Men who are wizards, past the age of 30, and still virgins. Describe how you got into that situation? Hookers, rape, or drugging her doesn't count as sex. How did you never get consensual sex?
Pic related would you have sex with me?
Hookers are consensual, but I can understand that not being considered losing virginity. I imagine they're either very socially awkward, very unattractive, or just not into chasing sex.
>>23018504
timestamp and i'll tell you about my fucked up nearly non existent sex life.
>>23018504
Sorry not a wizard, but yes I would def have sex with you lol :)
>>23018504
I can pretend to be a wizard for you.
>>23018504
I'll be a wizard in about 10 weeks.
Self-righteous and fat. Bad combo, through high school I thought I was honest to god a better person than anyone who had sex. When I got to college I would only have had sex with a few select women I deemed worthy (both attractive and intelligent enough). That's not to say I knew many women or was all that social, spent most of my time playing video games and occasionally doing homework.
The kicker was that from about age 16 I probably had depression. Suicidal ideation, bouts of listlessness and a total lack of motivation. They were pretty constant. I actually wasn't in terrible shape from age 17-20, worked out a decent amount, played sports, but any girl who gave me the time of day I didn't pursue. To a degree I think there was fear, knowing I'd be terrible and the added quirk of being obsessed with a girl being a virgin like me. Only wanting to kiss and fuck the girl I'd be with forever, blah blah blah.
The depression got worse and I got fat til about age 26. Met a girl online who was...everything I wanted. Sweet, intelligent, attractive, virgin. It was long distance but that was worth it. Around this time I got into a nasty car accident and combined with some sports injuries had 3 concussions in a year.
The depression spiral got worse and worse. I kept running from myself and my problems (which were mounting, financial, personal, health, etc.), but convinced myself as soon as I got together with this perfect girl, everything would be fine. We'd fuck, get married, have kids and somewhere in there I'd magically figure it all out and put my life together.
Well, the thing about depression is that it puts it in your head that tragedy and victimhood are who you are and what you should want.
>>23018725
I got the settlement from the car accident, bought a computer and a flight to the girl. We planned to spend 2 weeks together. Tourist around a big city for a week, mess around in her old college town for a couple days, spend some time on a picturesque island then meet her parents. I got there and spent what is and will be the best week of my life with her.
Fear and anxiety prevented us from doing it for the first couple days, then she went on her period. So there I was, a week later, 5 minutes away from my first real sex (I fingered her on the second day, but never got fully naked, she never even saw my genetils, much less touched them), staring at the ceiling with a small bottle of lube (I'm actually quite large and she had a small vagina, so it was on her request) she was in the bathroom doing whatever girls do in bathrooms before sex.
I hadn't slept well because hotel bed, hadn't masturbated in over 2 weeks, was as deep into a depression spiral as one could get and had spent a couple days silently resenting her for not having sex and for poor taste in television (like I said, depression thrives on tragedy). I was crying when she came out, I told her I couldn't feel anything and I didn't really love her. At that moment it felt true, but deep down I knew it wasn't.
Spent the next couple days in an awkward silence and sleeping on opposite sides of the hotel bed. I got drunk at a bar, it was the first drink I'd had in about 18 months. During my hangover I offered to stay in hotels for the remaining week so she could go home, she accepted.
For that week I used all my willpower to push down my emotions so they could rot me from the inside out. Convincing myself I was no good and did the right thing. Worse yet, that she would take me back in an instant once I 'got better'.
We had a last skype chat about a week after I got home. It is seared into my memory as so awkward and odd because in the dozens of skype dates before she had never been in the part of her house she was in at that moment.
That was the last time I saw her face. I asked her to take me back after I started getting counseling, she said that I had hurt her too badly and she didn't love me anymore. I begged and pleaded, told grand tales of my path of recovery from depression, which were actually true.
I started getting serious about fitness, lost over 80 pounds and am extremely fit now, never to look back. I am at peace with my inner demons and can feel my way through depressive episodes. I'm more productive, driven and balanced than I have been my entire adult life.
But it just hurt too much. In March she essentially stopped responding to me (we were using a private google plus group to communicate). In April she gave me a token 'I'm fine' because I was being hysterical thinking something happened to her.
In May, she blocked me. I don't know if she still sees anything I post in the group. I still do occasionally, just updates and letting her know that I still have feelings for her, but I'm done trying to fix my mistakes, etc.
That was 7 months ago. So it's been that long since she blocked me, 8 months since I last heard from her and 16 months since I last saw her face.
I've been on several dates with a few girls, a couple we clicked and got along, but I never dropped the 'perfect girl' desire. I don't worry about her being a virgin, but it's still a narrow field.
At this point I keep going back and forth on finding a willing and understanding partner to just fuck for a while, get my bearings then desperately start trying to get back my lost decade. Young girls don't want a somewhat eccentric 29 year old who only got his career started a year ago.
That's how I got where I am. Would I have sex with OP? Sure, probably, would want to get to know them a little first.
>>23018756
I wouldn't want to have sex with you. You sound like you are a virgin for a very good reason and should remain that way. If anyone deserves to not have sex it's someone like you. It seems like all of your fault through your entire life. I hope you don't blame anyone but yourself.
I'm obese and I'm afraid of women. In addition, every women who has shown interest in me only did on the assumption I have allot of cash (I don't, just frugal as hell) or a green card, or both, which is an instant turn off
>>23019131
I certainly do realize it is entirely my own doing. I always have. I am not the person I was 2 or 10 years ago. I don't romanticize it like I used to and am not as self-righteous as I used to be. If it ever happens, it will not be because I chose a partner, it would be because of mutual respect and attraction.
I don't blame you, I have suspected over the last 6 months or so that I exude some kind of unspoken signal, an aura if you will, of emotionally stunted desperation. I don't talk about past relationships or my sex life with women, but they all seem to know they don't want to be with me. We always get along and I have a certain appeal, but that missing part of me is something I unintentionally wear on my sleeve.
It's not upsetting to me, I would enjoy finding someone, but self-improvement and self-reliance are my primary goals for the moment.
>>23018504
32 here. I have a girlfriend... barely. And I'm super beta. Not a virgin, but that's a close one.
I guess staying a virgin is easy : add inertia with poor self-esteem and voilà, you never get the occasion to get laid.
>>23018504
>Pic related would you have sex with me?
Yes I would, but I never push for sex and I'm too afraid to ask for it/lead into it.
>>23019391
It's not all that dramatic. I doubt I could have anywhere near a normal sexual life anymore, but I'm not throwing it out yet.
>>23018504
31 year old wizard. In good shape. Vaguely popular with the ladies even.
Had oral and whatnot. I'm not interested in casual sex.
Way I figure it.
If your shot misses the berm you better be damn sure you know where that bullet is going lest you end up accidentally taking pot shots at a neighbors house.
Similarly, I feel like if I fuck a girl I should be down with the theoretical chance that I might knock the girl up. I don't think it would happen, but hey, it puts you in that mindset of thinking "Is this girl really worth it?". I haven't met a girl yet who is.
When you're contemplating plowing a girl and then you imagine her telling you "Anon, guess what!" and you recoil in revulsion you know that it's probably not a good idea to fuck her in the first place.
>>23019763
It feels dramatic to me because I see some of my own features in you. In the other hand I lost my virnig when 16, ever since fucked like a monkey, maybe +100 women. Hookers, lookers, averages, fatties, anything. But I am still broken because deep inside I tend to believe in true love and all that hurtful bullshit.
Today I am specially fucked because my long term in and out gf is not replying for month, and I want to die. No drama, just stop my existence. Rest at last.
We will see how we get out of this dark alley.
Wish you strength and courage, also luck, dear anon.
I am a wizard. So I would not have sex with you.
>>23019807
Thanks, I honestly appreciate that. I was never sure if the old phrase about love and loss was true, but it absolutely is. I am a better person because of this and I feel like there is still love in my heart or at least potential for it.
Life is a circle it seems, I never gave any girl but one a chance by pushing them away, you never gave a chance but one by pulling them all in.
I hope you find someone who shakes you to your core in all the best and worst ways, anon.
>>23018725
>>23018732
>>23018756
>>23019844
>Life is a circle it seems, I never gave any girl but one a chance by pushing them away, you never gave a chance but one by pulling them all in.
So true. At the end of the day it makes no difference that I tried to run away from my broken feelings by fucking away, while you decided to stay virnig. I had my fun, but at this stage I can tell you: it counts nothing.
>>23019888
And I still have my "purity" and I can tell you the same, it means nothing.
>>23018504
What the hell is there to describe? I'm undesirable. I'm completely unattractive and no woman would ever want to be with me. It's not exactly fucking rocket science.
>>23019791
Condoms and birth control.
1 Year away from wizardhood.
Never had a girlfriend in any capacity. No dates, no kisses, not even any hand holding.
Decent looking, 6'3" 175 lbs.
In high school, I didn't play any sports and I wasn't in any clubs. I had a group of friends, (all male), but we were more the type to have LAN parties than traditional parties. I thought to myself "girlfriends and sex are for the jocks and popular people. I'll make more of an effort at getting a girlfriend after high school."
After high school, I picked a college with night classes so I could work during the day to pay off college as I went. Also lived at home to cut down on costs. The degree I went for was IT related, so almost no women in any of my classes. The school went year round so you could finish your degree faster. So 3 years of work during the day, college classes with no women at night, and living at home. I thought to myself "I'm just making a good financial decision here. I'll work hard and have basically no social life for 3 years so I can finish college fast and with little debt. I'll make more of an effort at getting a girlfriend after college."
Once I finished college, I got a Job in IT that had me regularly working evenings. I also continued living at my parents’ house, which was out in the country, away from the city. I thought to myself "I'm busy with my job, there isn't much of a night life in the town I live in, plus even if I find a girl; who wants to be with someone who still lives with their parents? I'll make more of an effort at getting a girlfriend after I get my own place."
>>23020380
2 Years after college, I bought my first house and moved out of my parents’ house. The house I bought is much nearer to the city and there are many bars / clubs around. I tried going out a few times, but I felt very intimidated by the bar / club scene. I figured I would try online dating. I set up a profile and actually chatted with a number of women. A few of them seemed to like me, and I could have potentially gone out on a date. But then for whatever reason, I would just stop communication with them before anything happened, and lose interest in the whole idea.
And this is how things have carried on since. Every once and awhile I will get to feeling like I want to be with someone, and I will dust off the old dating profile, chat with some women, lose interest and start over. More recently, I have tried going to meetup events and speed dating events in my area. I have gotten multiple phone numbers from these events, but either I never contacted them back, or if I did, the conversation ended the same way as online; I just lose interest and stop communication.
That probably sounds insane and I can't really explain it myself. Maybe it’s anxiety, or apathy, or fear of change, or something else. I spend my time alone, and I want to have someone to spend it with, but then when I meet someone who could potentially fill that role, I end up just giving up before anything has a chance to happen.
Looking back through the years, I had lots of reasons as to why I was alone, but in reality they were just excuses, and I could have been in a relationship at any time if I had just put in the effort and followed through. That still holds true now, but I have yet to follow through, and I’m starting to think I never will.
TLDR – Beta as fuck
This thread kinda makes me feel sad for bigger guys. Not enough to sleep with one but nevertheless bad.
>>23020511
post tits then?
>>23019791
this guy is a fuckin jedi
>>23019131
That's a pretty shitty thing to say, why would you wish someone to blame himself more for their mistakes
>>23019791
Jesus Christ. Get help.
>>23018504
Its a trap
30 this september.
No sex, kiss or date yet.
I know its supposed to be a big tradgedy or something, but I honestly could not care less.
I am not a very social person, not that I hate other people, but I mostly prefer myself for company and really enjoy the silence and a good textbook.
Studied physics, then mechanical engineering, then pure math. Now I am an independent consultant in a pretty specialized area of computer science. Decent money, long hours, no time for socializing.
I guess I am not too unattractive: 1,95m (6"5 for you imperialists) 90kg (180pounds) no scars or asymetries in my face, I work out from time to time, mostly weightlifting and running.
What scares me most is ending up with a stupid girl. Being stuck for the rest of my life with someone who has not the foggiest idea what I am talking or thinking about. So until I am absolutely sure that the girl is not a retard, I do not give any signs of interest.
>>23018504
>rape or drugging her
You realize these are the same thing right? Nonconsensual sex is rape, drugged or not drugged
I'm 5 years away from it but I was never very social or ambitious and just became a layabout and dropped out of life. Being a burden on my family bothers me more than the lack of sex, and because of the abundance of porn I get lonelier than I get horny (I don't even have friends let alone a gf).
People in school would ask me silly things like "oh why don't you have a gf anon?" and I'd get a little upset like "are you serious? Have you seen me? You know I'm a fat fuck right?" (of course I never said that to them, just oh i don't know mumble mumble). You can't be delusional about being a fattie because it literally hangs all over you, I'd feel just as uncomfortable making out or getting intimate with someone as they'd feel with me when you're uncomfortable in your body you don't want to invite someone to share the discomfort.
The worst of it was when my father would ask me if I was gay, do I look like I actively choose to throw hordes of hungry vaginas to the side? I'm undesirable, I know I'm undesirable and I don't currently the willpower to change it, can't you leave it alone without humiliating me by poking at it, there's no mystery on interest I'm just fat and unambitious I'm not depriving women the nirvana of being w/ me.
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>>23018504
>Implying grill
This is me w/o a timestamp is meaningless.
>>23024061
The part that really hurt me was when at the end of middle school/beginning of high school I realized that everyone sexually evaluates you (EVERYONE at church, at school, in public, etc) even people who take no sexual interest in you regardless of how low or high you rank adjust their social 'exposure' to you based on this. I overcame this slightly by being an amiable and occasionally charming kid but I knew my destiny was implosion, I didn't do homework and despite any speeches I gave or received I knew I wasn't going to go to college or do much of anything with my life. I just got depressed early in life and gave up on it, it was an intense pre-teen fantasy of mine to have a plane crash land in the woods somewhere and just fuck off away from civilization (of course occasionally that'd include a girl crashing with me to be my wilderness wife).
When adults would try and address my issues or get me on the straight and narrow I'd sort of shut down and tell them what they wanted to hear because I hated how they always missed the point, they'd go on and on about this or that short term goal but I'd be screaming in my head but why? What's the point it all comes to nothing just let me be invisible.
It's shameful to be and act like I do but I'm slowly getting better, I've always made a point of trying not to be a burden at home but that falls fall short of getting a job and actually contributing but I'm currently in training for a job so that should be fixed soon.
Still wish I had that plane crash with future Mrs Jungle-survivor but god knows why we'd both be on a plane over the middle of nowhere to begin with.
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/blog
I'm 37, kissless, dateless, fuckless. I guess it's because I grew up a weird kid. I'm about as average as you get (5'10, skinny). I'm an accountant, and I make pretty good money. I used to have a couple friends, but they've all got married or have kids or whatever. I just never made other people a priority. I've always focused on school or my career. All I do is listen to music, watch movies and play video games. My parents are dead, so I don't see them. I'm an only child as well. The rest of my family thinks of me as a loner, so I don't get invited to parties. I'm not really unhappy though, because I brought this upon myself. I never want kids as well, because I've always felt that I'm not mature enough to handle a child.
I know that I'm probably not too late, but it's just never been worth it to me. Are other people really that great?
>>23021859
Because the only way I (or anyone) could overcome those personal shortcomings and emotional immaturity is by first admitting that it is my fault and my problem.
Hate to get all 12-steppy, but it's the damn truth. You have to be able to face yourself in the mirror if you want others to look at you with respect and/or desire.
>>23024194
Usually not, but they can be. It's completely worth all the bullshit to find someone that you really want to be with.
>>23024222
I guess I'm just not motivated enough to get with someone. It's only recently I've even started thinking about being alone. I guess I'm just worried that there'll come a point in my life when I'm not content with being alone, and it will be too late.
>>23020390
Do you have a kik?
>>23024207
I saw a lot of myself in what you said. I'm only in my 20's but I do still have family to talk to, no friends. I've given up finding a partner. I've seen too many broken marriages and I fear that I would follow suit. Should I keep excluding myself from dating so that I don't hurt others? I mean emotionally, not physically. I have a dream I would rather pursue along with my career.
>>23024231
>>23024493
Not like I can offer any evidence based advice, but I would say to just have it be part of your life to give people (women) the opportunity to impress themselves upon you, keep high standards but only in so much as you just know the kind of person you'd want to be with in a general sense, not judging others.
I don't know if either of you have had the chance, but the girl I spent the week with, he and I sat on a couch and watched movies quite a bit. We were watching something, can't remember, lying on our sides when she suddenly turned around, buried her face in my chest and wriggled in closer. I held her so tight and for the...half hour, 3 hours, I couldn't say, we laid there like that is probably the best moment of my life up to this point.
Hard to imagine, but it is worth it, if you can find it.
>>23024194
Honestly, just respond to messages from people. If you think the conversation is running slow, change the subject to something else. It makes for interesting conversations. Never too late to meet a gal.
>>23021859
Obviously he learns slow. Maybe if his parents properly disciplined him instead of spoiling him he wouldn't be where he is in life.
>>23019791
>>23019791
If you are 31 and you haven't met a girl who you wanted to sleep with it makes me think you had some kind of weird ant-social upbringing, or were raised in a really poor trailer trash kind of area. Or that you've been incapable of making female friends, or all of the above.
>>23020380
>>23020390
You seem perfectly normal. I'd be more than happy to talk to you if you wanted to. Where do you live btw?
>>23024194
Hey, OP here, would you like to talk? What's your skype?
>>23018504
Not a wizard, and doubt that's you, but I'm 33 and I always seem to end up with the girls that I'm not really into. The ones I'm the most interested in are never interested in me. I've spent most of my adult life in relationships, although I haven't dated anyone in the past year or so. The most recent girl I was into came to visit, we messed around, had a fantastic weekend together, she was really bummed out about having to go back home (since she lives about an hour and a half away), told me how much she missed me and all that.. then two weeks later, she met someone else and they started dating, and we're not on talking terms anymore.
I mean I'm better off than wizards, but I seem to have shit luck with relationships, or even casually sleeping with girls, I don't get what it is.
>>23018504
I'm still 3 years away of being a wizard but...
My first kiss was stolen, the girl just came at me and kissed me. (Not kidding!) Also wanted sex but obviously virgin me didn't want to lose it to just anyone.
I gone through college and nothing. Now I'm unemployed and stuck at home most of the time, like I always have been.
It's not like I've never meet a girl I wouldn't fuck but I wanted a reason to, not just fuck. But I can't flirt, I just talk with women like they are bros.
OP pick is sexy. 10/10
>>23024886
I have mostly female friends. I suppose I'm generally a bit anti-social, but I have oral hookups often.
A lot of guys prefer oral to sex. I have a feeling I'm one of them.
So I figure I'll reserve sex for babymaking, or at least for a girl I wouldn't be mortified to get pregnant.
Just cause I get along with a girl doesn't mean I wouldn't be horrified if I got her pregnant.
You know how most suicides are male? I have good reason to believe accidentally knocking up chicks is a big part of it. One stray sperm and you're on the hook for exorbitant child support payments for the rest of your life practically. Game over man, game over.
>>23024861
I did learn slow, but got a sudden and harsh lesson.
And before you claim that this is just flowery rhetoric, I was willing to put a lot of damning stuff into my original post. I know the shortcomings I had and I know I haven't fixed myself entirely yet, but I won't stop making all those necessary small steps.
36yo Wizard.
I wasn't even fat til about a year ago, no idea why I never lost it, just never really found anyone worth it, but then I was anti social for a lot of my life, after that it just became kind of pointless.
>>23025088
Suicide thing is off by alot.
More girls than guys attempt it. More guys are successful because they'll (usually) have access to a gun. Sociology sucks as a class, except tidbits.
>>23025211
>More guys are successful because they'll (usually) have access to a gun
So then do the successful male attempts drop in non-US countries?
>>23025088
I don't think knocking up chicks is the reason for it. You're probably just letting your personal fear of it make you think everyone feels the same way. If anything, I think it's more likely that guys not being able to get laid/get in relationships is a more likely culprit, since it's more likely to make them feel worthless or judged by others. Girls never have the same problem, since even the most unattractive girls/women I know can find some guy who wants them. Not the same for guys.
>>23025233
Most likely since guys choose more effective ways to kill themselves, or do it more forcefully. Girls are going to pussy out and take pills or slit their wrists, guys are more likely to shoot themselves, jump infront of a train, hang themselves, the likes. Not necessarily a good thing ,but I have a feeling guys are just better at successfully killing themselves overall.
>>23018504
Will be 30 in february, only ever received oral sex from some girl here in /soc/ a few years ago (paid for it).
I don't have a story for you, I stay in all the time except to go to the gym and I don't like people.
Mainly cuz i'm just a misanthropic shut-in... I've had my opportunities in the past before, especially when i lost weight, but i was just too beta back then to go for it, and now i'm fat as fuck again. It also probably doesn't help that i still live with my family as well. Hoping my chances significantly increase once i finally finish school and can afford my own place at last.
>>23018725
>>23018732
>>23018756
>>23019209
ohgod
>>23025272
I looked it up.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gender_differences_in_suicide#Statistics
>In the United States, the male-to-female suicide death ratio is estimated at 3:1.[18]
But I checked the source and I think they confused the teen rate for the overall rate because the source says
http://www.familyfirstaid.org/parenting/emotional/teen-suicide/
>More men than women die by suicide.
>The gender ratio is 4:1.
http://www.theguardian.com/society/2014/feb/18/male-suicides-three-times-women-samaritans-bristol
>The male suicide rate in the UK was 3½ times that of women in 2012, the highest ratio between the sexes in more than 30 years, official figures show .
Not xbox hueg but I'm no statistician and I'm sure you'd have to weight (or w/e the statistical term is) a slew of mental health risk factors to single out culprits.
And something I totally didn't expect:
>Among the highest rates (when categorized by gender and race) are suicide deaths for white men over 85, who had a rate of 54/100,000.
I'd assume those are ailing physical health inspired suicides
27, pretty close there. Always been called ugly by my brother and fat when I was younger triggered me hard. I have always thought of myself as weird and unwanted. Got into video games from my brother and got sucked into that really hard. Didn't make any friends through high school and am now working in retail going nowhere. I don't feel too bad about this, but am disappointed in myself. I have lost a bit of weight and am starting to better myself.
>>23018725
>>23018732
>>23018756
TLD fucking R
>>23025414
These sum it up pretty well.
>>23019131
>>23019858
>>23025346
I have never made eye contact with a girl my own age. In fact, I think it's a fair bet that I've made less than 24 hours of eye contact in my 24 year life. It's not redundant to say that I have never had a female friend, because I never made eye contact with any of my friends when they were still around. I have never held a conversation with a woman outside of my family who was not paid to interact with me- a teacher, dentist, secretary, etc. Even then, I think I'm stretching the word "conversation" a bit too much.
I despise and mistrust women. I mistrust most people, but that's altogether separate. I fear intimacy. I have never watched porn. I have had nightmares that were nothing but sexual images simply because I find it revolting. Such dreams have woken me up my turning on my gag reflex. I am still attracted to women. One cannot help these things. I would be asexual if I could. In high school, I used to think about girls constantly and daydream about them in class, before bed, in every idle moment I had. Two years of neethood and nearly four years of college later, I'm just bitter. I have no outlet for these emotions. It goes without saying that, by the end of this year, I will have finished college without ever touching a woman.
>>23018504
5 more years, sit the fuck down and watch me ascend.
>>23025850
On never knows.
>>23024260
wzd5711
>>23024886
I live in Minnesota.
All I ever cared about was my career. I couldn't be bothered to "waste time" on women. I'm 29 now, I have a very decent career, earn more money than I can spend, but I'm starting to feel lonely.
Everybody around me is getting married, or having kids, and I don't have anyone to hang out with any more.
Got 7 more months to wizardhood. Sucks, and not looking like it'll change any time soon.
>>23018504
cause
I won't sleep with sluts
and the girls I have been interested in
weren't interested in me
or were overseas
or already were in a relationship
and a girl who would break up or cheat on her boyfriend
just to be with me
isn't the type of girl I want.
>>23018504
Because I was in a coma for ten years from age 16 to age 26. When I got out, I had to relearn a lot of things, and frankly I've been more focused on getting my life on track in other areas (getting a degree, etc) than sex or partying.
I just turned 30.
Yes I'd have sex with you. I'm not sure what the point of asking that is, though.
>>23020380
>Once I finished college, I got a Job in IT that had me regularly working evenings. I also continued living at my parents’ house, which was out in the country, away from the city. I thought to myself "I'm busy with my job, there isn't much of a night life in the town I live in, plus even if I find a girl; who wants to be with someone who still lives with their parents? I'll make more of an effort at getting a girlfriend after I get my own place."
I am literally following your footsteps. I am at that stage right now. I work nights, and live at home. Only difference is I have had sex one time in the past, although i don't count it because it sucked, and it was all pressure. a friend told some girl to fuck me. so it really was worthless and pointless.
it's kinda hard for a wizard serial killer to get some consensual alive pussy
>>23018504
one year short to be a wizard
only two relationships were complicated
and i am a, i am in love, she's the one kind of guy
and don't want meaningless sex with a random girl
even if the appeal increases every day
>>23018504
and i would have sex with you
if we got to know and love eachother
3 months till I hit Wizard status.
I hope a bus kills me before then.
>>23027981
a wizards life is great, just start killing random bimbos and you'll start feeling better
>>23024006
Shut up tumblr
>>23028038
Try formulating an argument without using the words tumblr, reddit, or beta
>>23028047
Shut up
>>23028049
Come to Florida and make me bitch
>>23028054
SHUT UP
>>23028059
COME ON DIWN AND MAKE ME BITCH, ILL BEAT SOME SENSE INTO YOU
only if we agree on no face or crotch shots, don't wanna damage the merchandise
>>23028072
Fine
But you have to come pick me up at the airport I've never been to Florida
>>23018504
I'm pretty socially awkward and don't have a whole lot of self esteem. I find it hard to believe that girls are attracted to me so I don't make the first move which is a killer as far as sex life is concerned. I'll be a wizard in February.
Skype is beadebaser if you want to chat
>cockteasing old, pathetic virgins online
see das da kinda shit dat make a nigga choke-a-bitch
>>23028458
Wait, who are you mad at?
>>23024098
i feel you man, fuck.
>>23026502
>wzd5711
You should make a skype of this I'd talk to you.
>>23025448
OP here. HOW is any of that possible? Whoa.
As for the second paragraph I'm really sorry you feel that way and hope you get better.
Just total social autism. That isn't to say I was never given a chance, it's just my extreme fear of sex/intimacy
Had a girl bent over presenting herself to me, and I literally ran away in fear
>>23018504
30+ virgin here. Not sure where things went wrong. It feels like I developed late, and never had a normal interest in intimacy.
I've kissed and gotten oral twice, but only because the female initiated. I was uninterested in having sex with either of them, even though they were attractive. I'd do it now just to get it out of the way and see if it would maybe jump-start normal sexual thoughts for me.
So yes, I'd have sex with the girl in the picture, if I could trick myself into feeling something
>>23026414
I swear to fucking God, if I hear those three words one more time...
>>23018504
how the fuck do I know if I am a wizard or not? What makes a man a wizard?
I'm only 20 bit I'm a kissless virgin, feels real bad.
>>23030321
>how
You're probably thinking I'm fat. I'm not. I tend to point to my unpleasant voice as the reason why I'm like this, but I probably have something wrong with me mentally as well, but I don't intend to find out. Who knows. I'm just defective.
>>23025211
Top kek. Go slap your feminist teacher.
Girls cry suicide for attention at a far higher rate than men and boys. That get mixed all up in there.
Men are WAY more likely to commit suicide. Don't make excuses for it.
Recently be-wizarded wizard here.
Growing up I was a tremendously nerdy kid in rural Texas. Also a poor kid at a rich school. My social status was terrible, and when I finally worked up the nerve to start asking girls out it was one horrible rejection after another. Like afternoon TV movie bad. As much high school viciousness as you can imagine. Each time this happened it took longer and longer to work up the courage to try again.
So I got to college and had terrible self-esteem. First week there I met a cute girl who was super into Neil Gaiman, got her back to my room, actually started progressing somewhere, and then totally botched trying to unhook her bra. She asked me if I was a virgin. I said yes. She pulled her shirt back on and walked out of the room, saying she didn't want to deal with that.
I went a little crazy after that. Stopped being social and slowly spiraled down in mental health over a number of years. By the time I pulled myself out of being suicidally depressed, I was out of school and working.
I more or less threw myself into work to pull out of it. My job has a pretty intense schedule with a lot of international travel, and I love it, but once I was stable enough to think again about trying anything with women, I was in my late 20s. At that age people aren't all that interested in trying to start a relationship with someone who may only be home 6 months total out of the year.
I'm weirdly okay with all of this. I generally like who I've become as a person, I'm really good at a really awesome job, and I stay in shape with a lot of running and rock climbing. I'm not sure how I'd even fit a relationship into my life at this point.
I also don't want some random hookup, because the people around me who admit to that sort of thing are all pretty terrible in a lot of ways, and I'd rather not mimic them.
the tl;dr:
>Awful teen and college experiences led to mental health issues, and once better I devoted myself to becoming kick-ass.
>>23031236
Sounds a lot like me. I'm just happy the years of depression and constant anxiety are behind me.
>>23030307
Sure, I'll be around this weekend. Hit me up whenever.
>>23031130
I didn't actually think you are fat. I honestly figured something was wrong with you mentally.
>>23031424
Added you.
>>23018504
Gonna be level 34 wizard next week. Went from awkward kid to awkward teen to awkward adult and pretty much have been a shut-in for my entire adult life. So its wake up go to work and come home every day. I see and interact with females at work, but I have no idea or concept how to go about approaching one to start a relationship with, which is more what I'd like at this stage in my life, someone to get to know and have something serious with, not just someone to have sex with. I've actually been trying to be a bit more social and also get in better shape, but both things will take time. I also need to get past feeling like I'm inherently broken inside even though a lot of my issues are self-inflicted or even non-issues. I've actually talked with 2 girls from /soc over the years who were looking for virgins, but never really finalized any plans to actually go through with it. The first one we actually went out for a while and I kind of fell hard for her emotionally even though she didn't feel the same way I felt. The second we would sext and stuff but that too ended. Going just from a physical standpoint, who wouldn't want to have sex with you OP. Anyway, that's my story.
35. Funny enough, if I had to pick an ultimate root cause, it would be moving between school districts in third grade. But that only started a complex chain of events. I found it difficult to make friends at the new school, didn't join any extra curriculars, didn't go to any social events. Started getting bullied and got even more introverted. Basically a spiral where I had no confidence so no socialization.
After high school it was a little different, but in college I didn't socialize either and didn't do well. Dropped out, got a job, and it all got better eventually, but I was oblivious to the signals and still a gigantic pussy, assuming women wouldn't be into me. So nothing ever happened.
Yes, I would fuck the girl in that picture.
Bad teeth.
>>23018732
my god you seem like a hueg faget/loser
I might if we had dated long enough. HMU just waiting for someone to earn the privilege.
>>23038418
Gay ass angle. And clean your fucking room
>>23019791
That's why I had a vasectomy at 21. Meana No worries for the rest of my dayass!
If I was a girl, I'd fuck wizards only.
>>23038326
I was, hence why the story is told in such a damning way.
Anyone in ny? I'm asking for a friend
>>23038903
If I was a desirable girl I'd save myself for the sweetest most modest wizard out there, make all of his romantic and sexual dreams come true and be his for life. If he wanted me of course. God knows there are plenty of male virgins out there waiting for the right one.
>>23018504
Was molested/abused by my aunt and cousins between the ages of 3-13. Kinda fucked up all my libido and/or romantic notions towards sex and women in general. Can't remember ever getting as much as even an erection in the company of women. Not into gay stuff either.
>Pic related would you have sex with me?
No.
I only got four more years to go!
The powers of a wizard will be mine due to being way too considerate.
>>23038903
>>23039141
There aren't any guarantees potentially a lot of effort wasted on someone who'll then gain the confidence to move on and ditch yah.
>>23038910
Just the state or nyc specifically? I'm in one of the uncool not-manhattan boroughs.
>meeting channers irl
I like my spleen.
>>23027336
pls give details
