Throughout my whole life I was a straight male. Just perfectly normal. I've had a few girlfriends, some of them were virgins, so I have just enough experience. Right now I am 25 years old. If that matters: I have average body, above average looks, above average dick size, and I'm 5'8.
What happened lately is that I got completely disappointed in sex and relationships. I don't want that anymore by no means. I'll give you my reasons.
Sex feels like shit with condom, without it leads to diseases and pregnancy, both of which I do not want. And even without condom I still prefer fap any day any time, because I can do it instantly whenever I want, I control the pace and everything, and in the end all I need is fast release of tension, which I achieve within 1-2 min. Bothering with a woman to do that seems ridiculous to me. And yea, feel of fapping for me is better than even sex without condom, because girl usually goes dry after a while and it just starts feeling not that good.
As for diseases, of course there are serious ones, but they could be more or less avoided. But there are also lesser ones like mycosis, which I was always catching in one form or another back in a day. Nothing serious, it cures itself, but still annoying. As long as I stop sex for a while, it disappears. Same goes for kissing and small diseases that affects mouth.
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Anyways right now I'm not even interested in sex psychologically. I do still get aroused from seeing tits and pussy, or hugging nice girl, but that's just instincts. I only use it to fap on porn, as I need to release a tension once in a while (which is like once a day usually). Yea btw my testosterone levels are normal, but I don't care anyway, even if it were low, I don't want to hunt pussy again, and I don't care what people think about me.
As for relationships, again, I don't really like having friends and hanging out, I'm a loner, and it takes tremendous efforts for me to maintain relationships. I can't feel love, so I have to fake it every time. And why do that? For sex? I realized I don't even need that, so I dropped my last gf, who was in love with me. She's still texting me occasionally, and it's been almost a year. And I don't want kids and family, that is like for sure.
So what I need. The last problem I have is that I still fap on straight porn. I feel like that's a mistake for my set of mind, as I'm following a road towards asexuality. I want to learn to either stop fapping, which I think is very stupid idea, because I've tried it in the past and I only get hornier and get prostate pains. Or I want to learn to fap on something not related to humans and their relationships. Like some objects or something. Is that even possible? And how can I achieve that? I am sure right now I can't get boner for anything other than nice looking woman, or morning wood.
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I think I've made a small mistake, I'm 5'9. But as I've already mentioned, I don't think it matters for the topic.
>>17344211
I have it very similar. I spent around three years in a good relationship, we ended it another three years back peacefully - it was just not working between us in the end. No drama, no cheating.
Since then, I don't have any wish to proceed any romantic interest and I straightly decline any relationship. From my point of view it is utter waste of time and mostly not worthy of time/material/intellectual investment. Sex is nice, damn it can be really great - but there are just better and more fulfilling things for me.
I am now entering fourth year without any regrets, issues or moodchangers.
I usually keep changing between "inactive" months when I do some fapping from time to time and between "active" months, when I visit few times escorts. Why am I mentioning it - I never sleep with them, I'm just going for a massage and slow teasing handjobs. I lost all drive for a regular sex and I even find it somewhat boring if not disgusting and cheap.
>>17344268
I agree with everything except this
>Sex is nice, damn it can be really great
I'm not interested in it, I just see all the negative aspects. If 10/10 girl approaches me and asks for sex I decline. Never happened of course, bu that's what I would do.
>even find it somewhat boring if not disgusting and cheap
Agree. It's like my instincts still drive me to think about fucking girls, but my mind remembers how pretty bad and, I would say, dangerous it is. So I want to get rid of this stupid instinct.
>>17344297
I think we can now identify that slight difference between us here. You don't like it because you lost interest and see the negative (health) aspects and I don't like because I lost interest and see the pointless social games you have to endure before and - even worse - after the act itself.
Now the real question is what is the cause and if there is a way (and if we need it) to fix it.
>>17344211
op greentext
>be me
>shit childhood because parents neglected or abused me/traumatic incident in childhood
>have PTSD/anxiety issues
>be stressed the fuck out by the littlest social interaction/simple daily life
>No hobbies, no life, no nothing because being stressed uses up too much energy
>Only vidya/porn/fapping/4chan
>fap daily cause daily stress needs to be vented out of my system
>Not using other healthy methods to vent stress, hobbies or other things I enjoy because i don't have any life
>daily fapping and porn fuckes up my libido desensitises my dick and brain
>fuck girls wondering why it feels like shit after abusing my own dick for fucking forever
>guys guys sex is overrated I don't like it that much even
>I'm not interested in sex and girls because I can fap better anyways
>I want to be asexual
The end
>>17344317
The cause is obvious - instinct. But there are gays and people of different sexuality. So I assume it is possible to work on changing it to something else, which will make it better for me. For instance fapping on... I don't know... cars, or whatever, some precious gems. Or maybe do something to reduce the frequency of fapping to like once a month, that would be nice. Maybe become an alcoholic, will it help?
>>17344268
Anon greentext
>be me
>abused/neglected/backstabbed as a kid by own family
>never trust humans ever
>build up fucking huge and thick walls so no one can hurt me ever again
>try being in a relationship anyways
>ensues in shitfest
>guys guys relationships are overrated, I don't like them that much anyways
>rather stay single and go to prostitutes every once in a while then try and have healthy human interaction and relationships
>what is my sexuality
>>17344351
Well, I am not doubting my sexuality itself, Its just comforting - it may sound bad - to see someone with a similar "issue".
But yes, neglected as a child.
>>17344351
fuck me, I'm not OP but this hits way too close to home.
>>17344362
>But yes, neglected as a child.
Sorry to hear anon. I didn't greentext to make fun of you as I have been abused myself back then.
As this is /adv I tried giving the plain chain of correlation of events in your life and you decide how to proceed from there.
As for myself I've picked up therapy, analysed my life and decided to fight for becoming better than before, always.
I decided to make my own family where I'll be doing my best to not repeat the wrongdoings of my own parents. I decided what I wanted to pursue in life and try to achieve my goals one by one.
>>17344351
are you me? other than going to prostitutes. I just fap easier to my own imagination and don't care for anyone anymore. it kind of sucks because I know that isn't healthy but I legit am tired of all the bull shit from everyone I meet, and I've met a lot of people over the years. I have such low tolerance for retards/ignorant/immature people and it seems I'm just destined to be alone.
>>17344406
Same goes for you and op himself. I hope this opens your eyes at least, even if you don't decide to take action and change your lives immediately.
>>17344422
You sound solid, anon. Thanks for that.
>>17344239
Either way you're a manlet.
>>17344465
You're welcome :)
