Who /liftingthesadnessaway/ here?
How are my bros holding up?
>>36558200
Too sad to lift, brahs
how do I into lifting my feelings away
>>36558213
lift angry
>>36558228
Not able to get angry on demand because I keep it bottled up all the time
Im not trying to be obstinate thats just whats up with me
>>36558200
>/liftingthesadnessaway/
Always feel better after lifting. I've been prone to depression the last ten years because of huge problems with perfectionism, insecurity and procrastination. Been diagnosed with ADD two months ago and put on dexamfetamine. Feel better/easier to do things but it fucks with my appetite. No hunger. Ever. At all.
>she just texted me Im not the guy she's looking for
God dammit, I must be fucking autistic or something
>>36558243
I feel you
it helps that I'm a bit of an aspie and deviating from a routine (weightlifting being a part of a daily routine) I feel awful and can't placate the feeling until I go to the gym
as for you, have you not gone to the gym before? or have you just not been for a while?
>>36558293
aside from being qt, what were some qualities you liked about her?
>>36558293
Answer ''lel what are you a lesbian?
pls respond''
>>36558293
at least you know now.
>live with girl for 1.5 years
>everything perfect
>lift together
>cook together
>one day she wakes up and decides shes not in love with me anymore
>needs space so she can find out who she is
>she left 2 months ago and took the cats
>still tries to be my friends
>sends texts every now and then like "im drunk and crying and i miss you so much."
>came by yesterday to pick up her mail and she left a note "I <3 you" and signed her name
>does all this shit but wont get back with me
>dont know how to feel
>just continuing to lift to increase my chances at finding a pretty girl to replace her
>>36558298
>started going at the beginning of last summer
>stopped going when dad's drinking problem got worse and he went to hospital a couple times as as result
>haven't gone to the gym for about 6-7 months
I really should go back to get out of the house because shits even more fucked up since then; ever since he got out of rehab he had his friend who also got out of rehab come move in with us
then they started drinking again so now I have two drunks living with me
>tl;dr: most of the reasons why I stopped lifting are now the same reasons I should go back
>>36558315
Thats obviously not her in the pic, probably nothing. I just wanted to fuck her and be done with her. She really wasnt that interesting at all and didnt stood up for herself when talking to me when I disagreed.
God Im bored with dating tinder girls
>>36558200
If I lift enough will I be loved?
>>36558341
You know what to do bro, get rid of her. She is a fucking succubus to you man, she doesnt want you but she still wants your attention. Fuck that shit bro
>>36558365
Probably not. True story.
>>36558341
>>>36558293
>at least you know now.
>>live with girl for 1.5 years
>>everything perfect
>>lift together
>>cook together
>>one day she wakes up and decides shes not in love with me anymore
>>needs space so she can find out who she is
>>she left 2 months ago and took the cats
>>still tries to be my friends
>>sends texts every now and then like "im drunk and crying and i miss you so much."
>>came by yesterday to pick up her mail and she left a note "I <3 you" and signed her name
>>does all this shit but wont get back with me
>>dont know how to feel
>>just continuing to lift to increase my chances at finding a pretty girl to replace her
Fucking go no contact dude stop hurting yourself, she's wanting attention but nothing else.
>>36558365
>before /fit/
kv
after /fit/
kv in a new shirt size
at least it's fun. if you have a good personality you shouldn't have issue with picking up a qt. good luck anon
>>36558373
I know. I dont talk to her. I dont reply to those texts but her mail still comes here. Shes changing her address once she gets the apartment shes looking at. Then i wont talk to her.
>>36558344
Well, go back then.
You have your reasons.
I know that it seems hard at first, but as soon as you lay down on that bench and unrack that bar, all your troubles melt away.
Start light though, a 6-7 month hiatus will have robbed you of strength.
>>36558365
>Before /fit/
Kissless virgin
>After /fit/
Kissless virgin in tighter pants
>>36558411
agreed on starting light. you're not going to be beginner str (muscle doesn't melt away that fast), but it's going to be significant decrease from where you were half a year ago
>>36558411
>>36558432
I'm just afraid of ruining my back with squats/diddlylifts because I have some kind of lower back deviation and it hurts sometimes as a result
I hear that stretches will help and squats/diddlylifts too to strengthen the back muscles but then I also hear that they can fuck your shit up if you're not careful. I guess just low weight and good form is the way to go?
>>36558447
yup. no more excuses anon. take it slow but still put some work in
if you need it, check out inversion tables
>>36558447
You can (almost) never fuck your shit up with low weight and good form. Plus if depression is a problem, banging out a few clean reps does wonders for self confidence, even if starting at a low weight.
>>36558397
>at least it's fun. if you have a good personality you shouldn't have issue with picking up a qt. good luck anon
I have couple really longtime friends, I guess there is at least something likable about me. I will do my best anon.
>>36558365
If nothing its worth a shot.
Related: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9mbp0DugfCA
>>36558717
Was that Conan O'Brien in that video?
>>36558341
you and I are much alike anon
> be me and my girl of 2.5 yrs.
> living together, lift together, fuck like animals
> get one cat, then another
> realize I dont love her but try and work shit out anyway
> it doesn't work out, no surprise there
> she kicks me out of hte apartment I was paying rent for and keeps the cats
> none of it is even up for discussion
> be me now, broke alone and no cats
> guess I will just lift until another qt loves me
why is life so hard m8s
>>36558773
yeah. The guy who made it works with him on the Conan Obrien show.
>>36558200
Pretty bad bro.
Injured my back at work so haven't lifted for 6 months due to back pain every morning. That said I am planning to start again tomorrow.
Realised I have drunk alcohol every day for the past 3 months.
Considering going on antidepressants.
Can't get over the death of my dog. He was my only true friend, I neglected him because I was a lazy fatty and now he's gone. I'm just going to lift and cut until I'm not fat anymore and then probably kill myself.
>>36558799
oh man I'm afraid this will happen to me.
>together with girl for 3.5 years now
>living together for 1 year
>we've got some cats for 6 months. Amazing animals, very beatiful and great character.
>I can't get along with gfs parents at all, they're very old. She has no siblings.
>Father is 73, the most passive person I've ever seen. Says nothing for a whole evening.
>Mother is undiagnosed ADHD, talks about herself only for the whole evening. Doesn't ask anyone how they're doing etc.
>I can't fucking stand them.
>I started lifting and eating better. GF only gains weight.. she's getting flabby.
>She tries to lose weight but is very inconsistent with her choices. (buys 'healthy' honey cornflakes; can't eat peas without mayo)
>I lose 5 kg on a cut in 2 months. She loses 2kg. 2 weeks later she's back at her starting weight.
>Right now she's on vacation with her parents in a subtropical country. I didn't want to go because I can barely stand an evening with them, let alone 2 weeks.
>Not sure what I'm supposed to do. We're ok right now but don't know if we'll be like this on the long term.
I know from past relationships, back in high school, that I regret breaking up within the month.
>>36558906
you people are literally carrying dead weight
why make yourself suffer with a partner you dont even like?
>>36558897
I'm sorry anon. what was your dog's name?
>>36558799
nah fuck that son. I kicked her out once she said we were breaking up. I pay for it so she sure as shit isnt living there. I let her keep the cats just because she works at a vet and i am gonna travel a lot. I need to get laid soon though. Been almost 3 months. Longest dry streak is 9 months and im really afraid its gonna be that long again.
>>36558856
just do it anon, I promise you that you'll feel awesome once you have your hands on the barbell. also, I'd avoid the antidepressants as they can cause weight gain
>>36558919
the sex is good and its nice to have a companion. People vent on /fit/ or to other people about all the bad things. Rarely do the good thigns get mentioned. Most people just want to "talk it out" or get it off their chest.
Gona try to do 2pl8 bench before socializing again.
>started with just the bar mid january
>almost 3 months for almost 1 pl8 bench.
;/
>>36558956
no, the sex is just guaranteed
dont settle for scraps, you clearly arent happy.
>>36558927
Geronimo.
>>36558799
Falling out of love is horrible. I wouldve rather never experienced it desu.
>tfw the girl that I like only talks to me unless she has to
>tfw the only time we go out is to buy her food
>tfw idk what i'm lifting for anymore
>practically non-existent to her in public
should I cut her off?
>>36558982
Better to have loved and lost rather than to have never loved at all. Lifes about experience and learning, else it wouldnt be called living now would it ?
>>36558293
maybe she could sense that youre one of those guys that would post pictures of her on some weird websites full of pedophiles
>>36558980
kek, i-i mean sorry for your loss
>>36558341
Here's what you do me
Get a dog
He'll do everything your gf did, apart from fuck you, and he'll love you erryday
>>36558980
that's a really cool name. you should workout for geronimo. when you're fit, get another dog and love him just as you did the old one. geronomio would appreciate that I think, you bringing love and happiness to another dog's life
>>36558919
I'm carying some weight, not dead weight. In turn, she's carrying some my weight of course.
I'm just talking about what bothers me in the relationship, sometimes I wonder if it's worth it all. If I couldn't do better in some way. I'm just not sure if I want this for the rest of my life.
>tfw still dream about my ex despite breaking up with her over a year ago cos she was a cunt
I've just been pretty lonely since then desu.
>>36559003
learn to read fucking filenames you fucking newfag
>>36559056
get rid of the anchor. they are only dragging you down. dont live the rest of your life TOLERATING someone you dont even really like.
that's a waste. you can do better.
>>36558970
nah literally the sex is amazing.
>>36559064
Same except three years....
And she goes to my uni. MFW
>>36559026
i really wish i could
>live in apartment that doesnt allow dogs
>i travel a lot so id have to kennel the dog a lot
>id feel bad keeping it crated for 10 hours a day while im at work.
>relation of 5 year ends
>she's away poppin pills and fucking guys
>i'm here working on thesis and cramming for exams
>only peace is the 2 hours of lifting and post-lift bliss
fuck you L you didn't deserve me at all
>>36558243
Find something that makes you angry. I'm a very jealous man and that jealousy turns into anger pretty quick. Great for gains tho desu senpai
>>36558897
Dont kill yourself m8. Sorry about your dog.
>>36559082
so you are going to be miserable for 95% of your day because 5% of it (sex) is great
brilliant logic
well, enjoy being miserable then. cause the sex cancels out all that other stuff. or, you could date a new girl who isnt annoying as fuck AND is fun to sleep with.
>>36559107
Thanks. It's been almost 3 years and I'm still depressed.
If you workout for girls or for someone to love you, you're not gonna make it bro.
I'm sick as shit. Sore throat, nose draining, slight fever, feel extremely weak. Can't even talk without it feeling like a million flaming dicks in my throat, let alone lift ='(
>tfw 2nd date with qtp2t on Thursday
Any medbros have tips on getting better by Wednesday?
>>36559115
I get that. You ever considered that it might not just be the death of Geronimo that's making you sad? You cant bring him back, but you can fix the other parts of your life.
>>36559134
Not a medbro but oregano tea is a great natural remedy for a sore flaming dick throat. Obviously sweeten it with honey/agave nectar/sugar to taste
if you have a fever and feel weak you probs shouldn't be lifting though
>>36559145
It's probably other stuff, too, you are right about that.
>>36559087
I just need to meet someone new, but every time I get a sense that a girl likes me I sperg out hard
>>36559153
Thanks for the advice. I've been doing tea pretty consistently. I've also taken the week off lifting. It would be pretty useless anyhow. Walking is tiring, let alone squatting.
>>36559173
I mistyped/misread
you shouldn't be dating; reschedule. Or get her to come over to your place and bring you hot soup and you guys can "netflix n chill", if youre that far along with her by now
Yep. The gym is the only place I feel safe and in control.
>>comfy job working custodial at a university, $16/h guaranteed shifts, benefits and free tuition once I made fulltime
>>living at home for no rent, making fucking bank
>>get internet gf
>>decide we wanna be together, she talks me into moving to her state instead of her moving to me
>>do it because it sounds exciting and interesting and I wanted to leave home and see the world
>>leave behind my job, my friends, my family, only take my cat and my computer and my clothes
>>once I move in she gets mean, starts guilt tripping me about money immediately
>>my savings start dwindling, she wants to go on expensive vacations and live like rich people even though I can't afford it
>>couple of years go by, all my savings are gone, working some shitty part time contract job living paycheck to paycheck
>>gf is abusing me, refuses to buy me food so I have to go on food stamps
>>food stamps cut to $14/mo for some reason so I have to steal food to survive while my gf is putting thousands and thousands into the bank every month
>>too poor to move out and live alone, can't go homeless because my cat would die and he's all I have left
>>dread coming home from work everyday because gf is there ready to scream at me for things that aren't my fault
My best friend got me a gym subscription for a year at this gym near where I live and I spend 2 hours everyday there just doing fuckall and hiding from my gf. My physique is nice now I guess but I would trade it for peace of mind. Don't let it happen to you brehs, always have a backup plan and remember that red flags are red flags no matter how hopeful you want to be about the future. If you think "well she'll be nicer once I have X or Y" then you should just fucking end it while you still can.
>don't really care about girls that much anymore after years of rejection and feels
>just focused on my mental, physical, and personality gains
am I finally making it?
>>36559193
She is coming over. We are cooking dinner then netflix/chill. That being said, I got sick Saturday night so I feel like there is a decent chance of me getting better by Thursday if I play my cards right.
>>36559210
Breh if its because of her guilt tripping you why dont you just stop giving a fuck and don't give her shit? Also is it possible for you and your cat to move in with some family for a while? If you explain your situation they'll probably be okay with it
>>36559210
pls dont be real
>>36559235
well have you gotten yourself a gf yet?
>>36559210
lmao your such a little fucking pussy
>used to work at a retail store 2 years ago
>had a harem of girl coworkers
>3 of them were really hot country cuties
>we would go fishing together, go to bonfires, all the fun stuff
>start dating different girl
>she doesnt like me having "work wives"
>got a big boy office job when we started dating
>stopped hanging out with work wives because when gf and them met it didnt go so well
>fast forward 2 years
>broke up with gf 2 months ago
>get in contact with my favorite work wife
>shes really cool but has a boyfriend of like 6 years now
>gonna hang out thursday for first time in a long time
>kinda hoping she broke up but doubt it
>really just want a fishing friend and someone to hang out with this summer
>not sure why im typing this, im just lonely and want more friends
>>36559210
Fuck
That's nightmare stuff
>>36559248
Nah I moved 3000 miles away from my family. I thought she loved me and it would be okay. I can't afford to move back now. At any rate my parents split up a year ago and both of them live in tiny apartments and I'd feel awful imposing on them with my stupid useless ass and my cat.
I can't just stop giving a fuck, if she dumps me and kicks me out I'm homeless or worse, I live on the couch and some nightmarish cuck porn scenario plays out where she brings home other autistic nerds to fuck in my old bed. I don't want to deal with any of those possibilities so I just grin and bare it for now.
you know, if you guys lifted for yourself and not pussy, maybe you wouldnt be so sad.
just a thought.
>>36559235
yes you are. be grateful and meditate as well, you'll move mountains. also look up ryan cropper on youtube for dem spirituality gains
>>36559280
>lmao i change my mind your a big fucking pussy
>>36558993
yes doesnt appreciate, she might when ur gone tho, true story
>>36559302
>>36559260
Fuck off m8s at least I'm not a virgin.
It's true though, I'm in this situation since I let her act shitty towards me and ignored the warning signs. She was like this when we were long distance too, giving me guilt-trip lectures whenever I went out with friends since spending money meant I was saving less for when I moved in with her. Obviously in retrospect it's fucking horrible but at the time I just thought it was sweet how affectionate she was being.
Take a stand brehs, don't be me.
>>36558341
She's keeping you as a standby.
Don't give her the fucking satisfaction.
>>36558993
If you dont see any chances there you should cut, you can make a try to get closer to her first anyways, if that diesnt work just move on, only can hurt you
>>36559280
Wait who's paying the rent for where you're staying? Is it your guilt trip money or does she pay for it? Also what about searching for another custodian job, if you get provided with accommodation it should be possible to move out, nah?
Bit off the ball, but dpes anyone else feel like they're wasting their life living up to other people expectations? It's a realisation I've had in the last couple of days and it's really hit me hard. I wouldn't post about it here but it's starting to get in the way of my cardio because it's literally all I can think about. I'm 21 and I've spent my whole life in education. Currently balls deep into a medical degree but the idea of working in and out of a hospital/gp practice is feeling a bit daunting. Thinking about maybe going with the MSF for a while instead or become an army doctor, but my gf would be fucking pissed.
Is it possible to have a quarter life crisis?
>>36559338
lol you seriously fucked up your life for a girl who doesn't even love you.
>>36559294
I never said I want to lift for pussy, breh
1/10 for making me reply
>>36558341
I fucking hate people who plays games, bitch wants you to chase her. Don't, and just fins someone who doesn't waste your time.
>>36559375
>Is it possible to have a quarter life crisis?
Sometimes I wonder the same thing but then I think I'd get an answer consisting of "heh fucking millennials when I was half your age I had two jobs and owned my own car that I paid for with my third job selling untaxed cigarettes for the mafia"
>>36559268
>im just lonely and want more friends
maybe there are some fitizens in your city.
Or just ask someone from work to hang out. Y'know that one guy/girl you don't hate and can have conversation with for a few minutes without faking too much.
>>36559026
>not fucking your dog
>>36559373
We're splitting it. And yeah I'm looking for jobs but it's tough to find similar ones in this part of the country, pretty much all of them are taken by hispanics around here. I am looking though, constantly, and teaching myself programming on the side. I'm gonna make it out of here eventually.
>>36558897
>tfw old age is starting to take a toll on dog and you slowly watch her become senile
>>36559375
>Thinking about maybe going with the MSF for a while instead or become an army doctor, but my gf would be fucking pissed.
A good friend of mine is in training for this right now, in the Netherlands. It sounds great, you get interesting training, see lots of places. You really have get your gf on board if you want to do that.. You'll be away for months at a time and that's not something everyone is able to deal with. Chances are that you'll break up after four months or so.
You're also stuck with this job for a long time and quiting means desertion. Breaking the law gets you into more shit. So consider if you'll get into shit with fights/drugs/speeding/idk.
>Is it possible to have a quarter life crisis?
Yes, but you're only 21, right now you still have the possibily to make these kind of choices and changes. Think about it now when that window of oppertunity is still open. Good luck man.
>5 years relationship with a 7/10 latina, everything is great, she almost worships me, she is smart, funny etc
>this last year we discussed several times but we found out that it was just lack of sex (we were very busy and doesnt live together)
>we fix that and keep going, everything looks good
>new discussions out of nowhere
>I propose to take a lil break, but after a week we start as fuckbuddys
>she wants to live together but i literally cant due paying uni and shitty payment on my job
>we end up breaking but keep talking (we ended in a good mood)
>after 2 weeks i realize i cant stay w/o her and ask her to come back, she tells me that she wants to but will not since we cant live together
>Several days later she tells me that she goes with a female friend to a trip,i make a joke about she getting a new guy and she answers "who knows"
>I get mad about it and we ended up discussing, havent talked since then (2 weeks ago)
I still love her and cant forget her, should i move on? Should i wait to see if she comes back? Going crazy about all this (sorry for my english, not english speaker)
>>36559375
>it's starting to get in the way of my cardio because it's literally all I can think about
I do the best cardio when I'm stressed. All I think of is how fucked I am and before I know it, I've ran a 5k.
>>36559430
Old people like that grate on me hard.
>>36559549
That sounds interesting, I don't suppose you'd know where I could find more information on it? If not, don't worry about it bro. Yeah, being the girl does make it a harder choice, so I'll see how its going when we get to that fork in the road. Who know, maybe she will have left me and thats my decision made!
Un/Fortunately I'm extremely plain, I don't think I've ever broken a law in my life, never even been caught speeding.
I realise I'm young, just got scared recently because so many people seem to just get into a routine and bam, ten years have gone by and their a wife and mortgage too late to change
>>36559598
I wish I was like that, because I'm super stressed a lot of the time. I usually feel better after the run, but during the run I tend to concentrate on my breathing otherwise I fuck up halfway through and then get pissed and its a downward spiral.
>>36559458
ive got friends but as im getting older we are growing apart.
>Best friend is a nurse who works crazy hours. still see him some
>Other best friend just moved 2500 miles away for the airforce
>childhood friend moved all the way up to maine
>was friends with exes friends but we dont speak anymore cause its kind of awkward
>college roommate is way too into yoga and lives 2 hours away but we still hang once a month
Theres two cool guys from work but they are 5 years older and dont seem to be looking for any friends to hang out with outside of work
I mostly just hang with sisters fiance. We used to landscape together but its awkward because my sister and i arent speaking right now.
>>36558906
>peas and mayo
what the fuck
>>36559375
Shit nigga, I'm on the same boat as you. Med school and all but no gf. I don't know what to do. I could drop dead tomorrow and feel nothing about it because I don't see a 'future me'. I look ahead and see nothing. I would love to say I want to finish this, them do this and so on but nothing makes the day shine no more. The greeks said it best: "it is best not to be born at all".
Hope you find your way, may God, reason or forces beyond understanding guide your thoughts and see the light. Peace be upon you.
>>36559087
>>36559168
I know that feel bro. My oneitis is with another, and I have to see her every day until June. It really hurts that I'm not going to be the one to hug her at graduation.
>>36558243
The way I get angry is to play a bullshit fifa match before hand. It always guarantees a new PR.
>>36559758
Yeah I know the feeling, its pretty tough. Everyone in the medical industry seems incredibly disenchanted with it and seems to hate it. Just doesn't seem to give me anything I can see myself doing for the rest of my life, day in, day out. But its been such a massive investment of time and money its foolish to back out now. Anyway bro, I'm off but thanks for the message. Hope you find your way too, I'll see you on the other side I guess. Peace be upon you as well.
>>36559658
>That sounds interesting, I don't suppose you'd know where I could find more information on it? If not, don't worry about it bro.
My friend just joined an navy doctors program after he got his basic doctors training done. He´s doin the training for the dutch army so I don´t think it´ll be much use for you. It probably differs a lot between countries. Just go to your country's army/navy/etc website and what kind of training they have, what percs you'll get, how long it will take and what's required etc.
The GF really depends on the situation of course. My friend and his gf were together for 8 years so it was steady as can be.
>I realise I'm young, just got scared recently because so many people seem to just get into a routine and bam, ten years have gone by and their a wife and mortgage too late to change
I know that feel, I realised it too late myself.. I'm stuck on a major I kinda like but don't have a real passion for.
Just sit down one afternoon, write down the pros and cons and see if it's a fit for you. If you're studying medicine right now, I'm sure there are more than enough other fields you can work in.
>>36559676
Sorry to hear that bro.
When I noticed that my old group of friend started growing apart (jobs, gf, uni etc), we decided to meet up every friday night. Of course this doesn't happen every friday but at least the question is raised once a week so it creates more opportunities to hang out.
Maybe that's something you could talk about with your nurse friend, seeing that he's still around.
As for your other (possible) friends, just try to hang out sometime with the guys you've never hung out with. Keep it short and simple, less chance to make it awkward. If it's allright just do it again a month later. If it sucked, at least you tried and you can move on.
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>200lbs down from damn near 400
>tryana lift my feels away for about a year now, decent gains, almost look like a regular human being
>tfw lose skin just fucks my shit up
>tfw depression at being fat has turned into depression at not being the best version of myself I can be
>tfw people tell me I'm a big guy 4 them, or athletic looking, or whatever, and I think they're fucking with me
>tfw have a very negative personality overall, probably come across as stuck up because I never want to talk to anyone unless it's absolutely required for schoolwork
>tfw almost never make small talk, because I assume that people don't want to interact with me
>tfw despite that, halfway charasmatic with people I'm close with.
>tfw still feel like the same omega loser fat fuck that I've always been
>tfw 21 year old kissless virgin
>tfw never try anything with any girls, even low-tier or fat ones
>they never liked me before, why would they start now?
you told me it would get better, fit.
when's it going to get better.
rollio
>>36560024
>from
You'll get there man I'm In the same boat on the weight droped from 280 to 230 I have the lose skin and all just keep it up that feeling is just you honestly people are not just ass holes for no reason.Your small talk could help a qt out never know.
>>36560024
We are the same brah, except I just started the lifting train and wasn't that fat. We're gonna make it, just gotta keep improving ourselves.
>senior year of hs
>get into lifting
>lose 45 pounds, put on a little muscle
>start to get over depression, get my life together
>work hard through the summer, make good money
>waking myself up 5:30 every morning, doing physical work
>summer ends, off to freshman year of college
>everything good, depression is gone, finally kiss a girl
>start missing gym, blowing things off so I'm free to hang out with her
>grades start dropping, I'm more interested than she is, she gradually cuts contact
>finish semester with two D's, depression is back
>back for winter semester, clear slate
>meet a super cute girl who's into me, we hit it off
>not lifting, eating poorly, depression and anxiety is at an all time high
>basically nocturnal, sleeping 14 hours a day, only time I'm happy is when I'm talking to her
>she's always busy and a terrible texter
>never really defined the relationship, she ends up going on dates with my friend
>defensive as hell when I tell her she doesn't have to talk to me if she doesn't want to (she'd not responded to like 4 texts)
>always happy and flirty when we do chat, mixedsignals.jpg
>far enough behind I can't pass two of my classes, doing poorly in the other ones
>finally start talking to my parents again, decide everything is bad enough to withdraw for the semester
>come home to a new house (parents moved) in an area with practically nobody my age with zero friends
>girl stopped replying to my texts, friends from school and back home don't talk to me anymore
>working full time in a lumber mill, constantly tired, parents disappointed, eating my parent's cooking again and gaining weight
>gym in town doesn't have barbells
THE RIDE NEVER ENDS
I just want to get my depression dealt with so I can function normally at school, but I'm just constantly tired and feel like crying even though I can't. Don't have a way to source gear either, and I feel like I'm going to pass out every time I lift after work.
I just miss talking to girls.
>>36560024
>>tfw have a very negative personality overall, probably come across as stuck up because I never want to talk to anyone unless it's absolutely required for schoolwork
>>tfw almost never make small talk, because I assume that people don't want to interact with me
>>tfw despite that, halfway charasmatic with people I'm close with.
Sounds exactly like me around your age.
Your issues are something internal, obviously some self image stuff. Changing external things like your appearence can help a bit but won't resolve it all. Seeking proffessional help might be an option. If you're in uni there's usually a psychologist you can talk to. Or maybe try opening up to a family member or friend. If there one thing I learned in the last few years it's that there's always someone willing to listen and help you, but you've got to ask. They can't read your mind.
Hope this helps a bit. Great job on the weight loss btw, at least you'll have that.
Become Nihilists you faggots, you don't have any room for being sad once you do
>>36560340
>THE RIDE NEVER ENDS
It does, Anon. Make it worth your while.
Seek help, seriously. Talk to your parents, go to a doctor, get a therapist. Make sure it's not only pills, you've got some stuff to deal with.
When you're at it, try cardio, it's the most effective thing against depression.
Last thing, try getting out of your social isolation. This is a slow proces but keep at it. Talking to no one isn't good for you.
>>36558464
>no more excuses anon
This so much for everything in life..
Dont make excuses, just do it. Approach that girl, start studying for that test in two weeks, start doing that assignment that is due.
Dont make excuses, if you can make excuses to not do it then is it something you really want to do??
>loser in HS
>cheerleader somehow starts liking me out of nowhere
>we become bf/gf but realize that she's the one in control of reltaionship but go along with it since it's first time someone likes me
>always takes me everywhere, actually feels like she does love me but always wait for it to be a huge joke
>we get to senior year and start talking about going to college together and get an apt together
>first yr of college together and it's going well , out of nowhere she goes back home
> her parents and her don't want me to see her
>stay in school hoping she will just show back up always try calling, she only texts me from now on
> always fighting now not knowing what to do thinking it finally happened and it was a big joke..always angry thinking she is getting fucked by chad laughing at me
>goes on for months when finally she calls and breaks it off , call back # and it's a hospital
>hospital told not to let me see her, escorted off premises
>months go by and nothing
>another call and again she starts arguing wtih me.....before hanging up she says "You'll always be an asshole."
>can't reach her again at all
>few days later her parents call me and say she passed away due to muscle dystrophy and I'm not allowed to her funeral.
I've been going to the gym just because I think if I can add 5lbs to the bar that maybe she's would get stronger wherever she is.
>Get rejected again
>Settle for sex with someone I didn't want, feel dirty and empty
>Career going nowhere, feel alone and unfulfilled at work every day
>String of injuries, not going to have a successful cut for summer
>Getting plastered and blowing money in the bar scene no longer fun, but I have no idea what to replace it with
>Not much money, hours I work makes it hard to get into new things.
>Teetering on the edge of full on cocoon mode, which seems depressing as fuck but what other options do I have?
>>36560683
>>hospital told not to let me see her, escorted off premises
>>months go by and nothing
>>another call and again she starts arguing wtih me
Did you leave out the part where you fucking asked why she was in hospital?
>>36560718
>>Settle for sex with someone I didn't want
>bar scene
>"edge of cocoon mode"
lol
>>36559100
you made the right choice
>>36560738
I get that those may sound like contradictions, but I'm starting to realize all my "bros" I hung out with and got drunk with are douches. I don't have much success with women usually. The way I pictured having "fun" is actually terrible - total waste of time and money. So what's left if my social circle is collapsing? Total self indulgence? I don't want to be lonely, but I don't want go on like this either.
>>36560718
I mean, at least you got laid. I'm in the same boat except I literally never have sex.
>>36560719
I couldn't get anything out of the hospital or from her family just to stay away and leave "THEM," Alone.
I was left in the dark the entire time. She never brought up anything when she texted and honestly I was just so happy that she texted again that I didn't care to ask.
>>36560788
That's very interesting and everything but you specifically said you finally were on a call again
How was your first question not WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED? How did you even get into an argument in that situation
Fuck, man
>>36560718
>>36560781
I'm in the same boat except I'm unemployed, live at home, and replace "bar scene" with "smoking weed"
I pretty much ended up living cocoon except I'm too lazy to get my ass back to the gym (so far)
>>36559134
Been lifting feeling like metal is in my throat due to being sick and fucking welding, literally cough up these little round scabs from my throat.
Go pick some shit up.
how do people even go to bars alone
seems depressing
>>36560881
Oregano tea, cunt
it'll soothe your throat up a little
>>36559210
That will never happen to me because I'm not a stupid fucking cuck. Really though, think over those words and realize they match you EXACTLY. That is your title, fucking do something about it.
>>36559338
>i completely fucked my life chasing some dumb slut, but at least I'm not a virgin
whatever helps you sleep at night, cuck.
she's sleeping with chad while you're at work, guaran-fucking-teed
>>36560718
Take up meditation
>>36560407
Thanks anon, I'm trying. Got a counselor I've been seeing, I think I just gotta get over my self hatred.
The social isolation is tough since I'm in a vacation town where only 1/3 of the homes are full time occupants, but there's been a qt at the gym I've been meaning to talk to, so who knows.
And at least I've got the borderline neo-nazi former hell's angel and the wannabe Bruce Lee kid to talk to at work, so it's not total isolation. And all you fags <3
>>36561004
Happy to hear you've got someone to talk to.
If I may give one more tip: don't focus on girls in the first place. When you're getting out of a depression it's most important to build a solid base for your life. Try to get some hobbies, try seeing some friends regularly (or try making some friends, or stick with the nazi and bruce lee), play some sports, whatever. If you've got your shit sorted, girls will come. If you let your wellbeing be decided by how much pussy you get, you'll either be dissapointed in yourself (if it doesn't work out) or dependend on it.
At least, that's how I went at it. I slowly got my 'factory of life' going, half year later I met girl.
Good luck anon.
>>36559103
Whenever I lift angry all my rage gets deflected at myself and how shitty my lifts are and I leave depressed
Now I just drink like 3 cups of coffee pre workout and bump some smash mouth
I'll probably never make it, feelsbadman
>>36561876
You need to listen to some D-BLOCK!!!!!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gdGczo9Kzqo
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xnlWJYzKsDw
>>36558982
I agree mate - she was a hell of a girl
> based dinner waiting for me every night after I kill my PPL split
> stellar ass, my high test jesus H Christopher
> 8/10 only bc non genuine smile
> actually smart af, good grammar, taught me a hell of a lot. Engineer
idk m8s I just lost the love I had for her at somep[oint.
she turned out to be a vindictive petty bitch though so I feel like a dodged a bullet there. desu
> no matter how cool, down to earth, how much they spoil you or how great a body they have always remember anon: Somewhere there is a man that is sick of her shit.
>>36558906
honestly bro I frealized she wasn't for me when I woke up one day thoguth about waht comes next... engagement... and I realized I just didn't want to be with her for hte rest of my life. Better get out of it sooner rather than later if that is the case desu senpai
>>36558938
I was so ready to gtfo i let her keep whatever she bitched about.
Fucked a rando this past weekend doe, was mehh desu didn't make me feel anybetter
>>36561953
>honestly bro I frealized she wasn't for me when I woke up one day thoguth about waht comes next... engagement... and I realized I just didn't want to be with her for hte rest of my life. Better get out of it sooner rather than later if that is the case desu senpai
I'm still on the fence about that man. She's on the other side of the world right now. I'm staying here with the cats.
It's a good oppertunity to figure out if I like life better with or without her I guess.
Next step for us would prob be kids. Marriage isn't that much of a thing here anymore. I love kids but I'm not sure if I'd want them with her.
aw fuck man. I've got some thinking to do. Looks like you've made the right choice in the end, happy to see that. Good night anon.
>tfw penis is 5.5 inches
I don't know what to do, senpai. I just want to end it all.
>>36562470
Git gud at foreplay, fagtron
>>36560718
Go to the library and pick up a book, learn something or anything about the world or yourself. Good luck to ya man.
>>36562504
Explains why grills never want the sex, tbqhwu senpai...
All they want is the foreplay until they cum then no more of me.
>tfw will never be able to have bigger penis.
>>36559100
Lots of love bruh. Shit will get better.
>>36559064
the dreams are the worst
>I didn't want this feel
>stop making me feel this feel
>pay off my brand new car
>going back to college to be a mechanical engineer
>have thousands in the bank
>have a clear goal of where I want to be in 5 years.
>everyone in my family is proud of me and tells me so
>failing my classes right now for no good reason
>still live with parents at 24
>friends moved away to med school or started families and rarely contact me anymore
>kv but that doesn't really bother me
>feel like shit every day because of depression and the crippling regret of my past actions
>School won't update transcripts
>Licensing board won't accept credits on transcript until it says "degree such and such"
>I'm supposed to be starting work at my gym
>Everyday go and have to feel the burning shame of not being able to work there, as I'm not licensed to practice yet.
>Everyone so friendly and chill about it
>I just want to make a paycheck
>Savings dwindling
>Minor strain in my Teres Minor
>Doomed to cardio/legs/and a few upper body lifts that don't hurt my shoulder any more.
Fug. Someday I'll have a job I spent two years studying and working hard for.
>>36563192
Good on you.
What's a >kv
>>36563259
kissless virgin, it's more of a r9k term
>>36558200
>Tfw ex moved back into town
>Tfw she texted me on my birthday yesterday
>Tfw i responded to her
I'm mad at myself, all this "we might be friends" bullshit didn't work out when we broke up and it doesn't know.
>failed out of university last semester
>attend community college now
>live with parents, no job still
>afraid i'll take too long to graduate, not get into good enough school, fail again
>talk to some girls in class, but don't care about them
>only care about myself & family
>only thing going for me right now is gains, gym is the best place in the world
currently looking for a job.
>tell girl we may not be friends anymore after confessing feelings
>says she doesn't want a relationship right now
>she starts crying. Gets really depressed they next few days, says she's been drinking every night.
> texts me at 2 am saying she is fucking furious with me.
> feel bad, don't like seeing her like this. I rekindle friendship.
>had a movie night at my place. We're both happier.
Was this a smart move?
>>36558200
Not good
I fucked up my last semester and now I'm on probation. I started the second semester pretty well, but the depression is getting to me again. I had 3 test last week and I think I failed all of them. Also I hate my major (accounting) the only reason why I picked it was because it's better than going into marketing or business admin.
I'm also feeling a lot more lonely. I go to a new school now and I don't know anyone here. I haven't really made any friends because I suck at socializing and connecting with people.
The little friends I have now are fading away from my life. I'm guessing in the next few years I will have 0 friends to be with.
Also no gf makes me feel like a fucking sad cunt. I tend to pretty much "fall in love" with any girl that shows me attention now, but I never act on it because I know she will say no. ffs I fell in love with a lesbian classmate whos in a ldr.
My life is a mess sometimes lifting doesn't even take the pain away.
but you know I haven't killed myself yet, so I guess theres that.
>>36558341
If it makes you feel better I got this from the girl of my dreams who was my gf during senior year of hs
>"I care about you but I don't want to see you rn."
>almost a year since break up
>not a single day not thinking about her
>she was married
>she was literally perfect wife material
>either way, it had to end one day
life is suffering.
nothing is forever, always remember that bros
>>36558993
Yep. She's taking advantage of you. You lift to get physically strong, anon, but don't neglect your inner strength.
>>36558293
imelda?
