Reposting from a different 404'd thread. Please help.
I'm in college and have never had a relationship with a girl or any sort of kiss or hookup. I always feel left out when I hear about hookups and the like. Back in middle school, I used to go on Facebook and leave creepy comments on hot girls' posts because I thought it was funny at the time. Every now and then I'd have a moment of clarity and realize how fucked that was and profusely apologize. Then I found /b/ in my freshman year of high school. I saw threads talking about FB faps and creep threads and thought it was normal to have a folder of pictures of girls I knew because everyone on /b/ did it. I never brought it up to my friends because I never brought up fapping material in conversation with my friends. Outside of nudes that we suspected may or may not exist, we didn't talk about anything of the sort. When my old laptop died, the habit seemed to die with it. I devoted my new laptop to not being a creepy fuck when it comes to masturbation. Eventually I started back up again, and continued saving pictures but deleting them later after a post-fap guilt. Things escalated to me posting on anon-ib looking for people who graduated, hoping they took nudes at college. I ended up screenshotting from snapchat (something that had been going on for about three years), but I ended up getting caught and blocked twice from two different girls, of course. One I didn't really give a shit about aside from the initial fear, but the other was a huge wake up call for me. We were good friends, and I feel like I threw it in the trash because of some tits. I haven't tried talking to her yet because I don't know what I would say. My folder has been deleted again and again, but I keep creating a new one. It hasn't progressed to the point of being over 10 GB (a huge majority of which is pornstar videos), but I want to fix this before I make anything worse. (cont.)
>>17311581
I'd never touch anyone without their permission, let me make that clear. (although I remember thinking about a friend's tits when I was drunk as fuck, I'd never go through with anything of the sort.) The main issue I have is that I'm masturbating to my close friends and it feels wrong having violated their trust. I don't mean to stop masturbating altogether, but I just want to stop being weird. I imagine if I told any of my friends, they'd disown me, and with good reason. I'm not a bad person, and there are plenty of worse things I could be doing, but I still feel like I've made a huge mistake.
While I do believe that I would have had this epiphany at some point in my life, it may have only come when it did because I got caught. In a way, I'm glad that I did, because I feel like I really need help. Is there anything I can do to prevent myself from doing this? Or do I just need to not?
>>17311581
It sounds like you need to get laid.
Go buy a hooker will the understanding that all your friends, regardless of their tit size, will never be that good.
Problem solved.
>>17311632
Surely it can't be that simple. Fuck, man. I don't even make efforts to fuck them, I'm just attracted to them and used to find myself jacking it to them. I want to stop that and end this toxic habit.
>>17311632
this. once you get laid you'll realize how stupid it is to worry about a friendship you ruined with a woman or a friendship with a woman that's not on your terms.
>>17311656
I'd be just as upset if I ruined a friendship with any of my male friends. I don't think them being a woman has anything to do with it other than the cause.
>>17311644
It is that simple. You're just fantasizing about getting laid and using your friends to create the image of those acts, as they are likely the only interaction you have with females in any sort of intimate setting.
What you're doing could be a lot worse, but you just need to get laid. Plain and simple.
>>17311684
I hope you're right, anon. It's scary thinking about all of this. I feel like a monster but I know there are far worse people out there.
I guess the next question would be how do I get laid.
>>17311698
Get rid of your spank bank immediately. You will never try to get laid if you have all that material lying around for instant gratification.
Next, go ask a girl out you find attractive, it may lead to sex. At this stage, avoid any dating sites/apps, because you'd likely be prone to just masturbating to their photo and moving on, as you're in a habit of doing just that.
You're in college so there are plenty of potentials waiting for you, find someone remotely attractive and just go for it. Rejection is a bitch and we all deal with it at some point, and it could very well happen. But every time you get rejected, the seed has been planted in that particular person that you'd date them, and in turn they could view you as a potential mate.
>>17311722
I got rid of it about a week ago and have been sticking to whatever I find on /b/ or /gif/, but haven't been saving anything. Deleted and bumped off anything that may have been on anon-ib too.
Are there any rules to asking someone out? I'm not the most attractive guy, but I still get the feeling that a lot of girls think I'm ugly and don't want to associate with me. There's a girl I've been thinking about asking out in my class, but I don't know what to say, or how to avoid awkwardness when she rejects me and I see her after class.
