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2016-03-14 12:07:44 Post No. 16914741
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2016-03-14 12:07:44
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I have spent so much of my life turning people down. Saying no to different social offers and opportunities. I have shut so many doors that have been opened to me. But I have reached the end of the hallway and there are no more doors.
If I had just gone through any one of those doors I could have entered another hallway with even more open doors, leading on to even more. But I have closed every door and left myself trapped, with no escape.
I am crippled with this anxiety that prevents me from trying to escape. No one opens any doors to me any more as they have all since abandoned me, knowing that I always shut the doors in their faces. No one else knows I am trapped here, silently screaming for help. The people who originally opened those doors for me are too far away to hear me scream.
I'm only 21 but I look back on the last 4-5 years in particular and I regret every decision I made.
I regret every time I was too lazy to take someone's offer and follow them through that door. I think how different my life could be if I had said yes, walked through every door that was opened to me.
Now I am trapped. The doors are closed and there is no way out. Everyone else I know is on the other side of those doors and beyond, they've left me behind.