.
In my high schoool i had a few friends, about 8, but we were always together. Was fun.
the other 2 times, i was in love. I had a girlfriend for 6 years. We were happy, but she had to go away because of her work.
The other "happy time" i was in love again, lasted about a little more than a month. It's was a feeling way stronger than the first time, but i screwed up real bad in the next 2 months. Now she doesn't even remember me, or don't like to.

>what would have to change...
Find a goal in life and fight for it and a lot more of self confidence.

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s 100
Found my purpose. This world "fucking sucks". We all agree yet continue living in it because we are stuck in the dogma of YOU CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT SO DEAL WITH IT PUSSY. Fuck that, maybe its just me, I'm not going to let future generations live like this, I sat by and watched too much shit to GOOD people with no reason. FUCK THAT.
I got to 100 but realizing if you have ever been at 0.01 you know that death is between you versus society at the end of the day. If you cam't change you chanhe society, and if your afraif of failure who give a FUCK, nothing matters in the grave. Your going to die anyways. Might as well do something about this life. This world was built by people no smarter than anyone. How about sit down and think of some original thoughts to make our human race prepared for evolution. Be humble though, selfless, willing to believe that giving=receiving is where I climbed the ladder to 100.
Life is only traveled once; today's moment is tomorrow's memory. Enjoy every moment, good or bad, because the gift of life is LIFE ITSELF.
This won't make sense to 99+% of you, but the ones who it does. I NEED YOU, I need you to make this vision a living reality

I'm around 35. I'm not terribly suicidal, and I don't have many reasons to be sad, but it's definitely below average.

I'd need motivation, energy and creative ideas to make my life better. I need things to do that isn't the same daily grind. I need love.

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>>676298515
It makes sense but you can not fight fate.

Wish I could help Anon.
But I am afraid all I can do is watch as evil wins for a short time. I am not going to fight God and his plan even if I do think he is an asshole.

Christ is who I follow and not like others do.

So I am simply a watchman.

I can scream warnings but few listen.

0. I give it about a month.

>>676295909
>Mfw you don't sell your remaining oxy to buy more oxy
Seriously that shit can sell for like 5 bucks a pill if ya find someone willing

>>676263208
40ish.
I guess don't fool myself and think someone is an exception. Don't ever let anybody close enough that you depend on them.

Like a 60, I guess.

No major issues in life but I'm at a busy point in my semester and exams are coming up. I'm just fed up with this bullshit and want to fucking relax for once.

>>676299122
Dude. Try smoking weed

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5.

i do very much want to die. i just don't believe i am worthy to take my own life. death is a blessing given to those who deserve it. to take what doesn't rightfully belong to one's self is, well, morally wrong.

i like it here. or maybe i'm so used to it by now that i'm too scared to want to change it. i'm too scared to hope only to go lower on this stupid scale.

...what is wrong with me?

>>676263340
Well, it was nice knowing you anon.
Or not knowing you.
Whatever.

Roll kek

>>676263208
1
The only reason I'm alive right now is to save enough money to pay for my funeral.

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>>676299832
Nothing at all you are n touch with some of the truth.

You feel you are supposed to be here and perhaps you are?

I feel much the same.

I just hope not to really interfere in what is about to take place.

>>676292690
>>676299099

>>676264865
I'm sorry to read that, anon.
I hope things will get better.

>>676263208
65

>>676292690
i too have already accepted god's fate. he does have a sense of humor that sometimes even i find sick. but can i ask you: do you still love god, despite what he's put you through to put you in 6?

Like a 15/100. That 15 is this. 3 for music. 3 for nature. 9 for my only friend who's like my little sister. She's the only thing I've got to live for. If I killed myself it would ruin her.

>>676263208
i'd say a 10, every once in a while dropping too 0

>>676263208
ON an unrelated subject avatar the legend of kora is fucking beast and I am watching it right now!

rolling to know

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>>676300336
If Christ was God made flesh? Yes.
If not? No..

I am angry at God and Lucifer for putting all of us through all this. I can not help but wonder and be angry at a planet where life must eat life to survive. I try very hard to await the answers that I hope one day he will give me that will change my opinions of him.

I dont honestly.

>>676300183
i like you, anon. do you think you'll go to hell if you kill yourself?

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>>676300762
I do not know for sure, but yes I think so. Much like the other anon I think we are NOT supposed to end ourselves. If I thought I could I would.

>>676263208
60 but rising, if I change location, live with my family andget a better job it'd increase it a lot.

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I have attempted suicide 21times. Hostipalized 3 times. Had 3 childhood bestfriends died. Best friend's mom murdered, mutualized and had her vagina cut off and put on the front of a truck. Dad publically call people niggers, whore, sluts in grocery stores as me being a toddler ad being banned because of him from every store in town. Bullied. Cyberbullied.names. Becoming and unbecoming the names I were called. 3 psychologist telling me the problems are my fault. Even my Mom said I was hopeless. Everyone didn't give a shit abot me and openly announced that I was not going anywhere and didn't care if I killed my self. The 4th time I attemepted suicde , this time with a noose- made out of drapes. my mom caught me ad said "fuck, now I got to fix the drapes, next time if you do this, please don't mess upp" I HAD FUCKING NO ONE. I still had it better off than a kid without parents or a straving child in Africa but atleast those kids maybe had atleast one person that knew them. It took me the will to look at death right in the eye and feel like I was the shittiiest and hopeless person in the world to gai the courage to do anything I fucking wanted because whats the worst that can happen, death?, oh wait YA who fucking cares? that's right.no one. Now 1000s of people care about me because I helped them selflessly. You can't be told this by a human, you have to tell yourself it. Listen, this pain is good. If your not at 100, its a good thing. "Go through the worst days in order to earn the best days"-gh. You have imagine yourself as the STAR of your own MOVIE who wakes up one day with a shiity life and decides to makes the hardest decision in the world...even harder than suicide-To give up everything that he is in order to become what he wants to become. Suddenly, all those cliché quotes you hear from insanely successful people makes sense. ___ doesn't kill _makes +stronger. Hardest part is starting. Its not for everybody. 1%

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I'll go with 20. It's planned but not immediate. I have a few more months. I refuse to be 30 years old without getting laid.

75 cause i have waiting to things get better but acttualy i dont have nothing, no job, no friends, no school, 3 years lost in university, i was almost done but im lazy af

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>>676292690
>>676300183
>>676300693
>>676300947

i too am trying to find truth, but i've concluded i can only do so much on my end. it looks like i'll just have to save my questions for when i meet him. why a 5 and not a 6, anon? the difference is...minimal.

i like the number 5, personally.

>>676263208
I'd say somewhere around 70.
Trying to turn being an artist into a solid living, and I'm having trouble so far. That's got me stressed, but my financial worries are not so overbearing that they completely ruin my life. Luckily was born to decently wealthy family, so I guess I have some ground to fall back on if need be.

To improve, I'd say finding a lover would be great, had very little luck in that regard thusfar. Additionally, being a better painter would be fantastic. I'd actually really like to look forward to my future, because hopefully I will have improved.

TL;DR it's aight.

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75
I've got friends online, the friends that I used to hang out with I still talk to and do hang out with when I visit the area, we still make a great gang. But no job, really not much money most of the time, not sure what I'm doing with my life, and fat. But I also just can't really be that sad, more just...annoyed? Disappointed in myself that I haven't gotten rid of this fucking weight.

>>676263208
Varies wildly day by day, but averages around 65