No one will ever love me edition
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Previous thread >>5779226
cis males, not even once.
>>5780384
why can't i join the military
>>5780390
Give it a few years.
>>5780384
look at the man hands on that chick
>>5780395
Which one?
>>5780400
middle with white dress
>ywn headpat yume because she dislikes you
I want to headpat a transsexual until he begs for my precum soaked penis.
I slept for two hours because I had a migraine and now I can't sleep at all
Also my hand really hurts where I cut it but it's not inflamed or anything
>>5780408
do i dislike you?
I want to kill myself.
Unfortunately I don't know how to do this, instead I bruise myself on the bone and walk barefoot in the cold to suffer.
How do I stop?
posting again
does this pass?
d-do I pass
http://vocaroo.com/i/s0LDp7uB3iHL
>>5780410
>he
ebin
>>5780419
Take all the drugs
>tfw noone to squirt lotion on my face
>>5780410
>transsexual
>he
You must have gotten lost on your way to /ftmg/
>tfw dysphoria lessens from comparing myself to sicilian girls
>>5780420
feminine mic clips
>>5780420
whyboner
>>5780428
Is your family Sicilian?
You've always looked North Italian to me
>>5780438
mhm, my whole family has olive/dark/tan skin and i'm just the white skinned one ;~;
>>5780413
yes
>>5780435
http://vocaroo.com/i/s0if5VmEyksj
hey mtfg
who here got a date this week/weekend?
>>5780441
Spooky
I'm similar though, my brother's are tan af but I'm a snownigger
Though, they go out in the sun more often than me
>>5780447
just die
>>5780447
not me, but because you asked the question i am going to assume you did
>>5780426
I will never have any sexual encounters
>>5780453
well...yes...but I was wondering if anyone else did!
I get to give the person I'm dating some cute matching undies with me! I got them the undies for valentines but they didn't arrive until recently.
C-c-c-captain Yume
Driven to manipulate. Fueled by egomania. History's trap of mystery, coated by an insane lust to dominate and destroy. Her mystic power and physical strength made her the most powerful trap of her time. No one knew her, they only feared her. Cower at last the real shocking story has been told. Here is the amazing true story of the trap who's evil genius still fascinates the entire world. The ladies adore her. Her hypnotic power mesmerized the entire world. But can they can they kill this trap possessed by superhuman powers of evil?
>>5780443
im pretty sure i dont
>>5780447
got a hot date with Smith N. Wesson
>>5780461
>>5780461
wtf is this?
>>5780468
trust me you do
>>5780461
But yume is gross
>>5780461
yume looks like an autistic tubby faggot
>>5780481
WHO????
>>5780467
awwwee sorry >< They're a genderqueer dfab person who's thinking of taking T and transitioning. They're really cute and look like an emo boy, and they make me happy! I like talking to them, even while comforting them during a panic attack. They're soooo short! I'm tall...They're also an excellent musician and have a beautiful voice.
So, how's the assistant thing going? that sounds like something I'd like!
https://strawpoll.me/6913845/
>>5780486
if I told you you might vomit so I wont tell
>>5780503
gimmie a hint pls
>>5780491
Get them to transition to a femboy instead, that way they don't even need to mess with shots or pills since all the femboys end up on female hormones anyways.
>>5780491
Well I hope they figure out what they want and I hope everything goes well with you, it's great to have someone who you don't feel like you're bothering even during anxiety attacks, those people are so valuable, I struggle with that all myself so I know what you mean. Hey I mean if that's true you could start a duet thing could be really cute together I'm sure.
Yeah it's not bad, cleaning some and dishes, organizing and helping him with laundry and all that kind of basic stuff as well as company on errands/navigation that kind of silly stuff. Nominal price but he pays me for when I'm lazing around and such as well but it's just nice having some income right now. Had gone on a date with him but he was a bit old for me but he manages a business so needed someone anyway for this kind of help.
>>5780502
What kinda gun do you have?
>>5780491
>genderqueer dfab
>>5780473
fucking rekt
>>5780504
the grossest hon here
>>5780518
Are you me?
>>5780518
does ur name start with an a
or are u a trip
>>5780522
no but it it ends with an n
>>5780512
i ordered a glock 43. I plan on building an 80 percent ar15 to shoot 300 blackout and building a glock clone 80 percent
>someone calls me a living meme for being trans
>>5780526
just tell me what it starts with desu
b?
>>5780534
s
>>5780539
ur actual name or ur internet name?
>>5780533
kayla? i called you a living meme a while ago. i didnot mean it as an insult though
>>5780541
some people treat me like I am
>>5780543
both
>>5780549
i literally cannot think of a single transgirl i knew with those specs
just fucking tell me who u are or something cmon
email me
>:(((((((((((
>>5780532
You Americans and your guns
We can't even carry knifes for self-defence here
>>5780506
ahhh how do I convince them to do that? They're already kinda androgynous...but they do bind! They have such cute full cheeks and I love how they talk to me :3
>>5780509
I'm glad you have that arrangement! Hey, whats your name on skype again? I got a new laptop recently and it's hard to figure out who's who on skype ><
>>5780549
Sheen?
>>5780539
sheen?
>>5780554
just move to america kuppy.
>>5780561
>>5780560
she said shes not a trip
>>5780556
Yeah it's a nice situuation, I'm Kari on skype ^^ Has a picture of me from a few months ago as a picture.
kayla if your still lurking please don't be sad you're awesome T.T
would come and give you irl hugs if i wasn't in Canada. you're an inspiration.
>>5780562
That won't be for a long time unfortunately
>>5780567
ahhh I'm not sure I have you as a contact >< I'm derp223
>>5780582
hmm
weird i thought it was someone i used to know
even if it is sheen i dont hate/dislike sheen desu
im still almost certain its someone from my past though...............
are we posting anime trump edits?
>>5780612
when aren't we?
>tfw massive dysphoria and disassociation out of nowhere
help
>>5780640
See a gender identity therapist
>>5780384
I'm a gay man and this picture makes me incredibly aroused self-inserting as the female in the scenario, is this normal?
>>5780640
Hell ain't it?
>tfw can't give Edie hugs to feel better
>>5780650
Why worry if it's normal or not; if it's arousing then enjoy the arousal.
>>5780650
Probably
Who am I to say, I'm not a gay man
i think im going to make my middle name maria
sara maria
>>5780681
I always knew you were a mexican
buying this rn mtfg
>>5780686
>giving more money to one of the richest people in the country
>>5780685
I'm not mexican
my family are catholic arabs
both of my names are v catholic
i wonder what the arabic versions of both would be though?
>>5780681
>maria
good thing we're building a wall to keep your kind out soon
>>5780655
but anon this sounds so sinful
Sara Maryām
مريمسارة
>>5780704
allahu ackbar
>>5780714
can't wait for trump to deport your kind
Question.
Does stopping HRT for a period of time stunt development? My next month's shipment was delayed, sooo.
>>5780721
what country do you live in?
>>5780721
You'll be back to an almost fully working male in a month.
Who else here use Grindr and gets told weird shit by guys on the reg?
>>5780728
Sounds awful. I have some backup spiro though, so surely I can avoid such a fate?
But yeah, the central question here is will it stunt my development? I'm on patches, so it's not like I could ration it.
>>5780735
I dunno, I just know that being off both E and aa really fucks you up and you'll get male skin and stuff again.
I want orchi so bad.
>>5780640
maybe the hrt is finally catching up with you and you are about to go back to living as a man?
>>5780738
W-will going back on the E and AA be just as effective and fix my skin?
>>5780730
Why use Grindr?
Why not tindr and just note that you're trans in your bio?
>>5780730
I just use OKC but gotten some weird stuff there buut never like.. too explicit.
>>5780746
Yeah, i've been off hrt once before in 3 years of hrt and it's horrible.
Not sure if they fucked up my delivery or something but i'm not using IHP again.
>>5780755
How long were you off them for? Did you gradually work up your dosage again or yolo'd to your old dose?
anyone here from a north american timezone that stays up all night? I need someone to keep me company at night .-.
>>5780760
Im in PST and usually up for like 5 more hours
how long until eddy goes back to living as a man and stops pretending to be trans
>>5780760
yea i stay up all night and im cst
>>5780760
EST, doesn't look like I'm sleeping tonight
>>5780760
UTC-5 what up.
>>5780758
Like 3 weeks the first time and now a month this time.
I yolo'd but I dunno if that's good, doesnt matter after this long on hrt maybe?
There's no reason for my hrt to be late this time though ;_;
>>5780695
If I'm Googling it right it would be Sara Maryām (مريم سارة).
>>5780766
fuck off
you're the number one reason /mtfg/ is a shitty place, you realize that right?
>>5780567
I think I'm gonna finally just switch to that here as well. Had started here before I had settled on a name but yeah.
>>5780772
Oh wait I see you already figured it out, I should read the whole thread before replying...
>>5780772
yeah i figured that out :3
i want to make a caligraphy tughra for my name
>>5780770
B-but it did fix your skin again, right? So I'll get my alpine white skin back? R-right?
>>5780773
his shitty bragging is worse
he is agp at best and is at least a fake tranny
>>5780788
so you're bitter because you're a hon?
>>5780786
Yeah, i'm not sure if I ever lost it but someone said my skin looks male now.
Your benis starts being gross and annoying though, that's for sure.
Turns out I was hungry
I guess skipping dinner does that
>>5780789
I have a tendency to pass out though so maybe keep your options open
>>5780789
idk do you have steam? PST here
>>5780794
So I'm assuming you that you're off them now now?
Sounds awful. Wish I could help.
>>5780714
This is last name first and with no spaces
I can't get howhot or pictriev to gender me male. Did I win?
>>5780810
سارة ماري
i know i already figured it out my gal
>>5780781
arabic calligraphy m8 <3333
>>5780804
It sucks and their customer support can't really help either.
Something i've noticed is that I can sleep so damn long now and i'm always tired, can easily do like 18 hours of sleep which sucks.
>>5780812
yes
go fulltime
>>5780812
Same but I do look male.
>>5780817
Could you go to a doctor and let him or her know that you've been self-medding but want a legit prescription because your supply has gotten cut off? It might be worth trying.
>>5780821
ive been telling her to for a while now, she looks like a girl
>>5780812
f u l l t i m e
>>5780824
im sure you're better than you think
Speaking of fulltime,
When are my stupid lunch friends going to ask if I'm a degenerate instead of making jokes and saying I'd make a cute girl
Like
I'm not gonna come out and tell them on my own, but they clearly think I'm a faggot
>>5780447
Anyone want one in the New England area?? 26/m
Dead thread.
>>5780814
are u good at it?
i wanna make it tugrah
r8 my caligraphy flag
Daily reminder that if you burn the coal, you have to pay the toll
>>5780821
But then I'd have to talk to my family about it and that's really scary...
>>5780828
I do not look like a girl!!!
>>5780848
>Nike
wow they had it coming
>>5780848
>are despicable. Vulgar and reprehensible.
Apparently their education didn't include teaching her grammar.
>>5780848
>disowned for liking chocolate
>>5780848
Damn, I thought this was just going to be mostly because they are trans
are they International Keystone Knights or something? that's just fucked up
>>5780515
You're using that wrong
>>5780846
Dead life
>>5780848
That's some fucked up shittt
>>5780871
I knowww
>>5780876
>>5780857
as it should be
>ywn be a pretty Syrian girl defending your country from ISIS/ISIL, ZOG and the US and other US allies
>>5780879
what is she from again
it looks trippy af
so guys, uh, i'm getting vocal surgery soon, and i have to go off all HRT (AAs included) for two weeks prior.
help me. what will happen, and what can i do to not explode in horror?
>>5780893
This wonderfully crazy but cute video. super fancy kaeru. I wanna watch that one and some of them this weekend
>>5780894
your boobs will shrivel, your balls will drop, your beard shadow will grow back in and you will start going bald!
or you know, apart from feeling a little worse for wear you will be fine
>>5780888
>while all your men go to Europe to get their gibsmedat
are injections better than pills?
It is approximately 4am
I tripped trying to crawl back into my bed but managed to safely return to the warm spot
I feel the coziness overtaking me, as the last two and a half hours of my scheduled sleeping approach
>>5780901
>apart from feeling a little worse for wear you will be fine
please be telling the truth ;_;
>>5780651
i read a book for 2 hours and listened to french music in a warm bathtub and now i'm happy and back to normal again ^__^ t-thx for the sentiment tho senpai i appreciate it
>>5780645
>>5780742
however is why i literally never talk about my dysphoria or trans issues here. it's weird how mtfg is like the one of last places you'd want to talk about being a tranny and yet it's one of the only halfway decent resources lmao
>>5780909
some people get moody, that's about it really.
should I masturbate before going to bed or masturbate while IN bed?
>>5780915
Masturbate with the bed
Together, like lovers
>>5780913
when's the wedding between you and anna going to be?
>>5780913
did you creampie anna yet?
>>5780920
never cause i don't like anna like that
>>5780925
omg NO
i only like one girl and it's not anna
w h y d o e s n o o n e b e l i e v e m e
>>5780919
ew,gross
What should I get from taco bell
>>5780928
>i only like one girl and it's not anna
>w h y d o e s n o o n e b e l i e v e m e
>only like one girl
>it's not anna
>believe me
sooooo it IS anna heh
>>5780919
I fucked my bed like six times today, ngl
>>5780928
do you have dreams of planting a big wet kiss on anna's lips?
>>5780847
because the r isn't supposed to be connected to the A in the last name, it looks like it could be a couple letters, if you want to connect them you normally continue the R through the A
>>5780928
why dont you like anna?
is there something wrong with her? do you think she is ugly? how dare you!
>>5780935
>>5780937
i-it's not anna ;___; she's rly great but i don't have romantic feels for her..
>>5780939
n-n-no i just idk i don't normally like girls
>>5780933
everything plus a large diet coke
>>5780928
>i don't like anna
you bitch I will slap your face off
>>5780942
>i have romantic feels for her
ftfy
>>5780942
were anna's lips soft and tender? were you her first?
>>5780942
>n-n-no i just idk i don't normally like girls
did you tell anna yet btw?
>>5780945
>>5780948
>>5780950
>>5780955
WHY ARE YOU SO MEAN
>>5780942
>getting flustered over anna
it's so obvious you LIKELIKE her like o.m.g
>>5780943
>not mountain dew
>>5780958
diet mountain dew tastes like ass
>>5780956
5funsies<3
>>5780956
we're only mean so you can recognize happiness when it comes
>>5780956
You're cute when you're bullied like this
>>5780956
there there
there there
>>5780961
speaking of which when are you getting a boyfriend?
>>5780959
this
>>5780959
did I say diet?
>>5780962
kill urself alrday
>>5780969
It must happen! or should happen, I bet you're right.
>>5780972
Give me drug money senpaitachi
>>5780970
well you can't expect her to get full sugar mt dew if she is getting one of everything from taco bell
she has to watch her weight
>>5780913
Since when am I a senpai?
>ywn be pretty enough to cosplay supergirl
faye could cosplay powergirl if she dyed her hair blonde
>>5780981
>I'M NEVER GONNA TELL THE GIRL I LIKE
BUT YOU HAVE TO!
>>5780974
what are these images from again? i remember watching them on youtube but that was years ago
>>5780981
Why do you chase away love edie? Just cuz its different doesnt mean you shouldnt pursue it!
>went out and bought makeup for the first time the other night
>put it on a little bit ago
>had a lot of fun doing it and it felt right
its a small thing but it felt nice
>>5780990
bitch, makeup is amazing and anyone who says otherwise isnt right in the head
>>5780990
>try to put on makeup
>cant get it perfect and get pissed off because i look like a clown
>cry myself to sleep
can i have your experience instead
>>5780990
"ah ya buying ur gf a belated valentines day gift?"
Good morning beautifuls. How's everyone this morning?
>>5780984
n-no i don't
>>5780989
cause it's complicated and she prob wouldn't like me anyways and it's better if i don't try i think
>>5780990
i welcome you to the world of makeup t b h
>>5781000
You really wanna look back on it and wonder what could have been? you should go for it, shed be crazy not to like you, but if she doesnt, you said you were almost over it anyway, you have nothing to lose :P
>>5780997
hello best friend. I am lonely but otherwise well. how are you?
>>5781000
>n-no i don't
yes you do, like the other anon said
you need to stop running away from love or you will be alone forever
>>5780995
the lady actually called me maam, but i think she just was hugboxing me, or assuming i was trans cause i went in at like 2 in the morning
>>5781000
it seems like a fun world to be in
>>5780993
a lot of trans people i know said it was more trouble than it was worth, but i agree with you now, it is amazing
>>5780994
mines far from perfect since it was my first time, but ill get better at it, it doesnt look that bad
>>5781008
>a lot of trans people i know said it was more trouble than it was worth
hons the lot of them
>>5781008
fuck make up essay
>>5780990
>not passing without makeup
whats it like being a hon
>>5780987
>>5780900
Gonna watch it next time I trip!
>>5781000
do a voca of your flusteredness!!
>>5781014
bitch
>>5781000
>it's better if i don't try i think
where would you be if you had've said the same thing of transition?
>>5781016
clypit* :)
>>5781008
make up is gods gift to women
it makes you feel amazing about yourself
>>5781019
¿pɐɯ ʇɹnɥ os ʎɥʍ
>>5781023
vocaroo
>>5781004
Yay! Best friendu! I'm OK. Didn't sleep much then I had this fucked up dream where I got dressed up, thought I looked great. Then once I got out everyone was laughing at me. Then I looked in a mirror and I just looked like I did before transition, just in a dress. Junked with my head a bit.
Then I ordered pancakes and the guy tried to charge me €35 for two. Weird dream.
god I am so hungry
>>5781003
>>5781022
idk i mean.................... i might maybe tell her when i see her irl but prob not, it's complicated and stuff i'm telling u, it would be better if i just got over it
>>5781006
it's ok if i end up alone forever, i'm used to it
>>5781008
o, but it is. don't listen to anyone who says otherwise!!!!!!
>>5781016
n-no i won't let u bully me anymore!!
>>5781033
Cmon edie! Dont run away from the love! Wheres the harm in trying, worst case she says no and you can continue moving on, best case you guys get to be cute together
>>5781028
Yes but my only friend on it is my brother and I deny all friend /trade/message etc because it is worth too much haha.
Sorry, I know I am difficult.
when i pull my piece out niggas like peace out
>>5781038
u sure are difficuly >:(
>>5781012
i-im just having fun with it, i didnt say i needed it
>>5781009
some were and some werent but they kinda scared me from it, im glad i have some now though
>>5781024
i honestly didnt expect it to but it really does
>>5781033
i wont!!
>>5781033
>it's ok if i end up alone forever, i'm used to it
NO!
YOU ARENT ALLOWED
NOW IF YOU DONT TELL HER THEN I AM GOING TO COME TO YOUR APARTMENT AND KICK YOUR BUTT
>>5781027
I also had a really messed up dream. It really fucked with me. and I seem to have dreams like this a lot. every time it happens I wake up screaming and jumping out of my bed. this one I saw some guy walking near an intersection of two roads. a car came flying by and nearly hit him, only to hit a tree or something behind him and explode violently, littering the man with shrapnel. his body was shredded to bits, there were blood and guts everywhere. I could hear him gasping for air and moaning and attempting to scream in pain. it was terrifying. this was after already having a slightly less terrifying nightmare where some kind of animal / werewolf or something was trying to kill me and now I'm wide awake even though it's early morning here and I haven't slept the past two days.
>>5781045
it'll be okay marcy
>>5781045
Certainly beats mine in head junkingness. Does this happen often to you? You should see a sleep specialist anon.
>>5781033
Glad to see you're back. And really, there's nothing wrong about being in love, no matter who it is with. Besides, who knows? You might enjoy girls too...
>>5781043
that old guy is kind of cute actually
>>5781045
I get nightmares like that almost every night. After a while, they become familiar and you get kind of used to them. But they're still physically exhausting.
>>5781045
I had a dream a month ago where a guy was shot in the knees, drenched in gasoline, lit on fire, then thrown off my deck right next to me where I could hear his body sizzling and his frantic screaming.
Probably because I watched that ISIS video of the Jordanian pilot burning to death.
I could still hear his screaming echoing through my head when I woke up.
>>5781057
>every night
jesus christ you really are insane
>>5781060
My real problem is that it's never "a guy". Always someone I care for. And there's nothing I can do. Fucking survivor's guilt eating me really...
>>5781035
;-; or she won't wanna be my friend anymore or it'll be weird or a million other things
>>5781043
FIGHT ME
>>5781052
i-i'm only kinda back, but idk if the stars aligned i would be courting her rn. but they haven't so i'm not
>>5781039
did u send me something on skype?
I don't have it installed (its malware) so i check the website every now and again.
>>5781061
Yeah. It's called PTSD. And it's unfortunately not my only issue.
>>5781063
dont think about stuff that wont happen, just do it, for your happiness sake!
>>5780997
Manly and handsome as always.
>>5781069
oh well I hope you get better
>>5781063
just tell her how u feel dude if they're chill n shit they wont give a hoot
real talk
>>5781066
nah i just wanted 2 know if ur one of THOSE people
>>5781063
>FIGHT ME
oh its on
someone hold my earrings
>>5781069
I had dreams where my house would burn down and I couldn't find my family was (dead/lost/etcetera?). Always woke up panicking. Lasted age 8-12. idk why it stopped.
>>5781073
THOSE people? haha
>>5781084
i used to watch hickok videos with my ex, he's a fucking cool dude.
>>5781050
if I don't wake up every hour or two, I have horrible nightmares. What does a sleep specialist do? I don't think I could fall asleep with wires and stuff hooked up to me, sleeping pills don't even work.
>>5781060
I keep having dreams where I'm in my bedroom and when I wake up it's incredibly hard to distinguish it from reality, the room in my dream is so absolutely perfect and exactly the same as my real room. I even have dreams where I wake up in my bed just as something awful is about to happen. so I wake up and I'm not sure what's real and what's not. it's terrifying and so jarring to not have something concrete to grasp onto. maybe I need a friend or something as a kind of reality check or something.
>>5781071
I saw your before you were neither manly, nor handsome. I think I'm gonna have to take you out just so you feel all small and girly next to me by comparison.
>>5781094
I shaved my body today. I'm 3 years on HRT and I have hairs everywhere - even on sides of my eyes that I need to shave regularly. It doesn't make me feel particularly girly.
how can i rise to be a special snowflake?
is a trip all it takes
>>5781091
Well first it would be getting an intake of your day to day life, diet, sleep, medication. Then yeah it's about monitoring your body's chemical and biophysical responses while sleeping. Small chemical differences can have massive repercussions. Like even a small dose of tricyclic antidepressants has been known to help, whereas SSRI's can make them worse. The brain is crazy and shit.
>>5781103
yes
>>5781100
iktf i always feel like a ape
>>5781100
I hate my hairy arms and thighs and even my chest and back are still hairy despite all turning blonde
