>fat, ugly bastdard
>been trying PUA
>get deluded about myself, go outside feeling like I'm fucking awesome. People greet me
>second approach ever
>notice girl checking me out, this NEVER EVER EVER HAPPENED WHAT THE FUCK I STILL CANT BELIEVE IT
>approach, she is giggling, touching her necklace
>I'm not a social potato and know some shit about PUA so I manage to talk to her for some time, wasn't very sexual though, but definitly not beta
>get her number
>I fuck things over texting her, sounded needy as fuck
>been two days since this
>used to feel like the fucking Ozymandias but now feel like shit and have anxiety
>you can build yourself as a big as a tower but you are not solid enough to maintain the height
Now I feel like shit because I know this was a fucking fluke that will never happen again and I screwed it up. Why do we have to keep falling?
Bump. Would like to know how to build myself up again after this screw up
Your PUA chucklecucks don't have any advice?
Seriously, it was only your second approach. You gotta keep at it.
>be me single
>clubbing with friends
>all of them obnoxious
>me chill
>girls be rolling their eyes at idiot friends
>then they look at me
>just chillin, not trying
>two girls climb in my lap
>well hello ladies
>you're a quiet one
>yea it's too loud in here
>wanna go somewhere quieter
>bow chicka bow wow
>>16959837
Are you serious? Jesus christ go out there and try it again and stop being such a baby over it, you didn't know this woman, why are you so affected by it?
I had same shit. I deluded myself into being an alpha, confident, whatever you mean by this crap, but I can't keep this longer than a day.
Don't know how this shit works, people must feel it, while I cannot.
>>16959837
Are you stupid? This is literally how a person learns: trial and error. Go out again. Get another number. Do something different. Analyse results. Adjust accordingly.
>>16960055
Being alpha isn't so much a state of mind as it is a genetic and psychological predisposition to certain behaviors and reactions.
If you are not one/ don't become one very early in life, weak mimicry is often as good as it gets.
>>16960792
I remember strong presence of father's upbringing, had been a true alpha before I turned into adolescence where everything turned into shit, was constantly blamed by mother, so the whole life experience after that is kind of similar with awkward autist jolting. Feeling like Midas, but everything I touch turns into shit rather than gold.
>>16960028
real & heterosexual