Hi /adv/,
I need help with my sexual impulses.
I'll start at the beginning: I discovered masturbation at a very early age (maybe 9 or 10 years old?) and did it frequently. There was a point where I would do it four to six times a day. This carried on until high school when I eventually cut back to maybe once or twice a day, sometimes going a day or two without it. With this came the need for porn to achieve a better climax every time.
The whole situation is almost like using gateway drugs. I started with "normal" porn, then I needed weirder and weirder stuff to have equivalent experiences.
I am now in college and drift in and out of the habit, but I'm on the down slope right now...
It's to the point where I'm worried that my impulses will lead me to looking at something illegal. It's one of my greatest fears. I have accidentally stumbled upon POTENTIALLY illegal images (no source or information so I had no way of confirming legality) that satiated my need for erotic material. It scared me because I wasn't appalled. I've become so desensitized. For the record, I do not deliberately search for illegal porn and did not explore further after the aforementioned instance.
I can't keep living like this. I'm always paranoid about getting an email or a phone call that I'm being investigated for viewing illegal images. It's a problem I don't want to have. It has affected my view of certain people and has driven me to act upon my impulses in ways I do not wish to disclose. I never hurt anyone and hopefully never will, but I'm not happy with my current trajectory.
Any advice would be appreciated.
Do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend?
>>17259365
unless you're running a site called platoskids, you're fine. Just stop going on motherless. What you need to do is find something to throw your energy into. Try masturbating with just your imagination too.
>>17259380
>platoskids
Please don't tell me that site is still around
>>17259379
Nope. I never really had a deep relationship with a girl either. I've been told I have a great personality and I'm probably a solid 7/10, but I just haven't taken initiative I guess.
>>17259387
...its a real site? I just heard of it off of Mr. Robot and figured it would makes sense as a general title for one of those sites.
>>17259388
So, here's your real problem, and your answer; get a girlfriend.
>>17259380
Luckily I never heard of either of those websites so I guess I'm doing something right. Haha, mainly used Tumblr, 4chan, NSFW section of /b/. Places where it's all unlabeled so I have no idea what the sources are. I assume they are moderated, but I've been surprised before.
>>17259395
...lmao you're fine dude. Get off the internet and find something to be passionate about.
>>17259393
Easier said than done... I started exercising more this summer so hopefully I can bump some confidence then go for it. Meeting people is also a strange thing to me. I don't really get it unless I'm introduced to someone by a third party. Walking up to a stranger and striking up a convo is not my strong suit. I'm not a quitter though, so I'll give it a shot.
