shameless self bump

mr rogers reminds me there are aren't people out there to get me

Fuck everyone, /b/ro. Do you. Suffer. Be in pain. Embrace it. It makes you strong. And soon, you'll look back and see that you not only survived, you bounced back. Soldier on.

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I think I fucked up, /b/. I'm not sure if I should've kept living in fantasyland, or if I did the right thing. Pic related.

>>674844990
beta

>>674844990
You did the right thing. You will NEVER get anywhere by not taking chances. Be fucking legendary.

>>674844990
Right thing, it hurts, but now you can move on. Being infatuated creates a tunnel vision, she's not that special

>>674845154
I was pretty beta, I won't deny it.
>>674845183
Thank you for the encouragement, any advice on where to go from here?

>>674844990
You did the right thing, but in the most beta way possible

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I have an old "feelings" folder
Emphasis on old, could be lame stuff idr

>>674845641
Pretty much this, there are plenty of girls out there but now at least you don't need to sit there wondering about what will happen with her since now you know.

>>674845787
Yeah. Where you go is easy - forward. You took a shot. It didn't pan out. So.....move on, bro. For real. Stay in touch if you want. It's gonna be weird. Especially at first. So be distant. Don't be available. And for fucks sake broaden your horizons.

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>>674845956

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>>674846159
This one isn't much but I remember I teared up after reading it

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>>674845956

>>674844990
Filename kek

>>674846407
I felt like I had, to be fair.

>Be me
>Be 16?
>at grandpas house
>he is 85 at this point
>hes incredibly healthy
>golfs all the time
>really proud of him
>im talking to him about college
>tells me he never went and turned out fine
>"well you were drafted into the military"
Little backround, my grandpa didnt graduate high school and went straight into the military at 17 or 18, when ever the lowest age was. he went to WW2 a little bit after D-Day, was in the battle of the bulge
>Talk to him to about
>tells me a story about his friends, especially the ones who died
>starts to tear up a little
>he closes his eyes
>wait around 10 seconds and ask him if hes ok
>says "yes of course! just remembering it all"
>later that night i see him holding a photo of him, starts touching the photo as if its a child of his, very soft and smooth like
>starts to cry again
this was probably the saddest moment of my life with my grandfather, he is still alive at 89 turning 90 soon. I have photos of him if anyone would like to see!

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>>674846729
You need this.

Can we get some feel songs up in here?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8uxt-FnNy2I

>>674846967
this

>>674846967
My favorite:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B8UeeIAJ0a0

>>674846355
you may also be tired after a long grueling day of monotonous blue collar work

I haven't actually cried in over 2 years now and sometimes like right now I get the overwhelming urge too but I just can't and I don't know why

>>674846967
>>674847120
if this doesn't get you
https://youtu.be/84zXffLRKwQ

>>674847120
That was her favorite band...

If only i wasn't a failure. She'd still be next to me

>>674846687
Please share, sounds like a great guy

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gonna buy some n2 from a local welder and gas myself when they open on monday

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CGrR-7_OBpA

>>674847848
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TWcyIpul8OE

>>674844990

Wow, you kids need to learn how to say this shit in person.

>>674848095
for emma forever ago kills me everytime dude

>>674847538
Tell anon. I'm listening.

been fun /b/oyd
itd been a tough ride
last feels thread
its time
so long and good night

>>674847541
ok, give me a second, got to find them

Feels song of choice: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KOuepo6DP4k

>>674848293
I know. In this form, it's cringe OC. However, it would be a lot worse in person. I can always write things with far better diction and more powerful language than could ever formed by my tongue.

>>674847269
Welcome to emotional detachment street.

>>674848695
Anon, what's wrong?

>>674846687
oh man

>>674848695
Please don't go.

There's a interview of my grandfathers amazing life.

He's about to die soon.

I'm afraid to post link due to the evils of 4chan that I've seen.

>>674848695
join you on Monday, fag.

>>674849080
Haha I think we can understand =] why not paraphrase it?

>>674848909
elaborate please

>>674849103
>whats wrong
everything
>>674849063
dont wanna be a burden/attention fag so, im sorry
>>674848959
see you there

>>674849259
this. holy fucking this

>>674848556
Well...
I'm fresh out of highschool, and by that i mean i recently dropped out. I have crippling depression and i fill the void inside with drugs and alcohol.
She was a smart, cute, kind girl.
I wanted her to smoke with me and i almost got her to before she realized what she was doing. Me and her both looked for a long-term thing because all we really had was eachother. But after i had helped her though her problems, she made more friends and shes blossoming. The other night she talked to me about how if we want something I can't be doing what i am but i can't change. I can't do anything different than what I do. So while shes out hanging out with friends and having a good time, im here, listening to sad music and reading through what you guys have to say. Sorry for my ramblings.

TL;DR She left me because shes going places and i'm not.

>>674844281
Right in the fucking feels with that one.

Even as a kid I knew Mr. Rogers was a fucking sissy...but he was a good guy.

>>674849371
fucked it up of course
>>674848959
>whats wrong
everything
>>674849063
dont wanna be a burden/attention fag so, im sorry
>>674849103
see you there

>>674849623
fuck you

>>674846859
feels activated

>>674849371
I won't see you in person. I'll never know your name... but I'll never forget you.

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>>674847541
this is him during the war i think in germany?

>>674849623
I know this feel all too well.

>>674849623
damn I wanted to stop crying awhile ago

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>>674849597
Talk anon, you'll feel better.

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FGwFZj3YPwY

>>674844450
that room looks dope how is that feels

>>674850366
ive tried a shrink and i can tell their fucking judging me. i thought therapists were supposed to help you cope with your problems but i didnt think i would notice that moment when they hesitate after i tell them even a little bit of my problems . so ive tried talking and im done with all of it,. ill go see my family next week then maybe i can feel like its time and ill be happy. i dont wanna deal with mysellf or anybody anymore

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>>674844281

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I'll start dumping

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>>674851064

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I live in a rural town, it's all woods and farmland. The tallest hill in town has been a farm since around 1690. It's behind my parents' woods. They own several acres of forest (with the neighbors all owning several acres as well) and this large hilltop field abuts the back of all of our land, with a stone wall separating it from the forest. I think it's about 25 acres cleared. The farm itself is long gone but a farmer still owns the land and comes and hays it once or twice a year.

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>>674851228
My childhood was filled with adventures in the woods, and when we were old enough to explore all the way back to the field it was like a rite of passage. That old stone wall, laying there in the shadows, overgrown, covered in vines. It's hard to even see out into the field during summer because the brambles and vines are so thick at the edge. Old trees of cider apples grow feral in the thicket beyond the wall, too deep to even sample an apple. This is what made the field itself so great. It was hard to get to, and when you did, the world opened-up into what seemed like an endless green pasture with the biggest sky you could ever get to see in New England. The view from the top was amazing, especially for a kid. The slope down the opposite side would grow acres of milkweed in the fall and we'd spend the day out there having wars with milkweed pods, throwing them at each other until someone got the juice and their eye and cried.

>>674850615
Fuck you. 15 years later. God dammit!

>>674850810
Tell us. We aren't therapists anon. Even if you regret it, once this thread 404's, you'll just return to the endless pool of anons. I'm not going to give up on you anon.

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>>674851342
I move a lot as an adult. In one city or another, around the US and overseas, but every few years I come back when I'm between things - jobs, moves, etc. I get back into camping and enjoying the woods before my family sells the property. I still walk out on nice days and follow the stonewall, fight through the prickers and walk around the field and enjoy the view from the top. Even as an adult I throw a few milkweed pods, despite the fact there's nobody there to thrown them at. I still love the vines, the sky, the forbidden apples.

>>674850810
Bubbles

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>>674851442
A couple weeks ago a tractor appeared in the field. So did a few large dump trucks. I took a walk out to snoop around the wall and take a look. The field has been marked-out with dozens of pink survey ribbons. The corner of the field near where the road passes was getting dug-up, and they were laying a large gravel driveway leading in from the street. For sure it's been sold and a cul-de-sac neighborhood is going in. Probably at least 10 shitty mcmansions full of yuppy perverts and immigrants and their kids could fit in there. Not only will it ruin the field, but then my woods would become someone else's back yard. The stonewall wouldn't stop them. It's horrible.

>>674847269
I've had that for 12 years now

>>674849259
Seriously can somebody answer this question?

>>674850846

This picture sums up what is wrong with betas. Why did you give that bitch your heart? That shit is for you, she needs to sort her own out.

We need to stop seeing women as women, and start seeing them as people.

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>>674851527
Well, /out/, after much research and coming up with nothing, I asked one of our town selectmen. The farmer sold the land alright - to another farmer. He's putting in an orchard. No houses, no neigborhoods, no immigrants, no perverts. Just apples and bees and a gigantic blue sky. Feelsfuckinggoodman.

Hell I guess I'll put a story
>be me
>be 16
>stupid
>though life was hard (blah blah edge lord stuff)
>grabs dad's gun from safe
>search up how to kill self in best way
>behind the ear i put the gun
> 30 minutes gathering up courage
>pull trigger
>jammed
i took this as a sign and decided to do something worthwhile in life. now I'm in medical school learning to be an ER doctor.
so for those of you who are depressed, you are useful. Just endure and soon you'll find your purpose.

>>674851548
Did something happen?

>>674851592
becasue the person who used to show us the most attention stopped and we want that feeling back again

>>674851064
You bastard, you made me cry
Everything before this was just feels for me but this really got to me
Thanks nigger
I really needed to hear this

https://youtu.be/j664_l8ExUk

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>>674851592
Let me take a swing at it.
Without sounding like an asshole but you're not exactly the social type, you don't know many people, girls at that too. When you meet a girl it's like getting a new friend. She shows you attention because you are fun, but that's it. Not because she wants to be with you, but she's the only one that gives you attention in your life. She's the only option you have. You focus on her while she's probably doing the same about 10 other guys.

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>>674849522
Do it, i did and i got somewhere good

I thought that eventually things would get better, that I'd learn to manage, that I would get over myself and do something.

turns out I didn't do anything and it never happened.

don't procrastinate, guys.

>>674849318
>Be him
>Have alcoholic father.
> Have medically insane mother.
>Great is splitting the family.
>Father leaves.
>Mother gets put in asylum.
>Go to his mothers sisters house.
>Family to poor to feed him.
>They kick him out.
>He lives by a river in a wooden crate by age 8.
>He lives there for about a year.
>Catching fish with string and his bare hands
>Eventually a man named Clyde Ice finds him. (You can find him on Wikipedia)
>He takes him in as if he was his son.
>Clyde owns a entire airport.
>Starts teaching my grandfather to fly.
>At the time you didn't need to be a certain age to fly.
>By the time he's 12 he starts flying solo
>One day Clyde want him to drive into town and get groceries.
>He doesn't know how to drive a car.
>Clyde gives him a quick crash course.
>MFW he crashed the car into a barber shop.
>WW2 comes he wants to become a pilot.
>He can't because of hay makers disease.
>Joins Navy. A crew member on a LST (Landing craft)
>Joins in Iwo Jima, and other large scale battles in the pacific.
>See's a lot of people killed on the beaches.
>He says"The beaches were covered in what look like red wine."
>After the war he doesn't know what to do so he begins working for factories.
>He eventually meets my grandma at a dance and realizes he loves her.
>She ends up being engaged.
>He goes to her house everyday for 2 weeks straight.
>She ends up marrying him on the 4th week.
>He then began building houses for a small town.
>With enough money he starts his own farm and starts becoming rich.
>Carter comes into presidency and my grandfather goes from Upper middle class all the way down to Lower class in less than a month.
>Then he started working on more houses

My grandfather.
>A Child.
>A Survivor.
>A pilot.
>A solider.
>A lover.
>A builder of a town.
>A grower of food.
>A family man.

My grandpa died last night in his room. I was rubbing his arm. Dad kissed his forehead right before he took his last breath. My cousin was holding his hand. He had bad dementia and couldn't say anything remotely understandable. I'm crying, /b/ros. He was my hero.

>be me
>19
>know this girl
>funny, virgin, thinks for herself, and beautiful.
>she's about to move
>I go up to her and start to chat
>she seems a little bit uncomfortable.
>probably because I'm a fucking beta and acting like an autistic shithead
>start talking
>she laughs and I start to feel lightheaded
>work up the testicular fortitude to tell her how I feel.
>she just pauses, and gives me a look
>she doesn't say anything, but I can see so many things in that look
>things I thought about, too.
>this was the worst time to do this
>our friendship is now damaged beyond repair
>Anon is an idiot
>she turned to leave
>I grab her hand
>she turns around
>her eyes are wet
>mine are
>she lets go and I never hear from her again

TL;DR I can't make descissions that will make me happy.

>>674844281
Didn't he die like immediately after that?

Also, sorry you guys can only see the worst in life.

>>674851228
>>674851342
>>674851442
>>674851527
Good story. Someone Chronicle

>>674852373
My grandfather died the same way in 2009 :( I know that feel man, stay strong

https://youtu.be/6xN3hbJG2tc

>>674844990
I've done similar things, maybe not exactly, but close. If she doesn't want to give you the time of day, fuck her man. Just think if some girl you were friends with, even if she was annoying as fuck and you kinda hated her, wouldn't you at least go on one date with her, just to see? Maybe there was something you were missing?

But this bitch showers you with complements of how nice you are, etc, and then says no way no how? The only thing worse she could've done is say nothing at all.

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>>674849522
just get inspired. Humans can survive almost anything, emotionally. Think of all the actors in the Holohoax. if you have nothing left to live for, live for Trump. MAGA, Compadre.

>>674853028
Happened to me before, too.
High school senior and never even held hands with a girl outside of gym class
I'm content with being beta because there are so many years ahead of me and so many opportunities, I'm sure someday something positive will happen

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2kxjtXG12Cc
i love this song when i'm sad

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>>674853838
>based sheepy

>>674851758
No i'm boring, it's just there

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>>674851652
Are you joking or are you actually 55 years old? You want to avoid perverts and you visit this shithole?

My fellow /b/ros.

I see these messages and how you all might feel and I felt some of these feelings too, some have eluded me, others I can't even begin to understand then there are others that I've felt full force.

Though from my personal experience, a lot of what we need to do is find a motivation and that can be both so frustrating and difficult, especially for those of us born in the 80's, we have lived and worked with technology and seen things that are now so obsolete. Pictures in this thread prove that.

But if we can get ourselves up and find our passions, our motivations, things that make us smile and feel happy and human.

I won't lie, it can be hard, it can be difficult and it can fucking suck so much. However, I'm not going to tell you things are wonderful or that things are amazing but what I can tell you...

Is that if you ever find yourself sitting comfortably, with your favourite drink in your hand and are in a place of sheer content, then you will know as I have found, that this life? It's not bad.

It's not bad at all.

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>>674844281
This makes me cry

>>674852678
Thanks, man. It means a lot

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_AWIqXzvX-U

>>674855599
Isn't that a meme? I saw the same shit where there an old dude with a bong and it had the same text except about weed. Or is that the original?

Let's see if my story is sad at all. I'll figure out after I write it.

>Be 23
>Get job straight out of college as an engineer in the oilfield
>Work sucks, a lot. Just absolutely miserable, but it's real life so I dig in
>One day I get a call that my grandpa is ill
>Hadn't talked to him in years
>He's the inspiration for me being an engineer (he was an IBMer during the space race)
>Parents say they drill holes in his head to relieve pressure
>Starts getting better
>Two days later things take a huge dive south
>Call him and tell him how he shaped my life (he's unconscious, don't know if he heard me)
>Next day I'm in the middle of nowhere Wyoming on a drilling rig, get text that he died
>Don't tell anyone, hide any emotions

Fast forward

>Doing great at company a year later.
>Everyone loves me, do great work, best in WY probably
>Drive to Utah for a job
>Fall asleep at wheel, crash in ditch
>No injuries, but I could've died if I was 10 ft in any direction
>Rip rear axle off F-550
>Investigation
>Think I'm fine
>Get called into office a month later (and probably after $100,000 worth of jobs later)
>"Sorry anon, you were going 5mph over before you crashed"

>terminated

>No unemployment
>No backup job
>Move in with parents
>6 months later, no job.
>drinking in parents basement alone
>Glad my grandpa's dead and can't see this mess.

TL;DR Can't even make my dead grandpa proud.

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>>674855927
It's the original

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>>674855836
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pMErlY2CIs0

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>>674844990

You were forthright and didn't fuck around which is good.

You did it emotionally and made yourself look weak and dependent, which is bad.

Women always prefer aloof indifference to saccharine love notes.

>>674856087
Ok

>>674854916
dam

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Yesterday I read part of a story on feels about a guy who was an army ranger with his high school friend. I didn't get to finish the story before it 404d.
Does anyone have that story? It was about two friends who enlisted together. They were boxers and stuff before they went to the army. I want to read the rest of it.

>>674856006
Oh I guess I should add:

I met someone through work and I'm going to marry them. But she is from Kazakhstan. In order for the K-1 visa to be approved, I need to prove I can financially support her. No job, no marriage. Because we already applied for it, time is ticking until our petition expires. So if i can't get a job soon, I won't be able to bring her over for another year or something.

>>674844281
Lately, I've been feeling like not even Mister Rogers would like me just the way I am.

>>674856911
Why apply without job? Anyway, a job always comes eventually. I had leech off my parents for a whole year but i eventually got a job again and paid back every penny. You just gotta keep sending out emails daily, like fucking 20+ or some shit

>>674850686
why is the poem shaped like a guitar?

>>674850205
my grandpa was in germany too bad he passed before i was born wouldnt eat chicken because of what he saw in berlin

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Today is my birthday
> Not a single one of my friends remembered.
> Not a single happy birthday from any of them, only from my family (who I live with)
> parents are starting to notice my lack of social interaction
> don't know that all my friends left me and refuse to talk to me (believe me, I've been trying to reach out for 4 months now, but they just ignore me, and the girls get pissy when I ask to hang out bc they think I'm hitting on them)
> I've never felt this irate and depressed at the same time

>>674857257
He'll always like you just the way you are. You might be in a bad place for now but it never lasts. Went spelunking once and the dude guiding us had the best mentality. You're never stuck, you're just momentarily slowed down.

>>674857633
>guitar
that's a noose friendo

>>674857792
Happy Birthday /b/ro
You're loved here

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xKxghcoDMW0

>>674857792
For what it's worth, happy birthday anon. You're in my thoughts for the day

>>674857792
Hey man it'll get better just remember that. Also happy birthday!

>>674856006
you still have a chance to make your grandpa proud anon.
you still have a chance.

>>674857792
Happy birthday honey I still love you.

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>>674851592

Options.

The fewer options you have in the dating/sexual market, the more you'll overvalue female attention.

Conversely, the average female usually has more options than the average man, so they'll undervalue male attention since they receive it so much.

Women are the pragmatic realists pretending to love as romantic idealists.

Men are the romantic idealists pretending to love as pragmatic realists.

>>674844281
A wonderful man. It's a shame he's gone, but at least people still remember him.

>>674844281
girl of my dreams and also my best friend would rather be with an asshole friend of mine than me
I'm fucked idek what to do
I'm drunk as fuck rn
make me feel /b/

>>674857792
happy birthday, nigger.
you know we love you here

>>674857792
i know that feel

>>674858243
Very true

>>674858243
What he said

Why don't I feel anything when friends tell me they love me? Do they feel something I don't when I try to reciprocate these feelings back?

>>674856911

>In order for the K-1 visa to be approved, I need to prove I can financially support her. No job, no marriage

b-b-but feminism...p-p-patriarchy....

>>674858051
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Uh-Zww7F-yo

this song always makes me emotional.

https://youtu.be/pY9b6jgbNyc

>>674858243
Doesn't this kind of switch around as you age? Typically men age better plus in general are more financially stable and therefore have better options

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s70OsXlDD94

this song fucking destroys me

>>674849623
help