post your favorite song recently and current feel ITT
demoralized
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=re9WgHQEVBk
Empty and tired.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pZ4t-zLiWTs
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cu4nYJ5rdSI
>go to bar to hang out with friends
>drink 3 beers
>come home buzzed
>be depressed about my life
Weezer - Tired of Sex
My friend had such a colossally shitty life and I couldn't do anything about it other than comfort her and let her stay at my place when her folks kicked her out. Eventually she couldn't take it anymore and killed herself. It's horrible feeling, knowing you couldn't do anything to save someone...she was a very good person. She listened.
This on top of my own depression does not bode well for me.
Just another shitty day of going through the motions.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CV1sw9mj914
Also currently listening to edgy shit.
>>65847205
>Built to Spill - Car
Pretty sure I just failed another exam. I find it hard to focus and just end up sitting there daydreaming about being cool for like 8 hours while listening to some dank albums. Is this what the 20s entail?
Also I kinda said I had to go and walked off when this old man asked me to help put his shoe on that was halfway off. I kinda feel bad about it. When I said I had to go he said "Fuck you" kek
>>65847410
Hey man, you tried. Try worrying about yourself now.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8egtsFtbhDQ
Bored, lonely (despite friends and shit), empty. I constantly go through motions of never-quite-happy. Lost. I am a successful person in the career sense of the word but I am so mentally gone that I just sit on 4chan/the internet and play old games hating myself every weekday. I have something repressed that I need to let go of or something. The cycles have been the same for years (hence me still being here). It's weird to explain it. I'm not suicidal or anything, I just go through the motions.
>>65847264
from life or something in particular?
>>65847290
Amen man. I wish I had an answer for you. Maybe you need to let go of your past like I think I do. Good song though, I like that.
>>65847316
I do the same except drink more. Once or twice a week is it though.
>>65847410
That's terrible man. Hopefully you can learn from it and not repeat it. I'm sorry you have to go through that.
>>65847529
I feel this way a lot. What's the point of it all? I often tell myself it's to find happiness despite the fact it's all pointless, but where does that happiness lie?
>>65847612
I would feel awful about that. That makes me sad to read, which kinda reminds me I do have emotions somewhere in there. As far as your finding it hard to focus and daydreaming...yeah it gets worse. Do something you really fucking love I guess.
>>65847316
>>65847868
forgot to mention i liked this song too
>>65847612
>just end up sitting there daydreaming about being cool for like 8 hours while listening to some dank albums. Is this what the 20s entail?
I'm 22 and I spent a couple hours mowing the grass today listening to music and going back and forth between daydreaming about being cool and thinking about how shitty of a future I could have.
Molly Drake - I Remember
I miss her so much. I wish she spoke to me. My doctor said its urgent I see a psychiatrist or I might get committed but I'm too scared. I'm garbage at making up melodies so I have a songbook of just lyrics.
I don't think I can begin to be happy unless I'm successful in the career sense so at least you have one thing figured out.
RiFF RAFF - $4 Million
I wanna kill myself so badly.
FUCK EVERYTHING I JUST WANT TO PLAY FUCKING VIDEO GAMES
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hpsbj0OoeNo
>>65848266
That bit where he says "video games" and completely fucking fails at double tracking his vocals
That's fucking youth man
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=of63-DLswKA
>be interested in girl from my college who i met in February
>she was in a relationship at the time but showed interest in me
>they broke up last month
>despite me thinking she broke up with him to be with me, she actually cried about it to me and talked about how painful the breakup was
>mfw i'm friendzoned
>suck it up and still talk to her
>she starts going through a lot of shit that she doesn't want to involve me in because she knows i'm more of an emotional wreck than she is
>go on Yik Yak(yeah i know it's normie-tier, deal with it)
>see a post saying "When you feel slutty but don't have a boyfriend! What will I do?"
>think to myself, "that's funny, it's kinda how she types."
>read through thread
>op is talking about how she broke up with her boyfriend last month, how she's been dealing with the stress of it and wants to get fucked already
>she mentions "this guy i know" who she thinks of as "a nice guy, but not my type"
>mfw it is her
>mfw the girl i've developed feelings for over the past few months is a typical slut
i don't know why i thought she'd be different. oh well.
>>65848129
Dude, trust me, seeing a psychiatrist is not as bad as it seems. They're there to help you. If the medicines you're prescribed don't help you, you have the right to stop taking them and inform the doctor so they can put you on something that works for you.
Please Anon, see a psychiatrist. I don't want to see you in any more pain.
>>65848266
Keked
this tbqhfamily
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CGKN6qiDqnk
i know this band is just pitchfork flavor of the month and will not be remembered very long, but this song/record is perf summer vibes
>>65848568
I go through episodes where I think they're mind control men trying to brainwash me with their medications. I don't know if I can afford a psychiatrist, either.
High coming back from LA from picking up on some bud
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=tBfWb5IrbOI
>>65848501
she doesnt find you attractive dude, nothng you can do about it. its not really rational for you to hate her for it. it sucks all you can do is move on
>>65848654
I can promise you that they're not "mind control men". Before I was put on my medicines, I was going through a period where my life was in shambles and I had a major mental breakdown. I was absolutely miserable and was committed.
It took a while to get to a state where I was of sound mind. It was tough. And I was just 14. But I'm a lot better off now than I was then. Am I 100% back to being totally normal? No. But I'm closer.
It's been 5 years since I was committed OP, but I can tell you that it wasn't pleasant. Not because of the treatment, but because I was in an unfamiliar environment and away from my family and friends. I'd hate to see anyone go through the same thing.
Please see a psychiatrist, your insurance should cover it. Please.
I believe in you. <3
>>65848800
i don't care that she doesn't find me attractive, it's not about that. like i said, i decided to suck it up at one point and realize i wouldn't be in a relationship with her. yeah, i still had feelings for her, but it's not about that. it's because she had told me when we first met that she "hates slutty people," and a bunch of other things that were signs, to me at least, that she wasn't a slut. but now i see that she was either lying or has made a full 180.
it was one of her redeeming qualities. i saw a girl who was, in a certain sense, still pure and innocent. but now that's gone.
Tired and a little drained. Feeling like I'm going through a major transition but I'm not. I think that's just summer though. I wish I could relax and fall asleep. I wish me and my lady were doing a little better right now. Tomorrow will be a good day though.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T78hj0oKnfY
>>65848976
>girl says she hates sluts
>is actually a slut
are you really that surprised
>>65849150
i am, but i know i shouldn't be.
>>65849335
lol don't get jaded dude it sucks that she turned out to be something she said she hated but really it's fine if she wants to fuck other dudes. its lame but your only choice is to move on
song:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sst7DmVsqkw
feel:
>Fuck this gay earth
>happy because lost virginity
>sad because favorite venue closed
Brian Eno - Discreet Music
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=tLZtnadL1s0
>>65848266
sounds like courtney barnett
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g4zAZuB6jBk
I've been slowly coming out of a very long period of severe depression and isolation. I want to finally feel happy and be at peace with myself, and in order to do that, I need to be at peace with the friends and loved ones that I've hurt by my reckless and all around shitty behavior over the past few years, but I'm just too much of a pussy to do it.
I'm terrified that I'll be rejected or completely ignored. I'm not good at handling that kind of shit. It'd just make me depressed and miserable and cause me to become a complete shut-in all over again and I don't fucking want that!
Fillmore Jive - Pavement (Crooked Rain, Crooked Rain)
>I want to sleep
Fill in the Blank - Car Seat headrest
Gf of six months just left for a six month study abroad trip in Russia, little to no contact
Not even sad, just kind of irritated and relieved that I have so much free time now
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NfXVXcYV_LU
Feeling intensely annoyed at but also tired of life? Idk.
I'm really digging Subways
I accidentally got really drunk and cried to a friend on facebook about how I failed with a mutual friend of ours and am not looking forward to dealing with the aftermath of this at all
Suicidal Thoughts by Biggie
https://youtu.be/-6ChkExqv2E
>Tfw no Nordic country I'm native to to defend from Abrahamic religions and degeneracy
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=RSTJJKffsPI
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gyt3c5IdUZQ
qt said she when we should get coffee when she comes back from WA. This was in may, i'm worried she might not care. She has my number and everything.
long time lurker first time poster
you all have shit taste in music
just awful
god
fucking
awful
no wonder this place is hailed as the fucking shittiest board on the site
I feel bummed and stuck atm, but we're getting there
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7tK4pkKYu1Y
Just graduated, realized this has all been hyped up far too much, about to go to school for a career I hate, still living in the shadow of my older brother, realized I'll never see half the people I've grown up with ever again. Think I'm going to drop out and enlist. My only worry is I'll be moving across my country and then I'll see even less of those I've grown with. Not happy with a single aspect of my life
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9EgLB1_FXqg
>>65847205
Cloud of Unknowing
i feel fine but everybody believes I shouldn't
best of sade
lifes goin alright.
could always be better. smoke too much weed. cant decide what to do with my life. pretty educated can probably enter any field.
dont want to do anything other than get high listen to tunes and watch tv with sprinkled hobbies/exercise/other people.
lifes objectively pretty good but still somethings lacking
Bruce Springsteen - Racing in the Street
>tfw I haven't talked to her in two years but she's still all I think about
Worried
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VvhfQ-hnArU
>>65851108
I know that feel all too well
Nick Drake- Joey
>tfw anxious all the time
>Recent Song
Trancelike Void - Unveiling the Silent Arm of Despair I
>Feel
Went to bed really early since being asleep is better than being awake and now I can't go back to bed in the middle of the night.
>>65848501
That's unfortunate and pretty shitty. I guess what the only thing you could do is move on really. Or flirt with her on yik yak and throw her off.
>>65851549
>tfw anxious all the time
I know that feel. I wish I could help you.
>>65847205
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1tFjx2jHwIA
MaccyD - Without Me
Tired, very anxious although no real reason to be.
>>65850635
You think so familia? I think it's the best. Cancer and elitism comes with the territory, but don't doubt that we have the best memes.
>>65851549
I wish i could as well
>>65851917
I wish i could as well
Radiohead - True Love Waits
Really good. I've just found out that I'm graduating with a very high degree!
>>65850635
post chart, I've been looking to try some different music lately anyway, I'll listen to ur faves
Monster Magnet - Third Alternative
idk, good i guess. A bit worried and uncertain, but good. I've become paranoid that people are going to recognize my opinions on /mu/ despite me being anon and someone will call me out and say "hey you're that guy who ___" and it'll be embarrassing, and I'll end up becoming a trip without even having one. Actually I'm very scared of that. Maybe I'm not doing so well after all.
Heartbroken.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WQYsGWh_vpE
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P0ImPwEpLHA
left home a few days ago but eventually had to return, it was a wild ride while it lasted
dozens of unread messages, don't feel like talking to anyone. can't find my phone, don't really want it.
feeling invisible is good sometimes. maybe it'll last forever
i can't feel anything
>Swans - Cloud of Unknowing
>just waitin' for that 15:36
heartbreak -> acceptance -> fucking rage
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UWkJghqMSpo
I have never listened to death grips, but something happened tonight. Holy shit. This shit made me start working out at fucking 2 AM.
painfully lethargic and empty, like all i want to do is sleep and forget i exist but i have to wait 20 hours to fall asleep so i listen to music in the meantime until the brain fog becomes unbearable, but i can't even sleep because i wake up every 15 minutes due to breathing problems, and i always hallucinate insects flying above my head when i wake up so i can never go back to sleep because i think there's a giant pufferfish looking spider thing, flying giant spiders and deep sea killer crab insect creatures, then i repeat the process of waiting to fall asleep and listening to music that is no longer enjoyable after 30 minutes of shut-eye because of brain fog and over stimulation in the pursuit of distraction from the silence, over and over with no change, alive but not alive, nothing changes, just a robot, functioning habits, brain feels empty, skull feels numb, existing for the sake of nothing, there is nothing, this is it, nothing is better or more than anything else, nothing is different or the same, painfully empty, reality feels like a distant tv show that i cant focus on or be apart of, completely alone, people feel like insects or animals, their voices, painful to hear them, their lives, painful to be with them, more lonely than being alone, blowing my brains out is no longer scary, its just boring, like taking out the trash or turning off the light, all the same, i want to turn off the light
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=14XlOqsk7nc
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E1lnSi7QWY8
>>65852885
anon have you ever though about seeing a psychiatrist? Not psychologist, a psychiatrist, someone to diagnose you and prescribe meds, because that sounds like you have some sort of fucked up psychosis going on.
>>65852909
no i havent left the house in 5 years and cant be around people
Recently fell for an old friend who now has a boyfriend. She also lives far away, so i'm kind of powerless to try and do anything. She showed me this band.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TlnJ5Z3PNWo
>>65852294
that will never happen, don't worry
>>65852953
do you live with your parents? talk to them please
>>65853140
a parent
why
Brooding
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_kyt33nnd9c
>Worms Plastic Earthbound by Merzbow
>childhood home is getting sold tomorrow
>>65853171
>why
talk to them
just about anything, just let someone know you're going through this
please, you're actually worrying me
I Wish I Was (Willow Tree) by Mickey Newbury.
>My Mind is Ramblin. Junior Kimbrough song covered by the Black Keys
>thinking about oneitis
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=bsP4kBTa9X4
>>65853218
i would, but my dad is a paranoid schizophrenic who is completely out of touch with reality and i don't have a relationship with my mother
don't worry, there is no help anyway
of Montreal- Penelope
Great mood, nothing going wrong at all and I'm always surrounded by people I love and who love me back
>>65853189
As long as I can still come here though and listen to new music I'm fine. /mu/ has been unbearably bad within the past few days but thankfully it's returning to normal, so that's good. I quoted the wrong post too, whoops.
>>65847205
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5qm8PH4xAss
Gangsta
Helios - Yume.
I'm really anxious, scared, and uneasy when it comes to sex. And it's only getting worse, despite my partner being very caring, patient and overall supportive.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9u6CI_jYBmo
depressed, I've missed three therapy appointments in a row, debating going to a crisis center bc I might kill myself here in a few
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E-iy8ns0CLg
I'm terrified that no matter how hard I try with this degree, I'll come out unhireable and will be stuck working my dead end retail job until I kill myself
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x80OUyGsfIQ
Thinking about this girl from work. Wishing I could know whether she's giving me the runaround or if circumstances actually keep her from hanging out.
I get way too invested into people way too quickly. I hate it.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H5dt_8xXgqo&ab_channel=AshtonPaige
>spent the night in town with friends drinking
>had a great time
>made out with an old crush, it got touchy
>came home around 5 am to see the sunrise
feels amazing
I want wind to blow- the microphones
>tfw no gf
>>65852253
good for you man!
Only Shallow- MBV
just finished exams so pretty gud
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3hoMEaqsWjI
Feeling like shit.
>had to go to college to pick up some stuff
>meet teacher I have a crush on. (shes 29, im 23) she already has a boyfriend
>just passed my finals and I told her im doing a masters degree after this, so 2 more years
>shes excitied that im here for 2 more years
>we have a small talk and after that we both leave
It's a sort of empty, hollow feeling. I know it's childish but she's so friendly and pretty. I still see her on a regular basis and I cant get her out of my head
What do I need to do /mu/? I need to let her go, right?
>>65855683
I don't know, I always enjoy being some distance away. Good taste by the way.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6YKAkRo9UYs
>Girlfriend is at Glastonbury festival with her friends
>I'm at home afraid I'll get cucked
>Can't stop thinking about the possibility and can't sleep
>Feel physically sick
I'm pathetic, my mates
talulah gosh
excited because i'm studying abroad starting next week
http://meineheimat.bandcamp.com/track/dein-architekt-2
trying to collect my head together after continued drug abuse. also wanting to get fucking high because sobriety is boring when you wire your brain all wrong.also trying not to abuse my new meds but failed on the first day. getting better on that front. also lonely. hope everyone's hanging in there.
>>65850635
Yeah post your chart, I want to listen to some 'good' music
>>65855683
Go watch Rushmore
>>65848976
you're full of shit. you don't give a fuck if she's a slut if she had said she wanted to fuck you in those comments you would be all for it. you're just mad she doesn't like you and using the whole slut thing to make you feel better about being rejected.
i mean yea shes a whore but call it what it is. sour grapes.
