Hey, /lgbt/.
This is a thread for confession your darkest secrets. The shit you wouldn't want to say with your identity attached.
Maybe it's a disgusting fetish you have.
Maybe it's something morally reprehensible you did as a teenager.
It doesn't matter. As long as it's something you wouldn't be caught dead admitting your name attached, anything is fair game.
Feel free to post things like your gender, age, and orientation to go with your posts, but that's optional.
To kick this off... I'm 19, a cis guy, and gay, and I'm into watersports. Specifically, the idea of pissing on another guy. My preferences are otherwise very vanilla (light bondage/BDSM at most), but that's one that keeps popping up in my mind every time I try to get off.
What about you?
>>6544196
*confessing
I probably should have proofread this first.
I'm a bi 20 year old trans woman.
I noticed a common stereotype is that trans women into guys fixate on straight guys. We want to have sex with them despite their general aversion to dick.
It's just that. A stereotype. And personally, my reasons for transitioning aren't sexually motivated and have nothing to do with other people. But I do have fantasies along these lines. Rape fantasies.
They aren't the typical rape fantasies you hear about. I don't dream of shoving my feminine penis into a guy's dick or forcing him to suck it. I'm not particularly comfortable using my dick anyway. The most I'm willing to do is maybe 69 or receive a handjob.
I picture it as finding a cute guy who's very insecure about his heterosexuality and averse to penises. He knows I have one. We're both tipsy, enough to lose our inhibitions a bit, but we still know what we're doing.
I take out his dick and start sucking. He starts moaning, but realizes what's going on. Between moans, he says he's straight and that I need to stop.
For a minute, I'll stop and say, "Don't worry honey, I know you're straight." Then I go back to sucking.
The entire time, he'd be moaning like crazy, continually telling me to stop because he doesn't like dick and in his head being sucked off by someone who has one is gay. I might occasionally tease him, but I don't stop.
Eventually, he cums. He's speechless at this point, force to accept what just happened.
Even though I'm bi I don't have these fantasies about lesbians. Considering they're told they need to like dick or else, the humor and sex appeal really wears off to me. Part of the reason it's fun to picture a straight guy in this situation is how comically insistent they are that pussy is all they like. The constant state of "no homo" they live in.
I figure this is going to get me told that I'm a rapist or a fetishist, but I don't actually care. I know what I am, and that's good enough for me.
I daydream about holding hands with a cute boy
in public
>>6544238
You pretty much described me.
I was going to post in this thread that i secretly want to find a mtf pre op girl and fuck her mouth and ass until i cum in both.
>>6544196
Mtf, 19
I love to go to golden gate park at 2am with my gf with a collar, handcuffs and leash while on a bunch of lsd. I like to be tripping so hard while it's happening that all I can do is do what she says (mind control fetish)
>>6544261
Why not? Its illegal or something? (Im just trying to be kind)
>>6544261
wow you fucking slut
kys
I really like country music
Once I had a coke fueld 4some and someone from it gave me crabs.
>>6544196
everything in here is tame af here's mine.
19 y/o gay cis male
When I was a freshman in highschool there was this openly gay guy who pissed me off because he was comfortable living in a way I wasn't, I was struggling coming to terms with my sexuality for the entire freshman year. The guy pissed me off so much I just wanted him to stop being so happy all the time so I joined the group of people who bullied him. He used to shrug off all those bullies because he didn't give a fuck, but when I started doing it and joining it, it really affected him because he respected me and from what his friends told me, had a crush on me, so my bullying really cut deep. Month or two of the odd you're a fag jokes go by, and during the spring he's wearing sweatshirts. We had chemistry together, one day during a lab his lab partner spills something on him and he has to take sweatshirt off, and the whole class see's he has cuts all over his arms. I'm slightly ashamed of bullying someone to the point of selfharm only because that person was everything I wasn't. I'm even more ashamed of the fact that we talked again over the summer, I admitted I only did it because I was insecure being gay, then we started dating, and dated all through high school.
>>6544499
..... dude
i look up waterboarding/torture footage to fap
the more they struggle and scream the better
i'm kind of afraid of eventually killing someone
>>6544196
As OP said about pissing on another guy.
I was sucking a guy so after he came he said he need to piss so I just asked him to piss on me.
Very exciting.
cis lesbian
I'm not attracted to men at all, romantically or otherwise, but I often fantasize about a stereotypical manly man raping me and my gf, and turning us into his pets, making us worship his cock until we like it. Literally fucking the gay out of us. I think about this more and more and it's starting to worry me.
I am wayyyyy to submissive. I like to fantasize about being raped and/or beaten. I want a guy to cum in my ass as he chokes the life out of me.
I thought that I was able to kick being obsessed with people, something that I was able to rid from my life for the past two years. But now, it's come back again, with people I never talk to, or see, or know. Especially with that one girl. And I'm scared what will happen when I meet them, if I do.
>>6544658
Not even trying to be an asshole, but, do you happen to feel shame on any level for being lesbian? towards family, other close friends or relation.
I'm just curious
>>6544579
hmmm?
>>6544658
I would be happy to satisfy that if I was not such a fucking twink
>>6544658
Ever tried satisfying your rape fantasy with your gf doming?
>>6544686
Yeah pretty much.
>>6544696
I mean, some of my family isn't super thrilled, but I wouldn't say I feel ashamed, at least not consciously.
>>6544762
That's totally different. It really has to be a man, I think that's the main part of it. Ideally a homophobic man who treats women like trash and thinks lesbians just haven't been fucked right. I want to hate it and feel totally humiliated. And I want him to have a real cock.
I want to find a trans woman who is passing, and really attractive and rape her. I want to ask her if this is what she wanted when she transitioned, and i want her to fight and scream but eventually give up.
Then as i keep ravaging her ass i want her body to betray her, for her tiny cock to start to twitch and get harder and harder. Then slowly start leaking pre cum more and more until she can't help but moan out in pleasure. Then as i climax and pump my hot sticky cum into her ass, her eyes roll back and she begs for more while every muscle in her body convulses while she cums.
I'm 24 and probably gay but my family is so desperate for me to come out of the closet as a way to explain my lack of a gf that I don't want to admit to it.
Yes, I know I'm being a contrarian faggot.
Bump for more secrets
I'm worried that I'm only trans (ftm) because I was beaten as a child and sexually assaulted as a teen. I worry that I just want to be powerful enough to defend myself and unattractive to straight men, and the easiest way to do that is to turn into a man myself. I'm worried that once I start transition, I'm going to hate myself and the person I become. I'm worried that I'm trading my perfect anime body for a hard life as an ugly manlet.
I'm going through with it anyways, because I do feel better when I bind and when I don't shave, and I feel better when I can convince myself that my legs look like man legs and my hands look like man hands. Right now, I feel like I'd be happier as an ugly man than as a beautiful woman. And there's nothing I can do to feel shittier, so if I still feel this terrible once I transition, I can always kill myself anyways.
I once bought Kings of Crunk by Lil Jon.
I like to bully trans girls and call them names because their pain and suffering really turns me on. I'm a cis female and not otherwise attracted to them, but when they're depressed or crying my clit is diamonds.
i'm going to their house next month, whether /lgbt/ likes it or not.
>>6545189
You're a beautiful woman now? That seems like a waste.
Just as an aside, you know you can be fit, tough, and know how to defend yourself as a woman as well. And you also don't have to shave btw. Becoming male won't necessarily fix your fears.
Really, have you tried learning a martial art for example? I'd be much better to manage to feel strong and safe first. Then if you still want to transition you'll know it's real.
>>6544196
I'm a tall conventionally attractive white guy
normally wouldn't describe myself like that but necessary for context.
I met a qt latino trap/femmeboy thing on kik a while back. He's been sucking my dick pretty regularly. Doesn't take anything in return, otherwise I'd probably have sucked dick by now just out of gratitude for how awesome he is at it.
Pretty sure I'm straight still btw
Anyway I've got a girlfriend who's been around long before him and will probably be around long after him, I'd never break up with her. But I can tell he's catching feelings for me, he's said as much.
IDK what to do. If I was a better man I'd end it with him but the DSLs and the skills are just too damn good. Girlfriend would break up with me if she found out so he's always got that nuclear option, hasn't used it yet.
Interesting game theory here anons.
Can anyone explain his motivation to me? I don't understand why he keeps coming over to suck my cock, cuddle and chat a little, and then leave so my gf doesn't suspect anything/
I like the smell of my taint, balls, and musky underwear. I sniff and huff myself constantly
>>6544196
Bi guy here
Huge fantasy is basically being fucked in the ass while sucking on some dick.
>>6545772
That's not weird anon that's fairly common
pheremones and stuff
>>6545766
Break it off. It's going to get ugly if you don't nip it in the bud. I've been in a similar situation.
>>6545789
Greentext it for me?
I want to have my cake and eat it too, I'm aware I'm in a risky situation here. I really really like having him over. Fulfills a serious and longterm fetish for me, plus he's fun to be around.
Meanwhile I fuckin love my girlfriend. I know it seems like I don't based on my actions but I want a future with her.
>>6544238
Kek
Many guys would really appreciate that, sounds kinky anon
I want to be owned by someone and treated like a dog. I basically want to be their guard dog. I fight for them. I'll exercise and build muscle in order to perform my duties better. I'll cook for them and I want their approval in my work to light up my life.
But I don't want to have sex. I've checked my hormones and I've never had anything traumatic happen to me.
I know this dream will never happen because I'm unwilling to do such a thing.
>>6545802
>straight
No you're bisexual, it's fine fäm... maybe you should discover yourself a bit more? :3
>I love barebacking
>I pretend that I never bareback
>Ask the guy if he plays safe and make him bring rubbers
>Put a rubber on and start fucking him good
>get bottom really horned up and then pull out
>pretend I can't put it in
>Blame the rubber and pull it off
>say we should stop fucking
>bottom usually feels safe at this point because they think I use condoms
>have guy who normally plays safe letting me stick my bare cock in his ass
>say I will pull out when I cum
>cum inside.
I am completely clean, tested regularly and don't have sex with blacks. I also only top which means its very difficult for me to get infected unlike vers guys who are plague spreaders.
>>6546124
It happened with me but I was the bottom. Feels good.
I'm a ''straight'' guy and I have a gf, but I just want to suck a dick and swallow some cum.
>>6546176
i kno right when u get ur first poz load it feels incredible
>>6544857
Are you me in another life?
My family/friends would probably support me if I came out, but I don't know 100% what my orientation is, and it would be a pain in the ass to come out to everyone, decide I'm actually gay and not bi (or vice versa), and then have to correct them for the next five years.
Plus the smug looks on my family's faces would be unbearable. They can feel so damn superior at the drop of a hat.
>>6546176
Tops and bottoms want to fuck bare. The exchange of semen is an exchange of energy and masculine spirit. But some bottoms don't know they want an ass full of cum so you need to help them along.
>>6546232
Avoid drug users, blacks and vers guys and you should be safe.
>>6546242
Cleaning his dick after a creampie mfw
>>6546124
glad to hear i'm not the only one who does this.
i don't even bother with the condoms though.
i just tell them that i can't find condoms that fit.
(i have a really big cock)
they look at me like 'yeah, right' and they pull out a condom.
i fiddle with it and say i can't get it on.
they try to help me and i tell them that it hurts and maybe we just shouldn't do anal.
they suck me for a while more and get more and more turned on.
i assure them that i have a boyfriend and that we are monogamous.
'this is the only time i've even thought about cheating on him because you're so hot and i feel terrible about it but you're clean right?'
eventually the dude let's me fuck him raw.
when i'm getting close i say
'are you ready for my load?'
they say 'don't cum in my ass, cum on my face'
i say 'can i cum in your ass? i'm so close!'
they say 'no, pull out and cum on my back'
i keep fucking and then i say 'oh god, i'm really close. let me cum in your ass'
this goes on until either i cum in their ass or they tell me 'yeah, you can cum in my ass. shoot that load in my ass!'
faggots pretty much do what you tell them.
>>6546299
it's hard to resist a big cock desu, I always end with a load inside =/
gay male.
I think horses are extremely sexy animals. They're really powerful and muscular, and their cocks are huge. I've jerked off to pictures of horse cocks.
When I was a teenager, a straight neighbour who was three years older than me held a large glass shard to my neck, threatened me, and raped me in the back of his parents summer house. I really enjoyed it. I knew him and I dont think he would have actually stabbed me, I just think he was sexually agressive and a horny teen. Very few people know this.
>>6545972
How would you help me do that?
I do want to stop cheating on my gf though. I'm too much of a slut and she deserves better, but I'm not willing to let her go to someone else so I've got to be better namean
>>6544196
I'm dating a guy even though I'm a lesbian and I kinda feel bad about lying to him because he really loves me
>>6544196
i hate politicised lgbt. i would happily see gay marriage removed and all past gay marriages annulled just to spite the lgbt lobby, even though i don't actually have a problem with gay people getting married.
i don't like the self-righteousness of the campaigns for trans bathroom privileges either, but i like the butthurt of women complaining about mtfs in their bathrooms more than i want to spite the mtfs for their self-righteousness.
Did things in highschool that im not too proud of, like "convince" younger guys to succ me, i would offer protection to sissy/bullied types and then tell them that their body was the price for no one bullying them. I was popular and it was an all boys catholic school so bullying was super harsh on these kids.
Was one kid who would get beat up pretty bad, and i took advantage of him, one day i just didn't see him at school anymore, i always wondered what happened to him, i wish i could tell him im sorry
I'm a gay male, and I like straight guys. I fetishize them. I like the idea of being the person that turns them gay. I fetishize homophobia.
Sometimes I dream about being gang raped by a bunch of otherwise straight guys, and they yell "faggot" and "queer" and other expletives at me while they're raping me, and urinating on me, and then one of them pulls out a gun, exclaiming "suck on this", forces it into my mouth, and pulls the trigger.
> My secret is I have *gasp* rape fantasies
Could you all be anymore boring and predictable? Almost everyone has rape fantasies. Keep it interesting and original please.
>>6544196
basically any situation in which i'm forced to transition and then have sex with guys.
I sucked this guys dick and I loved the act but now I feel not good
He wasn't attractive and he was hairy and, idk lasted like 1 minute
This is the first time I've done this since I recently sort of came out and am actively being gay
He didn't like that I want to be feminine either he said gay guys want guys
Who wants femboy cds then?
>>6547265
> Who wants femboy cds then
Really old guys and biguys.
>>6547321
Truer words never spoken
Gay Transman
I have a lot of strange sexual fantasies, but the 'worst' is being forcefully feminized and forced to live as a girl (again).
I have no regrets about transitioning and if that really happened it would be a devastating nightmare. But it is what it is.
>>6546240
Sounds spot on.
My parents have confronted me about it multiple times at family dinners - basically trying to force me out of the closet.
I think the way they went about it just pisses me off enough that I don't want to validate their behavior. My family are also the type that would try to talk to me about my sex life all the time as if coming out would somehow make me a less bashful person.
Plus, like you said, if I come out and I'm not 100% gay, it'll be a pain to correct.
>>6548178
Your family sounds obnoxious
My brother used to think I was gay because I wasn't out at parties fucking chicks like he was at my age. He 'accidentally' looked at my browser history one day, saw the straight porn on there, and stopped giving me shit for it ever since. I doubt that would work for you, since it's yet another thing to explain when you do come out, but maybe you can figure out some way to warn them off indirectly.
Or you can tell them one last time you're sick of hearing about it and you want them to quit asking. When they ask again (and this is a when, not an if), leave the room and remind them that the conversation is over when they bring it up. If you're in an inescapable situation, put headphones on and refuse to respond unless they change the topic. Repeat this often enough and Pavlov's your uncle.
I lead a double life.
To my family I'm a nice father and husband, married a long time. Despite my wife no longer being interested in sex, the marriage is strong. I bring my paycheck home every two weeks and keep food on the table and a roof over our heads.
The other side is that I have 3-4 sex buddies at any given time. Sometimes they are tops, sometimes bottoms. I get my sexual needs taken care of by meeting them 1-2 times per week.
After years of trying to have a fulfilling sexual relationship with my wife I just gave up. I think she's happy that I'm not constantly trying to have sex with her. Sometimes she hints that she'd like to but I ignore her. That ship has sailed.
>>6548264
how would she take the news? would you mind if she goes and has sex on the side too?
>>6548264
At least you're not giving her HIV
>>6544196
My ex and I showered together often and it would invariably lead to shower sex. Afterward, I'd occasionally give him something I called a "menema".
After I'd cum, I'd keep my dick in his ass and just start pissing. He'd try to pull away, but he was a scrawny manlet, so it was easy to clamp down on him and keep him from escaping. I'd chant "Men-uh-ma! Men-uh-ma! Men-uh-ma!" while he struggled and screamed for me to stop. Once I was finished, I'd let him pull away and watch the mixture of cum and piss gush out of his ass. I found this hilarious for some reason. He would get really worked up over it and usually wouldn't speak to me for the rest of the day. He would also become reluctant to do anything in the shower with me again, so I'd have to repeatedly apologize and promise never to do it again. The next few times, I'd build up trust by just fucking him normally, but I'd eventually hold him down and give him another menema when I figured he'd least expect it. This process was repeated over the course of our relationship.
It still makes me smile (and hard) when I think about it. My current bf is closer to my size, so I know I wouldn't be able to get away with it with him.
>>6548666
>>6547116
I think you're a fucking idiot
>>6548666
kill yourself you deranged faggot
>>6548264
Kek
Do you happen to have a son named Butters?
>>6548666
So you're a rapist. : )
>>6548694
this is the kind of self-righteousness i was talking about.
>>6545189
As someone else already suggested, try doing a martial art, before doing something drastically as transitioning. It might give you the self confidence you are lacking atm. There are enough martial arts out there which fit the female body. If you still feel transitioning after doing it for a long time, then go for it. I hope you will also find someone nice, who might help you heal those mental scares.
>>6548666
Confirmed for satanic hitler piss menema master memer rapist
I love you anon
>>6548740
>>>/tumblr/
>>6549007
Oh, you were just looking for an excuse to post that weren't you, little memer.
>>6548321
Right now I think it's a "don't ask, don't tell" situation. I can't believe she doesn't think something is going on after telling her I want to have sex 2-3 times a week and suddenly stop chasing her.
Would I mind if she went and had sex on the side? Yes. My preference is to have sex with her on an on-going basis but that won't happen. If she wants sex with me, fine. But I'm not chasing her for it nor am I ever going to get my expectations up that we will ever have sex again. Been there, done that.
>>6548495
True. I'm careful and get tested anyway so if for some reason we had sex it would be OK.
>>6548736
No, sorry.
>straight guy
sometimes i suck and let me fuck by trans woman.
>ib4
>suck and let me fuck
>straight guy
sure sure
>>6549146
>>ib4
dont know?
>>6544476
Worth?
>>6549138
>bisexual guy
I corrected it for you! : )
I'm straight but I fantasise about getting brutally raped by a man.
>>6547069
Don't listen to these fags who tell you you're not straight. There's nothing gay about liking good head. A talented mouth is a talented mouth.
I'd personally kill to be the sidepiece of a straight guy. Would you ever consider sticking it in the other end?
>19
>gay
I'm absolutely obsessed with pet play, wetting, and diapers.
>tfw ex was into it
I can't tell if I got trans feels from chaser AGP shit as a young teen or if I used those as an excuse to repress myself into thinking I wasn't trans.
Growing up in an environment where lgbt isn't ok at all, and tons of self hatred instilled, etc.
I'm pretty sure I'm trans now and AGP shit is just gross for me today, but I can't deny I got off to it in the past, and I still have a fetish for castration/emasculation and tiny penises.
It's weird yo, but I don't indulge it much and sexual stuff doesn't matter so much anymore, mainly I just get turned on by certain guys irl. I think I'm also making progress with being ok with myself and not considering myself a freak.
>18
>Bi
I'm a closet furfag with a vore fetish and bi that will prob never come ever. It hurts sometimes. I fall in love nearly instantly and I have one of the lowest self esteems known to man. I literally think i could fuck up working at McDonald's or Walmart. I've never held hands with any member of either sex or kissed another. Looks like I'll be a wizard forever.
I didn't ask for any of this.
MtF
Most of my friends turned into SJWs over the years while I am becoming more and more anti-SJW and Trump supporting. I can't tell my friends how stupid I think they are and it is eating me up every time they talk about getting triggered and how racist and horrible Trump is for wanting to build a wall and keep out the poor Muslims.
>>6544853
hey...... was this in another thread?
im pretty sure it was...
I once tried to manipulate a friend into catfishing a guy I thought was hot a couple of years ago. He was coming on to her hardcore and she called me asking what to do. I tried to get pics but she started freaking out and ended it. To this day, no one knows what my true intentions were despite the ordeal becoming quite public. I asked that guy if I could suck his dick a year later, too. He obviously declined and I about killed my 14 year long friendship with him as a result
Damn I used to be fucked up in the head
>>6544196
>confession your darkest secrets
I'm straight and /lgbt/ is my home board. I feel like such a freak
I get turned on by the thought of a transsexual still having her penis. I am bi yet I really don't like the thought of a penis entering me but I still can't get over the thought of a penis on a trans as it literally makes me diamonds.
I don't think this is that dark though desu.
>>6545189
Gay transman here, I wasn't assaulted nor anything but in a pretty similar situation, I guess I just feel pathetically weak by nature and yeah it might've lead to me being trans but at the end of the day, who cares ? Maybe I was truly meant to be trans since the day I was born/conceived and the weak feels just accelerated the thought/feels process, what's important is to feel good as yourself in the body you have or are trying to get.
I'd much rather die early than live one more year n this trash, doesn't matter if it's a nice body with nice curves, an amazing bubble butt and round boobs, doesn't matter if people think it's a waste because there's 8 bill more people out there and we still can't switch bodies so waste ? Eat my wasted ass.
As for a confession, I fantasize about double penetration so much and it's so wrong. Mpreg ? Give me some. Fempreg tho ? Nuh-uh.
21 year old male, straight all my life. Have had sex with 3 girls. On a whim I decided to fap while thinking about fucking a gay friend of mine and was able to get off to it pretty easily. Also have fapped to some trap doujins and a tiny bit of tranny porn, though in the case of the tranny porn the second I see the dick I'm turned off. Should I accept myself as at least bi? I feel like sexuality isn't so cut and dry and I feel like I'm getting off to the idea of the feeling of it more than anything because I know that getting head or fucking a guy would feel as good if not better than a girl.
>>6552138
>I don't think this is that dark though desu.
anon, you are a tranny's worst nightmare tbH.
i want my ftm best friend to peg my gay cis male ass
>>6551736
...me too. Minus the Trump support. I've become super patriotic and honestly a bit racist and now hold center right political beliefs. My girlfriend is a left wing Tumblr type who thought Sanders was a bit too establishment. My dad is always asking me how I could possibly hold such views (he was a left wing loonie before he came here from France), and friends who know I'm a right wing moderate are confused as to how I can be so close to a socialist after all these years. The truth is we're very much in love with each other and share a very caring, supportive relationship. I'm very happy with what we have.
I fantasize about dying all the time
>>6544196
I've liked butt stuff for years but haven't really enjoyed my gay encounters.
Just want a girl who will do butt stuff to me
But finding someone into Dom seems like it would be hard. Especially ones my age (mid 20s)
>>6552138
the guy saying you're a tranny's worst nightmare is fucking with you
>>6544499
You're an asshole and I'm surprised he even dated you. How'd that relationship go?
>>6544499
>then we started dating, and dated all through high school.
Did he backstab you out of revenge?
>>6549259
I's more like 1.5 sexual
>>6551747
Yeah i cross posted it into a fetish thread
>>6548240
They are a bit obnoxious.
Luckily I live on my own so I only have to deal with it on weekends and family gatherings.
In the end I'll just have to suck up my pride and admit it to them and deal with the "I knew it"s and "I told you so"s
>>6547347
triggered
>>6552749
>posted an anime girl
>not closet tranny
when I was 8 years old I was raped, emotionally, and physically abused by a 15 year old girl. plus other isolated incidents with other girls. I now cannot trust women (unless I know them very very well) and I cannot stand them touching me, I have been robbed of intimate romantic and sexual relationships with women. I am a bi transman and I worry that I'm only trans because I got abused.
I fantasise about being abused, I want a man to beat me, to degrade me, piss on me, and kill me.
I've molested my dad when I was a kid.
i wont fuck a transgirls artificial pussy
infact i wont fuck apussy period
i just want to fuck ass
is that so wrong?
>>6553106
what? how? did he resist, was he drugged?
>>6553128
no, he was a drunk and I'd never gotten a proper sex ed, in fact I thought everyone had a dick for a retarded part of my childhood, so I'd just wait till he'd be asleep and put my hands down his underwear and touch it
>>6553148
and here I was thinking you stuck some Lego up his ass
I cheated on my bf with my now married ex. The whole thing felt surreal, we haven't spoke in seven years and the chances of us bumping into each other the way we did were astronomically low. We didn't have sex, but we did end up kissing twice, and I lied about where I was going. I feel like a shit person, and yet I also feel like I appreciate my boyfriend more now. The guilt I felt, and the intense fear I had over the idea that he'll find out I lied to him made me realize just how much I love him, and how much I don't want to lose him.
>>6544196
I'm a Domme and my current Sub has become to emotionally attached to break it off easily. They are not nearly as attractive as I am and it's challenging to Domme when physical attraction is lacking. I continue to Dom her as she is a very pleasent person, maybe one day she'll be more attractive?
Lack of flexibility is also making advance rope bondage difficult.
>>6544196
amab intersex woman, post-vaginoplasty
unknowingly raised by a family full of freemasons, witches, occultists, and satanists with connections to the government and the intelligence community
didn't know for sure about the satanic stuff until my most recent ex, who i considered the love of my life at the time, turned out to be my "wrangler/handler" and ritualistically fucked me in his father's study
we began in our bedroom before he took me down there, while in bed he had somehow positioned the lights and the door to give himself the shadow of a horned winged demon as he was on top of me
while in the study he put me in specific bizarre positions, when he was finished he had me sit in a chair in front of but facing away from a window and he put one foot on the seat and sort of mounted my face, just holding his flaccid dick in front of me as i just stared at it in a trance
i think people outside were watching us and he seemed to be signalling them, like this was a military maneuver (we were both military kids, he was an army brat with a high-ranking daddy and both my parents were spies) though perhaps he just wanted me to think that
somehow i knew this was a "sealing", he was binding me to him
from there i was taken to a compound and tortured/experimented on and then hospitalized and further fucked with by these evil people who i assume are satanists but may just use that as a scare tactic
the confession?
the "sealing" was probably the most erotic experience of my life and at first, i was willing to be his, the idea of him owning me was almost comforting, safe, like i'd been waiting my whole life for him
of course now i know i was conditioned with abuse and trauma from birth to want that, just another cog in this system, just like my mother
even so, i still sometimes worry i won't meet someone who can match that level of power and dominance over me without being another "handler", i know for sure though that i want a protector, not a master
I'm a massive hick
>>6552092
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>>6552092
Are you sure you're straight, love?
20 year old guy here.
I really want a relationship with a trans woman. I've had sex with a few multiple times and loved every second of it. However, I'm already introverted so talking to girls is already hard for me, to find a trans woman seems almost completely out of the picture. I workout regularly and look decent, I just have no game whatsoever. I've come to accept I will only be able to find vanilla women. Trans women always complain about men chasing them as a fetish. I simply find them more attractive, thus I want what is attractive to me. Fug it I guess.
>>6544300
Holy shit. I would do this
>>6544196
im fooling around with this straight boy right now...
and his simultaneous fascination and disgust with my penis makes me want to fuck his butt so bad.
but it wont be perfect unless he brings it up and asks "on his own".
....he will. soon.
I'm a 21 year old mtf call girl. Most of my clients are older men and usually chasers. My last client was a man in his 50s who had always wanted to suck cock but was "only attracted to feminine people". I have a normal day job and go to school but I've managed to keep my lives separate for two years. I do it mostly because I need the money but I also enjoy being used as a cumdumpster.
>>6553316
>maybe one day she'll be more attractive
lol wut
If the problem is that she's fat or something force her to work out.
>>6554242
>I also enjoy being used as a cumdumpster
If I had decided to transition, which I nearly did, that would have been the main reason.
>>6550779
Responding after like a day sorry-
I've seen some fuckable male assholes. Well shaved, bubble butt, etc. I'm pretty convinced I"m straight because the most fuckable males i've encountered have been the ones that can convince me they're females, or I can treat them like a female and see them as a female in my mind. My side piece doesn't let me fuck him, but I would. Haven't seen his asshole actually.
Honestly would only enjoy it I was unable to see your penis. Or it was like locked up maybe my sissy fetish could carry me through for you.
IDK human sexuality is a wonderful thing and I'm just an explorer on the high seas. Will need to stop cheating soon though.
>>6554251
Won't even step on a scale. I'm in the gym 4-5 times a week, they won't even look at numbers that could cause weight loss on their own.
How does one fix this ?
>>6554242
How much money's in it? Do you feel kind of degraded?
What holds all those women and MtFs back who bust their asses at minimum wage jobs to barely make a living from doing what you do?
>>6554482
Stop dating stubborn fatties t b h
sorry mate
>>6554487
This is going to be absolutely awful but you are right.
They would be so much more attractive if they dropped 20 maybe 15lbs?
Jesus.
>>6554482
What kind of a shitty domme are you, whip her into shape.
Or don't bother and get someone less lazy. I wish I had a domme who made me workout, best motivation ever.
>>6554534
Nobody's holding a gun to your head forcing you to stay with them holy fuck just leave you'll find someone else
I take pride in my masculinity and therefore thrive on watching pornography where sissy-fetish men are humiliated beyond reason. I find these thoughts awfully violent compared to my personality.
Straight male, I want to date an adorable seemingly innocent girl, only to find out once we're about to fuck that she's a trap and a strict top.
Or she tells me beforehand, and we make a bet that whoever of us has the biggest cock will be the top, and I agree because how the fuck would a girl have a bigger cock than me, but she wins.
I'm a top, quite masc guy but I really want to be a little girl, wear frilly dresses and have tea and pastries with my girlfriends.
I want to find cute boys to chill with and cuddle and stuff but all I find are degenerates who are after my dick. I wanna be nice to them but they're all like "bawww rape me please". Gross!. When they flip my switch I do get horny as fuck and dominant but that's not really what I'm after.
I just want to tend to flowers or some shit goddamnit.
>>6548666
That was rape, you piece of shit. Disgusting.
>>6554483
>How much money's in it? Do you feel kind of degraded?
A lot of it depends on where you live and how attractive you are. I pass and live full-time so guys are willing to pay a lot more because they can take me out in dates in public. Most guys will "pay for the night" meaning they can take me on a date and wine and dine me and then take me to their hotel and do anything they like. This will run from $200 to $500 depending on what they want to do. I found it somewhat degrading at first but I got used to it. I started being pickier about my clientele which made it less degrading too.
>What holds all those women and MtFs back who bust their asses at minimum wage jobs to barely make a living from doing what you do?
A lot of it has to do with attractiveness. Most guys want to think of you as a woman and won't go for hons. Also you need street smarts and a good grasp on how to get business safely. I started with dating apps and I noticed guys who I didn't want to hook up with got desperate. You can use that to get them to pay. It's not for everyone, a lot of people aren't emotionally stable enough to sell themselves as a product and a service. That's how you have to see yourself as to be successful.
Gay 19
Huge thing for older men and am pretty much attracted to them exclusively. I've never had issues with my own dad and have been unable to explain the preference. Always get asked oh what's your type and Id rather die then tell people because I'll be shunned hard. The people that do know think I'm just looking for money but I really couldn't give a shit about that
>>6554543
That's what intended to do yet It's a hard limit for her. I can see us getting through it with time and negotiation but we're talking a long long time.
Maybe that's it, just taking the time. First time /legbutts/ have shown me something I didn't consider.
When I was younger , me and my foster dad used to have sex. I remember I stroke his cock whenever we were home alone without his wife. Sneak into the master bedroom and just go under the blankets to stroke when he slept
21, male
I found a guy online who offered to buy me hormones in exchange for letting him use my body, but I don't think I can bring myself to do it.
i want to steal my boyfriends dirty underwear and sniff them desu
>>6557292
>when he slept
rapey rapey rape rape
>>6552140
See, that's how I think about it most of the time. And me being trans makes sense. I've always played a male character in whatever flavor of the week imagination game we played as kids, I hate my tits, I hate my body, I wish I was 6 feet tall and triangle shaped with an eight inch dick. My dysphoria has nearly driven me to suicide before.
But sometimes I still feel like I must just have low self-esteem and that I'm an overdramatic transtrender.
At any rate, thanks for your encouragement and story. I'm trying to see what I can do about getting mones.
>>6553044
Listen to me. Your trauma does not define your gender identity. I'm the same way, thinking "what if I'm only trans because of my childhood abuse and the sexual assault I endured in my college years?"
It doesn't matter. If transitioning makes you feel better, then it's the right decision. I transitioned, and whether my gender identity is innate or a coping mechanism, I feel better than I have since I was a child, and that is worth way more than any "happy" life as a beautiful woman I may have sacrificed for it.
>>6545802
Break up with her. You are awful for cheating. She deserves someone honest. If you cared about her you would have some empathy for her and not be so unfair to her but instead you're just acting selfishly.
>>6557667
I'm aware that I'm acting selfishly. I'm not a moralfag though and I like her a lot, going to keep her around.
Like how boomers were all leftist when they were young and now they're rich old retirees and they're fighting tooth and nail to not contribute to their communities through tax- I know I'm morally in the wrong but fuck morals. I'm going to keep her around as long as possible.
Get it?
>>6549247
I got free Coke and I had a fun evening.
Crabs are stressful but I got rid of them.
Win win
i am a lesbian with a girlfriend, currently doing ldr.
I'm incredibly unhappy in the relationship. It's very one sided, with me doing the most work. I'm going to school in the south and I'm constantly fantasizing about having a southern girl/hot lady police officer tease the fuck out of me and then fuck me until I can't move. I'm not going to cheat, but yeah.
>>6557492
top kek you agp weirdos are the worst
>>6557328
I'll use your body without buying you hormones, if you prefer that.
>>6561175
I'm a straight trans man, but reach harder.
I've been through a lot of shit, but it doesn't define my transition. And even if it's a contributing factor, who cares? I'm happier this way.
>>6544196
I'm 24
Cis male, gay
white
I have sex with men that I find repulsive for money.
>>6545427
This is honestly really hot and I'm not even trans
>>6547116
This thread is for secrets, not opinions that 90% of /lgbt/ already believes. Get fucked
21/cis female/lesbian
I love the smell and taste of my own pussy. I sniff my panties after long days and it's so hot. And I'm like, constantly tasting myself. My girlfriend is starting to get suspicious because one time my hands were near her nose and she said they smelled like crotch. I washed my hands but I guess the smell still lingered.
I like the smell/taste of other girls but not as much as my own. I wish it was possible to eat myself out.
>>6551711
Are you me?
Bumping with a confession
21/gay/cis male
I love bears, i cat get enough of hairy, fatty, muscley old men. have a fantasy about bringing a bear like 20-25 years older than ne into my house and getting him drunk, like utterly shitfaced. Then taking him down to my basement, slowly taste him all over and the pound is face and thick ass into next week as i cum buckets inside of him.
Then after im done with him tie him up and make him my bitch. Treating him like the filthy fucking dog he is while his wife wonders what happened to him.
Tfw when i will never kidnap a victim.
20/cis guy/straight(?)
I have to act within the closet for my attraction towards trans women. My family has mostly already cut me off due to issues in the past, but if this was let out it would be the final nail in the coffin. I pretend to want the women they prefer daily, but inside for some reason it just is not attractive to me. I would stand up for myself as I normally do, but they are the last bit of family I have. It probably doesn't help that my mom died when I was four and my dad was never around or wanted to spend time with me. I feel as though that is the reason my self-esteem is so low and maybe also the reason I have attraction for specifically trans women.
I don't know if I'm actually trans. Sometimes it feels like it, and sometimes it feels like I'm just jelly of lesbians for some strange reason, even though I don't get sexually excited by the idea. It doesn't matter though because I'm taking the hormones anyway.
>>6557485
>But sometimes I still feel like I must just have low self-esteem and that I'm an overdramatic transtrender.
MtF here, but I know that feel. Hopefully being on hormones for a while will help you figure it out better. That was the case for me anyway.
>>6548666
>I'd chant "Men-uh-ma! Men-uh-ma! Men-uh-ma!"
fucking lost it
>>6554804
>implying it takes mental maturity to be a whore
>>6545189
At the end of the day it doesn't matter why you want to transition. You'll never really know what it was that made you feel dysphoric so it's not worth wasting energy on it. Just do what you have to do to feel better about yourself. You're not "wasting" anything by transitioning and you are under no obligation to throw shit at the wall in hopes that anything other than transition sticks.
I secretly want to be kidnapped by a chubby, hairy, bear-mode nerd and forced to be his slave. I would do his housework and cook and be his fuck toy on command. And my only reward for my hard work, if he is kind enough to allow me, is that I get to cum while he make me sniff his sweaty socks.
>>6547122
>i would offer protection to sissy/bullied types and then tell them that their body was the price for no one bullying them.
Wow fuck you. Literally had that happen to me in high school. It was a public school though. He made me cross dress a few times during it too.
>>6544196
I shoved my dad's toothbrush into my butt multiple times in high school. It wasn't a revenge or angst thing at all, I love my dad, but his toothbrush was that perfect thickness for the time.
In elementary school, I didn't know how to masturbate properly. I'd take a soap on a rope, put the rope around my dick, and twist it until my dick got red and swollen. I'd get this incredible high and the world would go white, followed by a horrible burning feeling in my penis as I struggled to untwist the rope. I could never figure out if the sticky stuff on my dick was soap or whatever the kid version of cum is. To this day the smell of soap turns me on a little. And yes, I felt like a chump when I discovered regular masturbation.
In middle school, every day after class I'd crossdress in my sister's clothes and touch myself in front of a mirror. I remember cumming for real for the first time, it was on my sister's carpet, and I got super paranoid that I'd been jizzing on my sister's carpet for months and just not noticing.
Life is weird, man.
