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>>5133135
sheen's gay
If one goes with informed consent to and endocronologist they can get hormones without having to get an assessment by a therapist saying, yes this girl is trans?
>>5134269
It's a Felt F-75, I managed to find it at a thrift shop half off retail and it was even a 2013 model in 2013, and my size. I havent been riding as much as I should but triyng to get back into it again. My thing is I try not to say something if there isn't anything positive generally, and if I don't want to be positive I'll just go somewhere else for a bit, cause this is definitely not the place to get out of a negative attitude. I used to be such a cynical person and just wanted to be done with that. Idk, I had to come out to my mom twice, but overall it wasn't the worst reactions. Nah it's fine, like half the time I just am okay with trying shit like that but yeah, just bad situation more recently. I'm glad to be done with that though, but wanna get back to meeting people and getting out and feeling normie, or, I dunno, not like a shut in so much.
>>5134310
At the end of this one Frog sends Toad a little that says they're best friends and I cry every time.
>>5134319
yeah, you just go to the doc and say "gimmie hrt you big meanie" and they go "omg this girl is so mean i'm so scared" and then they fondle your testicles and give you hrt
>>5134325
Cool, but how do I afford medical insurance?
>>5134325
Yeah sounded way out there, I'm guessing the therapist needs to give a diagnosis of GID and then the endocronologist will give a prescription after blood work?
>>5134330
no I'm completely serious. Well, not serious about the "big meanie part" but that's how it played out for me. He was a creepy old guy that checked me for lumps
>>5134316
if anything I'm asexual, I'm not comfortable with doing anything with a boy because I'm a virgin and also I'm pretty much completely disgustingly ugly so the only way any guy would ever want to get near me is if he was part of some sort of prank to find the ugliest girl he can find and pretend he is going to have sex with her.
a lot of that also applies tog irls, but with the added layer of dysphoria and jealousy which would limit anything to pretty much just cuddles and maybe some kissing.
>>5134336
it was a joke
ily sheen
hi y'all~!
today I'll try my hardest to be happy and work hard!!!
>>5134343
Heya there person I haven't talked to before, how is yourself?
>>5134343
That's the spirit!
>>5134320
Oh wow, that's a really awesome way to find a bike especially one that fits you, now I'm really jealous. I definitely need to ride more, I'm only riding on sat/sun but I'm thinking about commuting by bike to whatever job I find instead of taking the bus or driving just to be able to save up money.
Yeah I know what you mean, you can get really wrapped up in the drama here and it can affect you irl if you let it. Ugh, I really do need to try to put myself out there and live a life outside my room too... being a normie at least comes with friends and stuff to do. Like today I went on a group ride because I read about it online but only rode with them a bit before I felt super awkward and just rode home.
Sometimes I wish I was a basic bitch going to starbucks everyday instead of being anxious talking on the phone.
>>5134351
I'm good! I finished up my essay and got my nice sweater today! tomorrow is my 22nd birthday!
>>5134342
>it was a joke
like my life
My boy friend did break up with me today though...So I'm trying to stay positive! when I'm 22 I'll be fitter and more attractive!!
>>5134353
Yeah it was super lucky, it looked like someone had fallen over on it once and gave up for good haha. I have only been getting out once a week for like an hour or so if that, I should try to do some of the bike events there's so many down here with the whole hipster resurgence in town. I hope to not end up doing the same thing but probably will. Was super happy to get invited out for normie stuff last week though, and hoping to continue to, I got invited out for Halloween but need to figure out a last minute outfit that will work for me =\. I totally agree though like, idk being basic isn't so bad compared to being robot. I need to find some kind of real hobby or a something to meet people, OKC just gets a bunch of people wanting to fuck, which would be great if I weren't still a virgin and wanting to like, have something kinda real for my first time.
>>5134355
That sounds great! You should post the sweater! I got a qt jacket I been meaning to post a pic of myself, probably gonna go get a pic in a few~ Also Happy Birthday!!
>>5134357
Sorry to hear about this though =\ but yeah you're just gonna keep getting better, so don't worry. How long of a relationship had it been?
>>5134333
So after that I get my hormones, then pay for laser hair removal go through several sessions, then surgery and recovery and dilation. And then I get to be a real girl?
>>5134362
it was around 3 months. But he really loved me and treated me nicely and I loved when he held me!
>>5134363
Be warned, laser hurts a lot more than I expected, but it's so worth it!
>>5134366
Aw that's sweet, I keep finding myself almost falling for guys just out of that desire to be held, but then I realize that it wasn't really them, but just that it was someone at that point. I hope to find someone where it does click though..
>tfw we will all never have a comfy and fun sleepover together.
>>5134377
thankfully tomorrow i'm going to hand out candy to kids with my sorority dressed up as Pearl, for this indoor halloween thing. That will make me happy! I like making people happy and seeing them smile
even Australian ex prime ministers are shitposters
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H5awwRWLbGY
>>5134373
My face. :(
>>5134382
Aww cuute! That's always a great feeling! Hope that all goes great :3
>>5134356
Pic is wrong. Dysphoria isn't a driving factor, more like an anchor.
What was that one medication you need to get to go along with cyproterone that negates most of the negative side effects?
>>5134391
no masculinity is an anchor, femininity is what I will be chasing forever and never being able to grasp
>>5134392
Cyrpo/Sprio are AAs (or a fake AA, in spiros case) which stop testosterone. Estradiol is the Estrogen you need for being female. Going with no hormones for too long is bad. Read the sticky for more info.
>>5134362
Last minute outfit for halloween eh? At least you are doing something, I think we're just turning off the lights and hiding in our own bowls of candy ;~;
It's p funny though, the Goodwill halloween commercial just came on so now I'll suggest you thrift for an outfit, like just go in there and wing it! Just be like a slutty vampire or something.
I've tried OKC a couple of times, even if you try to just find friends they want bjs... stupid boys.
I'm not sure what hobby would be social even cycling is lonely most of the time.
Oh well, it's late and I'm off to bed but it was nice talking to you. night night
>>5134396
I meant the depression-related side effects of cypro, because cypro supresses a lot more more stuff than just testosterone. I saw in a thread here there's another medication you take with it that fixes those side effects.
>>5134393
No like, the carrot on a stick is metaphorically "she sees the reward so he is moving forward, even if it's not towards to goal she thinks.
Our quest toward being okay woth ourselves doesn't propel us forward in any other meaningful manner unless we succeed. You gotta think DEEP yo.
Maybe if the womanhood on a stick was leading the stocktrans off a cliff or a tree with a noose?
speaking of hormones, I'm going to start injecting soon. 10mg/1mL. I'm nervous and not sure where to find/which gauge syringe I need. Also, I'm going to start cycling progesterone again soon
>>5134403
but I'm not going to succeed, I'm going to try forever and never succeed
>>5134404
why are you so pretty it's not fair
>>5134402
Not familiar then. Didn't have that myself with Cypro. My bad though, ambiguity of the question~
>>5134404
Yay Prog cycling! My next cycle is coming up in a few days actually~ Should be fun haha. Hope injections go well though!
>>5134401
IDK what to go as but good idea, I should go do that probably. I've actually managed to make a good amount of friends on OKC at this point, like, 7, idk, not the most but good for a site thats mostly just hookups. Yeah thats the problem most hobbies are usually not social, and I just don't know how to meet people. I go to bars but don't approach others really, and just get creepy old guys trying to touch me.
Nini, sleep well! Was nice talking to you too! I'm actually going to sleep for the night as well. Probably gonna be shitposting from the courthouse in the morning while I wait around on name change stuffs~
Also goodnight mtfg~
>>5134404
I'm assuming you're using AllDayChemist's shit that comes in ampoules?
These are good for cracking open the ampoule and not getting glass everywhere:
http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B0018BN5N4
You can get your syringes here:
https://iremedysupply.com/3ml-syringe-with-needle-23g-x-1-regular-bevel-regular-wall-detachable-needle-box-of-50.html
Use 18g filter needle (to filter out glass from cracking ampoule) to fill:
http://www.ebay.com/itm/221912757940
Use 22g 1.5" to inject:
https://iremedysupply.com/needle-22g-x-1-5-regular-bevel-sterile-box-of-100.html
Don't forget to get yourself a nice sharps container for when you're all done:
http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B001B9W78W
If you're using vials and not ampoules you can skip the ampoule crackers and just get regular 18G needles instead of 18G needles with filters to fill your syringe:
https://iremedysupply.com/needle-18g-x-1-5-thin-wall-fill-regular-bevel-sterile-box-of-100.html
Also you'll probably want some alcohol wipes, gauze strips, and band-aids.
Have fun with your femunizations anon!
What happened to all the trips that usually post around now?
>>5134424
Dead or too busy sucking dick
>>5134408
You just don't get it sheen. Your more like... jumping towards a woman symbol stuck to the ceiling? Or at least I am
>>5134426
I wish
>>5134424
Once maki left the night died. That was when he posted and made it active
>>5134431
It's nicer dead.
>>5134419
so....do I need just the 22g 1.5"? or do I need to get the needles too?
>>5134373
How much does laser cost btw?
>>5134427
I don't even know what I'm doing anymore tbh
>>5134423
Progynon Depot
>>5134431
what about aife, elfginger, umaruchan, alison and so many others?
they wouldnt just abandon us would they? ;~;
>>5134442
Elfginger and umaru left during makis three day cocaine reign of terror. Alison took cocaine and went off on a reign of terror
Aife probably sleeping
>>5134310
im sad, someone reassure me that one day ill make friends and feel loved :(
>>5134434
Well, I can't speak for everywhere, but I've been paying about $100 a treatment for full face and neck.
>>5134445
I would but I have trouble reassuring myself that
>>5134449
its okay, ill reassure you and you reassure me
>>5134450
and then kiss
>>5134442
>elfginger, umaruchan
you can thank oddish for that
I got oral today while driving.
It was pretty good but God am I a degenerate.
>>5134447
How many treatments does it take usually?
>>5134451
the process is complete
>>5134455
Varies on the amount of hair, color, and skin color. They told me it'd probably take around 10 treatments to get everything, since I have a lot of facial hair....
>>5134451
jj i love you
>>5134459
Nothing
He just spoke his mind about something he didn't know what he was talking about.
It was the anons saying all the brutal shit that got them to leave
Oddish really didn't do anything
>Since taking a whoremoans break I've been getting random boners day in and day out
jesus
was it always this bad and I just got used to it or what?
>>5134466
>was it always this bad
yes
>>5134459
>"someone" posts a troll pic of kira saying she looks like mrs doubtfire
>oddish decides to tell everyone kira doesn't pass and everyone is hugboxing
>says he thought it was a sincere photo and that hes just being nice to kira
>wont admit hes wrong and says this place is worse than susans
>keeps getting madder and saying kira doesn't pass and its not his fault because he though a picture of kira's head photoshopped onto a hobo with the post saying "tfw u look like a crossdressing man" was genuine and that even though she passes irl he thinks she doesnt pass and his opinion is the right one
>>5134463
Trip on Oddish.
>>5134473
sounds like you have a personal stake in all this.
>touch something with my finger that got cut
>feels like an electric shock
H-how long will this last? Should I just chop my finger off? I don't want to live with this
>>5134459
>>one true thing
>lets see
>>Oddish was posting mean shops of Kira from before she transitioned
>well that was anon and oddish never drops trip you know
>>She starts attacking Kira entirely unprovoked
>yup
>>Everyone said Kira looked good before HRT
>yup
>>That made Oddish angry
>yup
>> so she says Kira doesn't pass and it a narcissist
>yup
>>Everyone tells Oddish to fuck off.
>yup
>>hen Oddish cries suicide and makes big tl;dr posts to get sympathy.
>yup
Short story Oddish is a bitter hon that chases out the nice girls.
How does masturbation affect hrt? Would there be any noticeable long term difference between hrt with no masturbation whatsoever, and someone who masturbated daily from the first day of hrt? If the daily masturbation stopped, would the effects get erased, assuming there were any.
>>5134483
>Kira looked good before HRT
well now I have to look at the archive cuz lol
>>5134473
I think the situation got blown overboard because of the issue maki and oddish had the day before and he just used it as an excuse to go off
Everyone attacked maki and he was on cocaine going off on oddish and others
He's gone now thankfully
>>5134485
i just tried masturbating tonight
when i was a boy i used to be able to get hard and jerk off for no reason
now i need to imagine being embraced from behind by a boy who would love me and stay with me forever to get off, and even then it's difficult to maintain an erection or even finish for that matter
>Everyone calling me he
>>5134482
Why wouldn't you get it removed in the first place if you don't want your finger?
how come it doesn't feel good to have stuff in my butt? I spend like 20-30 minutes relaxing and easing into it and stretching it so that it's not tense and trying to push things out, but even when I get to that point and use a bunch of lube I just don't feel any good sensations in there ><
>>5134495
Doctors don't usually offer amputation of the limb as a treatment for cuts. I guess I gotta take things into my own hands
>>5134491
OH so that's where the
>What is thus, transpassing?
pasta came from, that was some funny shit doe
>>5134482
if you chop your finger off then you will have to go through with this again
and then you will chop your hand off and then your arm then your torso
its a slippery slope
I think everyone in this thread needs to chill! There's no need for conflict!
>>5134494
how about you threaten suicide over people saying you're a bully again? maybe you can guilt trip anna into loving you this time
>>5134499
Link?
>>5134494
You should give your side of the story
>>5134499
If you don't want to be judged on lame years old pre-HRT shops by trolls you're as bad as transpassing and Susans.
>>5134494
Its probably just the same anon who refers to every trip he hates as he because he thinks its clever.
>>5134508
seconding this
>>5134508
No, i dont want to fight. I dont even know if i want to be here anymore. I shouldn't even give a shit that people are still anon posting about me.
>>5134516
Who would you be fighting if those people aren't around?
Just drop your side, don't even like greentext it
>>5134517
kira and oddish havent gotten along for a while and oddish decided to speak out of turn for whatever reason and made a fool of herself and then threatened to kill herself
>>5134516
There there Oddish.
Trips really need to stop letting a couple hateful people push them away or this general will become just another dead one on /lgbt/
>>5134526
I never seen Kira do anything to Oddish, it was completely unwarranted and Oddish made it worse when every trip and anon disagreed.
>>5134531
But oddish is the one driving people away
>>5134535
they argued a lot back in the day
Surprise!!! Mtfg is still absolute shit, and probably the most testosteron filled thread on /lgbt/
>>5134527
Im not really seeing anything by just skimming it. Unless the one talking bad about Oddish right now is Maki then that would make sense.
>>5134531
Bunz you really shouldn't shit stir this hard just because you're psychotic.
>>5134542
>the most testosteron filled thread on /lgbt/
actually we are all on blockers and bicker like women
go figure
>>5134540
Everyone argued with Oddish.
>>5134508
http://archive.loveisover.me/lgbt/thread/5045624/#5046138
here u go, oddish's side
>>5134544
Cheska I wish you would just trip again instead of always attacking me. I'll just assume its you because you're one to go into the archives to see what my image posts are.
>>5134543
Skim harder.
>>5134542
I came here because I thought I would make friends I could relate to. I haven't made a single friend yet. Everyone here just complains and posts anime.
>>5134548
No you don't, this is like autism overload general, and "bitching" the way guys do.
>>5134555
you've never seen a group of women arguing before have you?
>>5134493
I didn't make myself clear, i meant what difference does it make to the way hrt changes your body, if any. I've heard it helps keep the penis functional if you use it regularly.
>>5134554
>complains about people posting anime
>posts homosuck
Explain yourself
>>5134560
I gotta go.
>>5134560
this, problem sleuth was way way better
>>5134552
I'm not even Cheska. I just find it ironic that shitposing starts up again when you and Oddish are posting. You're both literal psycho scum.
>>5134556
They don't do it like this, unless you think erping /vg/ aspies have "girl drama"
>>5134554
>Everyone here just complains and posts anime.
Welcome to mtfg
>>5134563
Yeah, ok. My bad for posting one thing in defense of someone being attacked by anons like you "Not Cheska"
>>5134564
confirmed for never interacting with groups of people let alone women outside of 4chan
>>5134561
lol'd
>>5134566
>Welcome to 4chan
Fixd
Au contrare, or something.
>>5134508
>I'm not backpedaling though? My sentiments are the exact same despite the fact that every trip has bandwagoned against me. And again, i have differences with kira, but i don't feel maliciously toward her. I feel bad for her because she's hiding and everyone is letting her. I do get angry with her when she tries to get into arguments and she has no cle what she's talking about, but that hasnt even happened in ages. I don't wanna hurt her feelings, but whats really painful imo is friends who won't tell you the truth.
Oddish's side of the story is that everyone is lying to Kira in an echochamber. Pre transition boymode pics and shops are sincere pictures that require Oddish's sincere judgement even if they were posted by a troll less than one minute apart from Kira's own post. The fact she passes in real life is a lie because Oddish said so.
>>5134568
Poor Oddish not really getting attacked for attacking people, just like you do. It's always the same usual suspects like you, Kiwi, Oddish, Angie. Hons have to stick together I suppose.
>>5134497
can someone please answer my god damn question
>>5134577
trip on cheska
>>5134579
no you butt slut
butt for real, get some real dick, a vibe or stop using so much lube and get some friction going so can actually be butthurt while no one answers your post next time.
>>5134577
You say all this yet continue to attack people while hiding as anon. You're really not fooling me but keep it up.
>ginger ex bf messages me asking random questions
>get to talking and tell him i was in his area this weekend (i literally walked by his house twice)
>tell him i was going to say hi but i thought it might be rude or weird etc
>he tells me that i should have told him and it would have been nice to see me
>talk to him about other stuff, he talks about his current gf
>he doesn't have many nice things to say, he gets slightly flirty with me
>tell him i wasn't sure if she would be ok with me hanging out with him and he says no
>"she would fucking flip out on me if she knew we hung out together......"
>"she practically stalked you online for awhile and like......idk."
>tell him i get it but that i'm kind of bummed we would never be able to hangout ever
>"no we can still hangout...... idc if she gets pissed off. she'll be salty but whatever."
>o-oh ok
>keep talking about a ton of other things, random sex talk, random talk about people we're dating
>he ends up asking me if i'd send him recent gifs/pics of me and i do
>tell him i want to see recent pics too since i never see them of him anymore
>after a bit of talking about other stuff he starts talking about how horny he is
>when he gets home he sends me a ton of lewd stuff
>kind of surprised and then we keep talking and he says he wishes we were fucking etc
>mfw
is it safe to say that like my ex-bf still wants me.....? in the last couple of weeks he told me all of this stuff along with how hot he thought i was, how he still thought about me and how we used to fuck when he got off, and he sent me like vids of him getting off.......like wouldn't you think that he would like...care about his gf possibly finding out about this or something? he was never like this when i dated him. idek how to feel
>>5134584
I'm not attacking you Bunz, I'm not like you. Why the victim complex all of a sudden?
>>5134587
>is it safe to say that like my ex-bf still wants me
Are you literally autistic
>>5134587
You should know how to feel considering you have a boyfriend you post about loving lots. Keep it together!
>>5134587
do not break your current boyfriends heart
let's just talk about something else!
So, what halloween candies you packing, mtfg? I'm avoiding sugar, so I'll only have a few, but I LOVE peppermint patties. Peppermint anything. Oh, and Whatchamacallits.
Have you girls ever just thought that were all fucking nuts?
Like legitimately crazy.
Get rid of the trans part and we all just negative toxic people. Every single trans person chaser anon namefag avatarfag troll everybody here is just fucking nuts.
I've been reading this shit because its so addictive. Everyone here is goddamn insane every fucking one of you
Like do you ever sit back and wonder what's missing from your life that you have a need to do this shit?
To care what anon or dabble in tripcodes
Do you ever just wonder why?
>>5134586
I'm not convinced I do. Even when I was young and first getting into like, exploration and lewd stuff and I would google how to do butt stuff as a kid and sites would say to find this walnut-shaped thing a couple inches in and towards my belly button and I never could find it or feel it. And I never have this incredible sexual sensation that people describe when things go in there.
>>5134596
all we have are each other
even the ftms hate us
yeah we are all nuts, we are chasing a dream we can never have and those who figure that out suicide
>>5134591
tbh probably yes lol
>>5134592
>>5134593
eachh time this has happened with my ginger ex the past couple of weeks i've told the guy i'm dating now. i don't keep that kind of stuff from him and altho i have my own insecurities this guy cares about me a lot and like ... i haven't sent back anything like nudes or lewds or whatever. the whole reason i'm not with my ginger ex is becauseee i broke his heart last year.
but even with that being said i've been seein this guy for a few weeks now whereas my ginger ex has been in a new relationship for almost a year? it confuses me. he was super faithful and then all of the sudden the past month he like doesn't seem to care about her at all lol
>>5134598
iktf
#justmightbeintersexfeels
>>5134587
edie as in dollface?
do you have some kind of repressed insecurity about your self worth or something?
i mean, its clear to everyone that you get around but it seems to be the only topic you ever talk about apart from hrt and fashion.
you're not a very relatable human. do you like have any human interests at all? lol
>>5134590
I'm just being logical, Cheska. You've already given me enough proof to know its you. I don't know what I did to you for you to post that I'm psychotic every time my name gets mentioned or the attacking as anon you do to several others.
I defended Oddish because I do still lurk here enough to know its tiring to constantly see trips being attacked and their past dramas constantly thrown in their face. The most likely reason you don't trip anymore as you know.
>>5134466
Am I the only one that never got random boners?
>>5134602
>it confuses me. he was super faithful and then all of the sudden the past month he like doesn't seem to care about her at all lol
you said it yourself you broke his heart, you were the girl that turned him crazy
don't do it to your new guy
>>5134603
wait what? explain
>>5134602
Hes horny. You are hot. Theres not much puzzle to why he'd want you to think he has no interest in his GF when talking to you.
Does Edgar / olrapey come by anymore?
>>5134596
No we're not all nuts. There are a few people here that require medical attention. They're bad for themselves and bad for everyone around them turning everything to shit over nothing. If this was a forum with moderation they would be perma banned and things would go back to normal after a few hours. Unfortunately there doesn't exist that kind of moderation and we're all stuck with the small handful of manipulative nutcases that prey on this general.
>>5134614
she does afaik
how are you mexi
got maki to transition and be your wife yet?
>>5134601
Honestly I've lurked and posted and here for about 4 or 5 months. I've talked to many people personally. Im already writing a book about internet experiences. I want to write a lengthy exerpt from my experiences here my opionions of the psychology of the average transgender. The relationship between how they act in an environment like this. Im an armchair psychologist that really just likes to analyze and dabble in human behavior. You all just fascinate me so much.
>>5134615
Can I get some names out of curiosity?
>>5134596
I dunno about other people but I'm actually incredibly stable
My worst mental affliction is mild to moderate depression
>>5134607
I have a 4-5 inch vibrating dildo, doesn't do anything for me.
>>5134466
No, pre everything here and I don't get random boners
>>5134618
I would listen to jormy she is an expert on intersexuality being intersex herself
>>5134615
yea its unfettered democracy
>>5134617
Lmao
Bro pls
>>5134617
>Mfw I know the names already about to be said by a certain someone.
This will be good.
>>5134605
I'm not Cheska but it amuses me to know that someone you brown nosed so much would loath you as much as you think. Lets add paranoia to your list of mental disorders.
>>5134604
lmao! um i mean i talk about all that other stuff to my close trans friends in our group chat thingy through fb messenger. we talk pretty much every day. the reason i talk about this stuff here is that i don't always like to talk to them about that stuff and like i feel like a lot of it is incredibly simple but for whatever reason the way men act with or towards me doesn't really make sense logically to me. i think overly logically and people confuse me and i spend a fair amount of time with an entire gender that seems entirely irrational so i come here to help me figure it out. if that makes sense? idk.
>>5134607
>>5134612
o ok. that's just so odd to me lol. if you're not getting what you want sexually in a relationship wouldn't you just break up with them or something? why would ppl stay together and do this with others they know their partners would get upset about? especialllllly this ex bf. he was so against cheating and was like the best bf i ever had. it's just abstract af to me
>>5134608
i did but he said it was fine and then started seeing this girl immediately after we broke up. he said she was the kind of girl he was used to dating, i.e. the kind who would obsess over him. pic related, i posted this in mtfg whilst we were together. idk tho. it seemed reboundish but they've been together for awhile now sooo i assumed everything was fine lol
>>5134627
Then tell me who you are. Lets chat. Be friends.
Or just continue to stalk me as anon while claiming to be some beacon of sanity watching over this board. Doesn't really matter to me.
>>5134630
I actually am
I took a month or two a couple years ago when I was in a pit of depression and kinda accepted myself for who I am, and it's been all uphill from there. When people are arguing irl I'm often able to resolve it and I'm really good at understanding people and helping them when they need help.
At my age (18), I'm one of the most stable people I know.
>>5134635
Lets not. How about you leave and never come back instead of bringing your grudges and shit into every single thread.
>>5134637
That's awesome bc I was still immature even after college
>>5134639
I have no grudges. And its just the one thread actually.
hey fam, question about bloodwork. Does anybody know how to do DIY blood work? you can buy hormone tests online...but I'm not sure...
>>5134640
I figure most people will get there eventually, I just got there a little early
And I'm not going to pretend that I'm some kind of paradigm of emotional development, I'm just a lot more rooted than everyone else I know, if that makes any sense.
>>5134643
>DIY blood work
Sounds dangerous and scary.
>>5134637
>mfw i perceived myself like this at that age
>mfw it all comes around and people start hating you for this kind of personality
i hope you like being the rock to everyones craziness
>>5134649
2 late it's already happening
I don't mind that much because I don't let other people's issues affect me emotionally
On the plus side emotionally vulnerable people try to hook up with you /a lot/ which is a cool confidence booster
which is funny because the upside is also the downside
>>5134646
honestly i knowww he never did, but in all fairness i actually was sexually satisfying him at all times and while he wasn't courting anyone but me i was out dating other guys lol. we also weren't dating long enough for that to happen i guess? so the circumstances are entirely different. he just seemed so ridiculously against all of that stuff that idk i'm surprised is all
>>5134651
huh? men just confuse me lol
if i'm not happy with someone enough to where i'm gonna be sending vids of me getting off to my ex's i break up with them. where as guys don't seem to do that and then turn into this internalized negative mess. idu it
>>5134657
underneath all of those layers of anime you're actually quite aggressive, kind of like a man
>>5134660
and underneath that is a heart of gold
>>5134662
are you trying to trick me?
>>5134623
I am the intersexiest
>>5134662
10/10 post.
>>5134663
whyever would i do that?
>>5134666
t-thanks satan trip
>>5134665
>I am the intersexiest
indeed, did you end up asking your doctor about the test or do I have to tell your dad
>>5134667
cause you're one of those vexatious siren thingies?
>>5134641
That's bullshit and you know it
>>5134670
idkk i don't think i look like that
>>5134673
oh ofc not, but looks are super duper deceiving
>>5134669
I-I forgot
>>5134670
She lures men into her trap with her lovely voice and [spoiler]dick[/spoiler] until they die. That or they just give her like twenty dollars.
>>5134673
I think I finally understand how to get into the dollface mafia! Just abuse angles! All of you men do it! You, ufufu, jocelyn, anna, you all just slather on makeup and abuse angles and think you're attractive. So fucking funny.
>>5134680
ahahaah that's a bit harsh but ahaha..
i like edie, edie's a kind person
>>5134679
better type up that letter
>dear mr jormys dad
>did u know ur son is actually a girl
>and wants a boyfriend and everything
>and is taking pills which make her a girl
>hugs and kisses
>love anon
>>5134682
>think you're attractive
ok but i don't think i'm attractive lol
i've posted pics from like every angle idk
>>5134683
Yeah Edie's cool. I was just joking. We like to have fun here.
>>5134685
you really get apathetic when people show you affection, don't you?
that's not what im here for
>>5134687
A lot of us have problems w compliment s
>tfw your dicks too small to pleasure edie
>>5134692
you dont have to tell me ahahahaa
i actually learnt how to deal with them from you yourself, ahaha
you taught me
>>5134693
>>5134693
you helped me a lot, i just wanted you to know that
>>5134695
I thought you were leaving here forever maki?
>>5134684
Are you the boyfriend?
>>5134701
Im not maki
Just a shitter anon who's a fan of dollfaces work
So like I'm really high and put planet earth on and it was a good call. I'm pretty chillin atm.
How are my night/morning mtfg friends doing? Is the thread chill? I've been on my phone and don't feel like scrollING through it all.
>>5134693
Which would you say you prefer? Cut or uncut? I've only ever had uncut before so I'd like to know if its easier or harder to get someone who is cut to cum.
>>5134695
Your grammar's pretty shit too.
>>5134695
if it's bigger than like 5 inches ur ok
>>5134700
well thx ^_^ i'm just happy anything i did helped in any way whether it was from my mistakes or like my attitude or w/e!
>>5134709
i like uncut aesthetically more but cut is better in action. it's always been pretty easy to get cut guys off ime lol
>>5134703
N-no I'm single dummy
>>5134711
i can't think of the right way to ask this, but how do you just not break, no matter what?
im weak, and i don't know how to just be strong.
i cant figure out what it is no matter how hard i try
>tfw owner closed shop and we drank and played games
>tfw held up my hand to the FtM boy and though he's 5'4 his hand is the same size as mine
>tfw they kidded me for being soft
I asked the one ftm boy that was there (3 total that hang out with us) why they keep misgendering me, he said it was because I told him I was Ftm. I told him to think if I ever said that,
> "no you didn't.... but you're presenting as a guy and you have those tits,no you're definitely ftm"
"am I?"
>what are your pronouns then?
"I don't care whatever you think is easiest"
>and you're fine with [boy name]?
"Actuallllllllly it's Robinnnnn so like if you could not dead name meee it'd be great"
>you know what? I'm calling you that from now on, serves you right
>tfw I turned away from him so he couldn't see me blush and grin
>tfw you will never get to know the difference between a cut or uncut penis
>tfw you will never see a mans penis irl
...
>tfw you really wish that above line was true
god I hate being trans
being ugly (and fat from binge eating) is just the icing on the shit cake
I hate moments like that, "lol I'm a girl... oh wait, I'm not :("
>>5134724
You can lose weight sheen. You just dont want to.
>>5134723
That's disgusting tbh.
>>5134723
finally I can stop hating you
>>5134725
its not that I don't want to, I'm too weak and pathetic to
I have tried, and continue trying and the fuck it up like I do with everything
>>5134723
This story confused me.
>>5134709
Uncut is best. Though I don't like full on tubeworms aesthetically, there are forms of uncut that look a lot nicer than cut. Foreskin is also fun to play with.
>>5134727
I'd probably be much more prone to just coming out and being confident if I hadn't been stripped naked and beaten for the better part of the day the first time they found girl clothes in my room.
and then the first time I came out to someone they handed me a dozen drinks and then sexually fucked with me for most of the night and the next morning before he married into the family. I can still hear him whisper "tomorrow we're going to be family" as he rubbed his dick on me
>>5134718
um i mean..... honestly? how you get there is different for everyone....and you're not going to always be invincible.
like i've been really confident for a long time, but being with his new guy i'm dating has made me feel insecure because i think the one weak spot in my armor was what my life would mean if i were to involve somebody else in it. i think i assume because i'm trans that like it's this burden, and it sucks, but i can live with that. why anyone else would want to willfully take on that burden tho makes no sense to me. so i get anxious and anything i think could even signal to me that this guy doesn't like me is just a patch on the point of break on my armor and maybe in a way i put up more walls so that when it doesn't work out, which would probably happen because i would ruin it by being too distant etc, i can get some sort of ego boost knowing it ended like i knew it would and i could just go back to being on my own again not worrying about what something real could do to me. basically i'd go back to being closed off like before because it was easier. which is weak.
recognizing that i have that weakness tho and really trying to figure out why i'm like that, and trying to get over it and accept what i do have in my life that's good is what i think helps me be stronger though. i think about my insecurities a lot and really try to figure out why they even matter and what it's really doing to me. like learning how to overcome everything is a process but it makes you stronger because it makes you more capable to deal with everything life has to throw at girls like us. that's strength i think. being able to become unshakable in your own understanding of yourself and your worth and desires. does that make any sense? idk
>>5134723
I thought your name was Faye? Isn't Robin a boys name anyway?
>>5134729
Eat better. Exercise.
I was in the same mindset all my life up until 8 months ago and now I'm 120 pounds lighter. If you're already at the lowest point in your life then whats stopping you?
>>5134730
ftm I know thinks I'm ftm
he asked my pronouns, I said whatever
he asked my name, I jokingly told him to call me by my real (girl) name
he said he was going to call me by my real name because he thought I was fucking with him
I secretly liked it
>>5134731
I agree but damn its exhausting trying to get someone who is uncut to cum sometimes.
>>5134723
I can't believe I read this
And I thought dollface blogs offered little stimulation of the mind
>>5134734
it can be both ;)
>>5134733
God damn you can be deep and sling knowledge when you want to Edie. Respect. Write books please.
>>5134738
I think if you can make a group of FtMs think you are one, then that is a new definition of making it. Respect to you too.
>>5134735
I'm trying
> If you're already at the lowest point in your life then whats stopping you?
I can barely even get out of bed in the morning without wanting to throw a rope over the door and just do it.
I don't know how manyt imes I've even put it over the door or even put the hoop around my neck or even stood on the side table ready to kick it away
its pretty much a bi daily occurance
I can say that I've lost 8kg in the past month and I'm still 5kg away from being twice my ultimate goal weight of 60kg and I'm 9kg away from getting to where I was this time last year when I went off the rails
>>5134745
Oh she's cute
>>5134746
What do you do to workout? What are your eating habits currently? Everyone has their own thing but for me keeping it under 1200 calories a day really worked and after a week of doing that it became super easy to eat healthy.
>>5134750
currently I'm on a shake thing that is roughly 1000-1200 calories a day this was a 600 calorie meal I did on sunday, I do 30 minutes to an hour on my stationary bike three times a week/when I have the time which hasn't been regularly enough currently I'm trying to force myself to jump back on it all the time but yesterday and today weren't good days and I didn't even follow my diet.
tomorrow is another day, and I'm jumping on the bike in the morning ross river be damned
Yo i just fell asleep for like a couple of hours, and had no thoughts or dreams, then quickly woke back up again. Like being dead but short.
>>5134745
I bet this bitch doesn't even know who kmfdm is.
>>5134755
the only thing that did it for me was sitting on a bike at a gym, going really slow and literally just not being around food, and being too tired to eat really after 5 hours on a bike.
>>5134755
Stationary bikes are good for secondary cardio. Try to find yourself a cheap but reliable treadmill from somewhere to add to your exercise and bump it to 5 days a week.
You just have to find the motivation in yourself. I know its easier said than done but trust me I know how you feel. Push yourself to do it everyday because fuck it, why not?
>>5134733
self awareness;
i didn't even think about other people i was selfish
i dont even know who i am or how i define myself
im an idealist and a cynicist
im absolutely neurotic about everything real that could happen to me
im so obsessed and fixated with being honest all of the time and i punish myself whenever im not even though i rarely ever hold anyone else to nearly the same standard
dependancy issues; relying on other people to provide me guidance and answers
the burden i carry around, im a martyr, the lengths ill go to in order to gain clarity and closure from other people rather than myself, im coersive and manipulative
i always just go back to the way i am, the loudest most disruptive in-your-face person, marginally better after every successive breakdown
i guess i always doubt myself, tell myself on a regular basis that i havent been through anything compared to other people and prevent myself from thinking that i have any weaknesses
if i got anything from this is that i should take care of myself more, understand myself a little bit better, and approach things with a degree more realism?
ugh i have to vomit and cry this is overwhelming
>>5134761
hey
>>5134764
>ugh i have to vomit and cry this is overwhelming
my thoughts exactly after trying to read that mess of words
>>5134765
You.
https://youtu.be/S_NSK4i2gjc?t=18
>>5134745
Buns go get raped
>>5134770
But how?
Hey. Do You know any nice trans chats or sth. I would really love to talk with other girls. And btw im asking for a chats where ppl are like around 25 not fucking 40 years old crossdressers
>>5134767
ahahhaah.. . ha
im a mess
i have to go shower
bye, and thanks..
>>5134760
I do that much work and I just end up a vacuum, I told you all what I used to eat when I worked at the timberyard right?
I'm an endomorph bodied tranny who eats when she's depressed... I can't not eat, but meals like >>5134755 look like a lot but are actually relatively low cal
I need to not fall off the wagon, eat the right things to fill me up and not break the diet and continue exercising on top of being a loser and a ugly tranny
I think once I can get into the 110kg mark and then under 100 is when weightloss will become easy for me because all I ever do is fail and it feeds back into itself
>>5134762
I'm trying
>>5134766
hello
>>5134772
kageshi.com/rooms/mtfg
>>5134771
I honestly just hope you step on broken glass and when you're digging out the broken glass you have a hard time finding it.
Everytime you wake up and the first thing that you feel is that piece of broken glass in your foot and everyday you think to yourself maybe I should get a doctor but you never do because you're too poor.
>>5134772
Don't go to the kageshi, whatever you do.
>>5134774
I think a key to that was also having 0 food in the house, but it went both ways, before I attempted suicide the first time i'd say fuck it and down a pizza, instead of actually going to the supermarket and getting exactly as much food as I needed.
>>5134774
I wish I was closer to you so I could help motivate you to push for it everyday. Mainly because I know the hell of being a lifelong fat and finally breaking the cycle and getting in shape. I'd like to inspire someone else to do the same.
>lose another pound
BACK ON TRACK
BACK ON TRACK
>>5134778
Can i know why?
>>5134777
Ouch. Do you want me to get raped or step on the glass first? Both seem like tough things to accomplish because I can't rape myself and I don think I'd ever be so unaware as to step on a large enough piece of glass like that.
>>5134784
PISSBABY ANGIE IS BACK
BACK ON TRACK
BACK ON TRACK
>>5134785
Aint nothin but a heartache.
>>5134787
i like her better like this maybe idk
>>5134791
i liked her best when she was drugged up in a hospital bed and couldnt post
also bb i backslid last week too but now im back to going down u have to too!!! back on track back on track!!!!!
