Coastal Masterrace Edition
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▶ IRC: https://www.rizon.net/chat#mtfg
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old >>6401872
>>6402839
>tfw flyover country
first?
>>6402844
don't bother with portland, there's no real work there unless you wanna be a barista the rest of your life
>>6402839
I live on the coast of a different country, does that count?
>>6402849
nope
>>6402850
They probably need cops tho
>>6402853
post infographics from your country
we can turn this into NPR edition
>>6402851
Isn't it one of the most trans tolerant places?
>>6402799
>>6402813
Akane is still a good cop though, right?
>>6402857
Yeah 3 hours isn't that bad at all.
Sounds fun.
>>6402857
this is a really good idea actually. portland has protections for gender identity too.
you should seriously look into being a cop
>>6402862
akane was like the only good cop, iirc. Everyone else just trusted the psycho-pass.
>>6402859
Well we have this
What's an NPR?
>always being inferior to cis fems
always hated this
but making progress, so my natural body will be something to be proud of
>>6402863
Oh fair enough, will Gates make my computer faster?
>>6402870
national public radio
>>6402861
Yeah. I read up on it and it's like,
Portland
Chicago
Minnesota
For top 3
>>6402862
The best
>>6402867
I really am thinking about it
Ideally I'd do something like
>IL State police
>beat cop
>move to Portland
>detective
>move up to FBI
>>6402870
National Public Radio
>>6402869
That or their Pyscho-Pass turned bad
>tfw the banks send you overdue notices
>tfw no work
>tfw slowly worsening feelings of worthlessness
McDonald's is always hiring r-right?
>>6402861
>Portland
"Omg wow your trans wow that's just so beautiful I am a HUGE trans ally"
>NYC
"fuck you, i wish my personal brand was as relevant as yours right now"
>San Francisco
"oh that's cool, i don't even think about it tbqh"
>Los Angeles
"eres un maricon ese"
help!help! I'm getting these rape urges and I need some help!
>>6402869
What's wrong with trusting the brains?
>>6402865
Well let me know if you ever wanna do it!
>>6402881
Theres only one solution
>tfw best poster in California
>>6402879
just work as a secretary, retard. that's what most pretty girls in your situation do.
google "administrative assistant" or just go to a temp agency and say you want a desk job
>>6402878
wow, would expect something like SF or Seattle to be more tolerant.
>>6402880
haha in my country it's really just
"lol faggot" in every big city desu
>>6402878
>one tranny becomes a cop
>other one becomes a drug dealer
>arch nemesis anime when
>>6402879
>tfw you get rejected from McDonald's tier jobs
Grace Graceton
Tranny cop.
>>6402883
I will <3
>>6402884
indeed, I need to rape you
>>6402900
plsno
>>6402879
It sounds like you'll need to try applying there as well, even though you're obviously over qualified for that. How much do you owe at this point? Have you called the bank and seen if you can work out something with them?
>tfw Portland and Seattle seem like nice places to live, but I'd feel like I'm just living up to an internet tranny stereotype if I moved to one of them
>>6402900
Oh
I...
Thought you needed to be raped. Not...rape....
Someone else....
Stay away from me dont come any closer pls
>>6402898
True Detective Season 3 - Tranny Detective
Set in Portland
>>6402897
It's more of an annoyance than anything, besides plenty of people are rejected from those jobs, just gotta keep putting myself out there until someone chooses me
>>6402903
move to Marin County, we can be the only two trannies here
>>6402909
Oh neat, that's where my grandparents lived and my mom grew up. Really nice place. (And not that far from San Francisco if you ever feel like you're not getting enough LGBT in your life.)
>>6402904
I'm creeping closer and closer
>>6402886
What do you think I've been applying for? I'm not just applying for chemistry jobs.
Also, I'm not a pretty girl, and I don't have a good personality for being an admin assistant.
>>6402902
$10k
Idk I don't think I can sort anything out with the bank until I reach the point of maxing out my credit.
>>6402895
Eyyy that was me 2 summers ago
>>6402909
>SF bay area
Eh, I dunno.
>>6402887
>wow, would expect something like SF or Seattle to be more tolerant.
Perhaps, I didn't look terribly much into it but so far my experience here in Illinois has been pretty good as far as being trans goes
>>6402898
I'll protect you, anon-chan!!
>>6402891
>me = right, you = left
Sounds about right~
>>6402889
>Unless your in the bible belt i can't see it mattering all that much.
You'd be surprised
Unfortunately I think I still need SRS to get my gender changed here but other than that we're pretty okay
>>6402888
Gonna bring you naughty girls in and rehabilitate you into productive members of society
I am chatting with this really cute guy. I have a real crush and now he wants to meet.
I am anxious because I don't pass. I am more like a femboy rn. He says he is OK with it but I am worried that I will scare him away if we meet irl.
What do?
>>6402913
yeah but fuck McDonald's anyway, I only get shitty stories from there. Ain't gonna try there, a supermarket sounds better and safer
>>6402913
Ouch, that's harsh. How much do you owe month to month? Can you apply for unemployment maybe? (Not sure what Canada has for that.) I'm really sorry you're in this situation.
>>6402915
Nice, the people in my city will generally just consider you a weirdo but they won't kill your or anything, not like they can when plastic knifes are banned :^)
goodnight everyone <3 <3 <3
>>6402916
has he already seen a pic of you?
>>6402916
Go for it unless you think the two of you can have a happy relationship purely online for however long you think it'll take before you feel like you're girly enough. Chances are that if he's seen you in pictures and is okay with that then you'll be okay in person too.
>>6402923
You just need to learn the basics of CQC and make sure nobody can ever lay a hand on you
>>6402915
Well compared to oklahoma, michigan is far better.
>>6402915
>productive members of society
NOOOOOOOOO drugs and sex
>tfw too mentally ill to get a job but not mentally ill enough for neetbux
>>6402912
Just pls kill me when you're done
>>6402931
Oh I'm very good at that, you see I am expert of blocking bunches with my face
>>6402812
Sortof. I told him he'd be better off with a cis girl, then he slapped me, then we fucked like rabbits cus that was hot, then we went on as normal.
Just had this actual Omegle chat. Thought I'd share:
You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say hi!
Stranger: show ass..I will cum
You: i am 12 and wat is this
Stranger: show ass..I will cum
You: Reporting to FBI
Stranger: show boobs
You: https://www.fbi.gov/contact-us/field
You: Literally doing this
Stranger: or suck finger
Stranger: fuck
Stranger has disconnected.
>>6402933
I don't care if you have sex but I'm taking you in if you use illegal drugs!!
>>6402932
I'm glad you've found somewhere that's treating you well
>>6402936
I-i'm not sure it works that way
>Friday night
Time to get drunk by myself and play videogames!
>>6402939
I don't get into fights very often ok
>>6402934
I'm panicking because I suddenly discovered that I got dropped by my health insurance and my only option may be to get some through an employee plan until the next open enrollment period, and I think I probably also fit into the category of 'too mentally ill to get a job' right now. ;_;
>>6402919
Could be worse, I owe my parents an additional $15k but at least I don't have to pay interest on that...
>>6402922
I owe about $60 a month minimum, but my bank account was empty and is usually close to empty so I missed my payment this month. It's more a reminder that i don't actually have any money than them banging down my door.
Oh well, time to bite the bullet and apply to shit jobs
>>6402942
Why is that stopping you from preparing for an actual war breaking out and you being in the thick of it?
I-i'm gonna use all of this for real some day..
Real talk tho better safe than sorry
I need to talk to my dad about him getting me self defense classes so I can take care of myself when I'm alone and unarmed
>>6402925
Yes. But you can't really see how ugly my nose/adams apple is in it.
>>6402929
Mhm I will wait a week. If I am still full on in love (aka it's not just a HRT starter crush) I will probably meet him. I will show him some more pictures and see how he reacts.
I am mostly worried about my voice. Maybe I can make some improvements until we meet.
>>6402941
>Tfw neet that's awake at 2 am friday morning
>>6402939
ull never take me alive coppers
>>6402950
You wanna do this the fun way huh?
I'm gonna go to bed, but does anyone know how long it'll be before my arms are less veiny?
>>6402945
geez...
desperate times call for desperate measures, I guess. A temp job is probably what you want though, if you're going to continue looking for chem jobs.
>>6402946
Yeah idk desu
I don't really go alone and I don't go into areas that scare me
hopefully I can go stealth and some point and won't have to think about people wanting to kill me
>>6402951
We can do this the easy way or, oh wait, no, there's just the hard way.
>>6402952
At 5 months idk if there's been much of a difference in the veins
Changes in your skin might help diminish the appearance of them tho
And if you shave your arms that's even better, I finally did that and it's soooo much of an improvement
>>6402953
It never hurts to have the know how to get out of a situation if it happens tho
>>6402955
>hard way
No no
The fun way.
>>6402958
true true
>>6402952
Yeah, I'm going to look into temp agencies, it sounds like they do at least some of the legwork in getting you paired up with employers. Not ideal but beggars can't be choosers, Alberta is in a worse recession than 2008
>>6402962
What happened to the economy?
I'm going to go to bed.
Nite nite everyone <3
>>6402958
I've been shaving my arms regularly...
>the fun way
>tfw she doesn't get the reference
>>6402962
besides, through temp work you might meet someone who can land you a job. McDonalds won't do that for you.
>>6402965
Goodnight!
I wish I was a girl...
>>6402967
nitenite grace<3
>>6402969
But why look like a froggy?
>>6402969
Same
>>6402962
Why not go into the energy sector? There's always opening's for roughnecks.
>>6402964
Oil based economy.
Price of oil tanked after Saudi Arabia started a price war with US shale oil
Our economy tanked because there's no diversity here
Unemployment is at a 30 year high. Alberta is running a $10.4 billion deficit this year. Canada is running a $29.4 billion deficit this year. This was not a good time to finish school.
>>6402958
You didn't shave your arms? First thing I did when I decided to transition was to get rid of all my bodyhair
>>6402969
m-me too.....I'm gonna kill myself.
>>6402979
>fatty on the left of sexy raven
lmao
>tfw no bf but you aren't a girl yet so you can't go try and get one
>>6402984
Not immediately, no
When I started transition my bodyhair was terribly difficult to deal with
And then around 2 months I accidentally gave myself a bunch of ingrown hairs
sooooo I kind of had to wait for a long time to finally start getting rid of my bodyhair
>>6402991
?living with body hair
You aren't a true trans then, sorry.
>>6402994
Darn, waiting a couple more months after dealing with it for my whole life has invalidated my gender, whatever shall I do
>>6402983
Is this map accurate?
Seriously though, good luck finding a job
>>6402997
>killme
Me too jfc
>>6402995
It's OK, you are truetrans now :3
>>6402997
>thisiswhattheaveragegirllookslike.webm
>>6403000
ANON GIVETH
ANON TAKETH AWAY
>>6402997
It was just a joke derpanna. What happened to that quality assurance position at a meat packing plant if I remember correctly?
>>6402997
Nice. Here's a similar webm.
>>6402996
Entirely accurate. I'll put it this way:
- My ex is currently working a shit construction job despite being a trained chef
- A friend with years of experience doing work on cars is now working as a long haul trucker after getting laid off in Feb
- An oil worker at my D&D group spent more than a year trying to find work after being laid off, and is now driving a truck delivering ice
It's awful here right now.
>>6403007
Holy shit tht sucks
I have a hard enough time finding work in a decent economy
>>6402988
post pic pls?
>>6403004
I still want to visit and play airsoft with you but there is an ocean in the way :(
>cuddling in his bed
>feeling his warmth against me
>he puts his hand on my thigh, kisses my head, and pulls me closer
>doesn't even want to /lewd/
I'll get him by Sunday
He wouldn't dare leave for a month without giving me something
>>6403007
wow that fucking sucks, if the job market here is semi-crap I can't imagine how bad it is over there
Good luck, you'll need it
>>6403010
Where are you from?
>>6403011
Hopefully one of us runs into large amounts of money soon so we can! One of my friends is apparently gonna give me an MP5SD this weekend, really generous of him idk why but Im really excited!
>my and sister say I eat like a man because I like meat and big portions
>says I need to have a woman's pallet which is light and cleaner
b-but my steaks, ribs, and burgers...
My longtime friend who is pre everything trans is trying to get me to go to the pride party or what not. I don't wanna feel pride in being trans though
>>6403016
You should be handling a different kind of meat.
>>6403016
I know that feel
You can always make meats and stuff a special treat for nice occasions
>>6403018
Australia
My friend actually got hired at a job and then fired pretty much two weeks afterwards and was never called for work
>>6403015
I'd need to buy equipment first. I have never played but want to try. Maybe your friend can lend me a gun.
In which state do you live? I have relatives in CA.
>>6403021
Why even live if I can't enjoy what I eat? Honestly eating is my coping mechanism to deal with gender dysphoria. I'm not fat or anything either, in fact I'm super skinny and don't gain a lot of weight.
>>6403017
You don't go to pride to feel pride in being trans, you go to pride to take pride in surviving, beating the odds, and to empower yourself by being visible for a day.
>>6403033
and to out yourself to any possible acquaintances that may have thought you were cis
>>6403017
This cis girl I work with thinks I'm not trans and weird for not wanting to go to this big lgbt club with her and watching drag queens.
I just don't want to be around that and reminded of being trans. She thinks it's weird I don't wanna talk about it. The bitch is dating a ftm too.
hiiiiii
It's me mtfg!
Today I volunteered at the animal shelter again!!!
>>6403033
>>6403047
>>6403051
could you not
>>6403033
maybe in the future I could go, but idk I'm so early I feel like I don't deserve to be there
>>6403039
biggest fear tbhon
>>6403046
Is it bad that I really despise drag queens?
not sure why exactly
>>6403054
what's shaking?
>>6403039
That's something I actually care surprisingly little about. So long as they're not a shit about it then what does it actually matter?
Maybe it's because I don't surround myself with people that would care. I was at pride this year with a number of my ex's friends (who I guess I'm now out to) as well as his brother. His brother (whom I came out to years ago) asked what the flag I was carrying was. All those years of me dating his brother and apparently he'd basically forgotten that I was a tranny and might be carrying a tranny flag.
>>6403051
>I volunteered at the animal shelter again!!!
Why doe?
>>6403046
its obv she and her ftm are tumblr faggots or normies that think you have to make being a tranny the ONLY thing about your identity or youre just a weirdo serial killer
>>6403060
I got to meet kitties and feed them!
>>6403026
Oooh, you've never played? I could lend you one of mine, when I get the MP5 I'll have 3 so I'm sure you could borrow my PPSH or Honeybadger~
I live in Illinois, it's Midwest where as CA is the coast so it's kind of far.
>>6403055
could you have not sexually harass me
>>6403065
love ur trip are you new trip or changed trip?
there's a kitty named grace at the shelter! I pet her extra because Grace a sweetie
>>6403065
are you a good kitty?
>>6403063
You don't need to over compensate with the femininity anon, I think that's just a movie/tv meme anyway.
Being in an animal shelter would make me sad to see all those poor animals in cages looking unhappy, Also I don't do any work without getting paid lol.
>>6403074
im the one who emailed you the cuddleu trip before
>>6403076
>there's a kitty named grace at the shelter! I pet her extra because Grace a sweetie
<3
You're too sweet Red
Someone let me live on their couch long enough so I can get a job and get on mones again pls
pls before monday, it's literally going to be 120F
I will melt.
>>6403056
Idk, the reasons are different at different times. My motivation for going in early transition was mostly because I'd never known or met someone else who was trans, and I thought it was pretty cool to actually see how many other trans girls were out there (sheltered life yo). I'm assuming that's somewhat closer to the motivation for most people in early transition for going to pride. Plus it's a fun occasion to party.
>>6403059
our flag is kinda lame desu
>>6403082
where you at
>>6403051
Hey. Good volunteer choice.
Morning everyone. Just finished Legend of Korra - now I can stop killing time watching it when I get home and be all kinds of productive. Any productivity recommendations?
>>6403079
omg thank you sorry i didn't go with it i feel bad
>>6403077
well....I have a month to just chill after graduating before finding a place to move in for grad school, so I just decided to volunteer....and retake the GRE
>>6403085
Valley of the Sun, I'd praise it, if it didn't want to kill me...
someone pls
>>6403086
Watch Supernatural! Each season gets better and better (1st isn't that great) and then you can just stop watching after the 5th season cause it's all filler from then on, all 6 a seasons
>>6403081
How are you Grace?
>>6403091
*additional
>>6403082
how long is long enough
>>6403089
Maybe you should work on passing first. :3
>>6403073
why do you assume everyone who dislikes you is me
>>6403086
thank you <3
>>6403094
I'm doing well, getting kinda tired and I really wanna get a job again
How are you Red~?
>>6403092
just let her act like a little
it probably helps her deal with the fact that shes a giant
>>6403091
>1 isn't that great
What the fuck bitch I will cut you.
>>6403105
Lets all act like cute little anime girls haha!
yeah okay I get it
Whatever
I know I'm a boy
goodnight mtfg
>>6403104
I hurt physically less but I miss Kaylee so much and I can't deal with being masculine around my family. It's fucking with my head after 2 years of being feminine around my college campus. I hate this
>>6403097
I don't know.. like a couple of weeks, if not I'll just couchsurf somewheres else or hitchhike until I get to portland and live in a tent.
>>6403108
>red rn
>>6403106
i mean idk!
the finale is really really good i'll give you
the colt is cool
the rest is nothing but monster of the week and a barely there season arc about their dad who is a somewhat boring character in the end
i felt like this when i first saw it and when I just rewatched it this past week (halfway through season 2 now)
stop being mean to red
>>6403108
I mean, it smells like shit and I have to clean up poop, but I don't mind. I knew it wasn't too cute, but it's enjoyable? I like animals, I don't do this to be feminine. I have to do it as a boy anyway I'm too scared of my family knowing I like being feminine.
>>6403118
stop being mean in general
>>6403084
Yeah a bit. Could be worse though. I'll still carry a tranny flag at pride desu, it's probably the one place where blending and pretending to be cis doesn't make sense imo.
>>6403102
I didn't really meet anyone so much as just suddenly realise "wow, there's actually a lot of trans girls here, and they're not all like 40 years old either!" I think at that point it was something I needed.
>>6403112
>I dont know...like
we both know you wont find a job
youll barely even try, just enough to keep me taking care of you
>>6403111
Why are you being masculine around your family? That sounds awful.
>>6403083
I guess it does sound kinda tempting. I wouldn't be able to go in girlmode without dying of stress, not to mention I am poor and have nothing nice to wear. I might just go with my bi friends and be a long haired faggot
>>6403125
yeah we could've had the gay flag :3
I'd never carry the flag though, I don't wanna be seen ;_;
>>6403084
I like the colors
>>6403130
they're scared of trannies. Or at least my grandparents. My mom is just ignorant. She knows that I like men, so she just sees me as a gay guy.
>>6403084
someone make a better flag
>>6403133
eh, I never thought that really light colours go well with flags
>>6403116
I agree, S1 was mostly just monster of the week filler but it was written well. Ghost Facers and Dean's black girlfriend were some of my fav supernatural episodes.
>mom knows I am trans
>shopping at store see shoes I like
>go for it and decide to walk over there and see if I can find my size
>mom tells me she like those on her
>asks me if i found anything in the mens section
suicide is so close
>tfw ur not a girl
: (
>>6403129
I would be willing to be your live-in maid, I'm pretty good at cleaning actually. My mom is a cleaning lady and took me with her all the time until she kicked me out lol
I'd work a mcjob tbhon, I don't have any dignity left.
Just give me a corner to keep my stuff+bike and a place to sleep and I'll pitch in till I get something or fuck off into the abyss.
>>6403136
Yeah they're kinda low visibility
like trans acceptance
>>6403135
a flag you can truly be proud of
>>6403135
>>6403138
Haha what a bitch. Steal her boyfriend, fuck all the guys at her church gatherings, bring home drunk men and shout "cum in me!" as loud as you can, even if they're not actually fucking you and just passed out.
RUIN HER LIFE.
>>6403131
Idk, if you're with friends it can be a fun time. Hit the beer gardens and party a lil'
>>6403132
I like the rainbow flag desu.
Also, not even at pride? I have the option to just blend under those circumstances but idk why I would. I'm well past the point where I think I should feel shame for being trans, or actively hide.
>>6403146
I am too much of a good boy :(
>>6403138
tell her you found some shoes from her and give her something her size from the mens section
>>6403141
I live in portland but unless you could pay for your food and/or pay a fair share of the rent the answer is a strong no
and even then probably not, trannies make terrible roommates
>>6403150
JUST DO IT
BECOME A BIMBO WHORE
>>6403151
>tell her you found some shoes from her and give her something her size from the mens section
I wish I could do things like this. I have thought about saying Sir to her considering she always sirs me and says I look like other men and stuff but then it's like "no u"
>>6403148
the rainbow flag has too many colours imo
I also probably wouldn't hold one at a pride, I generally don't like being put in positions like that, I feel embarrassed
>>6403148
>tfw 20 years old in burgerstan
welp
>>6403137
i guess
ghostfacers was s3 though! truck one was fun though yeah
>>6403154
its a lot easier to think about doing something then to actually have the courage to do it
as someone who has a stutter and a strongly avoidant personality I know that feel
>>6403162
GET A DIFFERENT DICK IN YOU EVERY SINGLE DAY
GET YOUR NAILS AND HAIR DONE EVERY WEEK
WEAR TIGHT CLOTHING
>>6403137
do you mean the one with a tulpa?
>>6403162
Yeah I am very avoidant as well and still have so much self hatred at the idea that I am transgender that I don't even do anything other than take hormones and stay in my room lol.
feels good to bully red out of the thread
:3
>>6403151
>trannies make terrible roommates
Yeah, I've been trying to find someone that's at least an ally to room with, thought I'd hit y'all up but I understand not wanting someone that's barely starting to transition living with you.
Thanks for at least entertaining the idea.
>>6403137
>>6403166
Who is your favorite character? I fucking Love Jody! She's my hero, I usually just watch all the episodes with her when I get bored.
anyone here had ffs? how long does it take for the swelling to go down?
>>6403161
Eh, I think most of my favourite supernatural episodes were filler. The police station demon siege, the old timey horror flick episode, the whole Lilith Arc (arguably filler since lilith could have been cut out entirely and the plot would have stayed the same.) I dunno. I guess I just enjoy the character interacting in fun, different ways. Kinda sick of Castiel shifting between brooding asshole and "huh this human custom is really weird here's me reacting in a cute, naive way because I'm not human and I don't get it."
>>6403168
this, men don't belong here.
>>6403167
>tfw you have enough self hatred that youve gone a couple weeks without taking mones because it felt like everyone was mad at you and you couldnt afford mones and you didnt want to burden anyone to paying for yours
>tfw you lost half a year of progress because you are a fucking mess of a human being
>>6403171
its not that
ive had too many roommates take advantage of me and my hospitality, all but one of which were trannies
none of which were able to pay rent in the end
which always fucked me over in some way
Im done trusting people
>>6403174
well no those are the coolest ones, especially the trickster/other gag episodes
but not all of them are cool
>>6403179
did you finally kick yume out, gem?
>>6403155
Of course it does, it's a spectrum :p
Also, idk what there is to be embarrassed about. Self confidence yo, life's full of a lot more embarrassing shit than acknowledging being trans. Hell, these days I don't even think being trans is embarrassing at all, I have a lot of feelings about it but embarrassment and shame aren't included.
>>6403183
>implying id do something thatd make me want to kill myself
>>6403184
two things I'm a bit embarrassed about is the being involved in a big crowd and the trans stuff, so I'd probably never go to a pride thing ;_;
>>6403186
oh hey Gem, you alright?
>>6403187
Awe, why do big crowds embarrass you?
>>6403188
of course
why wouldnt i be
>>6403179
Oh I see, I can see how that would stop you taking in charity cases.
Do people not at least have some sort of savings before moving in with you? I mean fuck, I have a few grand saved up and plenty of shit to sell before I'd actually leave so I couldn't fuck someone over like that. That's not really coolduder at all.
Is portland cool though? I haven't been there since the 90s, I hear it's hella expensive now though. What's your rent looking like? It's ok if you don't want to say
>>6403190
I'm honestly not sure, I just feel uncomfortable within them, especially a loud crowd
It's weird though, I can navigate through a populated city well enough but crowds, nah
>>6403192
idk, just checking in how you're doing
>>6403195
>It's weird though, I can navigate through a populated city well enough but crowds, nah
Same, I took the metro and walked everywhere in LA but crowds make me anxious as fug.
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>>6403203
*pats*
>>6403195
Agoraphobia of some sort ;~;
Sucks, there's so much fun stuff with crowds at them.
>>6403203
Gib pls
>>6403203
>>6403207
*pats*
>>6403208
*headpats expertly*
>>6403208
hmm it's not agoraphobia
but crowds just feel uncomfortable in general, I can be in one, I just don't like to
I'm just not exactly the most public person, I need to get out more ;_;
>>6403198
ikr, it's weird desu
>>6403193
portland is cool af, theres tons of neat little restaurants and shops hiding everywhere
if you had that and would be able to pay rent up front first and in general (which I heavily regret not asking friends for) then Id honestly be happy having you as a roommate
its kinda expensive to live here (im paying like 1080 for a 2 bed 2 bath and I dont even live in portland proper, just in the greater portland area), but if you're not dumb with money like I am its no big deal
>>6403207
>>6403208
>>6403209
*applies superpats*
how do you get neetbux
>>6403213
Thank youu~
>>6403214
Honestly, it may just be down to not necessarily getting out enough to remove the anxiety that comes with lots of noise and people. I used to hate crowds too, then I started going to shows and raves and stuff and now I love crowds, feels like home.
>>6403216
<3
>>6403220
1. be black
2. collect welfare
>>6403220
why get neetbux when you can have a man support you and take care of you
>>6403203
Please, I need this
>>6403227
im agp desu
>>6403228
quite so >:3
>>6403227
>tfw no man will ever love you and take care of you without being a creepy chaser
>>6403208
>>6403220
tell them youre sad
>>6403224
yeah raves and music festivals would be crazy, I'd probs stick to the side if I went to one, middle would be just be plain uncomfortable
To be honest though, I don't avoid crowds all together, I'd just never go to one on my own initiative, like if a friend invited to something like a festival or a big show, etc I'd probably go, new experiences are fun
>>6403215
Damn, I think I'll just save up a bit more so I don't end up screwing someone over. I don't want to dump my money on rent and maybe not be able to get a job right away.
I live with my cousin and we split the rent 50/50, and that's only 350 a month for a 4 bed 2 bath house. Utilities aren't bad until the heat starts then the electricity bills are massive. I think living in a shithole has spoiled me to how little I can pay for so much shit.
but then maybe I'll go live in eugene and let my massive grass seed allergy kill me.
>>6403233
i'm sure one will if you're passing and cute like me
>>6403232
Thank you.
>>6403240
>passing and cute
not yet. but I'm early on so idk
I fear the worst though
>>6403234
<3
>>6403237
You'd think the side of the dance floor is the least uncomfortable but it's not. Idk, it doesn't take too long to realise that the middle of the dance floor is where there's the most freedom and excitement. You can cut loose, feed off the energy of the people around you, get completely sucked into the moment and the momentum of the people around you, and you'll never be the worst dancer there. It's honestly great.
So long as you're open to new experiences I'm sure you'll get to a point where the worst anxiety goes away, it just takes time.
Either way, it's bedtime for me. Goodnight!
>>6403252
yeah probably
see ya
>>6403252
>feed off the energy of the people around you, get completely sucked into the moment and the momentum of the people around you
goodnight you filthy extrovert
fucking canadian energy vampires...
tfw a man forever with no hopes of passing at all.
>>6403258
Find someone to live vicariously through?
is 7 months hrt still early
>>6403256
More of us are extroverted than know it. A couple decades being socialized wrong will make almost anyone doubt that they like spending time with/around people.
>>6403261
getting close to peak effects
>>6403261
the answer to that is subjective
>>6403261
Major changes mostly seem to happen between months 7 and 30. Yes, it's early yet.
>>6403261
yes, don't worry about it. I felt like hrt was doing nothing for me until like a year in, where I actually started getting fat redistribution in hips, thighs, boobs, face, etc.
You may see some people getting big changes really quickly but everyone is different. It's puberty, some people change later than others
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