I'm pretty sure I've slowly but surely emasculated myself by having penis envy, fantasied about my friends having sex with the girls I found out, never fantasying about my self having sex, fantasizing about turning into a girl and have sex with my friends, fantasizing about taking our friendship to the next level by having sex. Watching kek porn, watching gay porn. Now I'm getting to the point were I want to suck dicks and get fucked in the ass for real. Lately I've been jerking off to a lot of gay porn, and dick pics, and also straight porn.
I'm so confused and scared, especially when I googled about straight men that act out homosexual acts, from this psychotherapist named Joe Kort.
I find girls hot, but not erection hot, I can't jerk off to pictures of naked women unless I think about her getting fucked by strong well endowed men. But seeing a semi erect dick in the shower will sometimes give me a boner...
I'm so scared that I might actually be a straight with homosexual fantasies, that's so fucked up, I also don't want to be a straight kek. Is there anyway I can make the idea of me having sex with a girl turn me on without having to think about mmf threesome? I well so emasculated and weak.
I hate the uncertainty of not knowing that I'm gay or not, I hate the idea of me being a straight male with a broken self esteem that just want to bottom for other men.
And i'd much rather be a born homosexual than a beta kek turned gay.
Please respond.
jerk off to nothing but anime girls it'll cure you i promise
>>5331863
Hang around feminine males exclusively, those more feminine than you. You'll perceive yourself as more masculine.
>>5332320
That's the problem I feel "manly" when I'm not jerking off or having emasculating fantasies, but I've been told I sound "gay" especially when I get drunk, which is odd because I find myself to be pretty straight acting.
Maybe I just like to think that I'm a hardcunt, but when in fact I'm actually just a gay cunt.
>>5332702
But I read on some psychotherapist page made my some faggot that porn addiction could lead to jerking off to gay porn...
http://straightguise.com/reasons_straight-men/
This just makes me feel so confused and scared about my real sexuality, what if I'm really straight but I've made myself gay by thinking about my friends having sex with girls?
>>5332771
>But I read on some psychotherapist page
>>5332771
>I've made myself gay by thinking about my friends having sex with girls
>>5332788
I say this because that's how it started, I never thought about myself having sex with girls, but I would sometimes imagine I could turn myself into a girl and fuck my friends, or let my bff practice on my boypussy until we would get gfs, I'm also obsessed with big cocks, all my straight porn habit has something to do with big cocked guys.
I feel like I've desensitized myself to women, and that's why I jerk off to cocks...
>>5332848
>"I'm not gay, I'm just obsessed with big cocks!"
whatever sweetheart
>>5332869
I'm fine with being gay, but I'm scared that I might be a straight man that has made himself like gay things(because of internet porn).
>>5332920
>I'm fine with being gay, but I'm scared that I might be gay
it's time for you to stop posting now
>>5332920
Why are you scared? Just do what you want.
>>5332848
you're gay you faggot
>>5332937
I've read that broken straight men born with straight orientation can act out on homosexuality as a pathological addicition to porn. That's at least what this guy says:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vIj4xfPj9RU
I really don't want to do something gay that I can't take back, I would feel really weak if I was straight all along and I had sucked a dick and got jizzed on.
>>5331863
I don't really see what's so complicated here. You're a dude. Check. You're attracted to dicks. Check. You're either bi or gay. Congrats.
Some people just take a while to figure things out. That's OK, too. Shit's complicated, especially since guys who are attracted to other guys tend to get a lot of shit from certain demographics. Just don't worry about it.
>>5331863
>wants to be told how to be straighter
>comes to /lgbt/ for help
>mfw
>>5331863
>fantasizing about turning into a girl and have sex with my friends
Sounds trans...
>Now I'm getting to the point were I want to suck dicks and get fucked in the ass for real.
many cis women love to do both.
>>5332848
Get into therapy. talk your issues through with a therapist.
>>5332920
Liking men or lining women, or liking both is built in and immutable. All you can do is discover what you really are, then express that. If you don't get a hard on to female porn, than likely you will not get one with a girl, though some can get excited enough about the idea of having sex that they can get erect. The sex can still be pleasurable, but deep fulfillment may be lacking..
>>5333356
Sounds trans...
That was just a phase I went through when I was a teenager, I liked the idea of spoiling my friend with beautiful girls knocking on his door just to fuck him(and i'd get to sit on his cock).
>many cis women love to do both.
I don't think I'm trans, when I think about getting fucked in the ass I like to think of my self as a submissive boy.
I feel you, bro. I suggest focusing on other things and building your confidence and self esteem before making any permanent decisions. I'm assuming that you're kind of a depressed loser atm, this makes you vulnerable to doubting and giving too much of a fuck about your sexuality, just hold off on experimenting or trying to label yourself until you have more important aspects of your life dealt with, then you'll be able to see things more clearly and make sound decisions regarding this issue.
I can relate because I'm going through the same thing, a lot of it is just over thinking it, it's taken serious life situations to pull me out of that mental hell, but it gave me perspective and me realize how insignificant of a problem it really is.
