Feels thread I guess.
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I am a piece of shit. I am fucking worthless, and useless. I haven't done a damn good thing in my life. The one girl I love more than anything now fucking hates me. I am going through clinical depression so I haven't been able to do anything else right, either. I hate myself. I hate my life. I am a drunk depressive piece of trash. Talk shit about how pathetic I am or post albums and feels about it I guess.
>>53686588
>he has talked to a girl
fuck off normalfag
nice tumblr post
I'm sleepy.
Sounds like you need cheering up. Stick on some Hanging Dong or something.
Yeah you sound like a cunt tbh
>>53686588
Are you that guy who's made a feels thread with Spiderland pic few days ago, talking about going to his cousin's birthday party?
>>53686611
Thats deep..
>>53686588
Nobody wants to read this
>>53686627
Yup that's fucking me. Goddamit why can't you guys shit talk better? I am drunk right now, so please give me the worse you can give. I hate myself so fucking much.
At a big university, starting to develop social anxiety. Really strange because I'm a fairly outgoing person I would think. Just so many people who don't act me or think like me, whether they're superior or i'm superior, who's to say? Just feel excluded.
>>53686641
Literally no one cares
When you grow up, you'll look back at this moment and, hopefully, feel very fucking embarrassed.
>>53686588
>>53686662
I already feel embarrassed. I feel embarrassed and pathetic at everything I do.
>>53686660
Pretty much the truth, bro.
There are many who are in worse position than you, at least you were in love with a girl (I assume)
But to be honest no one gives a shit so don't spout shit out like this is fucking tumblr or something.
>>53686642
ive had the same problem at boston university, barely made any friends here. The sheer amount of people is overwhelming and the few ive met just bore me or arent my type. Shit sucks, but hey at least i have a vibrant social life back home, where we all went to small private schools lol
>>53686683
>Pretty much the truth, bro.
Then fuck off
>>53686641
Keep being a one-dimensional fag and expose yourself to emo music that panders to one dimensional, predictable people like yourself.
>>53686588
lel you goddamn pussy
man the fuck up!
>>53686642
Started out like that in my case as well. Didn't end well because it just got worse and spread so hard that I dropped out after first semester.
>>53686641
Care to tell us what happened, it will make it easier for the rest of us to shittalk you.
>tfw I'm still hoping she loves me back.
If she out of the blue favorites the first tweet you ever posted is that a sign?
Also I've been listening to this album a lot more. I think it might be better then Deathcon.
>>53686711
No one fucking cares.
>>53686709
>depression is a serious condition guys!
sounds lame but I know what you're going though buddy. i also hate myself and realize i am a worthless piece of trash. guess all i can do is say cheer up though i know thats a worthless sentiment. if you havent done anything with your life than do something, anything that makes you happy or helps your life in some way! move forward, set some goals and work to accomplish them. only way to know you're improving your situation.
>>53686711
Wow. /mu/ really has become tumblr
>>53686701
I have friends at BU! The irony I suppose.
>>53686710
I'm very sorry to hear that. I hope all ended well from there or is going better now.
Well, yeah. If any of you go to Syracuse University...
feelin opressed
>>53686751
Who are you quoting?
>>53686789
No it hasn't really. But I don't wanna kill myself just yet.
Damn you guys suck at shit talking me. Should've gone to /b/ for this shit. Oh well cutting myself works well. Shitty file but yeah.
>>53686916
lol
>>53686916
Kill yourself already faggot
>>53686940
I have tried three times so far. Didn't work at all :(
it gets better OP. I'm sure you're going to read this and think yeah fucking right but whatever. I was very recently in a similar mindset as you and the only thing that helped me get out of it was time. I didn't make any life changes or anything but slowly I found myself feeling less bad. good luck anon. anyway if you're looking for drunk sad self loathing nothing tops pic related
>>53686957
didn't try very hard then, eh?
>>53686916
If you're not going to cut vertically, don't cut.
Skylar
>>53686966
>it gets better OP.
what a generic thing to say, don't lie to these chumps
>>53686957
How do you fail suicide 3 times lol
>>53686966
You seem like a nice guy :)
There needs to be more people like you here
(Not OP)
>>53686710
Sure. Been going through clinical depression since September. Shit's gone downhill. Deactivated my facebook, cut all contact with friends, etc. Things got worse. I had straight As in college. Turned into 3 Cs 2 Fs. I started talking to friends again cuz my psychiatrist said so. One of my friends, she understands me better than anyone. I start to fall in love with her. Only her. I have been going to parties with other friends. Girls start flirting with me. I don't want them. I want her. But she doesn't romantically love me. In the last two days she stopped replying to my texts. Making me wonder if she hates me. I am going crazy and drunk right now about it as she's the only one who gets what I am going through. It's all going down the drain. Last weekend I was in NY celebrating my bday which is after vday on the 15th. My cousins don't know about my condition. I fake happiness while feeling utterly miserable in NY. I missed my friend who I love, too. Well fuck my life, please talk shit.
>>53686588
>I'm going to go prove what a worthless piece of shit I am by shitting up a board that's known for its low quality threads BUT I WILL BE SUCH A PIECE OF SHIT EVEN AMONGST THE SEAS OF SHIT I WILL STAND OUT!
Congrats.
>>53687000
Nice trips, but friends keep taking me to the ER. It's annoying as fuck, but I guess I love them cuz they are awesome people unlike me who's a piece of shit.
>>53687037
This is some serious blogshit, this thread is getting out of hand
>>53686957
damn you're just a failure at everything you do huh?
>>53686984
I have cut both ways. What are you trying to say?
I want to masturbate, but my cat is sleeping between my legs and Fuck all I can't even work him into the mix the way he's positioned.
>>53687037
Dis nigga be posting on /mu/ about suicide multiple times!
I see you, I remember you telling all these people about your cousins and faking happiness a few days ago!
>>53687068
Pretty much, dude. Failure at life, failure at fucking everything.
>>53686998
well I know nothing about OP's life and situation so all I can do is offer generic advice of what helped me. if it doesn't help, oh well, better than telling him to kill himself
>>53687095
Jump out the window
>>53686642
weird, i just had my first day of university and was more or less anxiety free, whereas i used to lock myself in bathrooms at parties and get huge panic attacks
>>53686984
>>53687000
>>53686957
Fuck off
Get help.
Stop posting on a website where people spew aggressive hate speech.
Start working out or something.
As cliche as it sounds it does get better, youre at a low now but this will only make the highs better and then you'll look back on it, acknowledge it but not feel as bad. It feels good afterwards OP.
Btw you're drunk and emotional as shit, chill and go to bed (drink lots of water)
>>53687037
Did your psychiatrist tell you to resign yourself to sadness completely and let people shit talk you on the internet?
I don't understand the motivation behind this.
>>53687083
Yup that's me! With these four albums on repeat in particular.
>>53687119
Really? That's good for you then. I applaud anyone who can go into that setting and feel good about themselves, because it's tough.
>>53687127
no u
>>53687095
i'm just kidding man, just try not giving a fuck about anything and start thinking everything is a joke and you'll get over it
>>53687137
Been lifting three times a week. Unlike most people with normal sadness, that doesn't make me feel better. I should go to bed though.
>>53687141
Nope. But I told myself. Because that's what I deserve. To be complete shit. and be told that.
>>53687037
>she hasn't responded to my text for 2 days
>she hates me
You're overreacting and overthinking. Just go get some sleep and try not to die (you're good at that), OP you sad cunt.
>>53687145
thanks, im pretty proud of myself. then again, it is just one day in. Made some friends though, something i never imagined I'd do
>>53687141
he wants other people to tell him the things he feels about himself so he can feel validated in his self loathing. not a particularly good idea but clearly it worked based off most of the replies itt
You realize you could just jump in front of a truck like a normal human being? Fucking Christ, enough with the sob story.
If you want attention, just realize how much more attention you would get if you killed yourself publicly?
>>53687037
listen
quit chasing personal validation in a realtionship
be secure in your self and do the things you want instead of the opposite
AND DRINKING WILL NOT MAKE IT BETTER
everytime i drink it always makes it worse
>>53687181
Exactly! You know how I am thinking. The best place to validate my own self-loathing is 4chan itself! It's quite beautiful how people's attempt at "trolling" is exactly what I want, isn't it?
>>53687142
Damn, worthless life and shit taste
>>53687201
That's because you're a filthy tripfag and a nerd
>>53687194
Been tryna do that, too. Drivers in the city are really good though. Idk if you from some small town or w/e, but here they stop for me every time I try to do that.
>>53687201
Idk what I want to do though. I am completely numb to positive things. It ain't that easy.
>>53687201
this is all solid advice
>>53687237
this
>being depressed
>"feeling" things
pick one
>>53687237
Jump out the window
>decide I wanna start applications for transferring to Uni next fall
>start thinking of who I can get to write letters of rec.
>absolutely no one comes to mind
>realize that after two years I'm more lonely than I ever was in HS and I might not even get accepted
why is it so hard to get a friend
>>53687256
Numbness is to positive things in depression. The things that are "felt" are usually torture due to lack of emotion. That's how it works. That's why I am still fucking here.
>>53687217
kek'd
>>53687294
Too much noise involved which would cause my roommate who I don't trust to know I have depression. May try at a friend's place later on when then won't be able to stop me, but they are actively trying to stop me after the last ER/ICU visit.
>>53687237
a start in that direction would be stop letting those things that you worry about, control you.
honestly like idk man thats how I've been living my life I've had so much fucked up shit happen to me i just stopped worrying, like it'll all just work itself out and if it doesn't i don't really care. like at least i tried.
>>53687237
It's called a freeway, or just jump off a fucking bridge. Surely, you at least have a car? Drive to an overpass and jump off into traffic. Holy shit, you're not even trying. If you're going to troll, at least admit you have no intention of killing yourself, you're not fooling anyone. Nobody cares about you.
>>53687320
That's what I am trying to do. I am trying to fucking try, but it all ends in fucking failure. And here I fucking am. Drunk. Pathetic. Worthless.
>>53687319
You're just making excuses and clearly have no intention of killing yourself, prove me wrong
Hey Op, you'll be okay. You're alive bitch, and time if your ally faggot.
>>53687344
He can't
>>53687337
You know what's honestly the hard part? That there are people caring about me right now. That there are people who would be willing to die for my worthless ass. I have no idea why they love me so much, but they do. It's the one thing that's keeping me alive right now. That there are people who honestly and legitimately care and love me.
>>53687344
I've been getting the same notion.
ps. OP don't kill yourself
>>53686916
What happened to you?
>>53687367
They really don't, you would know if you saw how quickly they move on after you die.
>>53687344
Read >>53687367 there are people who have attached to me so emotionally that I can't kill myself in fear of hurting them. As much as I wanna kill myself, I think about these people before I think about myself, and if it would truly hurt them that much, I can't do it yet.
>>53687389
I honestly wished they would. I really do. But they can't. For some reason they keep telling me they won't be able to. GODDAMIT WHY CAN'T THEY FUCKING MOVE ON
>>53687411
Don't worry, they will
>>53687411
because clearly they actually care about you
>>53687428
Nope. Especially one of them won't. Maybe she hasn't replied to my texts in two days. Maybe I do have romantic feelings for her if she doesn't for me. But I'll make sure she's okay first before I kill myself. Once she is, then I'll do it. I love her too much to just leave her like this.
>>53687454
Shes probably already fucking another dude who isnt a whiny depressed bitch
>>53687411
I'm just curious, did your parents try to do anything about you trying to kill yourself three times or they're just like 'let's go with the flow' and he might actually pull it off.
>>53687454
You're naive, and clearly underage. We all think people care about us at that stage. If you don't make the right decision, you will grow up and learn the error of your ways. She doesn't care about you. She really doesn't. Nobody does except for you. The only reason you haven't killed yourself is because you're a self-centred cunt who thinks you matter.
>>53687339
you're feeling sorry for yourself, being blunt this is my last post because you keep repeating yourself.
you're reaching out for help on the internet instead of actually attempting because you want people to understand and I'm not diminishing your pain because it is real and people are egging you and they're assholes. but to prove them wrong and become a stronger person you have to prove them wrong. like that drake song, do it for yourself, you're worth it
>>53687464
Nah she isn't. She's going through stuff herself, and we help each other out. You gotta read our texts, it's pretty cute. I would say I am shit, she'll tell how awesome I am. She'll say she's shit, I would tell her how awesome she is. Like we get each other more than anyone else. Like she's the Yoko Ono/Courtney Love to my John Lenon/Kurt Cobain.
I fucking hate piece of shit narcissist cunts like you, OP. You remind me too much of myself.
>>53687484
>like that drake song
Hahahahahahahahaha, this just made the whole thread worth it. Thank you. Now drop the trip, faggot.
this thread is SHIT
>>53687496
Typical daddy issues attention whore
Post the texts then chump
>>53687503
>you actually took the time to post that because you're that insecure
etc etc good luck karma's a bitch
>>53687472
Nah, they don't even know. Cuz they don't get it. Only psychiatrist and my female friend I have a crush on get it.
>>53687480
You never had people drag your dead body to the ER because they apparently love, have you?
>>53687484
Sorry for myself? FUCK I JUST WANT THIS LIFE TO END WITH ALL THE PPL I LOVE TO BE HAPPY! I don't care for this site's "help". 4chan has never helped anyone. Do I need to prove them wrong when I am that pathetic and I hate myself that much?
>>53687496
I almost hope you live long enough to remember what a stupid twat you were when she moves on. You're not special, all these people who are alone now had someone like that too at one point. They know how this is going to end. Only you are too delusional to see it (as they were).
>>53687506
obviously, but there aint any mods on /mu/
i hope you saged
>>53687484
dude's sad drunk, speaking from personal experience there's pretty much nothing that'll pull you out of it before you sober up
>>53687517
Give me a minute. I am switching from laptop to cellphone.
>>53687531
You can't judge someone's opinion of you off of a traumatic circumstance. Their feelings aren't genuine. It's all about what they do when things are normal. Nobody is themselves in a crisis. Now fuck off, your bait is getting old.
fuck you op, you sad cunt.
>>53686588
what went wrong?
letting society condition you about meeting a certain standard huh? that's the problem with you depressed faggots, get over yourself, start looking at the bigger picture and think for yourself for a change
faggot
Damn all I have are problems in my life. Anyway I gotta go. Need to take care of stuff. Thanks for all the shit talk/pep talk. I appreciate it all. One day Imma make an album about this and maybe post it here. As shitty as I may, I love all of you.
I wish I could just shoot you in the fucking face myself. You're exactly the self-absorbed cunt I was at your age.
>>53687549
You're clearly sober enough to whine to us and keep us updated on what you're doing you fucking clown.
>>53687527
>no fun
>not ever
Lighten up, cocksucker.
Jump out the window
>>53687591
Do it, then. Please, fucking do it. Just me though. Nobody else. Okay leaving for real though. Good Night everyone.
Is this the single worst thread on 4chan?
>>53687620
Lame ending
>>53687620
night :)
good luck
>>53687639
No kanye or DG so no
>>53687639
still better than literally any thread on /b/ or /v/
>>53687659
What about now :^)
DAE think MBDTF is GOAT??
>>53687668
Not really
>>53687668
Except this is a thread on /b/, there's probably ten duplicates of it right now but this guy didn't want to deal with the competition.
>>53687668
nope
my favorite band just put out the worst record of 2015 all my hopes are destroyed like everything else i hope for
Is this board still a place where people think they can seduce women with their hipster music tastes? Cuz that always made me laugh back in the day
>>53688531
>girls
>on my precious Christian image sharing music board
Yet the ones who are are complete heart breakers. The late CLT could have testified to this.
