Probably not.
First I'd need to gain a lot of weight and I just realized I look male af from anything but a frontal angle.

Got lots of cash but even with FFS my shoulders are super wide, my hips super narrow, my legs pretty short, my feet too big and I've been like 55kg for the last 8 years or so.

After like 6 months of speech training I decided to try and give VFS a try but if I cant even get my voice down at all, it'll probably be even worse afterwards.

Just kill me.

funny you ask. i was going through my best selfies and pondering the likelihood of my life ending in suicide just this morning

Me here. Was on hormones for a couple months years ago. Gave up. Too old now. Been living in misery for 5 years. Luckily, I'm rich and waiting for VR or surrogates. Otherwise I would have long killed myself.