> be me
> be taught that gays are evil for the first half of my life
> have repressed homosexual desires
> learn that being gay is a natural variant of human sexuality
> come to terms with own homosexuality
> come out to parents
> soniamdisappoint.jpg
> try dating
> realize i am incapable of forging meaningful relationships with people and would have just been better off not saying anything and quietly fapping to gay porno for the rest of my life
i want to die but i'm too much of a coward to kill myself
>>5731608
Felt this way until (sounds fucking cliche but) someone showed me I was worthy of being loved.
>>5731608
Are you me?
>>5731608
>Realize I'm gay halfway through ninth grade
>Only people that are guys and like guys that I know are bisexual and already dating women
>Be lonely entire high school while friends are busy going to dances and dealing with drama
>>5731617
I assure you I am not worthy of love
>be gay
>want to tell people
>remember I'm really boring
>remember I don't actually like being around other people
>remember I have -1 sex drive
>whatsthepoint
eh
>>5731633
God, this hits way too close to home.
>>5731653
Didn't think I was. You just need to put yourself out there desu. You're not gonn find anyone sitting in your bedroom wallowing in self pity.
step your pussy game up honey, get a job. Run a business. Suck a dick.
>>5731701
I have an acerbic personity, weird tastes in art/music/literature, am ugly as hell, etc
>>5731709
Holy shit, are you me?
>>5731723
Are you op?
>>5731734
Yes.
So I guess the obvious answer is no.
>>5731744
Then yeah we're basically the same person
>>5731608
Same but I haven't come out to anyone. Never going to hook up with another dude so what's the point of telling people?
>>5731633
>tfw 27
>tfw my friends are all starting to get married
>tfw never even had a bf
>>5731608
> tfw the exact same but trans
Spending my whole childhood in Mississippi really fucked me over, I hate gays and trans people so much. I just want to be a girl, not deal with all this degeneracy.
>>5731608
I like gay porn but IRL flings I cannot get into. The sex is uninteresting.
>>5731608
When you were trying to date I was trying to think up ways to make my suicide worth something.
The plan was Army and stick my head out at the right time, Australian so would pay out to my family.
Failed the psych test.
>>5732355
>tfw the exact same but trans
lol, no one cares
>>5732381
And what is your plan now?
>>5732267
Whiskey and music will be your boyfriends
>>5732448
> being this salty over the t
Let me guess, some barely passing butter ball ftm turned your aids-riddled fat ass down even when you thought they would cling to anyone, so now you're being a salty bitch
>>5732454
Gave myself a deadline to become something of worth. If by the time I turn 35 and still consider myself to have no appreciable value then a period of three months will be used to devise something fun and deadly to do.
Trying to get a chemistry degree right now, failed out of 1st year because I guess fuck my brain under stress.
They kicked me out for a year.
Doing a CCNA for a year just because then back into it.
I have 8 years left to get at least a masters in chemistry, or "accidentally" touch some HF at the uni's very well insured lab.
>>5732530
I also gave myself a deadline. 30 it is. If I still haven't got the guts to end myself, I'll just flee into the wilderness like I always wanted, and die from whatever causes.
Best of luck, anon.
>>5731608
>incapable of forging meaningful relationships
no.
you just have had some bad experiences.
keep trying.
if at first you don't succeed, try, try again.
life is about learning.
nothing worth having is easy.
relationships take work and involve compromise but they can be very rewarding.
that said, there is nothing wrong with quietly fapping to gay porn.
if you can't love yourself,
how the hell are you going to love somebody else?
pic related
he's now a model and movie star.
if he had said 'oh i'm too ugly' and stayed in his room he never would have become what he is today.
>>5732530
>>5732793
Getting an actual job and 'becoming something of worth' didn't really help me at all, I'm now living in an expensive downtown apartment I'm too chickenshit to leave after work and meet people, make friends, find someone and all that.
The core problems still follow you through until you fix them at their core, and not their symptoms.
>>5731633
Jesus Christ reading through this board makes me depressed.
I don't want to spend the rest of my life dateless and end up as a sad middle aged man sitting in the corner of a gay bar
>>5732902
I do go outside sometimes, and meet people and everything. My problem isn't loneliness, I'm fine with being on my own most of the time. I'm just bored, unsatisfied with uni, with "friends", with everything I'm doing right now. That's why I have a deadline. I'm giving myself this window of years in order to find something that fulfills me. If I don't find it until I'm 30, like I said, I'll just go away.
>>5731709
Gimme a picture.
Tell me your interests.
Music tastes?
>>5731633
To be honest, I'm kinda glad I never dated in high school. I was totally not prepared for that kind of thing back then. Sure, it was lonely, but I had my friends.
>>5732267
have you never dated?
>>5732902
>antisocial
>living in an expensive downtown apartment
sounds like you're just retarded m8
>>5732902
can't fail until I try
>>5733198
>only meaningful relationship I ever had was an online one with a 4chan user who left me
>proceeded to have questionable sexual encounters (no actual sex, though) with ugly men, left me with tons of guilt
>too much of a boring loser pseudo-hermit to find a real bf, plus my standards are too high
Life is awful
>>5732478
No I'm just sick of trannies and their shit on this board.
You're a pervert, like the rest of us, only your kind is so fucking stuck up about it.
>>5733198
you will always fail until you try
