Hey /lgbt/
Long story short, I'm not sure whether I should transition or not.
Ever since I was a kid, I've always felt more comfortable in a female role. I never liked doing the "guy" thing or being "one of the guys". I don't particularly like the male role, image, or really anything about it. Which got me to thinking that I should transition.
As a bit of backstory, I went to college and roomed with someone in the same position as me. Since she finally got away from her parents, she started self medicating HRT and fully transitioning. Now, she's pretty happy with herself.
I, however, am confused for various reasons. Firstly, I live in a relatively small town in New Hampshire. I can't imagine me doing this without everyone else finding out before I'm ready to leave. Secondly, my parents. I have a pretty good relationship with my parents. It's, at the least, civil and somewhat open. I know I'm not the son they wanted but I don't want to lose them completely.
I'm in a real weird spot and I honestly have no one else to talk to about this. halp :<
pic unrelated, have these feet as payment
Just go for it. You'll get to be a hot chick and it'll be fun.
>>5188310
Am I just being too paranoid about this?
Wishing I could just self medicate but I'm obviously not brave enough to risk something like that...
bump for desperation
moar feets
>>5188316
Maybe it'd be good to talk to a therapist about it if you can?
Or if you're impulsive like me you can just say screw it and tell your parents and try to get on hormones right away.
>>5188336
If I could've talked to my parents, I would've done that a decade ago. Or at least before I finished high school.
Maybe a therapist would help. Isn't that necessary for HRT from a doctor anyway?
>>5188367
In the US, pretty much. They can write you a prescription for HRT that you then take to an endocrinologist to get fulfilled. Self-medding probably isn't a good idea.
I'd say do it and then we can become hot chicks together!
>>5188384
That fucking sucks.
I need a roommate.
>>5188394
It sucks, but it's safer to go to an endo than to self-med.
I'd recommend to just do it. You ain't gettin any younger, and the sooner you start, the sooner you get to look like a Senran. Do you still keep in touch with your ex-roommate? Maybe she'd have some good insight.
>>5188408
Unfortunately not. As far as I'm aware, she's been on HRT for at least a few years, got a name change, and started to live full time as who she really is.
We stopped talking because I have problems with how she lives her life. Mainly her borderline pedophilia and drug problem, as well as the nonstop partying. It got tired really fast. :<
>>5188462
I see, that's too bad.
Well I guess you just have to decide then, if you want to stay a boring guy or if you'd rather become a hot girl.
>>5188316
It's not really a risk if you take normal doses though Anon. But if you mean risk in terms them finding out, it's not necessarily a bad thing because it proves how much you want it.
https://docs.google.com/spreadsheets/d/1zZQyrinhLsl2FWY9XI_bk3RtqSP94a8h-ZFvYBzcfIE/edit#gid=0
It recommends Spiro, but if you get too many side effects from it at 100mg+100mg, get Cypro instead and do one 50mg pill every morning. Cypro>Spiro eitherway though as an AA.
Liver damage, etc, is not a risk unless you take massive stupid doses middle aged men with prostate cancer take to aggressively deal with their cancer.
On what they do: http://taimapedia.org/index.php?title=Hormones
Most trans look ugly as shit and don't pass. Like 75% trans, probably trasvestic fetishism, considering the image you posted. Huge numbers of trans regret it but you can't go back once you had the D chopped off and there are bad health complications from hormone therapy. Just deal with being male. People and non people antecedents have done it for millions of years.
You're overthinking life, making unnecersary attributions and making yourself miserable.
>>5188803
I'd say this is my biggest fear.
Regardless of whether everything works out fine, completely falls apart, or falls in the middle, not being passable would be the nail in the coffin.
I have a pretty prominent brow and broad shoulders. I don't want to be a slave to my fears but I don't want to be a horrifying boy in a dress either. =/
i'm mtf too. still in the closet. moving out soon though, but idk where to even start. i'll need a job too if i even decide to transition but i don't know if i'll even make for a cute girl. all my features are so masculine, especially my shoulders and all that body hair. life sucks.
also pls post moar feet
>>5188297
>Ever since I was a kid, I've always felt more comfortable in a female role
So you lived as a girl from childhood till highschool?
>I never liked doing the "guy" thing or being "one of the guys"
So what? Lots guys don't play sports, or act like cavemen. A man is just an adult male with xy chromosomes and a penis, the rest is variable.
>>5189245
No. Get your own feet. :<
>>5189247
>So you lived as a girl from childhood till highschool?
No. What I meant was that I always felt more comfortable in a feminine role, doing things with the girls and, of course, dressing up as private. I've been doing it since like, the 2nd grade.
When I was growing up, I didn't know jack about transitioning or being transgender so I just kept it private and hidden.
>>5188762
I'm still curious about this. I'd prefer to take this approach but I'm still on the fence about health risks. Something about being rushed to the ER and my parents finding out I'm doing HRT is a bit iffy.
Also moar feet
>>5192590
>feminine role, doing things with the girls and, of course, dressing up as private
Were you really feminine growing up? Were your friends mostly the opposite sex?
>>5188297
You should come out OP
living with dysphoria isnt fun.
I know its scary and you feel that it may ruin your relationship with your family. A lot of trans people have felt that fear, so your not alone. but you never know until you come out with it, you may even wind up having a better relationship with your senpai if you do
but it really boils down to this. If transitioning will make you happy then you should do it OP
best of luck
