>vividly imagine every personal confrontation turning violent
>mentally prepare myself for a worst-case situation every day
>suspicious of the motives and true feelings of others, from colleagues to close friends
>obsess over small things said/done as being indicative of a greater attitude
I've once considered a comprehensive plan to potentially set my best friend's lawn on fire. Control and communication have always won out so far.
Given that, which books have similarly anxious and paranoid characters?
>>7640609
i do the exact same thing OP
i'm 6'4 but whenever someone confronts me my body starts pumping out massive amounts of adrenaline and my eyes start watering and my body starts shaking uncontrollably, i also can't speak properly while it's happening
there have been brief moments where i've genuinely been able to enjoy something without this sort of anxiety and i can say they've been the best moments of my life
A Scanner Darkly
>>7640609
You know me so well OP
>>7640609
Reminds me of this lad:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HkIXuRH1hjg
>>7640609
What happened to you, OP?
Did you go through a fucked up childhood?
>>7640811
He probably has just been alive for more than 12 years.
>>7640609
your diary ddesu
>>7640609
wew are you me lad
wew
Hermann Ungar- The Maimed
>>7641546
>oy vey
Why the fuck would you chemically alter your brain
>>7642380
>not taking nootropics
>>7642380
>if I make it sound scary it sounds scary
"Why the fuck would anyone trust a team of strangers to anesthetize them and cut them open"
Meds aren't a complete solution to anything and are far from perfect but fear mongering about them is ridiculous, especially when you're dissuading people who already get little to no enjoyment or satisfaction out of their lives from taking them
