Mental Illness Thread
who /crazy/ here, post pics and chat
>a/s/l
>diagnosis
>Are you on any medications?
>Have you been hospitalized?
>>22940424
Im crazy from drugs, that count?
>>22940424
>a/s/l
20/f/ny
>diagnosis
depression, schizophrenia
>Are you on any medications?
not right now
>Have you been hospitalized?
yess
>>22940424
>>28/m/wv
>>Anxiety/Depression (possibly schizotypal)
>>Prozac 40mg QD
>>Not yet
23 male
Bipolar
No fuck that noise
Psych ward for a week, tried to push schizo diagnosis cause they're retarded
24 male
Depression
a few
yes once/therapy
Some of you fuckers think its romantic to be damaged. Just get help.
everyone on this board is mentally ill
>>22940497
Haven't seen you in a while. How're things?
>a/s/l
25/M/CA
>diagnosis
treatment-resistant major depression, OCD, depersonalization disorder, GAD, PTSD, HPPD, substance abuse
>Are you on any medications?
5mg olanzapine
>Have you been hospitalized?
Yes
>>22940424
Social anxiety, body dysmorphic disorder schizo here
20/m/Sweden/USA
Postaphobia. It's a deep fear of posting on forums.
went through a pretty bad deal, but got better
>a/s/l
25/m/usa
>diagnosis
depression, bipolar disorder, schizoaffective disorder (they never could figure it out)
>Are you on any medications?
tried ssri's, anti psychotics, mood stablizers
>Have you been hospitalized?
5 times between 2009-2011
it gets better /soc/ trust me
M/30/USA
ASPD former alcoholic
Nope unless you count booze
Fuck that shit NO!
Im one of the only people that I know that can have this condition and not be a total shitlord to everybody.
>a/s/l
23/f/US
>diagnosis
multiple anxiety disorders, severe depression
>Are you on any medications?
Not anymore
>Have you been hospitalized?
Not yet. Probably should've been a few times.
Fortunately (I guess) I keep attracting schizos/sociopaths/bipolar dudes, so I don't usually feel so crazy.
convince me that depression of any severity is real and that its not just people being man children that cant cope with real world problems
>a/s/l
22/f/canada
>diagnosis
borderline personality with emotional dysregulation, depression, and anxiety
>Are you on any medications?
no i was on effexor for 2 yrs when i was a teen tho, bad times.
>Have you been hospitalized?
nope
>>22942464
BPD...damn I thought I had it bad. If you don't reign that shit in you are basically a fucking monster who ruins the lives of every person who is deluded to like you. And that's coming from the sociopath. Stay strong keep a handle on that bullshit
sup
>>22942509
man people sure are hard on us borderlines
i'm no monster :< i was a force to be reckoned with when i was a teen tho. Thankfully my meds seem to have fucked with my memories so I don't remember all of it. Meds also caused me to be catatonic at certain points
LSD helped me maybe? It did this thing where i had to confront my own behaviour and so like acid was fun but never that much fun because it wouldn't let me ignore the way i've acted
also my dad getting sick and dying was a big wake up call
also i stopped abusing alcohol when he died. Not like, immediately, cause like my friend died a couple months later and everyone needed to be drunk for a while
I'm agoraphobic. That's my only issue but actually really serious. Completely fucked my life up. It's still not under control. Even once it is I'll feel like it set me back really far.
>>22940424
20/m/IL
>diagnosis
Depression
>Are you on any medications?
Celexa and Effexor
>Have you been hospitalized?
No
>>22942547
Good call. alcohol and bpd are bitter foes. And yeah im probably overly hard on bpd folks having lived with one. Sounds like you have your shit together as much as is to be expected. ALOT of you guys get waaaaaaay too into the pot thing. The whole self medication becomes addiction (like me and the booze).
>>22942586
ehh i still smoke weed but not like constantly like i used to. I was still smoking a lot when i was living with rms but never really bought it for myself. I'll go really hard with whatever drug and then drop it after a while. Alcohol was the one that stuck.
Don't really have my shit together but i've sort of been reverting to an infantile state but not like in a brat way just embracing comfy and crying a lot and the amount of stuffed animals i have like tripled but yeah basically comfy and blanket town keeps me from being mega crazy bitch
>>22942623
Dude, you deserve such a hug.
I've been in a similar, shut down state. More invalid that infant. But I feel you and empathize.
>>22942643
thanks man :')
i have a boyfriend and he's real good about this stuff even though i know it's hard on him. He's just been so patient tho that i've had enough time to turn it around and want to do better for him, and work on a way to wanna do it for myself as well
he says he doesn't know what to do for me and i know he really has no fucking clue what's going on in my head sometimes, and it's not like i can explain it well either, but he does just fine and i've been trying to give back lately
30 m Aussie
Depression
Ciprimil (been on it for years, works great but gives me ED so need to take Viagra to bone a chick properly :( )
Not hospitalised
18/m/usa
Depression, anxiety
Yes
Yes
>>22942670
Beware l've heard that bpd story "I want to do better for him" that's because because he's on that pedestal. Once he falls off you will accuse him of keeping you from doing better by your wanting to do better for him. You will then dump or cheat on him and probably ruin his life. Unless you are prepared. He could be a real life saint and you would shit all over him. And I wouldn't worry too much about the shutdown. Might be a reset period for you.
>>22942738
whoa what the fuck
i really don't think i'll do that to him
the really shit part of our relationship when i was real crazy is over. I think. Has been for a good year now. Was a couple years before that of me being completely insane but then i got cats and calmed down
i know what it's like to put someone on a pedestal. I've done it soooo many times. With him it was different. None of the mania in my feelings for him. We were good friends for the longest time so I had a better chance of getting to know him before i built up my idea of him
>>22940424
>>28/m/usa
>>diagnosis: social anxiety, depression (i'm pretty sure I have schizotpal personality)
>>Are you on any medications?- Prozac 40mg QD
>>Have you been hospitalized?
Not yet
>>22942755
Then you are waaaaaaaaaaay beyond most people your age with this condition. I would still watch myself if I where you. But you really don't sound as bad as most of the bpd people I've met (lots my condition and bpd attract each other like fire and gasoline) and yes I honestly believe cats are some kind of paranormal force sent down by a god or alien to adjust the mental health of humans. Or it could be the t-gondi but w/e. I like my cat just fine and I've never had an ounce of empathy for any living thing.
>>22942755
seriously everytime i mention i have bpd and then mention i have a boyfriend people tell me about how it's all gonna go to shit sooner or later and i'm gonna somehow ruin him
desu senpai i know that pedestal and i've perched many a partner on it but when shit hits the fan i tend to completely remove myself from the situation and sometimes that involves moving cities. The only time actually after a breakup that i was intent on hurting my ex or at least the prospect of hooking up with someone was extra appealing (his best friend) he never found out... i don't think. One time! Many break ups! Don't feel bad about it, just a little weird.
>>22942775
"When it hits the fan"
"Change cities"
"Extra appealing"
"His best friend"
"Many breakups"
Textbook
>>22942772
yes yes sorry if I'm defensive it's just i didn't have a diagnosis until a few months back and so a lot of this shit is new to me but maaan does it ever put a lot of shit into perspective. I really /am/ nuts was a big one. None of this just "feeling" crazy. But even though bpd was news to me i've been in and out of therapy for about 14 years and have genuinely wanted to get better because i've felt like shit since i was a kid
>34/m/southeast US
>dual diagnosis - depression/GAD/Cluster B personality traits/alcoholism
>used to be on Celexa and welbutrin
>hospitalized twice in 2012
I struggled with alcohol all throughout my 20's. I couldn't figure out why I couldn't control my drinking. I would stop drinking for a couple weeks, then a switch would flip and I would basically be powerless over my craving/obsession to get drunk. Once I had the first drink, it was on. I drank until I passed out or ran out of resources. Fortunately my last drink was August 24, 2013. And perhaps not surprisingly, the depression/anxiety have cleared up to an extent where I don't need medication any more.
>>22942786
No worries. I'm a little confrontational about it too. But the therapy is probably your biggest helper. Most of my run ins with the condition have been untreated people.
>>22942775
its true
if you care about him at all youll disappear from his life. trust me in this, anon.
source: experience
>>22942793
I have a cousin with BPD. Before I got diagnosed I was talking to my aunt (his mom) about my upcoming psychiatry appointment and how BPD was one of the things my mental health pros mused about and she was like there's no way u have BPD because i guess her son's a little bit out of control and way into hard drugs and might have maybe stolen her wedding ring for drugs
but it's nice to know it runs in the family and that i could go down that path too
>>22942800
fuuuuu desu senpai i deserve happiness too :<
>>22942793
hey ur not perchance a kentucky boy are you
there was this kentucky pretty-sure-was-a-sociopath i had a little fling with online a few years back that i almost dox'd because "i'll hurt you like you hurt me" ofc i thought his pride was the only thing i could wound
>a/s/l
22, F, europe
>diagnosis
Bipolar/borderline personality/PTSD
>Are you on any medications?
Duloxetine/Ergenyl/Alimemazine/nozinan/zyprexa and melatonin
>Have you been hospitalized?
Over 13 times, longest one now. Been here for 3 and a half weeks
>>22942868
Forgot to mention, did my last ECT yesterday
>>22942822
Nope not on your victim chain. I (and I say this with no bullshit) I'm one of the ones that use the void for good
>a/s/l
23/m/Devon, England
>diagnosis
PDNOS (Though I suspect BPD)
>Are you on any medications?
No, might be soon though
>Have you been hospitalized?
No
>tfw no similar BPD gf who acquired it through similar childhood abuse as me
>>22942809
perhaps, but not at the expense of another.
>a/s/l
24/m/il
>diagnosis
Major depression, anxiety, slight aspergers
>Are you on any medications?
Prozac
>Have you been hospitalized?
No
Getting to the point where I cant get out of bed unless it's for work. Finally on the downward spiral
>>22940568
Pretty much
>25/m/uk
>depression/anxiety
>yes, see pic
>nope :)
>22/male/Israel
>PTSD, depression, social anxiety
>Been on medications for a year. Stopped taking them two months ago
>for a night
Been through shit in the army, served in Gaza last year. But i was diagnosed with social anxiety way before, nothing that kept me out i was just a bit awkward.
>>22940424
Totally insane reporting.
>>22942868
>>22942871
I could love you, please love yourself.
24/M/UK
Body Dysmorphia
Not currently (was on Sertraline for a long time)
No
Suicidal drug addicted narcissistic sociopath reporting in~
24/f/UK
BPD, ED, addiction etc
No and no
I like NPDs and sociopaths
KIK me: 0.ng46
18 male
major depression, gneralized anxiety and BPD sup people ive wanted to die every single day for 2 years and was hospitalized for 9 months :D
specificfiction is my snapchat hmu
27/f/us.
Broke a glass days ago. Guess I fucking missed some shards because I just cut my damn foot. Is this how ppl meet on 4chan?
I've been hospitalized 3-5 times. I'm on Zoloft ATM. At my worst I was on highest dose of Zoloft and Xanax. RN my problem is drinking too much and I cut my foot
>>22946556
Ouch.
>a/s/l
19/M/WA
>diagnosis
Severe chronic depression. GAD. Disassociative disorder.
>Are you on any medications?
No. I've been on so many, I'm done with them.
>Have you been hospitalized?
Yes, multiple times.
Anyone live near Tacoma wanna talk and maybe hang out some time?
>>22946556
i want to lick the blood off your foot
>>22940424
18/m/Fl
Diagnosis: ASD and GAD. They go together perfectly. By perfectly I mean they make social skills near impossible.
Meds? No Meds, though Adderall would help me the fuck out
Hospitalized?: Nah,
22/m
Borderline Personality Disorder with psychopathic tendencies. I'm on sertrenaline for depression, as far as my doctor knows. I'm not depressed but the sertrenaline represses the anger that accompanies my BPD.
Never hospitalized, don't intend on it.
24/m
depression
severe anxiety possibly psychotic
hospitalized twice
taking 30mg, abilify, 100mg asentra, 150mg Wellbutrin xr
>a/s/l
21/m/SWE
>diagnosis
Paranoid Schizophrenia and ADD
>Are you on any medications?
Should be, I'm not taking them though.
>Have you been hospitalized?
Yes.
23/m/MO
Anxiety disorder and depression
I used to be on Lexapro and Celexa. I took something for my mood as well... don't remember the name, messed with my sexual encounters and memory. Stopped taking them a few months after prescription.
I was in the psych ward for 1-2 weeks. It happened two years ago about a week or two after my first panic attack. I had suicidal thoughts due to the first meds my doctors prescribed me. I just wanted to go home and I didn't have health insurance at the time. Was a dark and scary Christmas season.
>>22940424
>29/m/Washington State
>Severe depression, anxiety, suicidal ideation, ADHD
>anti-depressant and addies
>No, but should have been a couple times
I had it for over a decade, pride and obsessive self-reliance prevented me from even admitting it. I wasted a decade of my life. It took ruining the first real relationship I ever had and absolutely breaking the perfect girl's heart, causing her to never speak to me again.
I'm honestly in a great place now. I am not 'better' and I don't think I ever will be. I accepted meds when I realized my natural state was not one where I would ever accomplish anything and I needed help. I do not endorse them for everyone, but counseling is almost universally helpful.
I'm a 29 year old virgin (not kissless though). I want a pretty girl I can exchange v-cards with, then have lots of great, regular sex. Cuddle a lot, get comfortable with each other and be loving for each other.
One of the side effects of getting better is finally getting serious long term about physical health. I've lost 60 pounds in a year and will keep them off for good. Not trying to brag, but I have turned myself into bearmode.
Numerous people have described me as a catch, and not just trying to be nice.
I want to be a loving, supporting, attractive and honest person for a female equivalent.
I get caught in 'do I deserve this?' traps and pits of self-loathing on occasion, but I'm a realistic, stable and [trying to be] good person who wants to get my life started.
schizoaffective disorder, ptsd, megalomania, delusions of grandeur, extensive drug abuse, on 3 psych meds, one of which I am physically addicted to (Serquel, anti-psychotic). Multiple psych wards.
Also, girl problems, which are worse than the above combined.
Also, hella smart, high-functioning college grad with my own business, etc.
>>22948447
ps. pic related, it's the grill trouble. I worked with her for months, was going to ask her out. On her last day in town I gave her a love letter and one of my precious stuffed animals. She never replied. I wonder what that means... did she have a partner? Did I seem dumb with my sentimental high-school declaration of True Love? Did my book which I lent her creep her out cuz it's some heavy shit? Is she a lezbian?
I am grateful I had the chance to tell her how I felt. I'm not sure if a rejection from her would have been better than silence... I miss her so much. Thanks for listening, just hit me with your best shot.
>25 female mass
>schizo, cluster B
>>>sort of
yes
19/Female/Israel
>Schizophrenia (Which includes waves of depression, hearing things, all the social anxiety.)
>Mood stabilizers work for me. (The positive symptoms of hearing things aren't too critical to justify the side-effects of using meds against it, at least that's what the army says.)
Pic related it's me
>>22949225
Do you hear things like "sup hottie?"
>>22949238
So funny and witty XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
No.
>>22947928
>SWE
Sweden or South West England?
If the latter we should hang
>>22949272
i tried.
>>22949278
Poorly.
>>22949274
you're fucking retarded
>>22949279
This is 4nhac lower your expectations. You're cute though
>>22949285
Good thing I don't have any expectations to begin with. Sadly I can't really react positively to cancer such as >>22949238
26F US
>GAD/social anxiety (severe),with ocd behaviours, and depression. Also fibromyalgia but that is physical.
>effexor, which was awful awful shit. now on amitriptyline hcl (elavil)
Elavil just makes me tired a lot but is supposed to help with the pain, tho I find good bud is more effective
Never been hospitalized for anything and hospitals terrify me
I meet people but never form longterm friendship because that also terrifies me
I used to simply connect with people thru casual sex which left me even more empty and detached
Bleh
>>22949290
>>22948423
Sounds like someone I would fuck. Plus you get the depression/anxiety/add combo. Oh yeah I also have add but never medicated for it because "treating the depression first is more important" (is it?)
Of course then I wouldn't want anything to do with you afterwards other than the occasional hang.
>>22948473
I think getting it off your chest was the best thing to do. and her not replying is probably her way of trying to let you down gently even though it is kind of rude. But she was probably freaked out.
>>22949305
>>22949292
I know I said I wanted a v-card exchange, but I have an insanely high sex drive and am getting to a point where I might just want to look for that sweet, perfect girl and play catch up on the decade of teen/20-something sex I missed out on.
Long story short, why don't we chat? Just to see where it goes. I prefer skype but have kik.
>>22940424
>18/f/va
>autism, anxiety, depression, add
>concerta 18mg and prozac 15mg
>no
>>22949319
Well I do have family in Seattle but I'm not flying there until next yr haha. I can be a sweet person but uh perfect, no. Also I'm sure it'd be incredibly unhealthy but hey, that's my MO. But yeah I'm down to just talk. What's your kik
>>22949332
I'm just exploring parts of life I very unhealthily avoided for a long time. I'm not already getting nude, just chatting.
It's commiscore
>>a/s/l
23/M/NV
>>diagnosis
Clinical depression, anxiety
>>Are you on any medications?
Lamictal
>>Have you been hospitalized?
3 times
>>22949281
Explain.
>>22949339
>>22949332
Or perhaps not, I'm going to bed. Have a good one.
