how was everyones easter? holidays don't feel too important anymore. bored now, so what's up?
come on in and chat if you'd like. just sittin' here listenin to music and eating candy.
>>23553333 just finished binge watching an anime, listening to music now and thinkin about what game to play. i cant decide
>>23553365
what anime? i've been trying to decide whether or not to play something too :/ probably just gonna go back to mass effect 1.
>>23553375
just finished Konosuba, im debating on either playing Stardew Valley, TF2, GW2, or Speed Runners
>>23553389
god i'd love to play TF2 again but with our internet it just isn't possible. can't wait to move and get back into that shit.
>>23553365
I just started playing Stardew Valley, it's pretty comfy
Also I feel you on holidays, I didn't even realize it was Easter Sunday until the day before
>>23553394
its a damn fun game, sorry bout your shitty internet, that sucks.
>>23553397
its a very relaxing game, its better with mods believe it or not.
and I agree about the holidays, they just seem kinda.....meh
>>23553405
>>23553397
yeah seems like you stop being excited for shit when you're not a kid anymore. i remember loving christmas and halloween as a little girl and now...meh.
>>23553412
i remember lugging around apillowcase because the little pumpkin buckets were too small, now, i just go and buy a giant bag of candy and call it good.
TL: DR: adulting sucks
>>23553418
i miss feeling excited about stuff though. maybe i'm just a jaded bitch. it's possible. plus i had to speak to my mother today and that's always disgusting. ugh.
>>23553426
i hope to never speak to mine again.
and i miss the feeling of excitement and joy during the holidays/birthdays. now its just another day to hang out and play games. its the life of a shut-in, and its pretty nice
>>23553436
allthough, i do kinda miss having friends, but i dont miss the drama/bullcrap that comes with it.
I just got off a 12 hour shift at work. I feel dead inside. Pic related.
>>23553442
i gave up on ever having friends in elementary school lol
>>23553447
jesus dude you look exhausted. the fuck do you do for a living? rob banks?
>>23553450
thats not a bad idea, I have friends that play games with me occasionally, but not often enough to count.
>>23553447
every shift of mine is a 12. graveyard shift. you get used to them.
>>23553450
Landscaping in las vegas. It's brutal. Only been on the job for about 6 months now but my soul and social life is gone.
>>23553405
What mods do you recommend? I haven't actually played beyond clearing out part of the weeds and rocks on my farm. Then I realized I wanted to play with a controller so I've been setting that up which is a pain since I'm running it through Wine on OSX, but I finally got that working.
But yeah, when you're on your own there's not too much point to actually celebrating them beyond giving yourself an excuse to buy a bunch of candy.
>>23553412
I mostly appreciate Halloween and Christmas for just the change in atmosphere everywhere with decorations. I think it's nice. For like actual Christmas day it's a pain since I'm visiting family and everyone asks me where I work even though I've had the same job for 2 years and they ask every single time I visit.
>>23553464
i wish to solve that suduko,
>>23553471
there is a few, get the "More Music Mod" one for sure, ummm...there is a fishing mod, an energy/hp regen mod, DONT get the deposit mod, it will crash your game, (found out the hard way, had to restart from scratch) and i got an Anime Portrait Mod to make their pictures better when they talk to you
>>23553464
Landscaping is a dirty job.
heh
>>23553471
idk i guess maybe if i had more family or something it'd be fun but whatever...
god i feel like i have too many videogames to get through. i finally just beat alice madness returns the other day. those chapters are BRUTALLY long!
>>23553500
i was actually looking into getting that game, is it any good?
>>23553426
For me it's mostly depression that kills me being excited and having energy and passion for anything. Like if I'm in a more up period I actually get pretty excited about a lot of just tiny things. But of course that disappears when I'm in a low. Kinda frustrating since I can't commit myself to anything to be able to actually become skilled at it. Pretty much the epitome of jack-of-all trades, master of none.
>>23553505
it's fantastic, it's just very very long. there's only 6 chapters but it feels like it takes 80 years lol there aren't enough platformers anymore in my opinion so i may be biased.
>>23553511
god. all of what you said...i know this whole thing. i have such severe depression though, and i just feel like it's so hard to even care about like a new book i've been waiting for or something. idk.
>>23553519
im gonna buy it then. thanks. and im a HUGE fan of platformers, they are a dieing breed of games.
>>23553511
ditto, depression blows but i feel like you really cant get up to where you were before depression, its hard to be excited about things when you have so much weighing on your mind that you're depressed/paranoid about. its like your problems are a giant shadow looming over your entire life that you just cant get rid of.
i play video games to escape reality. so i dont have to deal with my problems, and i think its the only thing i find worth spending my time on. because they are predicatble, and if you mess up, you can just start over.
>>23553540
yay another platformer fan! i really wish they would make more of the genre, but they're going the way of sega and nintendo :(
yeah i play video games to escape reality too. it makes me feel like at least there's something i can accomplish and do right. helps my self esteem. jesus i sound pathetic.
anyway, here was my easter outfit today. i was channeling my inner lydia deetz.
>>23553585
thats way more of a concious effort than me, my easter outfit consisted of me being shirtless, and red pink and white polka dot fuzzy pajama pants.
and im a guy, i would post my picture, but there are people on /soc/ that i try to avoid them knowing where i am. ill drop a kik if you really wanna see what i look like.
>>23553296
It was okay. I called my dad at least. I'm now watching Dota 2 coaching videos and nursing a terrible candy induced stomach ache. Every day feels productive since I started working out though so I have that at least.
>>23553648
i tried dota 2 and could not figure it out for the life of me
>>23553585
I weirdly don't find games to be too much of a reality escape for me, maybe because the type of games I end up playing I can get a lot of muscle memory down and zone out and think about other stuff while I play. I mostly just use it as a time fill kinda, plus they're just fun to play.
But I do totally get the accomplishment portion of it, I really enjoy games like Diablo also just for that constant progression of accomplishment.
Also gimme a sec and I'll post my easter outfit.
so....my cat just broke a plate, and its the cleanest goddamn break i have ever seen.
picture related, plus my awesome comfy pants
>>23553708
holy shit your cat is a magician.
>>23553679
>Also gimme a sec and I'll post my easter outfit.
my body is ready.
>>23553708
I wouldn't even be mad, that's amazing
Also Easter fit
>>23553737
>>23553585
alrigh tfine, i dont wanna be the only other person in this thread to not post the easter outfit. so ill do so, just gimme a sec and lemme get over my paranoia/ take a picture
goddamn peer pressure anyways
>>23553782
do it or you can't sit with us at lunch anymore.
>>23553802
uuuuughhhh thats the best lunch table in the corner though.....fiiiiiiiiiinneeeeeee
>>23553823
whoa, we have like the exact same hair in texture/fineness
>>23553823
your curtains look like a theatre curtain. i'm jealous.
>>23553834
yours is longer on the sides though
>>23553850
AS YOU SHOULD BE! threatening my seat at the hypothetical lunchtable and everything....
>>23553866
i'm so sorry. i lost my cool. you can have my sandwich at lunch tomorrow. i hope that makes up for it.
>>23553853
which is why I said in texture and how fine it is :p obviously in style pretty different
I actually need to set up an appointment for a haircut tomorrow
>>23553850
it's because he went and ate with the drama nerds instead of us cool kids B)
>>23553877
I'M FINALLY ONE OF THE COOL KIDS. I'M SO HAPPY. LET'S GO GIVE PEOPLE SWIRLIES.
>>23553875
then you wont have a sammich, and i dont like seeing people go hungry, we can trade sammiches,
>>23553885
oh god.....the memories....they come swirling back....
heh
Found out my ex girlfriend and mother have been talking behind my back when both of them knew when shit ended me and ex went our separate ways and didn't ever interact again.
Ex refuses to respond to my messages and Mum doesn't seem to understand why I'm angry at her and told her to have some loyalty to her kids.
Absolutely fucking fuming.
>>23553668
It's pretty hard to learn for most people. Beginners videos help. I'd recommend Purgegamers if you're still interested in learning; he's a youtuber that primarily helps new players understand the game.
>>23553885
I was more thinking smoking behind the school in leather jackets
>>23553905
oh god. what did i do to deserve that pun lol
>>23553929
i'm sorry anon :(
>>23553936
im trying to transition away from league to DOTA 2, hoping its better.
>>23553941
CAN WE GET THESE JACKETS WITH A CLUB NAME ON THE BACK?!
>>23553929
Gross, sorry dude. Don't talk to your mom for a while so she knows you're really bothered by it and tell her how you feel calmly after a good period of time. People won't consider how you feel most of the time unless they think there will be consequences unfortunately.
>>23553947
you threatened my hypothetical lunch seat at the cool kids table in the corner away from people....
dont mess with me, im one who ENJOYS puns!!!
>>23553952
OMFG CAN OUR CLUB BE THE PLATFORMERS???!??
Went to work, got White Castle, spent a few hours making a shitty photoshop, played some Binding of Issac, went to a bar, walked home in the rain, and now I'm on 4chan.
I wish I was content with replaying EarthBound or any other vidya for the rest of my days. If I've truely given up on a future, that's what I'll probably do. But I still have a shard of hope. And that's what's probably going to kill me.
>>23553949
Personally I think the community in Dota 2 is better than Leagues but that might be a bias. I also think solo queuing in either game is always going to be kind of "toxic" and you should learn how to mute people asap. Just keep a good attitude and recognize that people are gonna use online games as portals to vent their pettiness.
>>23553953
I live with my mother unfortunately, I've made it quite clear I'm not fucking happy with her and if I had an option that didn't involve abandoning my pets I would take it. Just fucking disappear for a week without telling any one where I was going.
>>23553952
of course, >>23553960 that suggestion seems like a solid gang/club name
>>23554006
nobody's gonna fuck with us now.
>>23554035
i could just see some old man yelling out of his door,
"DAMN THOSE PLATFORMERS!"
>>23554040
obviously if violence needs to happen our only method of attack is going to be Goomba stomps
>>23553968
I really wish we had White Castle or In-N-Out or any non-National chain here. I should probably just find a good local independent place.
>>23553977
Rough. Then try to communicate with her as little as possible while still being polite. Let her know your grievance is real but do not overdo it. People that act too dramatic appear insecure in their own complaint. If you're patient and consistent enough you'll see results of some kind I guarantee it.
>>23554063
not true at all, i mean, metriod....?
>>23554063
goddamn i could really go for an in-n-out right now. jesus i miss burgers. all we really have around here is a burger king and a sonic. sonic's nice, but, eh...
ah well, at least i have chocolate. yay easter.
>>23554075
no I mean we're going to limit ourselves to that, it will be our calling card
>>23554125
yeah, hardcore craving a burger and fries right now, I need to try Sonic's burgers, I actually haven't before.
Also I just remembered we do have Five Guys here, they're really good, but expensive as hell too
>>23554144
odd. i tried a five guys for the first time in oregon about two years ago and i absolutely hated it...i guess i'm the only person in the world who feels that way lol
>>23554176
nah, I could see how you would, like right now it's totally not the type of burger I'm feeling. I live in Idaho though and since they like using local potatoes the fries there are quality as fuck.
>>23554176
>>23554206
i ordered pizza hut about a half hour ago, now im nomming on some pizzones and cheese bread, feeling fat and disgusted. but its worth it
>>23554227
I really want fruit snacks or gummy worms or something like that but I don't feel like putting on pants and driving somewhere
>>23554236
dude.....
>>23554227
god dammit I want pizza. Real pizza. I'm so fucking tired of frozen pizza. You made a beautiful choice; don't feel fat and disgusted.
>>23554206
Quality Fries and...more! Only in Idaho! I kid, but I am jealous. I wish I had good potatoes right now. Deep fried, salty potatoes. This thread is making me hungry.
>>23554236
i looked for some gummy worms at the dollar store the other day but alas, no regular ones were to be seen. i was disappointed. also i agree, pointing on pants would mean taking off all this chainmail armor and i'm just not going to do that when there's combat to be had.
>>23554252
i would totally go to the store fully clad in chainmail armor. and casually grocery shop
>>23554265
I am Orflek the Butcher, destroyer of luncheon meats!
>>23554252
nom
>>23554269
And i am Balthazar, Slayer of sugary treat! My name brings fright and terror among the candy isles in the land!
>>23554278
forgot picture of mai foodz
>>23554278
you have my sword, and my axe, and my fork.
>>23554283
for valentines day this year, my gf and i went to go see deadpool and then went to pizza hut for wings. we're classy broads.
>>23553296
MFW i only realised it was easter an hour ago.
Probabl says a lot about the dire state of my life atm
>>23554289
for valentines day, my wife and I stayed in and played video games. we are real thrill seekers.
>>23554289
You're not the only don juan ITT m8
i took the gf to see deadpool too
and then mcdonalds for a fish fillet
she said she was happy with the night but the look in her eyes said otherwise
>>23553333
Chck'd
>>23554291
>Probabl says a lot about the dire state of my life atm
i'll pray for you.
>>23554298
dude you know what's up. you know how to please the ladies.
>>23554300
that sounds like a perfectly fine date. but then again i'm an easy girl to please.
>>23554249
>>23554283
fuck, I'm jelly, you're about to break me
>>23554310
i only know how to please the gamer ladies,
>>23554322
im sorry bro, im a depressive eater
>>23554328
i'm a depressive eater as well but i can't gain weight. my metabolism is great. i can eat all the greasy shit i want and still have a rockin hot bod.
>>23554328
>>23554336
incredibly average metabolism hype
I'm like a depressive non-eater though, if food is in front of me I I'll probably boredom eat it, but I won't feel hungry at all and I won't have any will to get up and go get something so I usually have to remind myself to eat. But also when I'm actually feeling good and I'm busy working or doing something I won't get hungry and I'll forget to eat. But at least then I'm a bit more structured and care about my mortal body so I'll go and take the time to eat before I pass out or something.
>>23553648
>>23553668
>>23553936
>>23553949
All these games owned and I only play one.
>>23554372
lately though all food hasn't tasted too great and i feel bad for eating, so i don't eat much. i feel like i'm on the verge of developing an eating disorder. it's screwed up.
>>23554402
oh yeah, don't feel bad for eating, maybe it's just because you haven't enjoyed the food as much and you're just feeling kinda sick from eating like greasy food or something?
>>23554430
the thing is i don't get to eat greasy shit and haven't really for like a year. i just...feel embarrassed or something, idk. i've just been having personal issues regarding my body lately when it comes to that kinda thing.
>>23554336
isnt it fantastic?! im the same way! and i love it!
>>23554439
but you still called your bod rockin hot
>>23554439
ohhhh, I get you, yeah, idk, body image is weird as shit, like up until very recently I didn't like how I looked at all, now I'm like slightly more okay with it and at least I know logically that other people actually really like it apparently, but still like I'd find it kinda embarrassing to be shirtless in public
>>23554452
just cause i have these problems doesn't mean i can't be a total narcissist.
>>23554466
i'm still more ok with it than not but it has been bothering me more and more this past year...
>>23554476
its true, before i got this haircut, i thought i was atrocious, and then afterwords, i still think im ugly, just not so much
>>23554476
and there is nothing wrong with liking yourself. i personally hate myself
This weekend I went to Webster Hall and danced with a bunch of Irish Dudes to DJ Bauer. Then I was rejected by an Egyptian girl. And then today I went to the barcade and hung out with a bunch of weirdos there.
Also found out by friend set me up with some slav girl.
Just trying to have as much fun as I can to take the edge off the crushing loneliness. It mostly works (kinda).
>>23554476
totally agreed there, who's going to hype you if you can't hype yourself? plus objectively I know I'm actually attractive so I figure I should act that way regardless of how I perceive myself, I'll just keep trying to improve myself
>>23554525
That sounds NYC as fuck. Also yeah, temporary respite from loneliness helps with the general overall sense of it.
>>23554541
One of the largest female populations in the world but it's so fucking hard to find someone. Maybe I'm just unattractive or something idk.
>>23553296
Vidya
>>23554563
Lived in NYC all my life, virtually all the girls I've dated have been from outside the city.
I don't know what's up with this place. I hear girls complaining that even ugly guys here have hot girlfriends, and how they have to "lower their standards" so what does that say about the tons of us who are single?
went to a party the other day turns out im not meant to drink while on my medicine, threw up all over the pub bathroom and passed out in a chair for like 2-3 hours. My depression isn't as over as i thought it was, i was up till 6am trying to convince myself to finally kill myself until i passed out. so all and all a normal weekend really
