Just fucking say it.
I'm not happy.
>>16600592
Neither am I.
What I would do to hear her voice, hold her close... I want her back, or even just one more night.
I want her to be happy.
does anyone else's 4chan say it's getting cold isn't it?
Im tired of trying so hard.
I want to take his clothes off and give him a good, tender massage.
Stupid fuck here, Hello.
So yeah, as soon as I begin to feel fucked up, I come here.
Now, I've decided to disappear,but when I think about it , I think how much money it will cost, so the only logical conclusion I've came up with is to kill myself.
Nobody wants me. Nobody cares. I don't care either. Bye-bye.
I think, if this continues, I'll end up in a hospital with a nervous breakdown.
>>16600686
Dont be stupid, find something that is worth it and work your ass off until you have achieved it. After achieving, find something new and repeat!
I creampied my girlfriend last night and it's really freaking me out.
>>16600705
Me too
I want to fuck my sleeping cousin
People who sigh every few seconds really piss me off. Seriously. So you really have Such bad problem solving skills that litarly everything in life stresses you out?
>>16600722
Me too
>>16600697
I appreciate your answer, but I'm a fucking failure.
>>16600694
What exactly?
Some random girl phoned me earlier and said "hello", hung up when I said it back.
Most likely, wrong number.
But in my head, I've been pretending that it's this co-worker I like who managed to get my number from a friend, and wanted to ask me out or some shit, got nervous and hung up.
Damn I'm pathetic.
>>16600663
No.
I feel like telling my family that they're a bunch of selfish cunts, and when I finally get the funds to move out, none of them are going to hear from me.
ive had about 4 chances to get an acceptable GF in the past 4 years, never the less I screwed all up or rejected them because I thought I could do better.
Now I realize they were probably the best I can get, they werent fat, not very ugly but they all had some other terrible issues
ehh anyway its better than a fucking landwhale
next time I wont be so picky for sure
after all if you can get better you can always end the relationship, and who gives a fuck about shame anyway
I'll never connect to anyone or fit in and I'm destined to die alone, a failure in every possible way. It feels like I'm wearing a mask that I want to claw off. Merry Christmas!
I wish females were sexually attracted to me.
Moved out and am living on my own for the first time. I have no car, am constantly short on money, hate the university I go to, tens of thousands of dollars in debt, and within the 3 months I've been here I've only made 2 friends. NONE of the girls acknowledge my existence, and I haven't fucked in over a year and a half.
Online dating is worse for me. I haven't gotten a single match in two weeks, and to the girls I do match, they will never respond or the conversation dies after I say something. Those same girls have "Willing to spend time with anyone and everyone!" or "Trying to meet new people. If you're nice to me, I'll be nice back!" all over their fucking bio, and yet I'm tossed away.
All of this depression is amplified when I've been repeatedly told to become a model, and yet I haven't fucked in over a year, and every girl I talk to ends up ignoring me.
The culmination of all this has made me incredibly bitter and resentful to anyone and everyone. Thus, perpetuating this cycle.
>>16600731
yes fucker, thats why i want out.
>>16600911
Or you know,you could just breath quitely.
>>16600927
i have fucking bronchitis that i barely avoid panic attacks with.
>>16600742
No matter what you have done, all of that is in the past. You wake up everyday and have the opportunity to reinvent yourself. Forget the past strive towards a better tomorrow.
>>16600946
Fine.
>>16600585
Not sure i have any friends because either:
> im quiet
> im not in an existing social group because i just moved
> im a parsnip
>>16600954
Good luck!
I gave my mom the benefit of the doubt and hoped she wouldn't drink while visiting her friend today.
I mean, of course she did. Of course she got drunk on Christmas Eve.
Maybe some lives just aren't worth living.
I have no idea why anybody who chooses not to be, is a virgin. I can't comprehend it, and it pisses me off.
I'm a 19 year old kisless virgin. I'm not a very social person.
>>16600722
Hi cousinlover!
Just couldn't wait to give them their gifts, eh?
>>16601029
Guy or girl? why?
Why am I so fucking stupid? I wake up everyday saying "I'm not gonna eat shitty today" and go to bed and realize that I ate like a pig all day long. I seriously never notice it.
SEND ME A MESSAGE, GOD DAMN.
I'm 27 and have never been in a relationship ever.
To be fair, I never tried to have anything of that sort until I graduated college. I think that was a huge mistake.
I've always been introverted, and I'm shy. I was less like this when I was forced to be around people 24 hours a day in dorms, classes, student apartments, etc. Now that I've been out a few years, I've become heavily reclusive.
On the upside, after college I have been getting increasingly invested into working out, looking good, etc. So at least I have that going for me.
I don't mind living alone, or working on the holidays, but once in awhile I get pangs of loneliness, and wouldn't mind having a cute girlfriend to be with. But then I get seeds of doubt, telling me that I need to make that next benchmark, whether it be physical, financial, or whatever, and I'll be ready.
Truth is, I don't know if I'll ever be ready, or if I even have the ability to be in a long term relationship, with me needing my alone time and all.
Please tell me that I'm not the only one to feel like this, and any advice would be marvelous. Thanks and merry Christmas
Honestly I'm just waiting to get some terrible illness so I'll die young, alone, and unloved.
Fate has always found a way to make sure I don't get too happy.
There's just always has to be something
Just one last catch
I want to like granny porn but i just can't
I want to cuddle with you so fucking much it hurts. Also, >>16601178, if it wasn't obvious.
I love going to hospital, I love my hospital. I love being disabled. I love purposely fucking with my stitches and rods. I love my wheelchair and it was the best thing to happen to me. I love being a good damn fucking cripple and I fancy the fucking bollocks off my surgeon. I love it all.
I hate the holidays and I have never felt more alone than ever. Can't a nice girl just ride me till I pop? Fuck!
I was looking for some documents today, and I came across some birthday cards and love letters my ex made me. It's a weird feel.
>>16601224
I always come across things my exes have given me whenever I go through my room. It's an odd feeling finding old drawings, letters, even mementoes like movie tickets and such.
Even though it's in the past and I've most definitely moved on, a trip down memory lane makes me so nostalgic.
>>16600785
I felt just like you a few hours ago. I feel lucky I'm in France and had some Champagne to calm me down though. I am just waiting to make money and graduate to GTFO.
Anyway I'm crushing on this girl. I'm a 22 year old guy, virgin even though I had chances to fuck before. Why didn't I fuck before? Alcohol's an ugly beast if you cannot handle it properly.
Anyway, she wrote to me in August this long long letter. Met her in October and talked all the way because I didn't want any awkward silence. Anyway, still have her in my head and wrote to her. She calls me nomad and says I have good plans. Hopefully my plan to be with her will be just as good ;)
If not, a girl in Kosovo is awaiting me (I'm Italian). She is Muslim though, and I'm atheist, so it likely won't be long-term.
My life is weird but I like it, if only I were luckier with women...
I wish I could be with you this Christmas. Goddamnit I wish I could fucking marry you. I wish I didn't have to sit around worrying that you're going to relapse and I wish I could kiss you for a thousand years. I wish we were the only ones in the entire world and that we could spend as much of an eternity as possible together.
>>16600655
im part of your not happy club.
awww sweety. its good of you to want her to be happy even if it isnt with you. it makes me feel a little bit warm inside and you never know what the future can bring.
>>16601247
Initials?
Well i have alot of friends and i get invited alot to parties and get invited by girls to eat and their houses
but i just dont feel confident enought to go becuase im really fat and thats pretty much why i dont go out to parties or dance
5'10 187.393
im unhappy
>>16601264
To: D
From: M
We've been together for a little over two years now.
I had a good fap
I guess you don't want to be online when I am?
I'm pissed two of the jackets I ordered for Christmas don't fit well. I imported them because
>anime
and even though I went a size up they're still too tight. It blows because I'm not even fat. Like, I was not prepared for this. Should've gone two sizes up. I'm too lazy to return them and I don't even know if I can because they were imported thru Amazon. Bad feels.
>>16601353
You should send them to me
>>16601247
>>16601293
Ah, that stung.
I was really hoping...
K, haven't seen you in awhile at work, considering we work in different departments and all, but I hope you're having a great Christmas.
I was hoping one of the ladies on your floor would invite me to your department party so I could have an excuse to talk to you, but no luck. Ah well I doubt we have anything in common and you could do lots better than what I could give. I'll stick to admiring you from afar.
A.
>>16601365
One is Ryuko's jacket from KLK and the other is BRS' jacket from Black Rock Shooter.
>>16601372
I literally love BRS
I have 2 gbs of wallpapers of her
good buy
>>16601386
Thanks bud. Hopefully I can work it out somehow and wear it, but it just feels so tight on my shoulders and arms. Shit sucks, but maybe I can just suck it up and get some use out of it until I can afford to drop another $40 on a larger version.
>>16601390
Would you mind linking where you got it?
i spent christmas eve alone and then my mom came home drunk.
can someone please, please give me a reason to move on from this terrible fucking year that just isn't getting better
It's Christmas, I'm alone but: I'm not suicidal and my life is looking like it can be fixed. Not bad, me, not bad.
WHY CAN'T EVERYONE SHUT THE FUCK UP SO I CAN FUCKING SLEEP
STOP FUCKING TALKING AND MOVING AND SHIT
STOP THE FUCKING CONSTRUCTION AND SHIT
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhh
Can't decide if I want to eat now or not. My mom said she'd make me tuna spaghetti. I think I'll go for a walk, bring some water and the stuff up from the car, try to motivate myself to clean; and I'll try not to think of them.
>>16601366
Hoping for what, Anon?
I don't remember when it was but I was in the bathroom, and my Dad saw me, but he still fucking took down his pants and started taking a piss. Afterwards, I looked at his cock (being a kid, I didn't know until then what anything to do with sex was), and then at him, and HE FUCKING SMILED AT ME.
>mfw
For someone so eager to say "I love you" you were even quicker to seek attention elsewhere than I accounted for. Merry Christmas, you'll be spending it with the abusive ex you tell everyone about, but next time don't get jealous that I am on the phone to my sister for literally 3 minutes before you start telling everyone I deserted you. You got jealous over anything I did but you didn't mind constantly bringing him up or talking about how he'd fuck you if he felt like it. Role as a stepping stone ends here for me, you continue on your own way up, Mari.
-B
>>16601139
To be fair, it would probably be a good idea to avoid proper relationships. The amount of time you've spent on your own makes you vulnerable, and when you finally find someone it will feel like the most amazing thing ever.
But when she inevitably breaks your little heart after she gets what she wants out of you, it will leave you a cold, empty wreck of your former self.
My advice, keep on taking care of yourself, and take any oppurtunity to fuck anyone who expresses interest in you. But leave it at that.
Loneliness is erased for a while after sex, you need that and nothing else.
Id swap places with you in an instant if i could.
I don't want to be human anymore this is awful
listening to this track for hours,months and years and i still dont know how to continue it
looks like its gonna be thrown onto that another unifinished tracks pile and its pissing me off that i couldnt finish one goddamn track this year
shitting dicknipples fuck cunt piss
met what so far i would consider the physical manifestation of my dream girl.
i have never felt these feels before putting me in unknown waters
Be 32, she's 29
went on our first date yesterday, ate then spent the night til 4AM visiting various boardwalks and parks. Hand holding progressed into arms around each other into holding her in my arms as we sat on a bench overlooking the gulf (she even slept a few min)
no kiss at the end (which was by design. she is super shy/introverted so im wanting to take this super slow)
all body language and other signs point to a successful night.
am i doing good?
>>16601582
LOW IQ
>>16600585
My cousin is taking Xyrem, prescription GHB, and I found out tonight and she's not even here. I used to have a 7 pill a night habit of Ambien. I'm mad at something, not at her, just mad at the world.
>>16601588
>>16601588
Women only care about sex and all women are evil. My subsample was large enough to conclude this.
E,
You destroyed me.
I still remember your smile, the way you looked at me. The more I think about it, I doubt you loved me.
You cheated on me.
You used me.
Do I look like a toy? Was I supposed to be a toy? You broke me.
I don't care about you no more.
But you should know, that cheating is not such a 'funny' thing. I never thought that breaking my trust would make me unsensitive towards feelings for other men.
There are men, who try for me.
Those men are sweet-hearts.
But you, broke me. You broke me and I don't feel anything.
I'm afraid I won't feel anything for a long time.
Maybe till the end.
E, don't play the 'cheating' game with other girls. You don't want to break them, like you broke me.
I need to be fixed.
I shouldn't even be here and yall fucking no it. Right, third-wheel met je thesis.
Maffen is a jewish word. Just so you know.
>>16600585
Well im back at spending Christmas and most likely New Years alone. desu i feel really sad on the inside, i mean i am used to this since 2009 i spent Christmas and new years alone till 2012 or 13 when u took me in and it was happy. I know i had the choice to make it today but its for the best, Christmas is all about being with your loved ones and so i had no reason to be there. you know its for the best. its a journey that i need to face alone :(
I don't give a shit about receiving Christmas gifts this year, I just want a job.
it makes me really sad that I'm never going to fuck the lesbian at work who's 16 years younger than me
Wait, so why am I posting on 4chan again? I have exactly 0 reasons to be here.
11PM. Sitting in my car on a country road. Took xanax to help my anxiety. Just got done puking my guts out.
Been waiting on a text from this girl I've been infatuated with. Left my family Christmas because she's leaving the state in the morning and wants to see me before she leaves. Yet not getting any response for over an hour now.
I feel that I'm getting stood up a second night in a row.
She wants to fuck, and I want to too, but I'm so god damn nervous and not feeling sex right now that I'd rather just kiss and cuddle.
Haven't had sex since late June anyway so I'd probably bust a but in .2 seconds if I can even get it up in this anxious state I'm in.
Merry Christmas /adv/ and 4chan. At least you're always there for me
>pic unrelated
>>16600663
YES
YES
>>16600836
same but only the hot ones
>>16600585
>>16600592
Also not happy
And as time passes I feel like there is nothing that could make me so
And or It is impossible to achieve the things I feel would make me happy
I think I'm having an existential crisis but I'm only ,20
I really am unlovable, aren't I?
>>16601447
Don't worry about it man. My dad's gf is a booze hound to. I ended up having to drive his SUV back 2and a half hours back home while he drove hers. It's just women man. Merry Christmas.
>>16601851
I'm a girl but thanks lol, Merry Christmas
>>16601778
Yep, she stood me up again
I ate an entire bucket of chocolate coated pretzels.
May the /fit/ god forgive me.
>>16600585
Z,
I'm not sure if you know this or not, but I like you. Like like you. You are one of the few reasons I want to improve in life, have a reason to exist.
I know we'll likely never get together, but it's a sweet thought.
I'm sorry I'm a complete coward and tool, being unable to ask you out.
Well, merry Christmas, Z. You always had the funniest looking and cutest socks.
Love, R.
To /adv/,
Y'all have a merry Christmas! I just got a new bass guitar :D :D :D
Love, R.
>>16600655
It fucking kills not being the one for her, but knowing she's going to be happy in the end feels good, man.
She loved you too, and she's never going to forget you.
>>16601596
Well, I don't know why I expected you to say something about the fact that it would have been our anniversary today.
Hope you have a good Christmas, M.
>>16600592
I COMMAND YOU TO BE HAPPY.
WITH CLICHE LATE 80s MUSIC
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d-diB65scQU
I want to kill myself still
I've realized that masturbation has corrupted my very soul since I discovered the self harming practice. I've been totally addicted since I was 11, now I'm going to finally stop.
>>16600585
i like guys.
>>16602004
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CS9OO0S5w2k
>>16601991
I feel you bro... I feel you. I'm stopping as well. Let's do it together for the new year.
I would love to seek revenge on those who've wronged me and made me the monster that I am. They ruined me, gave me every personality and mental disorder you can imagine. Everything made me suffer, my environment psychologically shaped me into a terrible person. I'm 15 years od age and possess a genius level IQ, sociopath and psychotic.
I am a ruined human, I need to be in a mental institution.
I fucking hate being gay, I hate the expectation that people have for me to be feminine. I hate hanging out with girls because of how they treat me for being gay. All I want is a boyfriend to do "straight guy" stuff with. None of that feminine shit.
I really wanna rape my cousin. My adorable little sweetheart.
>>16600585
Why do you have to do this shit, I just want a nice holiday where you don't treat me like shit for making you participate. Telling me you want beer as some kind of payment for getting dragged along ruined my slightly okay Christmas eve. Thanks for hurting my feelings, I ask for so little and always try to cater to whatever you want but God forgive my soul for just wanting you to pretend like you want to be some where for a few hours.
When you talk so aggressively and sarcastically like that it's intimidating and makes me feel like you're totally closed off to hearing the opposite side. So idk I was frustrated.like you say that I could have expressed my point of view but it didn't feel like I could at all because you were already making fun of my point of view. So that's why I started with the meme thing because it was something I could address without you making fun of my political beliefs. And then when I tried to offer my own interpretation of the link you sent me you called me dumb just like I was sure you would and like you didn't even explain why I was wrong you just kept calling me stupid and confused and delusional. So idk its annoying that you're blaming this all on me drinking when it didn't have anything to do with the little bit of wine I drank and it had everything to do with how we talk to each other about our beliefs. I wish you would be more tolerating of my viewpoint and I know you feel like I'm not tolerant of yours either and I promise to work on that; I try to think about it from your perspective all the time and I di agree with you about some things. But it would be a lot easier if when you talked about it with me your main topic wasn't how stupid liberals or something like that at least. Because rn when we talk about it I don't feel comfortable offering my viewpoint.
>>16600770
Initials?
Girls, stop telling us to "just be confident".
It's bullshit and you know it as well as we do.
He told me he didn't have any plans today and that he wanted me to go over and stay the night. And I probably would've been able to.
But apparently he does have plans, and now it's too late.
This could've been our first actual Christmas together, and I'm really sad that it wasn't.
I want to start our own cute little family traditions, I want to be a part of his family. I want to feel like I actually have a future too, with him.
I want us to be a family.
I'm just sad that it's been 2 years and we still haven't had a proper Christmas together.
Maybe one day. Hopefully.
I don't know what to say
I am really, really stupid
GOD WHY AM I SO FUCKING BORING
I JUST WANT FRIENDS
>>16600585
i hope you all have the worst fucking week of your life, for the rest of this week and the next one
Fuck you for making me feel like there was something special between us.
I just realized that even if I'm going to get all these nice Christmas gifts, it doesn't mean anything if I don't have you.
Fuck
Does anyone here feel that some replies on this thread are directed to them, or is it just me being delusional?
Mom, Dad, Every-nyan: the reason I don't work hard isn't because I can't or because I'm stupid or think I'm perfect.
It's simply because I really despise some of you and see no point to building myself up. I know if I became successful it would make you guys really proud and might even make you believe that you did something right, and that annoys the heck out of me.
I'd rather you get dementia from the regret sorrow and blind anger from your son forsaking you.
I'm going to see my cousins tomorrow!
Their Christmas presents have been all wrapped up and are ready for opening.
I hope that they will like them. Just being able to see those girls again is enough of a Christmas present for me.
>>16602245
You're an edgy child, you're not a sociopath, or psychotic. You haven't even experienced the world yet, you know nothing. Stop pretending to be something you're not to acquire attention.
My little cousins are going to come over again and I'm not really looking forward to it. Especially when they try to play hide and seek in my room while I'm trying to work on a song. Why do all good ideas only come when we get visitors anyway?
I'm not ready for their screaming and crying when they yell that they aren't satisfied with their presents like every fucking year or when they break them "accidentally". And then there's their dad,who is actually a cool guy if he wouldn't spoil his kids so fucking much. I mean,giving an 6 year-old your iPad and expecting her to NOT break it the second you give it to her? Come on. And the mood is gonna be down as well,since that guy fired my mom from her one and only job and made her spiral into depression again.
Next year I hope I can enjoy christmas alone all by myself.
>>16600585
I've recently learned a lot more about circumcision. I'm fucking devastated that I'm missing my mist sensitive sexual body part, and that it was torn away from me without painkillers in front of my entire Jewish family when I was 8 days old. I have nothing, my body is not whole, and I'm mourning the death of my identity, Judaism that I can no longer accept. This feels like a knife through my chest. I no longer trust my parents.
I can not take the world seriously anymore
My inability to believe that he really means it when he says he loves me is what is ultimately going to destroy this relationship, just like every other one.
But like always, I will be the one to end it not because I want things to end, but because it is my cowardly way to avoid getting hurt.
>>16602840
If you keep ending relationships, maybe you're just not ready for love yourself? The feeling will be mutual when you find what you're looking for and words will not be needed for either party.
>>16600585
Why is my happiness your misery?
Wait no that's narcissistic of me to say. And no I'm not going to make excuses this is a narcissistic letter from a narcissist. But let's put aside the filters for once, I want to make it in this fake image obsessed world too. I see my bullshit in others. I'd rather admit that I'm full of shit, I hang around with people they know they're full of shit but don't get it wrong they know their shit.
If I were to understand you; it's probably not like that. You have your own problems that you're dealing with too. Maybe you want someone to listen and to care for you. Maybe you want to live up to being a "mature" individual. Maybe you want to define yourself as a winner in a zero sum game. Well I do too and I'm sure there's nicer and better people than me at that department. I remember that when people are nice to me. I want to return the favor if I could.
No one will care but I just wanted to say that I've gone through shit too. I was in a situation that's fucked beyond belief. FUCKED. DEATH. SHAME. GUILT. No one would want to be there and if you were me you would have probably KILLED yourself. But I had to put everything in perspective and work things out eventually. It was a life worth living and I'm happy to realize that even at such a point. I was a fuckup and I was miserable. I wanted to die but I couldnt. I literally died and still found a way to force myself to breathe. True story smell my farts its heavenly.
You have no idea what's it like to walk in other people's shoes. So don't think you know me. I never assumed I knew you neither.
I can't die yet when I made a pact with the devil. I might be evil but I'm a good type of evil to have on your side. The nicest devil you'll ever meet. I know too much. Have a good day kill me another day.
Happy holidays and take care.
This letter is shit I'll go kill myself for even writing it.
>>16601497
That she posted that for me.
Just realised I'm a piece of shit who's incapable of being kind. No wonder I'm alone
I'm torn between this teeny little shimmer of hope, and self-preservation. I'm sad that I fucked up again. I tried, it wasn't enough. I don't feel like trying again, but I'll have to.
But I'm also kind of okay with it all. I did better than before, that's something. Maybe next time.
>>16603018
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BNourT31fNo
I fucking hate this time of the year
I can't stand anything related to it
Why does longing for someone feel better than actually having someone???? I think I'm just broken. The painful, exciting limerence of fantasy has ruined reality. I've never been in a relationship before, but what this guy and I have is something close. Why don't I feel much? He's great and we are seemingly almost perfect for each other so I think it's just me. It's an online thing, too. What would it take to make me feel alive? Nothing? Something that's really nothing? Someone who is a cold, domineering asshole? Maybe I'm scared of closeness and / or scared to lose fantasy, which has invigorated me for so long now. It was what kept me going.
Woe is me. I'm pathetic garbage. I don't deserve love.
If I don't start being more social with girls I'll eventually become a shut-in. Thankfully I've been getting out more, talking to some qt3.14s on dating apps too.
I miss you.
I'm sorry I couldn't have given you the relationship you deserved. I'm sorry I didn't have my issues under control. I'm sorry I broke up with you that one time, then like 5 more times. I was impulsive, irrational, annoyed, immature.
I felt something with you. There was a sense of meaning. I wish I better understood that when you were mine. My heart feels so broken, so cold, so empty. So empty. I was in love with you, and I regret not loving you more. You were my sunshine, my only sunshine, and I was happy even when I was grey. You were mine, my girl, my life. I can't even look at you without feeling pain. Your name strikes a foul chord in my soul and makes me feel like I'm in a cave, a dark, dimly lit cave. It makes me feel tight, sore, it reminds me how hollow I am, and why I'm this cold.
I wish I could've given you the real me. The me that misses you. The me that wanted to make you feel so wanted, so cherished, so important. So special. I wish I didn't neglect you. I wish I drank less when we dated. I wish we spoke more honestly. I wish I could hold you again like I used to, and kiss the back of your neck while you dream.
I hate that you cheated on me and lied about it. I hate that you tried to hide it.
I hate that you felt bad and tried to fix it.
I sometimes hate myself for not accepting your apology.
God, I loved you so much.
i just want the feelings for him to go away
it's a bad weed that keeps showing up and i'm too old to keep feeling like i'm back in highschool again
>>16603072
Are you in love with a girl you can't be with, too?
>>16600585
I am never going to get out of depression, even though I am well aware of my extreme high potential,
No one understands me and they never will because they've mot been in my situation and aren't me either.
I should kill myself and stop wasting space but I still don't because I don't think it will make anything better.
>>16602861
quality bait as usual
>>16600785
Exact same situation bro amd that's same what I plan to do.
Repeat "I love you" over a thousand times and that's the way I feel like now.
>>16603087
I was reminded of people who weren't good people neither and wrote from their perspective as well as some of mine's.
I also wrote it while taking a shit. Felt good.
>>16603081
yeah man, it brings me to tears sometimes
but i gotta steel myself through it, that's the hand that was dealt!
>>16603085
Just feel like saying, I've felt like that statement my whole life. I came out of my depression recently, and I've never felt better. It comes from within, you have to cross that uncanny valley yourself. No other human could ever take you across it.
>>16603108
I know that feel, bro.
I fell in love with a professor, but no fucking way I'm gonna to out my feelings to her.
>>16602861
Initials please?
>>16603127
Not intented for anyone sorry. It's sad when people look into these threads and think its for them.
It's not, it's a bunch of people venting. Always better to just talk to the person. If they don't answer back no issue move on. Life goes on.
How many times do I have to say I'm miserable before it sinks in? I'm tired of you telling me how I feel. You have no idea how the fuck I feel.
I never felt loved by my pairents and because of it every day i get burning sensations in my chest and feel very sad, often cry, i have a grate life exept for that. I want a bf and i know im capable of finding one but its so hard to find a sereous gay man to be in a relationship with. All i need to feel complete is love, and i never got it. All i got was fizical abuse and pain from mother. She always wanted me to be like the other boys, its so painfull when someone will only love you if you fake being someone your not. I could not fake it. I just want to be loved, im not asking for more.
I tried hitting on my gay cousin too. We're in the same MLM. He accepted my advances. I dont know how to feel about this.
>>16603254
>>16603285
>>16603297
Not only that but I'm autistic as fuark. The MLM has turned me into a sociopath and a psychopath. I hate myself for being judged for being gay. The only people that love me is my gay cousin that secretly gives me bj's in my car.
Love you cousin.
>>16603297
Go for it, what is there to lose if it goes wrong?
I am so fucking lonely. Recently one girl gave me pretty tight hug and I want another one, she addicted me to hugs. I want someone to hug dammit.
I'm breaking up with my gf of over a year tomorrow. I found someone better and she just put me through too much fucked up shit, and it'll always be a part of her. I don't want the dark shadow of her past looming over anymore. I want a better, happier life. No matter how far you are up the wrong road, turn back.
However, my timing is fucking terrible. I owe her an apology for that.
I'm selfish as fuck, i don't care about anyone.
I'm a pure sociopath.
I don't like myself and that's why i shouldn't expect a girl to like me.
I don't deserve friends and that's why i'm lonely.
I'm an awful human being in general.
My life is worthless and i'm being delusional about my future, suicide is the best solution for me, but i don't even have the balls to commit suicide.
>>16603343
Lets hope she will not comit suicide
I fail at computers I thought I could be good but I can't even fucking install a distro I've succesfully installed twice before. Fuck me.
>>16602820
They use local anesthetic usually...
Damn, girl, you look incredibly happy! I never thought I would be glad to see you that way.
I really hope we are able to talk again someday. Meanwhile, don't break his heart. Merry Christmas.
>>16600585
I'm 26. I've never had a girlfriend, never had sex, never even kissed anyone. Not even once, during my pathetic existence, has a girl interacted with me with romantic intent. My future isn't any brighter either, just recently quit my job because I was so depressed I couldn't even work right. Now I'm stuck at home being a NEET which is even worse. So tried to play some videogames to get my mind off things, but I couldn't even play for 5 minutes. Nothing brings me joy anymore, It's all dull. I feel numb.
I didn't want to do this, but if I ever make it to 30's in this current situation I'm killing myself.
sorry mom.
Yesterday, I found out that my sister has lymphoma. I really don't know what to think of it, what I should be doing.. I just feel kind of dead inside.
>>16603305
>>16603348
kill yourselves mlm faggots
I'm emotionally drained. I don't find things that I usually like enjoyable. I can't muster the energy to do anything of value. I feel uncomfortable with my current situation in life. I want to isolate myself from everyone I know, to heal, to regain just some part of my inner energy. Every conversation is draining. I get nightmares. I started getting panic attacks. I'm nauseous too frequently. And most importantly, I'm scared. My thoughts are scattered.
To sum up, I feel like shit. But I've told no-one.
I almost didn't get out of bed this morning.
I was so miserable last night, spending Christmas alone, assuming no one loved me.
And then she texted me to wish me a Merry Christmas. And I realized someone does love me.
I got out of bed, and I sent Christmas wishes to half the people in my contact lists.
>>16603460
Lucky you
Wikipedia does not understand me, so I left.
She left me. Then lied about when she was moving. And bailed on hanging out twice.
Now she's apologizing for lying and bailing. Not sure if I should completely write her off, or tell her that she's a shite and then write her off.
I still love her. It's not even love. Just strong infatuation. But still. The feelings be strong with this one.
>>16600585
Laughing at this insecurity, well wishing is now interpreted as negativity. That autistic paranoid mind that you have is screwing you over. No one needs you as much as you think. If you invest time bettering yourself instead on being a crab then maybe by next year you would have shut your insecure mouth up. Politeness and forgiveness isn't weakness.
Not being able to forgive and to be positive is.
You are weak, good riddance. Change for the better and dont worry about me. Worry about yourself lol.
I'm tired of being alone on Christmas.
Years of being alone have worn me down.
I know it sounds melodramatic. I know it sounds like I'm so fucking sorry for myself... And it is, I am.
I only want to go back to the old times. Before you died, before we had torn ourselves apart.
I hate the holidays. But I think it's good for others to have this time. Good luck, everyone.
But my life is miserable and my national past time is shit talking. I'm a psycho and a sociopath in a scam. I'm sorry...
>>16603513
It's never too late to unbrainwash yourself from a trap.
>>16603518
I can't my relatives will disown me. You just don't understand it's my only way out. Say what you will about me being a sociopath or a psychopath but I have to be that to protect my survival. This is my only path to being rich don't you get it? Talking shit is all I have to cope with my limited and frankly stoned life. Sorry for being a bitch but it's my only coping mechanism. I'll get better.
>>16603525
Forgot to say I'm not even mid twenties yet and this mlm has replaced my social life. I'm in a cult... fuck. That's why I attack people and tell others to kill themselves. I think I'm saying that to myself. I hate myself. I'll continue though maybe something or someone will just fall on my lap without me working for it.
>>16603512
Sorry to hear you're alone anon. Hopefully things turn around for you. Being alone on Christmas is rough.
>>16603518
Made me realize MLMs are cults. I don't mind being in one right now though. Beats being alone.
This is the second Christmas, in a row, that has been pretty shit.
I'm not asking for anything next year. I don't want it to be shit again. I would rather sleep for the day than have it completely ruined for the third year in a row.
Merry Christmas.
>>16603552
MLMs ruined all my relationships sometimes I play blame games but shit holidays are shit because of this too.
I just can't get this off my chest, because I'm 40.
I went to see ep 7. Wasn't really expecting much from a movie marketed to 12 yo kids really, and some years prior I had browsed some sorry schmuck dedicating the equivalent of some 200 pages to his rant to how much "prequel trilogy" ruined SW to him. Wanking to movies for kids just because you didn't like them. Wow.
So, I went to see it... and I can't say it was a bad movie... but I can't shake the feeling that 1) it was a TOTAL wankfest written by some fanfic writer and 2) it was kind of a "this is how SW movies are done" statement.
I remember 3 videogames in the Dark Forces/Jedi Knight saga - DF2:JK, JK:JO, & JK2:JA. They had exactly THIS element: wankfest plagued with "quotes" to the original trilogy. But two elements were the ones that made me pinpoint the exact problem:
Billy Dee Williams' VOICE calling "wretched hive of scum and villainy" to the place they had his character incarcerated, and "Luke Skywalker" telling your PC their enemy managed to steal the Force from "the cave in Dagobah".
I'm 40. I don't even watch SW movies between YEARS. I kinda play vidya and watch the new SW material, I couldn't care any less if Disney bought Lucas. But it bothers me to no end what they did to EP7 and how people have it in high regard - both the casual movigoer, the random chump jumping into the SW wagon and the die-hard wanker faping to their SW plastic figurines in his mom's basement.
I can't say it's "RUINED" because quite frankly, I couldn't give one single flying shit. But I didn't like it because it's an open invitation to a circle-jerk.
*sigh* Anyways, it's off of my chest now. Merry Christmas, /b/astards.
/rant
I am so glad this bullshit holiday is over with. I hate Christmas and hate the fact the people around me celebrate it so eagerly. Cringing.
>>16603135
Well aren't we lofty as fuck?
It's SAD because EVERYONE thinks these are for them, asshole. It's even SADDER when someone composes a two paragraph essay and posts it here and then acts like everyone else here is sad.
Fuck you. You deserve your unhappiness because you're a bitch.
My sister has completely abandoned my own family in favor of her best friend's family. It's clear she doesn't love us anymore (if she ever did).
Christmas is a pretty sombering reminder of how little she cares. She spent hundreds of my parents dollars to buy gifts. We had packages arriving for my sister almost daily for weeks, but come Christmas morning, there are three small packages from my sister, one for each of us. I got a calendar. My dad got some cheap bottle opener, and something equally as disappointing for my mother although I forgot what it was.
On the other hand, her friend's little sister got a $100 gift card, the other little sister got at least two sets of shot glasses. Her friend is getting figurines, clothing, movies, games and all sorts of other shit, even her friend's parents are getting nice gifts (yes, that's plural).
And of course my sister bolted out of the door to be with them as soon as she could. It does kind of hurt to see that she doesn't even pretend to care about us anymore.
Though I love her, my gf's tits are too small. I want huge and soft heavy tits, for fucks sake. Is it too much to ask?
>>16603589
Just because someone is venting doesn't mean they are unhappy anon. Also that one is baitman.
>>16603599
Yeah, how dare she wrong you like that. You poor baby
1 second ago ended phone call with crush. One hour ago she sent me a text telling me to call her. Proceed to call her, find out the message was for someone else. Heard her giggling with her best gf about this. Fuck.
>>16603571
I saw it today too and it was easily the most disappointed I've ever been from a movie. People saying it was good got my hopes up, but that was a mistake because the letdown has been terrible. It was all just so bland and repetitive. Oh look, we got another bigger death star. Oh look, we have evil stormtroopers looking for holographic schematics (except now they're multicultural instead of clones because it's 2015 and we needed more minorities). Oh look, we have some dude in a scary black mask except he's an edgy teenager who has no depth or substance to his character and he gets beat by a girl and a janitor at lightsaber combat when neither of them had ever used a lightsaber before in their life. Oh look, we got some evil emperor dude with a scary scar to replace palpatine.
It was like they just did a
>>16603599
Not watching porn helps a lot with that. My gf gets me rock hard just by looking at me m80
i want to text you but i dont know if that is going to change something while were in that no contact phase
>barely get anything for Christmas as usual
>stopped asking for anything since parents always forgot about me even as a child and spoiled my sisters
>siblings get all kinds of expensive shit this year
>get a few clothes that are really nice
>...they don't fit
>thank parents, approach mom later to ask for receipt so I can swap them out for fitting ones
>acts extremely offended as if I don't like the clothes
>"No mom, they just don't fit."
>family acts like I'm an ungrateful piece of shit
>mom makes a scene when she goes to her room for the receipts
>dad yells at me about unrelated shit from years ago while we eat
I just stood up from the table, grabbed my stuff from the guest room and left. Cried in my car. Two hours before I get home. Sitting in a diner right now just browsing this site.
I'm not going back next year.
>>16603383
Some forms of lymphoma are treatable with a relatively high success rate. Don't lose hope yet. That being said it's going to be a battle for her to get through. Try to stay strong for her.
I don't understand how or why people can be really awful to me (either constantly, or just one big blow-out) and then suddenly, because they decide to be kind once I'm supposed to forget that they act awful to me and be nice to them? Then when I'm not super nice to them in return, I turn into the jerk for not thinking they're amazing for being so nice to me?
Just overheard someone saying how they thought that I hated them. I had to step in and tell them that they were really rude to me all the time so I just stopped talking to them. ... But I'm the rude one.
Then someone just gives me a gift out of nowhere. I appreciate the gift but you act like an unbearable asshole the other 364 days of the year so I don't understand it.
All of this is motivation to change things in 2016. I can't do this for much longer.
>>16603608
Why does it hurts more than it should...
>>16601597
I feel you. I was so in love with my exbut he treated me like a toy. He always cheated on me. After two years i dumped him, but now, two years later, i still cant think about anybody else. I feel like a rock
>>16603624
Your parents are unreasonable and unrealistic. There is a difference between being ungrateful ("my mom got me the white iphone and i wanted the silver one!") and what you did.
This is why I hate people buying me clothing for gifts. If there is any chance of you talking civilly to them, maybe try asking them to get you other non-clothing items for Christmas, or if they insist on clothing suggest pajamas, shopping online, or gift cards.
If I buy people gifts I always tell them if they aren't happy with it please go return it and get something they like and will use. So many people keep gifts sitting around out of guilt that they don't use and it's so stupid. I feel worse about buying a gift that they dislike/can't use than them returning it for something they could use.
I know you're all like "Let it go" and "move on I don't give a shit about you" but -- you took my anal virginity. I was going to with someone else but i didn't. I wish it had been good.
You've got me wrapped around your finger
>>16603622
Just fucking do it.
>>16603383
Did it start from melanoma or is it Hodgkins? What's her prognosis?
I hope she beats it and that you do well.
Honestly, this piques my interest because I have an atypical mole that's started to scab but I'm nervous to get it checked out because it's on a private area. I don't want it to end up being skin cancer and then turn into lymphoma.
I'm angry at everything. I'm angry at love. There is barely any in my life. What I feel is contempt for my parents. I can't believe anyone who would love someone would say horrible things and do horrible things, like abuse both verbally and physically.
All my past relationships have been a simple "do anything that won't result in conflict or arguments." As in, if I feel like I am wrong I accept it and move on, or if there are disagreements I say that I might be wrong and move on. Any mistake I make I apologize. After having been dumped by my ex and hearing some of the reasons why it wouldn't work between us, why she doesn't feel mentally attracted to me, or emotionally connected, or why she couldn't love me after the 8 months we've been together, it makes me want to give up on love and connections. I don't even have friends, just a number of people I know.
I am angry at how my life is going. I feel so alone and I feel like I cannot trust anyone. I feel like I cannot love anyone. I always put myself in a vulnerable state. I always let other people be in control and it has never helped me. I feel like being independent on my own would just make me a bitter and miserable person incapable of forming a connection at all.
I hate everyone because of this. I am tired of not being good enough. I am tired of being disrespected by my mom when I try to clean and organise the house, and I am tired of being wrong all the time. My mom may pay the bills but I live here too and I have a right to live in a clean home. I am tired of doing nothing but disagreeing with people which by default makes people dislike me.
I'd kill myself if I could, but I can't bring myself too. I'm too much of a pussy to self inflict pain or injury. A part of me wants to die and end it, but another part of me doesn't.
The pain I feel from doubting any potential connection is too hard to deal with. I can't handle being in another relationship wondering when it will end, and wondering why it would end.
I need a boyfriend. I need at least a man to talk to me, to make me laugh and to take me out. II need to fuck. I need to kiss someone passionately. I want to show who I am, and to stop being afraid about what will people say. I want people to stop being so idiot. They defend any kind of person, but they can't accept people with different interests. I want to feel better about who I am. I need a hug and a kiss, a nice word and peace. I wish my momma and my cat lived forever.
I'm a literal crab in a bucket and it's no surpised I got cut off by my friend. I choose scams over kindness anyday. I'll keep arguing here back and forth and shitposting as a literal faggot. I'm an autistic idiot in denial. I take offense at anything and take everything personally.
I don't think it affects anyone but me so I better stop and think before I insert myself in another poor saps life with my scams.
I won't argue anymore sorry for thr fag posts my cousin here already is my bf.
i joined a mlm, i turned gay, sad, angry and i cant get out. kill me
>>16603750
just lax, everything is gonna be alright, i'm sure
>>16603731
Then get one
Don't expect that the guy will be perfect though, every person has their own set of issues to deal with.
>>16600585
Fuck that bitch
>>16603760
i went to lax and never felt gayer in my life. mlm ruined me kill me this is a nightmare.
>>16603062
Initials?
I thought my parents would finally let me try to live life but then there's that GO OUT AND DO SOMETHING talk again. It's bad when they do that when they are drunk,but worse is when my sister chips in and they just keep talking me down and shit which makes me less want to do something because you're fucking repeating yourself. It hasn't even been one week since that last fucking talk and I kinda got plans at least but FUCKING HELL SHUT UP AND LET ME DO THINGS MY PACE
>>16603750
Worried about this too just joined recently.
>>16601530
LOL who's Mari
I wrote her off for the 10th time today
I practiced all the things I would say
She came over, I lost my nerve
I took her back and made her dessert
I'm alone, chugging vodka in my underwear. This isn't the Christmas I envisioned but it'll do. Happy holidays everyone.
I hoped those flowers were from you but they weren't. Sigh. I wish you were more like him.
I don't mind not trying, I've tried enough so I'll just wait I guess
>>16603922
Ik heet Does. Ik ben je vader!
>>16603916
I'm hanging out with my roommate, blowing bags, playing videogames, and watching movies...
Not exactly how I wanted to spend this Christmas, and the relapse wasn't planned, but I finally realized she is not coming back.
I just want this day to end.
I feel like the fucking black sheep. People I typically hang out with avoid me. I'll say "hey, you guys want to play something?" or "hey, if you guys want to do something, let me know" to which they'll respond "yeah, sure."
Anymore they'll just play games in their groups or do whatever with other people, even play the same shit they know I have. I don't know why I feel so fucking alienated. I've already got a lot of other problems and this, the one thing I thought could make me feel better, is just making me feel x10. I'm truly alone. Maybe I should just get it over with...
>>16604054
And you wonder why she left you.
>>16603599
She's probably thinking the same thing about your dick.
>>16603643
Are you me?
How do I stay in contact with people I met in college over the break?
I'm afraid they'll all forget me by the time the next semester rolls around...
>>16603750
Wtf is mlm
>>16603897
Now I know I'm being used
That's okay, man, 'cause I like the abuse
I know she's playing with me
That's okay 'cause I got no self esteem
You have great taste, anon.
>>16604074
She passed away, actually, and we used to use together, in moderation, for fun. I just ended up hooked after that all went down.
It just kind of hit me this morning, when I woke up alone, and she wasn't baking up a storm. Christmas was an excuse for her to bake all day...
Thanks though. I needed to feel even worse.
>>16600585
Fuck, i miss her...
I miss you, more so, even if we never really celebrated the holidays; it did, however, remind me that you were nearly born on Christmas, and what your parents would have named you.
Merry Christmas, my heart. I wish I could have spent it with you.
it
>>16604264
OH HO WE GOT A FUCKING COMEDIAN HERE FOLKS!
Thanks for the sensiblechuckle.jpg.
>>16604099
Thank ya. Its also a relatable song for me
Tomorrow's my birthday. I'm not even excited. I'm not even that old, but celebrating feels hollow. And it's my golden birthday. I shoulda done something cool, but I'll just be getting so drunk I forget where I am.
You got a clean slate for that mucky reputation you built for yourself. That is my Christmas gift for you. I will shoulder it, now go be happy and find someone right for you.
For the first and last time I will truly say that I love you. Now find your prince
Something about this Ukrainian woman on soundcloud singing is making blood rush to my dick
I'm getting really aroused and love it
It seems like I constantly feel self consious or embarrassed and I dont know why.
I wonder how many women deliberately looked up the Fappening pictures.
>>16604362
Thank you
>>16604054
>>16604159
bro im so sorry and fuck that anon making assumptions
*bro fist into awkward hug and no homo ass grab*
>>16604350
Same here, except with my bf.
I'm sorry you're in a shitty situation anon.
I really miss her, but there's nothing I can do.
I was really having a good time until it ended.
>>16600585
I want to ask a girl on a date, but I haven't seen her since middle school. I don't think a random message off facebook is the right way to do things
>>16604512
I want to ask a guy out I've been gaming and sexting for over a year now. He's still sorta around after all the bullshit I pulled off. I'm not sure to feel disgusted or aroused. Wat do?
I am just so fucking sick of falling for women who do nothing but toy with me or torment me or use me.
All I want is a companion. A best friend. Someone I can love who will love me back. Instead I just find women who treat me like shit and ditch me when they're done with me.
When the hell am I going to find someone who appreciates me.
>>16604542
probably ask him out, you have contact with him already
>>16604549
I keep hinting at him to do so. When he did, I ignored him again. I don't know why.
>>16604565
If you ignored it then it doesn't sound like you really want it. Do you?
>>16604567
I do. That's why I don't understand. Maybe I'm afraid he'll reject me or something. I'm really insecure, but I hide it well.
>>16600585
Ive been in a 2 years relationship with someone who was almost as a shit akward person like me
it turns out that he was a social person, wasnt a virgin and loves to party
now I feel like fucking shit and uncomfortable as fuck, I dont even know what to think now
>>16604572
I don't think he'd reject you, go for it.
I'm just really lonely because there aren't a lot of people that really know me. I am pretty fearful about having deep relationships with anyone, platonic, romantic, familiar, etc.
...It's easier for me to be completely honest with internet strangers for some reason.
>>16604588
Ok, I'm going to. I hope to talk to him soon. He's nice and has such a big strong body. I can't wait to put my claws in his back.
>>16604481
Hey I'm sorry about yours too. I hope things get better <3
I had a nice dream, or perhaps premonition/warning, depending on outlook, really;
>In jail, some kid (not really a kid, but dumber and less experienced than me, younger a bit too) is cellmate. Probably in there for being a confidence man or con artist, in this dream.
>Keeps hassling me about my plans to escape, while I sit there thinkin' about how to convince the guards to let me out.
>Suddenly kid starts telling me I've got a chance to get out, he's gettin' another prisoner sent to our cell that can help us.
>Tells me I've only got one shot, and I need to be smooth about it.
>prisoner turns up. It's a woman.
>Long story short, she deliberately got sent down in order to break something out of prison, she needed help.
>Manage to charm her (completely opposite to real life man =/)
>We break out and drop her items at a drop house.
>We're about to go our seperate ways when we start to kiss.
>Wake up.
It was nice but... I really liked the jail cell. It was comfy, and safer than the outside world. But I really like the girl.
Thing is, I'm thinkin' about my life.
I only leave my place to go to work - other than that, I'm a shut-in.
>It's almost like, I'm in jail.
When I'm out of this "jail", I hide my powerlevel. I spend my entire time outside, acting. Just to gain peoples trust, so that they don't alienate me. And I've benefited from this before... Almost like
>I'm a con artist.
And in this jail-life of mine, I get people hassling me about what I'm gonna do with my life, that I should get out more or meet a girl.
>Like the kid, hassling me about my plans to escape my prison, telling me I have to meet this girl.
Would the right girl set me free from my prison, get me away from the hassling kid? Would she cause me more danger? would we part ways?
Then again, maybe it's just a dream, a bizarre dream that could by stretched to vaguely resemble my life, or foreshadow some potential future I'll never even know could possibly have been.
It was a nice dream though.
I'm an MLM conman...
>>16600585
Stupid people hide and groups and assume the worse in others. They think they're smart because of their false sense of superiority. They end up dragging each other down in the end.
Smart people can work alone still and bring the best out of others. They think they're smart because they can prove it to themselves. When they work in groups they create something great.
One thing is for sure:
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind."
You're nothing but a prick at this point but I let it go and be nice. I'm waiting for that moment to knock you out in person.
>>16600655
They're all whores
>>16600705
Give her the ole irish abortion
>>16601139
Younger guy here. you are having the same thoughts I've been having. Good to know I'm not alone on this train.
I might be retarded with all my shitposting but
>>16604740 is right
There are days where I'm happy with you, but there are more days that I question us being together.
T.C
I love you. It's too bad you're 1000+ Miles away.
E.S
