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>Music Discussion
>What are you doing?
>Why you are a fucking NEET weirdo? (it's cool if you're not)
>Video Games(?)
>Books you're currently reading
>Films etc.
General Discussion
You don't have to follow these guidelines, it's just a suggestion, just post some content so other anons get to know you.
This is a meet-up board after all.
This isn't exactly a rate thread but if that is truly what you seek OP will deliver. R8 others if you're into it.
Let's try to be civil.
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>>23351996 (You)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tmKYtm731m4
Post itt for a variety of (You)'s
>Farewell Deprianon, press F to pay respects ;__;
Who the fuck is depricatanon?
Anyways story time T.J.
Hell carry on living in our heads <3
Break the internet deprianon, break the internet.....
;_______;
R.I.P Depri
>>23361857
Will we gas the isrealis?
>>23361850
It's still in teh works, I will deliver, don't you worry there
>F
The good Ol days.
>>23361872
Kek wrong photo.
>Music Discussion
These two on repeat in the last few days:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OCwm08sTA5U
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RSPcC5N5hZs
This today:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ep0GX7TiWa8
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cinJDxLUsNY
>What are you doing?
Contemplaiting if I should drink a beer or not, shitposting and browsing primitive technology videos on the youtubes
>Books you're currently reading
Dune. Making great progress. 100 pages a day. Kinda happy with myself that I started reading again.
Btw PJ, I changed my mind about his writing style. I think the introduction was a bit forced but right now its awesome. I love how he plays the thoughts of the characters out against each other, his world is vast and beautiful and he really know how to describe the thoughts. Also the qoutes from the teachings of muah´dhib on the begining of each chapter are dope as fuck
>Films etc.
Watched One Punch Man in its entirety two days ago. 8/10. Havent watched anything esle. Will have aThälmann movie evening with my commie friends on Sunday, that´ll be fun.
>>23361870
Take your time sweetheart, I don't rush you just like in bed ;*
>>23361881
Forgot me pic
>>23361872
Hahahah, why dont I know that picture yet?
>>23361831
legit listening to the wind and my neighbor rambling about some shit. my laptop fan is whirring
gonna go grocery shopping soon <3
reading the great gatsby again, bc of class, other than that nothing
>>23361855
howd you get so hot
pic is from last semester but i was really delirious and i loved it
The Expanse came out to be pretty gud
>>23361894
Cause of my fukken ID changes and fact you and BJ start your thread cycle rather late.
>>23361853
Literally photoshop was still on this file in class
Luckily I have no witnesses cause I sit in the back... alone.
>>23361910
Nice bish
>>23361902
Song Island, my man
It's not the actual album cover so that's probably why
>>23361881
Yeah man, the exerts from other fictional books in his fictional universe was a fantastic idea. The way he describes prescience and his time nexus meme gets really interesting. Also his political structure is fucking genius. The universe he made really does feel lived in.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=13vBLFtb7EU&ebc=ANyPxKo6APwzlvx6Ns8L8Zr2ydc2lH7HMW_plCwjO7hCST3_mBHBJZ47asbWHj2i3wpAQGR6_t993QjSDQd-z-0IGv7GHCz7Hg
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tmKYtm731m4
Because I don't want to be a fag and just blast The Microphones best album.
>>23361882
k-kek
>>23361905
Expanse?
>>23361896
I went to go cash my check and forgot the state took away my licence.
Looks like it's chicken tendies night again at casa de OP ;__;
also how thin are you walls m8, this seems to be a common theme.
watching a documentary about kraftwerk on BBC4, coincidentally i've been listening to them a lot these past few weeks, autobahn is a god tier album, anyway i've also been working a lot and studying way too much, nice to have a few weeks break right now
here's my latest douchecanoe selfie
>>23361867
O shit
>>23361912
KK took my baby away
>huehue
So starting new thread with refreshing amount of insults ?
>>23361924
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt3230854/
>>23361928
Isn't the skull a dog?
So defensive yikes.
>>23361924
Dw, we won't say more about your little problem.
Kek
>>23361927
Gonna reveal my power level and say that I've tried multiple times to get into Kraftwerk but I just can't seem to sit through an entire album. Am I pleb.
>>23361924
why did the state cash your licence? Or are you talking about your drivers liscence? If so, why would you need that to cash in your check?
>>23361927
>>23361941
Im confused, isnt that the nihilistic german band from the big lebowsky?
>>23361940
It might be
Why
Gotta survive.
>>23361924
in my apt complex they arent that thin but, his computer desk is right up against my wall, so i can hear him pretty well bc of that lol
i wish i had chicken tendies though
invite me over op
>>23361927
take as many douchecanoe selfies as you want britman
>>23361953
That is what I was referring to. Marie has changed, this does not please us.
Good grief now I have that song stuck in my head.
>rip that cat who was kill to be a dum young gril's painting project
>>23361941
try the man machine, it's their most accessible work, autobahn is my favourite though
>>23361946
autobahn, the band in big lebowski, is named after a kraftwerk song and is a parody of them
>>23361955
here's an old one for you from my bo burnham phase
>>Music Discussion
Have an ancient arabic song I rarely listen to
>
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yAVh4sir1bw
>>What are you doing?
Posting this post
>>Why you are a fucking NEET weirdo? (it's cool if you're not)
Idk maybe
>>Video Games(?)
No time.
>>Books you're currently reading
Pick up where I left from Transmetropolitan.
>>Films etc.
Gummo and Suburbia lately.
>>23361976
Oh no...
Nick?
>>23361964
I am moody af you know
If you would take a minute to talk straight out like a real person and elaborate how
Wasn't I frequently defensive.
>>23361955
For the whole reckless driving, car accident thing that brought me to this hellscape. Took away my licence and I kinda owe my bank some money and don't feel like paying it off right now, but the shit was closed anyway.
>why live
>>23361955
will post my address in a cypher, stay tuned.
>>23361976
Yeah I tried to go full patrician and start out with Kraftwerk - Kraftwerk, it's not that I'm not into them, I just haven't been in the mood to get into them. Been on this post rock kick lately.
Also listening to The Microphones full discog.
>>23361985
my name is not nick
>>23361991
ah well anything before autobahn is like a totally different band, they really became great with autobahn when they found their whole futuristic aesthetic and used loads of synthesisers, before that they were just a meh krautrock band
>>23361976
i fucking love this
>>23361991
aw, you live for soc. soc is love soc is life
but really. super sucks.
>>23361976
y-you actually thought Bo was attractive?
>>23361991
:/ feels bad man. See it this way: Rich people pay diet managers fuckton of money so that they can eat barely anything. You get to do that for free!
>>23361988
I didn't know until now.
Kek now you wanna talk when you were just memeing?
This is rich.
Fine, what's wrong this time.
>>23362009
lol nah, i just had people telling me i looked a lot like him
>>23362007
i fucking love you
>>23362009
hey. bo is attractive.
>>23362018
>2018
Isn't that when you an hero ?
No seriously I'm asking why do you think I changed.
>>23362030
Yes, I'll be 27 I think.
Idk, just not the same from when you first stalked me.
>>23362038
In what sense.
>Music Discussion
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=na3Nq505E5M
>What are you doing?
Sitting in peace now normies have finished pre-drinking and singing "Have you ever seen X down a pint" at the top of their lungs for the past hour or so
>Films etc.
Funky forest, some anons suggested Visitor Q and Blind Beast in the last thread so I'll watch those later.
>>23362002
Yeah see I've never listened to Autobahn and it was just an average droney rock band that didn't really impress me. I'm gonna listen to Autobahn though for sure.
>>23362009
kek, wagie slim diet of super processed trash and sadness. Yessss...
>>23362069
oh fug, I remember I started watching Funk Forest but turned it off because 2jap4me
>>23362069
I seen the clips on Youtube like 4 times.
>>23362084
they don't even include anything before autobahn in their discography because it's shit kek
Babysitting and losing at super Mario smash bros
>>23362053
Just didn't seem like you'd want to fit in with the cancer.
>>23362100
Kek I've been fucking up this whole time. This is what happen when you get recs from edgelords.
>>23362107
git gud
what character?
>>23362096
Yeah, the youtube clips are what made me want to watch it, only just bothered to figure out what it was from. Looks dank as fuck though.
>>23362131
She said super Mario duh.
>>23362107
>losing to a cpu mario
Git gud fgt. I bet you ain't even playing the best character m88
>>23362131
pretty much everything on the catalogue box set is absolutely gold
>>23362142
CPU is playing mario, cuckold
>not sure if meme or just fuckold
>>23362150
Hehe, you'll see l8er ;)
>>23362162
sorry I don't speak spanish
>>23362168
Je ne parle pas espanol aussi?
>>23362053
Dont let em kill your vibe, meme grill <3
>tfw ghost-hand won't let you be
>Music Discussion
really enjoying this song at the moment
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PMD-yCvEAIw
>What are you doing?
browsing /soc/ and soundcloud
>Video Games
Bloodborne at the moment. Took a break for a while and now I'm trying to get further in the game. Currently at Shadow of Yharnam and I'm a little scared t b h
>films
Last film I watched was "Juarez". I missed the beginning but I think it holds up pretty good for a movie made in 1939. Pretty solid acting and effects too. Makes me want to watch more films from that era and see what I've been missing out on.
>>23361914
Thanks for the answer man. I really like that cover
>>23362131
I used Zelda mostly
>>23362148
I was too easy for him so he played against the cpu. I am fgt
>>23362130
This will prep you for BJ's big Feels stop
Which we haven't forgotten don't you dare scam us
I came back to /b/ and subsequently came to /soc/ in times where I felt shittiest
Knowing myself to always find a substitute online I returned after realizing I was trying something I'm not cut out for
These girls never liked me and they won't now
And having not used in autistic internet slang for almost 2 years I did have some trouble in the beginning [I thought I sounded too vanilla 4 me] but I'm just getting back the hang of it
So that's one thing
>Is it that obvious
I always complain about how shitty I am [Mainly cause I believe I am shit]
I liked the cancer[Not sure how general you speaking] just didn't feel like I was able[Nor do I claim I am now but as you said the trying is obvious]
One more thing if I'm starting to act like a real cunt that's a hint of my claim to why people dislike me irl
PS I did not re-read what shit I just typed
R A W
>>23362182
>>23361831
>ID
Then who was phone
<3
>>23362198
kek
>>23362179
vous waifu a merde
>>23362189
Yeah I had a little trouble trying to find the album too because of the cover, all pre The Glow Prt 2. album covers look like they were made by 2 year olds with expensive equipment.
>art
still pretty jealous I have to wait till DS3 in order to have fun again. Fuck Sony, I'm probably going to pre order DS3 though.
>PC master race
>>23362198
lel
>>23362220
i did not forget little one, brewing coffee for expanded awareness.
>>23362220
Yes I kinda figured most of this from the start.
I actually like the attitude, at least it's not fake. I already kinda told you some things before, so hopefully it makes sense.
Also
>R A W R*
Le so randum.
Actually I'll join this shitparty temporarily.
>>23362182
>WHAT A FUCKING BETAFAG
am i doin it rite?
>Music Discussion
Been obsessed with this song recently
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ILvMOC4H9EM
>What are you doing?
laying down shittposting, blasting music through my home studio monitors
>Why you are a fucking NEET weirdo? (it's cool if you're not)
I'm not
>just opened a music recording studio with 2 friends
>run boot camps on Friday and Saturday mornings
>Video Games(?)
I love MMOs - currently playing Rift, Archeage, and I'll be starting up B&S once the Warlock class comes out on March 2nd
>>23361896
Gingey!! I think this is the first time I've seen you only post once in an active thread!
why are you blushing more than usual?
Is it really hot in there? or just you ;)
>>23361896
he got so hot by being a ginger man with a good jaw. it's unfair. You're adorable though!
>>23361910
how's the vulture culture going? find any cool skeletons/bones recently?
>>23362189
Cool YuGiOh man! how's it going buddy?
>>23362252
Hisoka est merde, mais mon husbandu n'est-ce pas.
Incoming beta sad op story.
>>23362307
You got me interested
test
>>23362313
He wasn't talking about you though, she was talking about himself.
>>23362261
Cause I was waiting for your approval faggot
>hopefully it makes sense.
No I will not
Raw material faggit
>>23362261
>Actually I'll join this shitparty temporarily
A you're a cunt
>BETAFAG
No you still a faggot.
>>23362270
>Hisoka
Do you have a licence for this
I'd like to keep it for when Uber visits.
Entertain yourself by counting how many times I typed faggot ITP
>Cool YuGiOh man! how's it going buddy?
it's going pretty swell my friend, just a little tired at the moment.
>>23362268
Toro y Moi <3 he's so fucking smooth
>just opened a music recording studio with 2 friends
That's awesome man! I'm pretty jealous, my friends and I have wanted to do that for awhile. Do you make any music?
>I love MMOs - currently playing Rift, Archeage, and I'll be starting up B&S once the Warlock class comes out on March 2nd
Are you going to play Black Desert online? I need to check out blade and soul myself
>>23362327
Niqa I don't have a microscope what da hewl.
That part wasn't for you silly.
The fuck, pls no sue. By that logic I should get copyright claims for hindi since I called you hindu way before.
You missed like two more faggots and a gayboy, other than that 9/11 post.
>>23362268
Still old collection
>>23362270
I'm gonna see full Hotline bling for first time now out of curiosity.
How do I leave my house?
>>23362359
Lolwut, would it suprise you that I have seen it?
It is quite catchy to be fair.
>>23362368
>go to door
>turn 180 and walk right out
>>23362342
It's a lot of work but well worth it
>Do you make any music?
Yes. Do I release any? No. I have a problem with being a perfectionist that's afraid of negative response and failure. Been working on the same album for about 2 years now. Finally have 7 songs done. Hopefully it will be amazing as hell and taken well.
I have no problem mixing other people's stuff. my problem with perfectionism is the music itself. not the mix.
>>23362359
you haven't collected anything new recently? :(
hopefully soon! My ex had a huge collection which is what got me into it. Recently just started.
>>23362307
The wait begins.
>>23362357
>
>>23362373
Kek why he constipated.
>>23362392
That's his face? Idk bruh why you gotta be so r00d.
She has a point I thought this niqa had pretyped it.
>>23362377
I just tried that twice, even turned 270° and somehow I keep ending up back on my couch???
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=1cJRRc8FToQ
If you can't relate to this song then you are guaranteed to have a skeleton inside you.
Not taking a selfie now. Look like shit. Please cheer me up :(
>>23361850
FUCK
My name is TJ as well
NO
O
NONO
So, I had first met girl in qustion in 6th grade. For the sake of 5chins we will call her Moll. Moll and I sat next to each other in most of our grade 6 classes. I being a beta strangie with zero social skills I didn't really talk to anyone, mainly played Dungeons and Dragons with other weirdos. However she would always talk to me, she was always so kind to me. To kind of describe her she had/has long auburn hair, bright piercing grey blue eyes, and freckles all around her nose and eyes, adorable face. She was always smiling. Even when I tried to nervously work my way through conversations she would always be easy and understanding. This is when I first started crushing on her. She was literal perfection. After grade six was over I hadn't seen much of her except every now and then I would be stunned by piercing gray eyes and a smile through crowded hallways. It wasn't until grade 8 were we would really communicate again.
In grade 8 I had joined Ski club because I was only slightly less autistic and had a few friends, didn't really hang out with many people outside of weird extra curricular shit at school, so social skills were still shit tier. Anyway it turns out she was in ski club too, I didn't know how to approach her but we saw each other with greeted smiles. We didn't have the same group of friends so I was unsure of how to approach her. Fast forward a little bit after a few ski trips ( each trip took place once a week) I was boarding a shuttle to a separate part of the mountain, I was the only one on the bus. Right before the bus had left, like fate, she stepped on alone. We saw each other, I nervously initiated conversation but some how she was so relaxed and easy that I felt immediately comfortable around her. Like kids we ran to the back of the bus and told weird jokes and laughed, traded crude gossip and gave each other stupid nicknames. It felt like the first time I really had fun, one of those "This is the greatest day of my life moments" I remember this specifically because of the way the street lights would snap shot her face under each passing. It was a beautiful time until we had finally departed and went separate ways. Unfortunately I would not see her again for a couple of years after this.
continue?
>>23362413
Why is your couch the door.
>>23362431
Nobody knew but we do now moran lel.
>>23362439
Finally
>>23362406
Only for identification purposes
>
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZX-W3V5ABCw
I'm gonna tell the teacher I skipped on monday cause Aunt died
Put her death in useful function.
And here's the yappy dpg
>>23362445
What a dumb fucking question.
CONT!
>>23362445
>ski club
Now I know where you at.
>continue?
Nice try troll, keep going.
>>23362448
LMAO, when aunt Malulu's death gets you a free day off
>wew lad
>>23362445
>continue?
You gay man?
DO IT
>>23362462
Teach, I...
I foreseen a death in the family so I skipped 5 days in advance.
>getting drunk on my own
> Why am I a neet weirdo? dno, Can't scrape the motivation to get a job/ don't believe in myself idk
> Video games, fable 3 is the shit or any of fables for that matter
> Books, into the deepwoods, it's a kids book but it's dope as fuck kinda like hobbit an unexpected journey
> Films I like requiem for a dream, and fear & loathing in las vegas
>>23362470
He does like girls ew.
>>23362482
I would've gone for the whole month. Your teacher is so nice and understanding though.
>>23362491
Kek he hates me and already failed me once
I'm gonna pretend she died on Monday tho.
>>23362390
> afraid of negative response and failure
I feel that to the max man. That why I love the anonymity of the internet sometimes. It's the only reason why I've ever posted anything online. I feel way too self-conscious showing works to people in person.
I really respect your devotion with putting 2+ years into your album though. What kind of music do you make?
>>23362486
>getting drunk on my own
Amen brotha. Whatcha drinking? Three beers into some local brew IPA myself. I'm a hipster drunk.
We had gone to the same high school but for some reason through out this time we had never seen each other, we both had awful dating experiences and some times we'd have short conversations over social media but it wasn't exactly the same as before. We had just simply lost touch. (if there was really anything there to begin with) I remember explicitly hating this one kid only because he was dating her at the time. Through these years she was still considered "the perfect girl" or "the one that got away" in my head. She sat at the back of my head and I couldn't get rid of the thought or feeling for her. Now fast forward a little bit during college, I was hardly attending and selling weed at the time, so I had a lot of social groups I would float in and out of, had plenty of time and money on my hands because of my attendance and dealing. However one of those groups was her circle of friends, always dealt with them the most in hopes of meeting her again. And like fate again we did. We only would chat for around 20 minutes when I would drop weed off at her friends house ( she was always there) However in those small and fast conversations I felt what I had felt back in grade 8, we were getting close again. I could feel it in her as well. This would all come to fruition in the coming days as I saw her more and more frequently. We text each other often and chat over social media, the convos were becoming deeper and more personal, there was really nothing quite like the feeling of her laughter, or the way she would squint her eyes when she smiled.
>>23362503
Damn son, wish i had the gear to brew my own desu, & a 15 pack of carling, browsing 4chan on my friday night, Living the life I guess
>>23362512
>>23362445
>>23362439
I don't know if I'm ready to hear to hear the rest of this </3
>>23362445
Absolutely.
>>23362446
My house is weird.
Please don't track me down, I've only pizza to my namesake.
>>23362496
Oh it's that guy lel.
Good plan, do tell how it turns out.
>>23362512
I have tissue box ready, bby continue.
>>23362502
>What kind of music do I make
The album is a mix of Prog House/Electro House with tons of glitch elements to it.
I'll make anything that comes to my head. For fun I'll make electro rock, shoegaze, trip hop, glitch hop, so on.
>>23362514
Homebrewing is the shit, it's very zen when you're making a batch. Sadly the only reason I have the space is divorce so half my space is now freed up. The beer helps.
>>23362520
>The couch couch
>>23362512
May the feels from last thread give me strength.
>>23362520
Mmm no bueno, I don't feel no good feng shui, and that wall color is hideous. Totes not fabu.
>>23362530
I'll drink to that bruh, at least your doing your own thing instead of sitting onto the couch every night like most people, how you holding up?
Everyone except OP kill yourselves.
>>23362560
Edgelord checking in
>>23362560
Already plan to do so, when is your suicide.
>>23362548
Ok what about the first room of my cellar?
>>23362540
>what
So one day, my friend was having a part at his house, it was one of those partys were you knew everyone there, it was a pretty great time. At one point during the night I remember inviting her over, at first as a formality because I didn't think she would show, but she said yes. A little into the night she came with some friends, the personalities in each social group was pretty conducive so it was going well. We drank and laughed and it was pretty much just another one of those "greatest night of my life" experiences. Then, just like that night on the bus we met again. I was smoking a cig outside in the back yard alone, semi drunk and enjoying myself. Right before I finished my cig she stepped out, so of course I lit another. We chatted a little about the party and laughed at a few drunken instances, fug her smile my man. I remember this vividly, we were both laughing at a story I had just told when the night just seemed silent and I do not know were the courage came from but I went in for a kiss, she accepted, it was fucking perfect. When I say that we made out in the back yard for the remainder of the party, I mean we made out in the back yard for several hours, it was then when I knew she was perfect, there was no nervousness, or hesitation, it was just fluidity. What seemed like minutes were actual hours and people were going home. So I offered to take her home, she accepted and we drunkenly giggled into the night. There were several instances during the drive were I had pulled my car over just to kiss her more. Finally parked outside of her home we made out for another couple of hours until the light started to peak over the mountains. It was time to go, truly bittersweet. She smiled and waved and gave me a parting kiss, I stared as she slowly walked to her door. I was experiencing love, really, but what happened next was soul crushing. A couple days later she broke the news and moved away to University.
>>23362512
Hearts with you man.
>>23362577
Much better, but I would recommend censoring that box, there's some stalkers in this site.
>>23362584
At least you kissed her...
>>23362584
>and it hits
;_; dont make me cry man
>>23362568
When I keep getting ignored. My whole fucking life has consisted of getting ignored because I look too generic or noome really cares and even when bad shit happens I still get ignored. I'm fucking here, world. Notice me.
>>23362551
Really badly. It fucking sucks to be honest. I've been doing tons of hobbies and stuff and everyone always says how great it is I'm focusing on myself but the fact is i only do it because it temporarily distracts me from the real shit. I miss her every day and even couldn't get it up for another girl because even though the marriage is over and I knew that I still felt like it was wrong.
>>23362577
Couch then this
Looks like somewhere I'd take photos in tho.
>>23362584
Go on.
>>23362584
Damn anon, I'm sorry to hear that :(
It's good to hear you had moment together before she left. I'd say you were pretty Alpha that night <3
>>23362596
>At least you kissed her
Everyone's gay now.
>>23362600
How old are you if you don't mind me asking? I'm kinda in the same boat using hobbies to take my mind off shit, but for me my weakness is my mind, everytime I'm alone my mind kinda gnaws at me and starts coming up with excuses as why I should give up on everything and how nothing is worth it, that I should jusr stop living, it's fucked up But i've lost people I've loved before so I know the feel man, time can cure alot of things tho
>>23362599
Ugh, this is like the worst place to complain on and I'm the worst person to ask(?). Go ahead, let me see then.
>>23362616
Oopsies my mistake!
At least you kissed she...*
Girls are gay, they give the cooties and skin cancer.
>>23362624
Kek wat you a selfie consultant now
>>23362624
Who gives a fuck now. Fuck this board and fuck everyone. I won't kill myself but I need to find friends who care about me and just generally people who actually give a fuck and quit taking me for advantage because I'm "so nice".
>>23362512
How romantic. You met through weed dealing.
Once again, years had gone by since I saw her, we both knew how we felt for each other but the distance and timing of our first kiss forbade the idea of an actual dating relationship. So once again, she remained locked in the back of my mind, constantly. We would talk less and less frequent, we started dating other people, we started getting more involved with our own lives and the spark between us was fading, but the idea of her in my mind was still fiery and pure. Several more years had gone by, we would talk every now and then, and in lonely drunken nights we would send short messages to each other betraying our real feelings. I would hold on to those small bits of her. Every year, we would each move to a different city, go to a different school, and see different people. Every year there was still those small messages reading "I still think of you". It was painful. At this point I had given up seeing her again once she had finally moved to NC, and I was still somewhere in the north east. Now we will fast forward to about 6 months ago. The ending of this story, probably at least. I had gotten into a car accident and broke my leg as some of you may know. The job loss and loss of my apartment came with that as well, so I had to move in with my brother (where I currently reside) Back in my home town, I only know a few people here anymore and mainly never leave my house. But as fate would have it, she too experienced hardship, and after 4 years of low burning tension, we were finally back in the same town we had met.
>>23362622
I'm 31 and that's exactly how I feel. My divorce is a fresh wound still. To be honest it's just sheer force of will. It started because I started exercising a lot. I always fucking hated it, hated running, hated lifting, hated the gym, etc. I was happy as a lazy couch potato. When shit really started going south I decided to go on a run because I seriously thought i was going to kill her and myself. I felt instantly better after. For once being exhausted and out of breath was satisfying instead of awful. After that I'd go on a run or hit the gym whenever it started to feel like too much, which sadly, was nearly every day. The best part of the whole divorce thing was I'm in the best shape of my life.
The rest, well, simply I've taken this stance of not saying no unless it's really stupid. If someone say "hey anon, lets do X" I go do it even if it sounds stupid. Because doing something stupid is better than when I sit at home and feel sorry for myself and drink. I rarely stop anymore because I'm afraid if I do I'll just kill myself and be done with it.
OooOOOooooh the tension
Dont end the story badly now, Im hooked
>>23362633
Selfie?
No I mean this faggot is asking for attention, let's what he gives back in return.
>>23362636
No you fucking retard, you wanted to be notice now do something or committ suduko.
>>23362639
The fuck dude, you might have a few loose screws.
>>23362651
Mate, I'm going through a rough time and I've mentioned it several fucking times in these threads. No one has given a single fuck except OP once or twice. I just want some god damned attention for once in my fucking life.
>>23362647
They will hook up, fuck, or the other person dies/leaves.
Much anticipation very wow
>>23362639
Hurry up I need to know the ending before I sleep.
>>23362651
Pimpin I see.
>>23362612
>everything is handmedown no judge
There are some really neat spots down here actually, too bad it's stone wall and the snakes like it.
>>23362667
Well I wasn't back until recently, and I'm not gonna skim through fucking archives just for you.
>>23362668
>yfw you fall asleep before it ends.
No, women are gay.
>>23362674
Nice cumstain lel.
>>23362667
>Much anticipation very wow
>Doge
Both literally and figuratively.
>>23361831
My religion prohibits me from taking selfies.
Music : death, thrash, rock, ambient, dark psy
Films : enter the void, the godfather, star wars (fuck disney)
Currently doing : just got up
Vidya: Dota fallout
Books: currently reading Warship. Favorite books : riverworld ubik Kane and abel
>>23362679
Loads of other regulars that could've said something but they're all hooked on OPs romantic escapades. See >>23362423 something should have been said. But it never is. No matter how much I post, noone cares. I've never reacted like this but maybe I don't have enough charisma or interesting enough of a background or looks. This probably isn't the place for me anymore.
>>23362683
Yes, it was used in great sarcasm.
So finally this takes place about a couple months ago, we had both realized we were in the same town again, elation my man. We began talking over social media because I wasn't able to walk due to broken leg, but we talked for hours, every waking hour. We had then decided that we were really perfect together, we were comfortable and our personalities synced. I had never loved this fast before, it was almost intoxicating, she would visit me sometimes and we would talk for hours and make out. It was planned that we would finally start dating once I could walk again. I wish I could give this story the context of the conversations we shared to truly frame my experience with this girl but unfortunately I cannot. I really did love this girl, ever since grade 6, I didn't care, this relationship was 13 years in the making and it was beautiful. Now the day of reckoning is upon us, we had talked from sun up to sun down, it was like the back seat of that bus on the mountain all over again, until the messages started getting cold, and infrequent. I would try to provoke a response out of her but she seemed distant. This was wracking my brain, I was almost numb with frustration and confusion, but I did not poke or prod until I knew she was comfortable enough to tell me what was going on. Then she dropped it, she was to move back to NC, she didn't know how to tell me, because she knew I could not follow her there, she was torn between me and her desired life. Unfortunately I was no longer to be apart of her life. So, we had finally decided, after this 13 year story, after these years of frustration at our timing and locations to finally end it, It was too painful to wait for the next time we would meet, the next time we would cross paths, we collectively decided that no matter how much we wanted, or how hard we tried, life would never keep us together. So, through tears, we finally agreed, it was over. She till remains locked in my brain, but I know it won't ever be real again.
>>23362674
Prove the snakes and consider yourself waifu'd.
>>23362679
Have you seen the films I told you about btw.
TL;DR OP gets cucked.
>>23362711
Wow bro. I'm sad right now and you actually made it worse. Plus you're one of the only ones that cared in here. I'm sorry.
>>23362702
Idk man it's like a chance thing here, and you also gotta spam your face here mostly, fucking cheer up dumbass.
>>23362706
Who is this grudge girl, I might have felt something in my black heart.
Well erm it's on my to-do list. I will try and watch one after you leave. I pinky pwomise.
>>23362711
I like this version better. The other one made me cri :'(
>>23362723
>you gotta spam your face here
HAHAHAHAHA you have no idea. I spam my face like fucking crazy on here. More than you, 100%. Unless you're gingy lol.
>>23362711
BJ :'(
A rich story
But if she knew you'd follow her why didn't she want you to.
>>23362704
>:(
Beautiful story PJ, I pity you for the pain that this love costed you, but Im also jealous. Having such a deep connection to somebody isnt common and its something so inherently human that I really want to experience it.
My input would be that you should try it again, if there is the possibility. There is no such thing as fate, that you always got split up is just bad coincidence. I understand that you cant follow her and that she cant stay, but you cant let go on something that special utimately...
Why did you choose this moment to tell us this very intimite, real and beautiful story?
>>23362727
Who are you sad lad.
>>23362723
>
>>23362702
Sorry, your post got drowned :/
Whats up?
>>23362733
As per request
were you even in the last thread.
>tfw you notice all of your grammatical errors.
>>23362731
I couldn't follow her, that was the thing.
>>23362726
>>23362721
sorry guys, I've since been somewhat over it
>somewhat
but I just tried to write it as beautifully as I am capable, because that's how I remember her.
>>23362733
because last thread was a feels thread and I promised I'd share my feels.
>>23362743
Don't say sorry. It's a regular occurence because something more important or interesting will ALWAYS come up.
>>23362740
Have a guess.
>>23362744
Im germanon you dumbass with dementia
>>23362745
Oh yeah, didnt get the context.
>I should catch me some sleep before I faint
Or maybe not, lets see.
I messed up and should have finished with everyone getting on the floor and walking the dinosaur, in true shitpoast fashion. Hope you fegs enjoyed the feels train, I surely felt as I wrote it, it kind of brought up those memories and I was able to relive them. So thanks guys for letting me do this shite.
>>23362727
That is true, so what seems to be the problem.
>>23362740
Leave him alone.
Wait who is this?
>>23362745
How long ago was the last time you saw her?
>>23362706
It's still Winter here, so the snakes have all taken up their holes, but this is usually come through in Spring/Fall. Mostly gardener and corn snakes, but there was a timber rattler one time and that was super neato.
>pending waifu
>>23362704
You had some insurmountable strength to amiably come to a resolve like that. Sorry it had to be that way man.
>>23362756
Anytime again <3
I enjoy these intimite moments with you guys.
>>23362758
like 2 months ago. This shit is pretty fresh in the feels part of my brain
>>23362759
>resolve
>literally me crying and begging
I made myself sound a little more stoic in this story.
>>23362750
Idk tb1h Aussie guy ?
>>23362745
Do you share the first letter.
>>23362754
I fucking knew that but your posts were deluding EH
>>23362758
I will not.
>>23362759
Now we wait.
>>23362754
>you dumbass with dementia
Be still, my heart.
>>23362765
>2 months ago
WAT.jpg
>Too soon
Disregard the last post
>>23362758
My uncle.is dieing and I'm losing friends conveniently at the same time. A friend of 16 years infact, it seems he's moving on with other friends.
My friendship group has been broken into 2 sides by this one faggot I met in year 12, and it's never been the same. Not to say I don't have friends, I still have a few beautiful friends, but I miss the way things were. I just feel absolutely shit. Oh, and I'm also in love with someone I can't even touch because they're in a different country.
>>23362766
Bingo.
>>23362774
Well you have these (You)s now so.
>>23362772
Yes, my darkest hours have brought me to this place. You guys have made this experience infinitely better though, this is why I continue to bost. Love everyone who posts in my threads.
>Except mexicans
<3 <3 <3
>>23362765
Damn bro, sucks but bitches will come and go.
>>23362766
That little girl is you? Aww what happened.
>>23362774
Everyone dies, but I feel you on the uncle, my favorite one passed away two years ago. Can't you just enjoy what you have now with the friends you have. I really can't help with the last part, unless you have the money and stupidity to move countries just for a chick.
>>23362765
That's okay, you felt something worth begging for, there's no pride in being unable to embrace that. I'm glad you're still around and talking about it with such depth, shit, the most I ever do about my love is write shitty prose and metre and shut myself in a room for months. Yousa good man.
>>23362766
How about I just spam you with tarantulas, gila monsters and scorpions next month?
>>23362789
>except mexicans
HA sorry for you Marie. Lolololol
>>23362795
>Mexicans be like
>>23362791
c'est la vie ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
>>23362789
>>23362794
I'll think about it.
>>23362791
I lived a live.
>>23362789
Im actually just pretty happy when I was part of making you, or anybody else for that matter, feel better.
I would like to stay, its a shitty moment to go, or atleast feels like a shitty moment, but I cant think for shit and I hate when I cant think.
Have a good night yall!
>>23362783
Yeah. Thanks for your effort bro.
>>23362791
I'm not moving. This predicament is difficult since she really likes me and I like her.
I enjoy but work schedules suck and I regret not hanging out with them more back when I was little due to social anxiety. The death thing I'm accepting but it really sucks how everything's happening at once.
>>23362809
lol l8r faggot kys
> <3
>Music Discussion
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QdHG-gnVZPc
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZLOb4YEtirU
>What are you doing?
Youtube
>Why you are a fucking NEET weirdo? (it's cool if you're not)
Not neet, but close enough
>Video Games(?)
No.
>Books you're currently reading
The Castle, Paradise Lost, Kierkegaard's biography
>Films etc.
I liked Alphaville
>>23362809
Night Germfagon.
>>23362789
Fuck consideration I can't sleep if I don't find out
Is she a j too.
>>23362820
No, no doxxin
>>23362825
K I will not because BJ
Anyway hope you find someone <3
and tbqh you can do much better
>no h8 pls
>>23362798
Be like what showeth moi.
>>23362801
Oui oui :(
>>23362805
I belive the proper term is alive a live.
>>23362812
Well I guess, but if you really want to vent out, this really isn't the place, unless you're ok with being ignored which clearly you're not. Also don't think you're the only one with problems, there's people that fare way worse.
>>23362820
>>23362825
Kek dis bish stalking niqas on visagebook
>>23362840
JUST
REEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
Night faggots.
>>23362871
>said the feg
Wait what was the other movie??? I only remember Salo.
>>23362871
Night meme grill
>>23361851
>>23361853
>>23361872
>>23361878
kek just noticed these
only one missing is the island one
>>23361910
>>23362871
I like this gril
>>23362636
hey, wait a second, fug u
>>23362901
>reads his own threads
Shuuuure lel
>>23362895
You might be gay, she doesn't have a benis.
Who here /sadboys/?
>>23362948
read the thread and you will find out that everyone in this thread is emotional sadnons crying feels.
tired koreanon reporting
sorry for dropping out so much, still un-NEETing with work and school, still broke af until next week, still trying to find a psychiatrist for antidepressants, but hey it's going pretty alright
I might knock out soon from lack of sleep -_-zzZ
what you been up to /soc/senpai?
>tfw you try to grow a beard but end up looking like an emaciated junkie
>music
comfy piano feels on repeat the whole day
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mW_7gRH7ASE
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3kbK3urh7NM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nv2GgV34qIg
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fEeoHsjNBj8
>watching
Space Brothers (uchuu kyoudai) anime, although it's extremely cheesy and shit, it gives me the feels and keeps me company whenever I'm reluctantly putting food in my mouth to stave off my inner NEET
also gives me feels because I am protag and my brother is protag's brother basically
I'm the failure and my younger bro is the nice guy who has his shit together and is getting buff af while I struggle to eat more than 2 meals a day, sigh
>>23361881
>>23361894
Holy shit you guys make me really wanna read Dune again. I bought my copy when I was a wee lad but then it got water damaged so I donated it to a thrift store which probably threw it away. sadkek
>>23362704
omg JP-san so many feels ;~;
I really hope things get better soon
>>23363081
ay mane
Jazzanon returned last thread and was giving me a crash course introduction to jazz, still working through the recs because I want to actually appreciate it and not pleb over one of the most important parts of music history.
>>23352852
>emaciated junkie
kek
the most I can work up is a "playing hacky sack out side the community college, dabs in pocket" crustache look
>iktf
Thanks m8 it's all good now but actually writing that whole shit out was pretty feel inspiring.
Gave me a chance to actually kind of relive said memories, even just a little bit.
Also I think you were reccing another le Japanese cartoon in the other thread, lemme know what that was because my taste in animus are pretty shallow, want to find something new to watch though.
Babysitting anon. The little kid played the piano like a pro and I had a pretty decent time. I love children :')
>>23363155
:3 nice anon, is this a kid you've babysat with before?
BJ inserted his feelers real deep and my drunk shit really isn't handling it well. I'm checking into a hospital in a minute here, would you guys think I'm a complete fucking faggot to dump my head before doing so, you'll have exclusive rights being the only people to ever hear this outside of a doctor.
>pls ID change
>>23363175
dump my friend
you alright?
>>23363166
Yup. Hes such a sweet kid. We play video games and he always makes up really fun games and it wears me out then we sit down and play duets on the piano.
>>23363175
Spill your guts and feels. It helps and we're here to listen
Jamba I'll read your feels soon. Expect much feedback
>>23363212
:3 i hope to achieve that level of comfy some day.
enjoy, I'll make it easier for you
>Pt1
>>23362439
>Pt2
>>23362445
>Pt3
>>23362512
>Pt4
>>23362584
>Pt5
>>23362639
>le finale
>>23362704
got a few felt feelings while writing this.
>>23363155
Anything with sound, the piano is god-tier.
>>23363187
Nah man I'm an idiot and did some rash shit.
>>23363212
Sorry in advance, you guys have been really great.
I haven't felt like this since last year. Prequel short, some shit happened when I was a kid and I don't remember anything up until about 12. It's like I didn't even have a childhood, just shards of things that happened and a recurring string of nightmares. Whenever I really snapped back to real life, I was too embarassed of myself to tell people that being in physical contact with someone else caused me discomfort, that I couldn't be within a meter of someone without feeling like the air around me had taken up the density of sand. Not even delusions that people wanted to hurt me, it's just I can still feel everything from before and I don't want to ever be there again. People started making fun of me, I was lanky and pale, and in September of 6th grade something clicked that it'd be easier to hang myself. So I did, and the beam the rope was on broke as I was passing out. I tried OD'ing two years later but just ended up foaming at the mouth in a hospital, and being put into mental care for depression and outbursts. After a few prescriptions and sessions they figured I had PTSD-related black outs that could go from anything between a seizure or some shitfest of screaming and breaking things. Eventually, it just went numb. It just felt so cold, watching other people hold each other and laugh and actually mean to laugh, not just pushing it to avoid looking like a case. Sophomore year, I had friends, and they were all dating and ended up coaxing me to try dating a mutual friend as well. I dated 3 girls after that for 6 months or more at a time to try and fit into whatever routine that made people happy. Figured if I kept doing it, no matter how much it hurt to kiss them or fuck, maybe it would subside and I could live like that. In between the 2nd and 3rd I met her, and I can't even begin to tell you what it felt like after that time alone. We broke up after a week, I was an apathetic drug addict.
How is everyone doing?
>>23363272
..shit man
>>23363276
good, but this has turned into a feels thread once again
>so we feelin right now
>;__;
>might lose virginity tomorrow
>relatively tiny penis
tips? how do i eat the pussy?
>>23363304
Suck it up bitch, life sucks.
>>23363312
keep tongue flat, near top of pelvic region, repeat until clit is shown, maintain constant rhythm on clit at varied paces depending on grill.
>then again I'm a dude so what the fuck do I know
>>23363131
>jazzanon crash course
yeah dude I saw
I put that shit on my list immediately haha
dude i still feel like a pleb
this 16yo jazz family friend who is nearly a jazz prodigy on both sax and piano has been schooling me for the past year
tfw you will never be unplebbed
tfw that's actually okay i guess because humility is my god
>dabbin at hacky sack community college where the mascot is a crustache
i kek'd kekfold
>animoe
honestly the ones I rec'd in retrospect don't seem that great compared to a lot of other shit out there. I'm still an anipleb. I will say though that
>Paranoia Agent
is and will always be GOAT
but it's pretty depressing
>Kids On The Slope is a nice slice-of-life that I think would be perfect if you're getting into jazz and don't mind the romance feels
the characters actually seem too mature for their age imo
>Erased
blew me away the first several episodes but the most recent ones kinda disappointed me
it's reminiscent of Case Closed but really well produced
>PLANETES
great show about realistic space travel in the not-so-distant future, story and characters start out kinda sucky but turn into fucking family-tier as it progresses, token characters and comic relief trash characters lose screen time later on which is great
but the manga didn't even have them so I rec that shit hard
The 13th chapter (i think) of the manga is GOAT
you can find scans online pretty easily
I'd say read the manga and then watch the show
>I MISS THE COMFORT IN BEING SAAAAAAAAAAAAAD
IKTFF
I'm glad this tiny spot on the butthole of the internet exists. When you think about it, almost all of the anons itt would probably be somewhere more negative if not for your goldposting breads
stay based JP-san
>>23363232
I'm a children kind of person and I'm so grateful for that.
Damn Jamba that story. I'm truly jealous. I mean yes it was years and years of hardship and nagging and being built up to just be let down. But you have been an impact on her life that she'll never forget. You have helped shaped who she is now just as she did to you. And you should be proud and happy when you remember her. Remember the good and don't dwell on possibilities :3
And now for my sob story cuz you got my feels flow dammit jamba
>incoming
>>23363253
I dunno how to figure that out. I suck with electronics. I took a video with sound on snapchat and saved it. If you could give me step by step instructions I'll upload it for you
>>23363265
No problemo as long as you read me feels ;)
>>23363272
Well fuck. What are you gonna do now bro. I hope you get help
Oh fug tinder grill agreed to meet tomorrow
Can I kissu kissu her after a coffee?
>>23363344
don't
not after one coffee
So I spent the next 4 years in a state of constant fuckedupedness. I moved back home after trying to find something else, and after getting life back on track with a job and living situation, we ran into each other again at a friend's house. We would all meet up on the weekends and drink, , and every time she was there. It was last September. She got my number from a friend, and we started really talking. We would pass up going out with everyone else for a smoke just to sit together quietly and make little jokes. She had recently gotten out of a long relationship, so I wanted to give her time, but for the first time in my life I felt like I was full of fire. She made my heart beat harder, and when everyone was talking and our eyes met I felt as if reality had snapped into place around us. Like this was exactly where we were supposed to be. We ended up going to a couple shows together, and being the only single two, we would stick close to each other to "keep other people off us", but after the first time we were past that. It was the first time I had ever danced with someone, the first time I'd taken my shirt off in public for years, and I looked like an idiot but loved every minute. It was life. I told her I loved her that October, and I told her the truth. That when I looked in her eyes I saw the light of everything. The first person that I wanted to be close to. She said she wasn't ready for a relationship, but that when she was I'd be the first to know
>>23363312
>>23363344
Kek
>>23363343
Idek, maybe turn it into a webm? I dunno.
>>23363350
But there are people who fuck with tinder girls on the first date
I'm kinda confused
>>23363356
Me neither. So I won't bother right now. It wasn't amazing or anything. Just really impressive and I appreciated it a lot
>>23363402
It really is, I put my husbandus music and it helps me sleep at night.
Speaking of, I'll smell ya fegs l8er.
I shouldn't have come back.
But such a lonely day, and it's mine.
So we continued our thing, sleeping next to eachother when the night was ending, driving around together and making plans mutually. In December she slept with her ex, to find closure, she said, and we went to another show together n New Years. I didn't find out until a friend told me a month later, and we both broke down when I asked her about it and why she couldn't say anything. She said she made a mistake, and didn't want to hurt me. Things were strained, but we started talking more and hanging out whenever we weren't working. So I asked her out in March. I got nametags and wrote "Hers" on mine and "His" on her's as a corny deal. She said yes, and I could have driven my beater to Mexico and back on the elation I was emanating. After a few months, she called me late one night after blowing me off for a couple days, and told me she was sorry but was already in Wisconsin heading to Electric Forest and wouldn't be able to talk for a few days. We had agreed to quit drugs together, but when she got back she broke down and said she got a little fucked up. It hurt, but it was nothing compared to how good everything was. It left me a little more wary, but we were more honest with each other from then
>>23363333
>3333
ebin leaf Y
Don't pleb cuck yourself when you actually still play the Sax and attend jazz classes, you will transcend soon my nigger.
>tfw you can't afford a jazz weapon because of wagecuck
JUST
humility in music is probably number one key to success, at least I think so
>Chinese cartoons
I know about Paranoia Agent but Only got through like half an episode because jaded after only watching 90's and early 00's animus that are pretty much marketed strictly for the west. So anipleb as well. The slice of life ones are a little eh for me except when there's some kind of fantasy flare, but then again they tend to be bretty gud dramas and shit. Will check out PLANETS cuz that sounds right up my alley.
>Wake me up
>Can't wake up
Past two threads have been feels as fuck, but I'm glad that I may have influenced some lurkers and bosters on this board :^) even if they just saying that, fug it. I miss when this board was more of a community than a vapid shit fest. Needs more content desu
stay fukin based koreanon
>>23363383
take her to a dive bar or something i dunno man, I'm not chad level "coffe then fug"
at least your intentions would be somewhat clear.
>>23363351
...we've shared a couple life experiences, my man
This lighting is garbage
>Music discussions
My music taste is extremely diverse. It ranges from indie to rap to folk to jazz to punk.
>What are you doing?
Currently in bed being a sad sack of shit, getting ready to inject the kush.
>video games?
Im really into fallout 3 and new Vegas, left 4 dead 2, both portals, mortal kombat, dead space, gta, dark souls.
>books you're currently reading
A song of ice and fire, supposed to be reading taming of the shrew for this Shakespeare class but I've been procrastinating.
>films
Top five are:
1)lotr trilogy
2)star wars trilogy
3)harry potter series
4)lolita
5)nymphomaniac volumes I and II
>etc...
I'm into art but i never actually make art because I'm lazy.
I have 3 dogs.
Im a pescatarian.
No music lately, unfortunately.
Watching Breaking Bad again and finishing off this whiskey.
Because I'm a paranoid schizophrenic and have no friends, and my job has me travel the US, which makes it easy to not be in contact with people.
Gotta buy my new laptop next paycheck. Getting that bank while single, yo.
>>23363462
would lay with and listen to records/10
>>23363462
Jesus my eyes squint so bad when i smile
>>23363467
I'm down
>>23362948
Not you mang. Hehe
>>23363462
Honestly thought Nymphomaniac was my least favorite of his films, he also ruined Anti-Christ's fucking beautiful beginning by re-making it in Nympho without the actual climax. Fucks up anyone who watches Nymph before Anti-Christ. Also it was too try hard and dude just pretty much explains to the audience exactly what happened in each scene, le forced art kill.
>Dark Souls
DS3 when
>Meme Wars
....what about the prequels...
you got any art to post? I'll post some of mine if interested, or whatever.
>>23363471
bought a big box of assorted records for basically nothing from a garage sale this week so i'll be sifting through them this weekend
>>23363485
Fuck the prequels.
Not really, but the first trilogy is on a whole other level it felt wrong to include the prequels.
>>23363485
Also, I'd love to see your art. I don't actually have any pictures of my stuff on my phone. It's all at my old place and i got a new phone recently so i don't have my old pictures. Other than face art
>>23363481
my man
>>23363498
If I had a time machine with only one use, I would go back to 1991 and fucking kill George Lucas.
>>23363507
Face art?
I'm just going to post my most recent stuff since the rest is mainly just art school projects. If you have anything I'd like to see it.
Will she ever be coming back again /soc/? I miss her more than bambi miss his mom
>>23363523
That's pretty fuckin tight. What medium did you use?
By face art I just meant my face when my makeup is done well bc trust me, that shit is ART.
I'll look around and see if i can find anything.
What do you smoke, friend?
>>23363530
who knows
>>23363507
>inb4 I spam my own thread
seems i need to work on my patter, kek
>>23363545
put that shit on a frame or something, looks great on some walls. Im being honest
>>23363540
Ahh yeah I remember I tried doing face painting for some communit service at a fair ages ago, shit is fuckin difficult
respect, anon
Also It's ink and water colors, can't paint for shit.
tarted blacking out frequently. Didn't tell her when I had seizures, was having heart problems, she already knew I've been dealing with cancer and that's way too fucked up as is. Something snapped and I forgot about her one night, tried bringing myself to end it all and just bleed out in my piece of shit truck in some field. She wouldn't stop calling me and she brought me back. The next few weeks into December were Hell, we couldn't stop getting tense about the little things and finding faults in everything we had done. A few days before Christmas, we were in bed together after Star Wars 7, and something she said brought it all back to that fucking room. I couldn't get it out of my head and I kept hearing his voice and I almost threw up before getting to the couch. She asked what was wrong, and instead of telling her that all I needed was her to tell me it was okay I told her to leave. She was mad, she should have been, and started to leave before I asked her to stay. I was so stupid, and she said that she had to go now, we could talk the next day. Last thing I remember is being okay with talking tomorrow, before waking up bleeding from the back of my head and in an ambulance. I don't know what happened for the week after that, my friend found me after fucking up my wrists and I spent a week in a hospital with doctors trying to get me up from 110 and to get me to sleep after however long not. Coulndt hold food down for a week, couldn't get this feeling out of my stomach that I had lost a fundamental part of myself. We haven't talked since, and I can't close my eyes without seeing her face. Writing, reading, smoking, drinking, eating, running, even gardening just does fuckall for me now and I don't even know what the fuck happened.
>>23363540
>Last one
also I try to make tattoo's for edgelords but I can't seem to find someone to actually take me as an apprentice.
>what do you smoke
the bad kind
L&M reds
Marlboro 27's or lights when not too poor.
I'm assuming you smoke aswell?
>>23363552
thanks papa, this is only a print, I can't find the original ;__;
>>23363555
Watercolor and ink is one of my favs.
Unfortunately, I couldn't find anything. Alofof my work is either at my old place or in the homes of others.
Not even face painting though. Just regular makeup.
>>23363573
Oh that's pretty rough. I used to smoke camel crush bolds but they were discontinued. Now I just smoke the regular camel crush menthols.
Heyy Jamba I have my feels all typed up
Is anyone gonna read it? If not I'll just not post. No need to shit up the thread I guess
I sleep a couple hours a night, I'm 6'3 and can't get above 115 anymore, and I can't even make things right like some sick fucking joke that everything I had been empty of was finally there and because of what made me that way in the first place it's no longer there. Its my fault, every single fight and argument. I just want her to look at me like she did, like I was important and had a place in this universe, she used to talk to me late at night and there was something in her voice that just took it all away, she was the person I've ever known that I could hold and be held by, and I was so caught up in my pain that she had to take it. I don't want to go back to what it was like, and now I can't even go to the store without having a seizure in the parking lot. I'm a fucking loser, if you guys want the truth, and the weekly therapy, the exercise, even talking to you guys is started to lose it. I have nightmares every night that I used to have as a kid, and can't keep doing this shit. Pathetic, whatever, I wasn't built for this. Even if we ever started talking again the cancers gonna get me. At least for a while she made me forget, but back to, it all. Off to the hospital before it's too far out. Thanks for being you, all of you, and I'm sorry I'm selfish as to post this wailing. Last poem I'll ever etite.
She was the sky and I the ocean, everything that bridged us worn. Never to be near or holdclose again, as cracking storms and crashing waves I mourn.
>>23363596
>>23363609
Damn son, I'm not gonna pretend like I know anything about make up but this is impressive. Purple eye lid looks blended as fuck, nice job dude. You ever put your work into galleries?
>camel crush bolds
not tasting enough like crest toothpaste for ya anon?
only menthol I smoke is Newports because of my inner nig.
>>23363619
Post it, I still gotta read my mans >>23363568
real quick, I will not alienate you anons.
>>23363652
<3 thanks for your time. It means a lot. I'll post mine in a little bit so you have time to finish. Its a little cringy just pls stick with it
I cant fucking sleep due to chemicals
But i have a bell in my living room, so i feel it's balanced
I'm also pissing off the group chat with my giberish, and i'm pissing off /bet/ on /sp/, but i love you all soc even the dickrate threads
>>23363652
Thanks d00d!
I won this contest thing in high school but that was it. It's just a hobby desu. I got to go to DC though so that was neat.
Hey, don't judge. Those are the ones that first got me hooked and i just never switched.
What's up, guys? Playing some Siege with another dude from /soc/. Cool af.We got super similar tastes in music. If you're playing PS4 join us.
PSN: virulentphantase
>>23363679
this made me kek and I'm not quite sure why.
>>23363665
yeh of course, also >>23363642
I'm going to read this once I put on more Post Rock so I can reread into a self deprecating stupor. Will give feed back. I'm in one too many threads rn to give honest feedback.
>>23363684
>mfw I started on Marlboro menthols
truly the starbucks of cigarettes.
You just do it to yourself or to others as well, would look into making that more than a hobby, f a m
>>23363718
console peasants
>>23363721
Just myself. Honestly if you're going to do makeup professionally you like need to go to school for it because of like hygiene proper technique and whatever. I honestly just have fun with it so it's nbd.
>>23363427
>>23363568
>>23363642
..christ man, we have a lot in common. Hope you're alright man, you still going into the hospital?
>>23363721
No rush mang I've to wait for an amberlamps I gemuess.
>>23363718
console peasants
>>23363679
This right her, nice bell.
>>23363665
don't worry about cringe, if its from you man I'm here to read a novel,
>>23363434
That's what got me man, and I really do appreciate how you went with it, some strong example of brave.
So I began my social life going to a prestige private catholic school. In fourth grade I figured out what sex was in the most embarrassing way possible. In front of my entire class. On a sex-ed field trip. Literally
>how does the sperm get to the egg….ohhhhhh
and that was where it went downhill. I went through the rest of private school with some “friends” but I was always left out and socially awkward and an extremely nerdy girl in general.
High school was a shock to me. My class size quadrupled and I was overwhelmed and shy and I didn’t really make any friends my freshman year.
I made an attempt to become more social by joining the marching band. At first it was great. I got a nice group of friends and everyone was super close and then jonny came along.
He was pretty ugly extremely introverted and he used my friends to get to know me. Once he got my number he texted me nonstop for four months. At the time I was in love with the attention and I basically led him on. At the beginning of sophomore year he asked me out. I never really wanted to date him but I said yes anyways. We ended up dating for two months and during that time the most exciting thing we did was hold hands in the hallways and cuddle on bus rides. First month or so was nice. We would walk through the park and have bonfires but by the second month I realized that I really didn’t want to be dating this guy. I felt like utter shit because of it. Whenever I was with him I felt like such a fucking dirty terrible person and I had no idea what to do. To tis day I don’t know what caused me to feel that way. During this time I started cutting. I didn’t even know it was a thing then it just felt right and eventually I broke up with jonny but my cutting habit stuck with me.
I kind of got rid of my nice group of friends while dating so I was pretty fucking lonely once I got out of that relationship. Loneliness can lead you to o very bad things. I downloaded an app called meetme and I used it way to often just for some attention. That’s where I saw my first dick lol (not too attractive in my opinion no offense guys) I would talk to some guys on there I tried roleplaying which I found stupid I learned what masturbating was but I never really got myself off. And then I met Simon.
He was different and exciting. He challenged my beliefs and intelligence seemed to pour out of him. I talked to him as often as I could and I utterly fell for him. But then I got boring and he started to ignore me I forget what I did but I did something to get his attention and he got extremely pissed off. He demanded that I send him nudes or he would destroy my life and never speak to me again. So on the Monday of spring break of my sophomore year I sent him nudes yet I didn’t hate him. We continued talking and I don’t fucking know why I never hated him.
He introduced me to great music and tv series and he stayed with me. Then he asked if there were pain pills in my house and there were. He got me high off them and persuaded me to send more pictures. After that I finally realized there was a problem. I would never truly hate him but he was destroying me. That’s when I tried to leave for the first time. He came back said he was sorry and shit. I accepted it and stopped eating and kept cutting. He blackmailed me for more nudes saying he would leak mine and kill himself before he got caught for leaking underage nudes. And once they were out they would never get back in. So I sent picture after picture and eventually it became ok to send nudes and I did it voluntarily and he would give me positive attention. I would snap back to my senses and say no but he would just blackmail me some more. Eventually I got the fucked up idea that I loved him and when I was convinced of that he just left leaving me fucked and confused without one meaningful relationship in my entire life. And that is how I am today
Jamba this is why I was jealous of you.
Feel free to ask about any details cuz I’m sure I left stuff out.
>>23363767
Well you do it really well anon, dem brows.
Post some tracks from your ambiguous music taste. My shits all over the place F A M
>>23363846
Dude I've had so many similar situations.
Like lately I've been having really shitty luck with guys.
So in July, I got out of a really long relationship. We were together for almost 3 years. But the last year was awful. It was borderline abusive. I cut off all my friends so when it ended I literally had no one. And then i moved and started school. I went on dates with a few different guys but I just didn't really want a relationship so everytime i was with them, I felt like i was using them. And they caught feelings really quickly.
And then i started talking to this one guy who was basically one of my best friends and idk man.
I really liked him a lot and thing were basically perfect. And then there was a situation and my mom needed me to move back home, so I transferred campuses and he never spoke to me again.
And then i want on a couple tinder dates which were pretty awful. And now, my ex has been trying to talk to me again which is really not fun.
Anyways, currently:
>>23363854
Danke schön
I'll see about making a playlist.
>>23363888
I get that. I've kinda given up at this point. My last online one was abusive and I just wanna get my shit together haha. But you seem way more collected than I am so keep it up
