ITT weird shit you did as a kid that should have been red flags to your parents
>had an obsession with John Stamos on Full House
>fought my cousin for a pink hat one thanksgiving and had a temper tantrum because boys clothes didn't come in pink while my entire family was watching
>took ballet classes, learned to justify it by saying "of course, that's where all the girls are!"
Nothing because I was too afraid of my impossible obsession to voice desire for anything overtly feminine aloud. That said I did crossdress for every halloween past age 10.
>It's a joke, guys. Come on. Funny, right?
>>5356882
>never dated
>never played sports
keep it simple
>be me
>summer between 5th and 6th grade
>at motel near the beach with my mom, grandma and little sister
>wake up one morning in pain, go to bathroom, i have started my first period. it's brown and splotchy
>try not to cry, i've been dreading this since i knew it was going to happen
>try to wash off my underwear and put it in the dirty laundry
>mom takes me out on a "shopping trip" just her and me
>"anon you started your period. let's get pads."
>"no mom i think i just had bad skid marks."
> proceed to hide the fact that I had my period for two years by rolling up toilet paper and keeping it in my underwear, then burying soiled underwear in the garbage
>finally tell my mom i had my period when i was in 7th grade and didn't want to go to school that day
also
>refused to wear a bra until i started getting made fun of for having pointy tits
>wore sports bra only until mom forced me to wear a real one
now i have awful saggy tits and i'm trans but i'll never come out lol
>>5356959
>burying soiled underwear in the garbage
How did you get away with needing to buy new underwear every month? And I did the same thing with the bra, except my mom only gave me one for some reason when I first started wearing them. I was ashamed of the fact that I had to wear a bra, so I didn't put it in the laundry because I didn't want her to see it. Since I had no other bras, I just wore that one all the time and I think I let it go for a couple of years before I began washing it. It was pretty smelly and greasy but after a point it kind of leveled off, it wasn't as absolutely disgusting as it sounds. But maybe I just got used to it. It had a cup and then I got some sport bras at some point which I liked better because they fit more tightly and made them less visible, and the cup was also too big so it was more of a floppy nipple-shield than a breast-containing device. I guess I kind of did things backwards in that regard. I don't know how I managed to go so long hiding the singular bra, I think I just changed the subject whenever she asked if I wanted to go shopping for them.
I don't think I really have any weird anecdotes other than the dirty shame bra. I regarded anything girly as inferior and refused to wear pink and dresses after I started dressing myself.
>Drew non-gender furry characters all day.
>Played with barbies with my sis, when she got old enough to not want me playing with them I was devastated. ;.;
i had a huge obsession with stuffed animals. I would play with them instead of normal boys toys.
>>5356957
This. I wanted to play sports, but it didn't work out. Just a nerd. Though it turns out a ton of gays went through debate class in high school.
And I always had one really really close guy friend.
>>5357150
>turns out a ton of gays went through debate class in high school
oh fuck i led the team
>>5357187
Hah! It's not a stereotype, but my anecdotal evidence says it's a thing.
>>5357150
>I always had one really really close guy friend.
;_;
>>5357194
i don't think there were any other gays in my debate team. mostly just asian women and nerds
>>5356882
>into sports like crazy
>no interest in boys
>tomboy little girl
>obsessed with that one t.a.t.u music video
>and obsessed with some female celebrities
>and a lot of comic books just cause they had great boobs
Mom says she only suspected because my dad and brothers were so strict against me being with boys or wearing make up and I was way too obedient about it for a straight girl. But anytime she brought it up dad would just get mad at her for judging me when I was such a good girl that wasn't boycrazy and just liked sports and comics and normal kids shit.
>I liked pink and ballet so I'm a girl
>>5357201
Two gays, a trans girl, and one of the two cis girls was a lesbian.
>>5357120
Pretty sure stuffed animals are unisex.
>>5357201
We had both Asian kids and nerds (natch). At least three gays and two lesbians. One lesbian is now straight & married, but three confirmed gay bros. Out of a 10-ish strong team that's a lot.
>>5357195
Why so sad, anon? Is it because I didn't go steady with them? You didn't either, did you? Yeah it sucks.
I acted like a literal fucking faggot.
Limp wristed and everything lmao
It wasn't until my grandfather started criticizing me that I stopped doing a lot of things.
Now I have social anxiety. Thanks Grand dad.
>>5357150
I won uil regional for debate in hs. Got to eat at fancy restaurants in austin.
But dyke so idk. The guy from my school that also won seems kinda gay looking back but idk. We never talked about it. Plus I was closeted.
>>5356882
On video games, I would dress up as a guy and OD other girls. Unfortunately none of them stayed with me when I came out and told them I was a girl.
I used to slap guys asses because guys did it to girls at my school but when I did it to a guy, he got depressed and didn't come to school for a week.
I used to have this korean girl lick me because it felt good.
I used to imagine who I'd date in school ifnI was a boy. This cute Filipino girl was always first on my list.
I sometimes dressed up as a boy and molested girls in public so they'd scream before realizing it was me, another girl.
I avoided groups. I always preferred to play on my own. At my day care, movie time was my favorite part because everyone else would be watching the movie and I would have all the toys to myself. Fuck yeah, all the building blocks, all the NES games, the play house with all the fake food and miniature furniture, the indoor jungle gym.
Turns out I have Asperger's.
>>5357333
Wow anon family t b h you sound like a literal fucking RAPIST
>>5357333
>they'd scream before realizing it was me, another girl.
It's okay to molest women as long as you're also a woman?
lmao
>>5357339
Sometimes I wish I had a penis so I could, but I don't so I can't. I feel a void for any empathy for people, just my desires before their own.
Anyways, that was back when I was a kid. I don't feel like wanting to have sex with anyone except once in a blue moon with my hallucination girlfriend.
>>5357344
They understood it was a joke, I only ever went to the boobs, never the privates. Also, keep in mind I was like 10 and socially ostracized by my parents as a kid so I showed my appreciation to my friends in a strange way.
>>5357333
>I sometimes dressed up as a boy and molested girls in public so they'd scream before realizing it was me, another girl.
>mfw feminism does nothing about this
I can't think of anything. I was boring.
>>5357351
>keep in mind I was like 10
I thought you were an adult lmao
>>5357339
I wish there were more straight girl rapists in my world.
Primary School
wore my mums shoes
said I was "fruity" and only liked boy bands
A friend and I were pushing our foreheads against eachothers and I suddenly kissed him and swiftly covered it up by laughing... had a sleepover with the same guy in a cramped single bed, I was okay with getting more than a little close...
mum gives me flowery, girly mobile phone and I immediately
Secondary school
spend loads of time with another friend and love to rest my head close to his crotch, kinda watch him dress and just be close to him
occasionally wear some of my sisters dresses, panties and bra while thinking about how easy life would've been if I was just born a girl
Today
Out of closet gay guy that almost entirety lives on the internet
>>5357399
>mum gives me flowery, girly mobile phone and I immediately
IMMEDIATELY WHAT
Nothing really
Like I guess I was pretty girly as a child with my easy bake oven and Mary Kate and Ashley VHSes and hating sports but I think a kid like that could easily just end up being a effeminate and not mtf trans
>>5357409
immediately love it and sneak it into school.
sorry for the cliffhanger anon.
>>5357417
thank you :3
I was really big into the spice girls when I was young and my cousins got me a posh spice doll which I loved. Also we had some family friends a boy and a younger girl and I'd always hang out with her while my bro and the other guy played hockey.
Other than that I've been and still am really straight acting though.
Always hated 'girls' clothes and pink. Literally since the age of 2 I'd kick up a stink if I was dressed in anything girly. I was always friends with boys, played heaps of sports, didn't wear a bra till I got picked on relentlessly.
Honestly I don't think anyone was shocked when I came out. They were probably more shocked by my own denial when I thought I was straight.
Now the only thing to figure out is whether I'm cis or not.
>>5357426
Just say you're not fem.
The only people that say "straight acting" tend to be super insecure faggots.
>>5357247
OP is a dirty little faggot not a dirty little tranny... fuck.. learn to read
>Favorite movie as a child was Rocky Horror Picture Show
I don't even know why I was allowed to watch it. I loved it though. Still do.
>>5357456
I'll say whatever I want to say. Sorry for triggering your immense autism
>>5357096
Jajajaja what a faggot. Holy shit anon, you're a riot!
>>5357485
Continue hating yourself sweetie. :3
>>5357498
>implying self loathing based on a choice of terminology
Nah I'm the shit
I remember when a cousin told me to quit sitting with my legs crossed because it was gay and it really shocked me. And all the boys in school would call me gay. I think maybe it took longer for me to realize than other people.
>>5356882
>in grade school
>threw a massive fit at the book fair over a princess story that came with a plastic emerald necklace until they caved and bought it
I forgot about this until now, thanks OP.
>not dating
>wanting to be batman instead of batgirl/batwoman
>wanting to get a buzzcut
>>5357522
lmao
>>5356882
>"took ballet classes, learned to justify it by saying "of course, that's where all the girls are!""
My excuse as well
Wore sequin leotards and my fav color was rainbow. Now I do this...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8tXApeDnlAE
>>5357551
you look beautiful
>>5357075
>How did you get away with needing to buy new underwear every month?
my periods were pretty light back then, so I rarely got blood on them, so I really didn't need to throw away very many and my mom never noticed.
>>5357247
OP here, i'm gay not a filthy tranny
>>5357399
>occasionally wear some of my sisters dresses, panties and bra while thinking about how easy life would've been if I was just born a girl
>Out of closet gay guy
>guy
If you say so Miss.
>>5357299
not when your like 10/11 years old
>>5357333
>LESBIANS
why are you always rapists and domestic abusers you are so fucking disgusting
>>5357150
I was in the debate team and the soccer team.
I also wore a lot of pink.
>>5356882
Got caught stealing diapers from baby cousin's diaper bag. When asked why, could only mumble "I dunno...". So kinky, so young.
>>5357485
>This. Exactly this. tired of having my vocabulary corrected by angry teens who have not been alive as long as I've been out of the closet.
>>5357551
just watched the youtube clip. You are adorable.
>>5356882
Arts and crafts, I mean lots of arts and crafts. Sewn my own costumes and did lots of pretend. Had literally a thousand stuffed animals and begged for a 5 foot tall stuffed bear when I was 11 and got it. Also was never into violent video games. Also stuffed pillows under my shirt and played "mommy." All that changed around 17 when I was forced to man up and given T shots to make me grow more and my step dad literally set fire to most of my stuffed animals to teach me not to be girly.
>>5357946
Honestly, I'm still figuring it out... and I wouldn't want to transistion now for fear of becoming a hon.
I didn't really do anything on my own that should've been considered red flags, other people however should've been red flags.
When my aunt watched me, my oldest cousin would dress me up in the clothes she outgrew, put make up on me and parade me around the neighborhood, into the stores and everything. She took pictures of me, and those pictures have been brought out since then.
My mother would constantly tell me to never trust strangers, especially men, as they would rape and kill me. To this day, if I'm hanging out with people older than me, she will tell me to be careful and watch myself.
My dad would tell me which songs to play at his funeral and how it should be arranged. Then go on long triads about how my mother controlled his entire life and he didn't get to do anything without her approval.
If something I did annoyed my brother, he would smash it or attempt to smash me. One time I played in his snow cave and accidentally bumped off a bit of the entrance, the cave still stood. He then dragged me out, pushed me to the ground and beat me on the feet with a shovel.
Another time I kept playing the same song over and over on a cd-player. Instead of asking me to turn it off he punched it and broke the player.
And that's just a few of the many stories.
>>5356882
>wanted to be Vegeta(everyone knows Vegeta is gay for Goku)
>hated girls
>read and watched porn in early elementary school(degenerate since early years)
>living with divorced mother, strong daddy issues for most of my youth
>training karate since 9 years old(them men in kimonos)
>shit at sports otherwise
>always getting punched by other boys
>touching other boys inappropriately
>no sense of personal space for many years to come
>didnt care for my appearnce
>refused to shave for a long time
>pretended to be girl in cybersex online since late elementary/early middle school(but this my parents didnt know, probably)
>>5358726
oh, and by the way, im transexual pansexual pedosexual fetishist degenerate now
>>5356957
Sports are as gay as it comes man. Most of us just didn't want to admit it.
>>5356882
Pink was a pretty common boys colour during the 80s and 90s. Not sure why it's so associated with girls these days. Neon/hot pink used to be more associated with night clubs and cocaine haha
I had a very extended oral phase. I sucked and chewed on objects until I was like 8 or 9.
Apart from that nothing special tbqh. Never did any sports, never dated anyone. If anything seeming so asexual might have been a give-away. I literally never participated in any sexual discussions about girls (obviously neither boys), because I really don't like to lie.
When I was 15 I described a woman (some celeb) as "objectively attractive" because I was forced into the discussion, lmao. Everyone should have known at that point. Only my best friend gave me a strange look and everything went on. I was really nerdy and didn't open up to anyone, so it was probably only him who had a clue.
>be late teen
>super nerdy, only into books, vidya, tv-shows and a bit of sports
>want to have a fag-hag
>never fucking happened because fag-hags are only into faggots and don't care for normal guys
I swear to god, being a flamer is easier than this shit.
>>5358342
that doesn't make you any less trans unfortunately, see a gender therapist before you leave it until you're over 40 and try to kill yourself
>>5356882
I used to dance around the garden naked while playing with the water hose and singing.
I also used to strip buck naked when I was in kindergarten/ preschool/ first grade when I got home from school and prance around the house naked. I also often liked putting on my mom's heels and walking around the house.
>>5358320
oh my gosh thank you so much!!! :)
>>5357617
wow thank you! :D
>>5356882
I loved playing with barbie dolls and painting my nails with clear nail polish. I also had a fascination with makeup and dressing up.
>>5358948
I've really been considering to go to a therapist for just how I am in general anyway...
>>5358373
I think there's something wrong with your family
>>5359210
you don't say.
>>5358921
>normal guys
#TRIGGERED
>>5356882
I already kinda knew at this point, but:
>dance, belly, balet, modern jazz, etc.
>theater
>I loved to paint
>loooooooooooooooooooooooong hair
>loved bright cheerful colors that were showy.
>hid my love for pink.
>>5358300
That's not gay that's weird. The only possible way that could be construed as gay as if you had a human sized baby doll that you were going to diaper, for any other reason is weird not gay.
There were none, I was an average kid that played sports and did typical guy shit. The only problems were being an introvert and shying away from people.
>>5357476
I know why I was brought to RHPS. My friends were trying to send me a message. I already knew. I was just still a bit scared.
>huge oral fixation. sucked my thumb until I was 8, then constantly had something (lollipops, popsicles, pencils) in my mouth
>"secretly" dressed in my mother's clothes (she knew)
>no interest in girls
>always wanted to sleep with my older brother
>family shared showers (fairly comfortable about nudity) but I always preferred showing with my father
>played with dolls
>actually, would tie barbie dolls up like bondage scenes
>>5359896
>>played with dolls
>>actually, would tie barbie dolls up like bondage scenes
nigga wtf
>>5359952
I LOLed hard when I read it.
For an 8th grade string art project I took a barbie, and macraméd it into it a bondage pose. I got an A, but the teacher wouldn't let the rest of the class see it. He at least explained why. Mom, over 30 years later, still has it on the wall at home. I chuckle every time I see it.
>>5359995
lel
That's fucking beautiful anon.
>>5359952
I have no idea how I got started with that. I'd just get some thread and start hogtying Barbie or tie her spread eagle to her little bed (of course secretly wishing someone would dress me up and tie me to a bed).
>>5359995
post picture of it please.
>>5356882
This guy must have been the football team town bicycle.
>everyone gets a ride
>School holding a fair
>Competition with multiple choice of prizes
>Dad wins
>"You choose the prize, Anon"
>Immediately go for some knock-off Barbie doll thing
He probably found it funny.
>>5360018
I don't have any pics of it. I'd need to visit the parents to take a picture of it.
>>5360036
I wish there was a guy like that when I played football
- Long hair since I was 6.
- All through elementary, I only hung out with girls. Sleepovers with my two best friends, both girls. And somehow, their parents and my mom always assumed it was ok. Guess their parents never saw me as much of a threat, just assumed I was one of the girls. Even though I struggled with it, had crushes on both of them, though I never acted, in fear I would lose their friendship. Now I'm glad I didn't, since we're still friends, and they were the first people I came out to.
- 13yo emo phase, wearing black nail polish and eyeliner.
-16yo me passes out at dinner, turns out I hadn't eaten in 4 days. Anorexia diagnosis, shrink telling my folks it was rare for a boy this age, most commonly seen in girls.
- Never a dated a girl, of course. Never had any male friends over.
- Sucked at most sports, was fairly decent in soccer.
- Disney obsessed little freak since I was a child.
My dad was the only one who never saw it coming. I still remember a conversation with my mom, I think I was 12 or something. She asked me if I had a gf, I said no..and she so casually asked me if I had a bf instead. I said no, acted repulsed...and she kept on insisting...if there were any boys at school I particularly liked...
My mom always knew, though she had never made an open comment about it. My dad...im sure he knew, he was outraged whenever he saw me in make up or wearing anything girly, even though I masked it as being an emo pose...
Now I live alone, have a boyfriend, but I'm not out, mostly due to carreer issues, only around him I'm a girl, though I'm obviously gay to everyone. My folks have learned not to ask about my love life, and they still have their effeminate little doctor.
>wear my moms nighties as dresses a lot
>played with the girls on our street a lot
>kept my hair long, always asked my mom to put product in it
>at my baby sitters, and I peed myself (I was like 5)I didn't have any extra clothes so she let me where one of her daughters dresses while we went out to the store. It made me so happy, she let me wear it whenever I came over
>eventually get my own Barbies for Christmas, best day evar
>after getting teased a lot, I hid all of my feminine stuff from school friends
>at 11 start cross dressing whenever I get the chance
>fast forward to 14
>parents going out, I dress up as usual
>order sushi delivered to my house
>delivery guy call me miss twice
>close the door and realize I never want to be a boy ever again
>came out that night
>got HRT at 15, never looked back
>now 19 and stealth transwoman
My parents were suprised but after thinking about it for a while they realized there were a lot of signs
>>5357201
i had a lesbian, gay twins, and the coach was gay and me closeted biscum.
>>5357330
this was me too. went to catholic school and everyone criticized everything i did but it's cool beccausse i've been conditioned to act like a straight guy and i can pass for not being gay when it's convenient.
>only friend was a girl
>loved playing Barbie with her
>wanted an Ez Bake
>whenever i drew something it was usually a dude with a 6-pack
>loved cats more so then the average boy
>the list goes on
And I didn't even realize I was gay until highschool lol
>>5360092
Lucky you.
>>5360121
I have the opposite problem.
I'm just really feminine in general but I'm mortified of letting any of it slip because I don't want to be criticized for it.
So I end up looking like a no personality boring fuck.
I also get really upset by the masc4masc faggots saying femme gays are closet trannies.
I just want to be myself but the world will hate me for it. ;_;
>>5360069
>I wish there was a guy like that when I played football
N-no homo right?
>>5360155
No, pretty homo, I wish I was aware of my sexuality in HS. Instead I was a catatonic robot that shyed away from human contact. Somebody, anybody to be with would've been nice.
>>5360145
>I'm just really feminine in general but I'm mortified of letting any of it slip because I don't want to be criticized for it.
>So I end up looking like a no personality boring fuck.
hey this was me in high school
bad news, I'm a tranny
>>5360173
I don't think I have to worry about being a tranny.
I like being treated like a sissy and all that but I don't experience any dysphoria.
I mean it's possible that might change in the future but for now, I don't think so.
I just hope one day I can be the femme faggot I've always wanted to be. :c
>>5360145
At that point you kinda have to stop giving a fuck, there are a lot of femme guys and yes they get shit for it, but they're still being them.
>>5360189
I've been conditioned not to draw attention to myself nearly all my life.
It's going to be difficult. I'm still living with my parents too.
But I think I'm getting there. I know that at least now I'm more aware of what I want.
>>5360195
I wish you the best of luck you little homo
>>5358331
Poor kayla. I had a shit step dad too. He made fun of his own son for being girly because he took care of himself and dressed well. To stay out of his crosshairs I stopped taking care of myself and only recently got more than 2 haircuts a year. It's all good now though.
>>5360207
Thanks anon. <3
>>5360219
>He made fun of his own son for being girly because he took care of himself and dressed well.
goddammit i hate this kind of dad. my is dad is similar. that piece of shit laughed at me having a small dick in front of my grandparents and aunt and uncle because i wasn't quick enough to piss in a fucking urinal. fucking jeans had buttons that barely fit through their holes. i barely got bullied at school or anywhere really but my dad made up for all of it.
I regularly logged in as a female on a message board and was really popular and had tons of friends, as a female. Was promoted to mod and peer advisor, as female. 15,000 posts over 4 years as a female. I never deleted my history so my parents probably knew but didn't say anything because it was too awkward. I wish they would've I wanted to tell them so bad but I didn't have words for how I felt.
>>5360235
Now show me your butt
>>5360284
No, I'm good little girl and I never post lewds.
>>5360293
You're a little sissy whore that does what she's told
>>5360302
I only listen to my daddy and you're not him :3
I did post my little dick yesterday though.
>>5360305
I'm your daddy now baby
>>5360473
No >:c
>>5356959
Holy shit, I went to extreme lengths to hide that I started mine too.
This a common thing with ftms?
>>5360145
what are you complaining about? so you're ashamed of your interests? stop being and find people who like that.
it could be worse. you could be actually boring, like me. my favourite activities are learning new stuff and listening to other people, that's as boring as one can get. try living with that.
>>5356882
>be me
>christmas day
>parents record event on shitty vhs camcorder
>sister gets Brittney Spears Debut album
>fuckingjealous.jpg
>parents go outside to shovel
>take camcorder
>blast hit me baby one more time
>dance like my life depends on it
>parents watch the tape three years later
>everyone laughs
>no one has a clue
>>5360145
Yup, this is me. I'm scared of showing off my personality since I've been surrounded by gay bashing all my life. I come off as a monotone autist instead.
Not being myself has cost me having any meaningful friendships since I've never felt confident enough to show my true self in public and thus never really connect with others. ;__;
I don't know desu, I was a pretty normal kid, aside from the whole gay thing.
I guess I used to really like Justin Bieber when I was in my mid teens, although I kept it mostly private.
>>5358245
>Did you know that the term Hans Asperger used for Asperger's syndrome was autistic psychopathy?
wut wut
>>5360589
i didn't hide mine, but i was really embarrassed to tell my mom about it for some reason. she was normal about it of course, but it took me like two months to work up the courage and i was never great about asking to buy tampons and shit. i could never keep track of what day it starts or whatever either.
I don't even know if I did anything obvious, But my parents literally sat me down and asked me outright if I was gay.
>>5358373
i think you mean tirades
>>5360770
fugg.
I have the monotone shit too.
When I finally have to start speaking again I sound really weird until I remember how to talk.
I can go a couple weeks without saying more than a couple words a day.
Fugg
Let's get married anon. We can be girly little faggots together.
>>5360893
yes.
crossdressed in my cousins clothes
>>5361004
>When I finally have to start speaking again I sound really weird until I remember how to talk.
those feels emanating from my computer screen...
wrist-flapping at tennis matches
my mother pulled me off the court and told me to "stop the gay innuendo"
>never talked about girls or showed any interest in them
>>5361523
You have to give an example for this. I can't even visualize this without my wrist hurting.
>>5361529
This too, my mom said it dawned on her that I didn't care about them at all
>>5361585
wrist-flapping is just a basic word
Apparently my actions were supaa gay desu.
I don't know. I don't talk with her anymore.
>>5361523
Oh man can you please record a video of yourself playing tennis now as an adult. I think it would be hot seeing a gay man play tennis with a limp wrist, it is somehow endearing.
>>5362395
I'm a top tier player. I almost went pro and then I decided that sci3nc3 was my calling.
now i'm laid off from a shitty biopharma and alone
>>5362411
I'd date you.
>Brains and brawn
Sign me the fuck up.
I can never seem to find the two together it's always athletic guys who are incredibly dumb or smart people who are incredibly fat. I can't win.
>>5356882
Is that guy in photo gay or straight?
>>5362452
are you in WY or CO?
>>5356882
I was a total fag as a kid lol
I would play "teacher" and put shirts over my head and pretend to be teaching a class
Also obsessed over John Stamos on Full House
Limp wristed, feminine voice, friends were mostly girls
Became aware of it about 5th grade, became a social outcast all the way up until college, then began to be a bit more open with it
>>5360770
In your exact same position. Relieved I'm not the only one.
>remember a friend in the first year of high school asked me to keep my mouth shut or he'd shut it for me (jokingly)
>asked how he intended to do that
>'like this!' grabs me and kisses me full on the lips
>I'm completely dumbfounded and remain silent rest of class, but I'm also super turned on
>remember sitting at McDonalds with my dad after going for a motorbike ride (like 10 or 11) he says if I want to say I'm gay then it's OK
>ask him instead what does it mean when you want to be a girl?
>he says he doesn't know
>remember asking my mum if I could stay up with my sisters for their slumber party
>'it's for girls not boys'
>high school I remember hanging out with this girl I went to primary school with
>boys start making fun saying I'm one of the girls or that I'm dating her or something
>become extremely embarrassed and avoid girls for the rest of high school, worried people might be onto me
>>5362483
East Coast my dear, East Coast. We have excellent crabs, the sea ones not the pubic ones.
>>5360770
Spend four days with me and I will have you coming out of your gay personality shell in no time, I make some of the most introverted people come out of their shell with my dynamic and expressive and care free personality.
The greatest joy of them all is laughing.
>>5362567
That story went down hill really fast. I could really relate to the first half back when I was younger then I hit a rock.
Also I've been called one of the girls since like 3rd grade and I don't want meat bags or to have my penis chopped off, just saying. What other people say to you shouldn't identify you.
>flamboyant behaviors (hands on hips, limp wrists the whole works)
>liked playing with "girl" toys but also liked things geared towards boys
>this was mainly because I thought the main characters were attractive
>used words like "dashing" and "handsome" a lot because I thought it made me sound older and therefore cooler
>loved art and drawing
>stared endlessly at male nude figures in my mother's old classical art books
>grandmother caught me
>made me watch this really old "anti-gay" PSA
>confused and excited about the whole thing
>knew better than to say so
>only made things worse
>grandmother ironically the one responsible for my love of old music, old movies and Broadway shows
>totally obsessed with Marlon Brando circa 1940s
>got a little older
>started using dolls to stage plays I either re-inacted or wrote myself
>drawing nudes from art book for "practice"
>defend boy at school from bullies who were making fun of his stutter
>slap one of the boys in the face
>can't even keep my wrist straight
Years later, I'm an art student who dabbles in theatre work and is in a relationship with a boy who no longer stutters.
I was and continue to be a huge faggot.
The End.
>>5362611
Wow you seem fun ti be around. I've always imagined that I might probably be flamboyant but in a shell. I was taught homophobia at a young age and have completely resisted doing any queen body language for the approval of my family and peers.
How about signs that you should have noticed before you came out to yourself
>sometimes would fantasize about men at night and the be like HAHA my brain is confused I should watch some porn. Look I'm still straight I am attracted to this girl.
>addicted to pegging porn and fantasize by being fucked in the ass by a strap on
>would avoid gay men for no reason
Figured out freshman year of college that I was bi
played softball
>>5356882
>played a version of house with my sister
>I insisted on being the dad everytime though we're both girls
>never expressed any interest in boys
>begged them to let me cut my hair short and not make me wear dresses and such, not that they'd listen
>always asked to do things only boys wanted to do (boy scouts, tackle football, etc)
>only socialized with male cousins, sister was always the one to run off with female cousins and do girly things or whatever
Now that I'm typing this shit out, it shoulda flagged my parents that I might have been FtM. But that wasn't really prevalent when I was growing up. And I love being a chick, I just turned out super fucking dykey.
>>5362678
hawt
>>5362595
I'd love to see this. I grew up with 3 women, so I can't really say I'm the epitome of masculinity. I have a really fun feminine personality, though I hide it in this average, gray-area Joe. oh well, what can you do..
Ur awesome. 'nuff said.
>>5362871
Well put me in my element give me a cd of Cher's a bottle of Rum, a pack of cigarettes, a dvd collection of the golden girls and I'll party you out of the damn shell, without you even drinking or smoking.
>>5356882
Am I the only one who remembers this queen from Myspace?
>>5362972
Apparently so, how old are you? And are you OP?
I used to be on myspace but I don't remember anyone who wasn't a real life friend on there.
well this stuff wasnt exactly things my parents would have known about but
>wanted a penis
>tried peeing standing up
>tried to watch porn only to see the women
>had dreams of having a penis
>>5363000
>every dyke ever
>>5356882
>mom I like boys, they are so pretty
>pretty like girls
>no girls aren't pretty
>>5362744
>Hahahah it's not that you're fantasizing about fucking your gym teacher, you're fantasizing about being him and fucking a woman... come on, focus on her face... for fuck's sake how can you be so good at picturing his wide, hairy, musky chest but not her fucking hair color? ...Brunette? See, you can do it, there you go. Back to him talking dirty and pounding faster (that's you, the man, banging a woman, remember? It's not gay). There we go.
I'm honestly baffled it took me 20 years to just give up and stop lying to myself when it was that blatant.
>>5356959
>rolling toilet paper and keeping it in your underwear
I'm glad I'm not the only one. I did that too, except that it never stopped and I still do it. I don't even menstruate anymore and I still do it. It's like a comfy genital shield that prevents my genitals from directly touching other things and forcing me to acknowledge their existence. It's uncomfortable to not have my dumb toilet paper wad in my underwear.
I used to be really self conscious about it with my partner but he was like, "makes sense" and never thought it was weird even though I'm pretty sure it is
>>5362970
That sounds fucking awful
>>5363079
kek
>>5362678
good on you for defending that boy from those bullies.
Stole my mom's and sister's underwear when I knew no one would be home. This was before age 8. Now I'm in my late twenties, and I'm stuck in this body.
Anyone else here think your parents didn't see red flags because they're not straight? Growing up, I got so much reassurance from my mom that all these signs of "hey, you don't like dudes! but you do like girls!" were actually me being a totally Average Heterosexual, like her.
Choice quotes from my mom:
>Women's bodies are just naturally more attractive, that's why there's so much art about the female body- men are just not attractive in the same way.
>Some women just have this innate grace and beauty, it's so hard to look away from them. *talks about how ethereal her best friend is for 10 minutes*
>I never had strong feelings for any guys when I was younger. When I married my first husband because we lost our virginity to each other and thought that was the next step, but we never loved each other. He turned out to be gay!
>Teenage girl friendships are so wacky! In high school I thought my bff was becoming closer with another girl than with me. I spent weeks sobbing over love poems about people growing distant and I felt like I really understood the phrase "heartbreak" literally.
>One time me and my then-boyfriend were walking around a park on the first day of spring and admiring all the girls that had dressed up for the warmer weather. He told me that sometimes I sound just like his guys friends when they're looking at girls. Haha!
I think she likes men enough to pass under the radar to herself, but I doubt she'd comfortably and unquestioningly think she was straight if she had been born in a different time and place. Anyone else?
>>5363210
>It's not like you're crushing on them, you just really look up to them
>"So-and-so isn't incredibly hot, they are just the ideal man that you want to be"
How could I be so blind
>>5356882
I have autism so any potential red flag (like me never talking about girls ever) was handwaved because "it has probably something to do with his autism" instead of me being a raging homo at times.
>>5364251
I bet a lot more people are like this than most people would think.
>>5357551
omg this is so great!!! subscribed. :D
>>5365036
Kill yourself
>>5362678
>n a relationship with a boy who no longer stutters.
y-you guys got together after that? ; u ;
>>5362970
Is that a quote or something?
>>5360109
>i had a lesbian, gay twins
congrats on giving birth to tegan and sara
>>5358316
if you're that age then it's pathetic that you're still on 4chan
>>5362678
fuck you and your happy love-story bullshit.
>>5364371
this but the lesbian version
>I just think she's so pretty
>I just want to look like her
>if I were gay my friend would be my choice but I'm totally not gay but...in an alternate reality
>I should grow my hair out all long just like my beautiful friend
later, bi
years later, ftm, so the part about wanting to look like them was even more untrue than I thought it was, lol. it was just the only wording I could use to comprehend how I felt about looking at girls and the only one that was acceptable in straight-world
>>5362678
Low key sound like you could have been written by Oscar Wilde (which is good in my book).
>>5364371
>/fit/ - The Post
>in the boys locker room I stared a lot
>my favorite artists where david bowie and queen
>I would always give death eyes when someone said some homophobic shit
>>5367911
>in the boys locker room I covered myself and looked at the ground
>my least favorite artists were queen and the beatles
>I would always zone out when someone said homophobic shit to me
I was a repressed tranny tho
>>5356882
I got a bar of soap stuck in my ass and cut my legs shaving, in the same night.
>>5356882
>wasn't into sports
>had a lot of female friends
>zero girlfriends
>gay porn in search history
but i mean, those really started later in my life (high school/late middle school) and not necessarily in my childhood.
i had a pretty standard childhood; even had some crushes on girls. but nothing in my or my parents' mind that should have raised any red flags.
I would start crying if my dad said something homophobic... because I'm a very passionate LGB ally.
Absolutely nothing.
That's why they treated me so shitty when I told them I was gay.
>>5358797
you can thank this woman for making pink a girl colour forever
Cried in the bathroom in middle school after developing a crush on a female teacher. Parents were Christians. I thought I was going to hell.
Years later I've finally fucked a woman for the first time and my parents have no clue.
I had an unhealthy obssession with falic objects. Once my mom was defrosting a big 15 inches sausage for lunch. I started to rub the sausage up and down and squeeze it.
> mom: what are you doing, anon?
> me: i love to hold the sausage between my hands...
She gave me this concerned "wtf have I birthed" look.
>>5356882
>learned to justify it by saying "of course, that's where all the girls are!"
>>5356882
Loved boy toys and boy clothes and in kindergarden while playing with the girls i always played as a boy (i.e. being a father or a brother while playing house, being a thief and a girl usually was my "girlfriend," we "kissed" and shit)
During highschool i sucked at sports but loved watching football, ufc, boxing, loved violent action movies
Hated femenine things in general and always spoke up for gay rights, hanged out with guys mostly, was very good at drawing and mostly drew naked women (not in sexual poses or anything), was generally all flirty and gentlemanly around girls
I'm an out of the closet femme lesbian now but either mom was in denial or blind
>>5364550
>How does your dad deal with you being a lesbian?
He wasn't happy. For some reason mom and dad believe lesbians come from rape so at first he thought I must've been molested or something and wanted to know who did it so ya know kill him and all. But nope never raped/molested.
Then he just kept lecturing me on it, not rape bs, just how I needed to do something about it, try to find a good man and all that but then I cried a little and he dropped it cause I'm the spoiled daddies girl.
Now he's cool with it. He likes my gf and anyone else says shit about it he does this "hey she's not a whore like your daughter" or is just generally intimidating enough that no one says shit to begin with.
Also have a cousin that always said I'd be gay. Like before I even knew what a lesbian was he'd call me the little lesbian and ask if I had a girlfriend yet. I used to think it was cause I went to an all girls middle school program and he liked to give everyone shit. But other cousins my age went to all girls schools and he never teased them over it. In fact he'd usually tease them saying their moms sent them to all girls cause they were worried they'd be sluts. Then after I was out he just kept on with the same lesbian jokes as always.
>>5356959
>wore sports bra only until mom forced me to wear a real one
my feelings you bastard
