despite hormones i am still the same old straight white beta male i have always been
when girls laugh i automatically assume they are laughing at me because back in school they really did laugh at me and every girl found me repulsive and never saw me as bf material despite being a great friend to them but any attempt to take it to the next level always ended up awkward and with words "i'm sorry but ..."
i never had sex with a girl but i wanted to lose virginity to one so bad since everyone already lost it a long time ago and i remember going to this casual chat where everyone was dtf so i send a dick pic to this fat 2/10 girl and she was like "your penis is too small." i wanted to have a real connection with a girl and my fantasy was putting my dick in her for the night
despite being a huge loser i still thought women are superior and i hated my masculinity which i found responsible for all my life faults or the idea of growing old as a man but looking back there is no denying that i only transitioned because i failed as a man and keep failing
I'm not sure if this is bait but if it isn't thats pretty pathetic.
Did you honesty think transition would fix you're failed existence?
I guess it was never a transition though since you were never really a man hahaha
Also how can you not get laid? How fucking ugly are you. Its easy as shit. Hell dudes are even easier.
>>5434627
Should have banged some hookers m8
Would have been cheaper than Hormones in the long run
>>5434627
I am about to transition and I have feared that I am doing it for your reasons. I am a complete and utter failure of a man, complete /r9k/-tier. However the difference between you and me is that I've had sex (with hookers) found it quite boring and would prefer to have sex with a man. I also have had very small trans feeling since I was 10, stolen my mum's clothes and makeup, inserted as the female in porn but in day to day life I was generally ok with being male and never thought anything of those crossdressing and fantasy cocksucking sessions. Right now I've come to the conclusion that my dysphoria is legit but it's so mild that I likely would have never wanted to transition had my male life not gone down the toilet. The only way to truly know is if I still feel trans with a girlfriend but I am too beta to ever achieve that so I'm just gonna hope I can enjoy men romantically as a woman (I currently don't) and never have to bother with trying to get a girlfriend ever again.
>>5434627
Somewhere there's a feminist with a boner for this
>>5434834
>The only way to truly know is if I still feel trans with a girlfriend but I am too beta to ever achieve that
>>5434627
I have also never had sex but for me it's because anything that reminds me I have a penis, such as arousal, makes me want to die. That's how I know I'm trutrans
>girls laughing at you
Now that I think about it, I had girls laugh at me plenty but it was always sympathetic and friendly, even if it was because I was being goofy.
I wonder if most guys just have so fragile of an ego that any laugh in their direction makes them sperg?
