That feel when you're living a completely aimless and boring life without friends or any real human contact, working a dead-end minimum wage job because you can't find anything better and you still live with your parents, and have lost all your motivation and drive and even interest in anything.
I'll never find anyone to be with because I'm such a shut-in, I'm ugly, and I have absolutely nothing to offer.
I need to just muster the courage and an hero.
>>5785067
At least you have a job. I haven't been able to find a stable one in two years. I feel like a huge loser for still depending completely on my parents at almost 22.
It doesn't surprise me that I am alone. I wouldn't date myself either.
>>5785080
I'd rather be a NEET than working minimum wage. There's no point in working if one makes such little money that one can't be independent anyways, or if the job is so dead-end there's no chance of ever moving up or learning valuable skills. And I have a university degree, but this minimum wage shit is all I could get, and even then, it took calling in favors...
I've begun to fantasize about an heroing a lot, the past few months. It just doesn't look like things are going to change.
A bf would be nice, but I'm never going to find someone I like and who likes me. It'd be hard if I was independent, but like this, it's just impossible.
>>5785159
No. I got it from some thread on /x/.
The question is, when will people wake up? It is not sustainable to have 80% of the country working 50 hour weeks while 20% gets nothing and starves. It is not sustainable to have highly skilled workers serving coffee.
>>5785106
Even if it's a shit job, it is better than being jobless, trust me.
You have something to answer when people ask what do you do, you're at least getting experience in one field, which is always valuable, and, trust me, nothing is worse than feeling completely useless.
I'm still in college, which makes finding a job really difficult because of my schedule. Sometimes I manage to find something for a couple of weeks or even a month but nothing stable.
Not that it will happen, but if someone asked me out I'd have to decline the offer because I can't afford going out.
But I guess that's life on the third world
>>5785067
Or try LSD a few times. It'll shift your perception drastically; possibly for the better
Can you please stop to hate yourselves so much? Nothing will change, as long as you dont start to love and accept yourself and i know its hard for lgbt like us.
>>5785067
Pity is not attractive. Unless you're deformed or a consequence of genetics gone wrong (if you are, sorry, death might be more pleasant) you'll be ok.
Start small and progress. Wallowing in shame and self doubt makes you weak. Stop or kill yourself; no one wants to hear it either way.
>>5787181
>I JUST WANT TO BE UNHAPPY!
Ok. Don't actually solve your problems and make sure you blame them on someone else.
>>5787133
go fuck yourself
>>5787219
Fuck off back to Facebook, normalfag. 'Just BEE urself! :)' isn't even close to being advice.
Try traveling, it helps when you force yourself out of your comfort zone. I used to be like you but went backpacking for a year, sometimes just traveling and sometimes settling down somewhere for longer time and working at some cafe, hostel or bar. You can't do this without meeting new people, all you need to do is to take the first step and just go. You have a job so you can save for a trip and that makes your job more motivating as well. If you're in US you can start just by traveling from state to state and realize how many different qts there are waiting for you.
>>5788116
>Traveling
>Traveling without purpose
I've done it a little bit but I have no interest in wandering around.
Seems like it'd just be looking for nothing.
>>5788116
Ive gone travelling alone by myself numerous times
Im not sure how I would have met anyone to be honest, I just walked around and looked at things, went to cafes, at no point did I ever meet anyone new because there was no reason to have talked to anyone
>>5785080
I'm 22, I have a job that many people dream about, and I feel like shit. You know why? Because I'm mentally broken and I have to interact everyday as young adult with other young adults that are happy, comfortable in their body and in their relationships while I'm not.
I was definitely happier when I was a neet. In fact I feel happiest (least unhappy) during the weekends, when I can stay at home and pretend to still enjoy playing videogames to escape real life.
>>5788456
>I suffer despite having a good prestigious job that pays me good money, offers benefits, and the possibility of advancement
Fuck off, faggot.
>>5788588
I guarantee you, if you're socially broken enough to be a neet for a prolonged period, you will not be happier once you're on your own. I don't wish the alienation that I feel everyday on anyone.
Sometimes I feel like im missing a huge part of my neural hardware when I see people tallk and socialise
I see people talking fluidly and coming up with relevant and funny asides and quips and having long conversations with people theyve just met
With me I always just say a few barely applicable things that dont really make sense, which ends in a painfully awkward moment where we both know the other wants to leave the conversation but neither of us can say it and so once again ive failed to make any social headway
At this point I just want friends, or I just want to be comfortable walking around, or even to know what it really is that went to fucking wrong for me to turn out so malformed and pathetic
Romance and relationships dont exist for me, its just not a possible outcome
I confessed my love for my friend the other day, it was the first time I've ever done anything like that, I'm 21 years old.
I think he's just barely tolerating my presence out of pity. I want to hold him, I feel like I'm fading out of existence, nothing matters to me anymore, my life is false. I just want to be with him but I never learned how to express my love. I'm ready for my life to end already, it's so close and the world is so distant.
>>5788631
If you went back to be a neet and be alone with your thoughts 24/7 you would realize how much better having a good job, even if you hate, is.
That's where I'm at right now.
>>5788198
Well you're living without a purpose right now so what's the difference?
>>5788766
ahhh
why doesn't he love meeeeee
;_;
>>5788725
hit too close, bro
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I created a similar thread on tuesday about how I become obsessed with people for months at a time, after only minimal interaction. It's reassuring to see I'm not the only neurotic with really strange intrusive thoughts here.
Another thing that drives me crazy is the fact that I'm still not past the basic existential questions surrounding being gay. I ruminate about it daily and the only conclusion I've come to so far is that I'm uncomfortable about it, and it's a huge factor in my feeling out of place, uncertain of the future and without any purpose.
It drives me to the moon and back. These thoughts feel like teenage angst, and I'm in my twenties.
>>5788938
You can't do anything without love.
And nobody loves me.
>>5787170
This. I know it sounds bitter and cold, OP, but this post is the truth, really.
I'm 29 now, and I've lost years of my youth wallowing in self pity and living paralyzed by fear. I let other people like my mom run my life into the ground and what took me a decade to realize about depression is that NO ONE is going to help you. No one here is reading your post and truly caring, and the way you are no one will want to associate or grow close to or trust you.
Depression, fear, selfloathing etc are all entirely your struggle and you need to accept that today. You HAVE to face this on your own and realize that self-pity is your worst enemy. Abandon it. Don't expect a savior to come. Start conquering your depression and fight for the life you want and don't end up like me.
>>5789720
sounds fun, where ya from
>how to cure depression
1.Visit other boards if you havent already
2.Learn something new, as in develop a world view or conspiracy theories at the lowest. (Reading helps too)
3.go git gains, lift, jog, etc
4.forge your new self, it will alter your mind and slightly boost your ego (just enough not to feel so shit about everything you do and who you are)
>>5790084
The south.
>>5788793
You may be right. But when I'm at work, my self-deprecation and anxiety leak into my interactions and make everything a source of distress. I can't stop myself from thinking about all the things that confuse me in my life even during a conference.
>>5790120
Can confirm this is how I dealt with teenage years without biting a bullet. I completely changed my diet, started exercising and further developed my intensely jaded and cynical worldview and attitude so it didn't sound like teen angst.
Christ this really is just gay wizardchan.
If you unemployed and underemployed faggots have any literary skills, I recommend you read this article:
http://www.theatlantic.com/business/archive/2016/01/white-working-class-poverty/424341/
You aren't alone.
Only Trump can make America great again.
>>5791909
(You)
>>5790350
the south?
sounds radical yo
